September 05, 2009
September 01, 2009
Looking back.
I need a new one. I cannot survive with this cause it’s getting really hang-y. Irritating sia!
So anyway, I still cannot accept the fact that my blog is likewise. It’s like, sad to the max! My hard work on editing the codes is gone. Although I didn’t created it but codes is difficult for me. I hate codes and I try to avoid them as much as possible.
I’ve been staying up late for the past few days. Really late ones were 4am. Crazy I know. I have no idea what I was doing. Oh wait, I do. I was watching Dermaga Seni Pusaka and Tedja Timur videos at YouTube. You should watch. It’s like, really nice!
Okeh in other words, I was watching kuda kepang again. I was bored, though it was 2am already.
On a little sadder note, it’s 1st September again. In other words, it’s been 8 years.
Been a long time but lets try it again.
One
Moving slowly
Stopping suddenly
Lost.
August 27, 2009
Rubbish
I give up on blogger. It's getting really messed up and nonsensical as days go by. ):
Might be changing to WP/LJ. We'll see. Else I'll just stop blogging and write instead.
Other than that:
August 26, 2009
August 21, 2009
One month!
I was about to type Eid Mubarak, then I realised it’s the wrong term. Wto.
Salam Ramadhan to all Muslims.
August 19, 2009
Hope a goner.
Everyone saw me laughing at my every downfall. But nobody knows that the heart is breaking every second. Nobody but me.
August 18, 2009
Some comfort here.
Meet a friend of my friend who is also my friend’s friend.
I spent a total of 7 hours doing Biology, Physics and History.
I feel so clever all of a sudden. (:
But I know I’m clever. I believe!
So anyway, been quite some time since I spend a very long and quiet time for me to contemplate on whatever is on my mind. There’s time to do them, but I end up sleeping. I’m that tired every single day. But it’s okeh! 9 weeks till O levels and we are so so done with all the crap!
I think..
I still am confuse on aorta and don’t know what valves. I know my heart pumps blood. Why can’t we just stop there?
Half hour of study and then I’m off to dream land.
I brought camera to school today. So happy.
Will upload pictures at Facebook some day. (:
Till then, consider this blog dead. Check out twitter at the side instead. It’s update almost every single hour. But if you sense weirdness, then it’s probably not me tweeting.
Person 1: Dumb.
Person 2: You’re dumber.
Person 1: She’s dumbest. *stares at person 3*
Person 3: Eh frog!
(Selenge Bacen) square is so loved. LOLs.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
August 16, 2009
My prayer.
Into the sunset of your glory, where my heart and future lies.
There’s nothing like that feeling, when I look into your eyes. <3
I think I’m getting myself a place at Andalus next year! Happy to the max!
Sweet Love
Toodles.
August 15, 2009
August 13, 2009
Help me someone.
I know I have something better to do. But I seriously cannot believe I’m watching culture X, alone. It’s PG god damn it!
Okeh dah. I’m sleepy to the max and I have no idea how to do Biology. Screw aorta and whatever veins lah.
I miss my maternal Granny. ):
Sweet Love
Toodles.
August 11, 2009
Never.
At the rate I’m doing my homework and the number of questions I can answer, I don’t know how I can even pass O level. Oh make that Prelim 2.
My immune system is getting really horrible. Fever, headache and flu is becoming my daily companion. Crap lah crap!
Sweet Love
Toodles.
August 09, 2009
August 08, 2009
Fantastic.
I was browsing at Twitter when I saw:
Okeh so, my huge congratulations to these 4 people below for getting an A!
***
There’s a burden in my head and it’s making me wide awake. I need some rest.
Sweet Love
Toodles
August 07, 2009
Mental.
Four years of studying in a school filled with love and care, we have learned a lot of new knowledge and go through experiences that cannot be repeated. Not only do we have knowledge that can be used in the future, we made friends whom we learnt to trust. Friends we will remember for life. This curtain of memories is made with love and friendship of four long, yet memorable, years.
***
I feel like crap today. Just a totally sudden change of mood.
From very high to very low.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
August 06, 2009
August 04, 2009
My heart.
Nothing better.
It’s a shame that you can’t answer when I’ve told you everything.
I refuse to believe that everything happened cause I said so. I refuse to believe that I’m at fault for everything that happened.
I refuse to know.
Whatever is possible.
***
I bought 3 books from Kinokuniya on Sunday. It’s like very super addictive!
Sweet Love
Toodles.
August 02, 2009
Somewhenever.
Meat my friend.
Okeh dah. Enjoy while I stress over Linear Law and EMaths practice paper.
I cannot wait to go DPIA. I don’t know why.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
August 01, 2009
After all.
I got dumped at home with homework. Tension headache is back and I cannot take it.
I need a little proper laugh. I need a little smile.
It’s messed up. For I-don’t-know-how-many times.
July 28, 2009
Moving on.
I’m so super happy cause I know how my name is spelled in Arab!
Nawshad!
And the most incredible thing was, I survived today’s class.
Irritatingly, she keeps asking me to do things for her. Oh wait, she has no idea that I’m sick. Oh double wait, since when does she care?
July 27, 2009
Be better.
I need MC, medicine, sleep, at least a day away from homework and studies. Most importantly, I need to make sure I’m in class to catch up with all my school work and everything.
I almost fall in the toilet just now. Haiyaaaaaaaa!
July 26, 2009
One day.
People are getting so super stereotypical.
Almost every person I met is filled with criticism towards me when I said I intend to continue DPI Andalus.
I met someone today who says that whatever we do, do it for ourselves and God. Don’t let anyone stop you.
Nawaitu. (:
The table will turn one day.
I’m going to be there.
***
People keep asking me why there isn’t any paracetamol in a first aid kit. WTHeck.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
July 25, 2009
The best RHD.
I had the best Racial Harmony Day this year with these people. (:
I’m going to miss celebrating occasions in secondary school; WRS. But like every other year, I didn’t have the chance to take picture with everyone that I know. I’m going to hunt for them during next celebration.
The best thing was, I finally got the chance to eat ondeh-ondeh. Happy to the max!
<3
Till then, I shall wait for National Day for next round of many pictures.
I miss 2e1 2007.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
July 23, 2009
July 20, 2009
I don’t know.
Be glad you’re seeing this.
Have you ever felt so super low and feel like crying for the entire day but you never really know the reason why?
I’m feeling like that.
I’m so bored and tired.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
Collide.
Sometimes I wonder, is it the skill or is it the Creator?
Okeh, I must admit. My hands are damn itchy that I just have to get online every single day without fail unless some people are, well you know. (:
What’s been up and about? Many things.
Lets just talk about one of it. Because I talk a lot.
My goodness, I think I should thank God that I have the patience. People are sometimes getting too religious that they forget relatives are part of religion too. They forget that Islam is not only about praying. Not only about getting yourself closer to Allah. It covers everything in life which includes being closer with all your relatives and not being stingy!
Sorry eh, my blog is getting a bit religious because I think people are getting the wrong idea. Not to mention how people are beginning classify Muslims in Singapore as Malays only. Hello, I have friends who are Chinese yet Muslim. So Hub Islam Singapura or Islamic Hub of Singapore?
I don’t mean to jadi orang yang sibuk, menyibuk dan disibukkan. But then what I’m stating is true.
Sorry eh, I’m talking about my own people here. If terasa, then I’ve got nothing to say.
If Perjumpaan Hari Raya is HARAM according to rukun, then I suggest you sit at home and not mix around. Even if you die, I wish you the best cause I know you’ve brought yourself closer to God through all your prayers. Zikir lah banyak-banyak dekat rumah tu.
If giving money to mosque is more afdhal, I suggest you donate all your money. Stay there too. Don’t bother about your relatives. Jangan lupe zikir dengan doa.
MY GOD!
Sometimes I wished that I should have spoken out loud. But I know who I am, I sedar diri lah okeh. 16 years of living, like as though any of those oldies would listen to what I say.
But really, if your idea of Islam is super wrong. I suggest you go to Admiralty, level 3.
Andalus awaits you.
Which reminds me that LPPI 4 is in December. GASPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
Sweet Love
Toodles.
July 12, 2009
July 09, 2009
Power.
Don’t ask me how many times I have watched this video because I didn’t count. It’s practically countless.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSl2CR4TrM0
Amazing how numbers can make shorten your life. Amazing how hitting by a little can cause you a life or more.
Amazing how people don’t really bother about anything at all.
At the very least, bother about the people around you cause they want to live even if you don’t.
Safety starts with me!
(Danger doesn’t start with me Fauzi, Alif and Nabila. So yes, I’m safe! (:)
Sweet Love
):)
Toodles.
Getting tired of it all.
Gonna keep smiling.
I keep telling myself, “It’s gonna be okeh. It always will.”
But I know it isn’t. It can never be.
And I know you won’t really care.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
July 01, 2009
Disturbing.
Jian De says:
*like for lol, its a head of a man raising his hands
*it has different meaning
*-.-, dash , fullstop , dash
Who says this guy doesn’t need a tight smack? Just because he is cute and adorable.
***
When people dream high, they wish they could fly.
I’ve been trying to make my dreams come true but by proving it to people. So I realize that all these while, it’s about others and never about me.
For once, I’m going to decide.
For once, I’m going to do the right thing.
For once, I’m going to do it for myself.
For once and forever, I’m gonna start believing.
And I’ve decided to follow my heart, which says “Hold on tight for a good ride.”
Now, where’s my motivational songs? (:
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 30, 2009
Who isn’t in debt?
For more than a year, I’ve been trying so hard to make sure I do so super well. But I guess it should all end right now because O level isn’t a time for me to see if I can make it for my future or not.
For me, personally and honestly, I wanted to stick to all my 7 subjects because of 2 reason.
First, I really honestly wanted to prove to Mommy that I can do 7 subjects. 2 of which wasn’t taken by either siblings at my age. I wanted to prove to them that I can do well for my O level just like how Sister did. I wanted to be someone that Mommy often talks about. I’m sick and tired of listening to Mommy telling me that Sister should be my role model. She did so well in this and that. She is so kind she is so nice. I want her to, for once, talk about me. And that is why I wanted to keep all 7 subjects and make sure that I do well.
Second, I didn’t want to waste the $43 that Daddy have paid. It’s not easy for him and I know that. He may be all smiles at home. All happy when he meets people. But I know that a day at work can drain him especially at such age. I know that delivering metals under the hot sun or the heavy rain isn’t easy and it never will be. $43 may look so small to some, but I know it isn’t.
I know I can always pay back that $43 once I work. But I also know that the value of $43 that he earns will never be comparable to the value of $43 that I’ll earn. Because I know that I have an education back ground and he doesn’t even have one. But he survived life the hard way, which I doubt I can if I were in his shoes.
I’m trying so hard. I’ve been telling myself this 2 reasons since last year and especially so after the payment is being made.
At the end of the day, I know I’m playing with my own future.
So guess what?
I’m gonna drop Additional Mathematics no matter what people may say. Cause I know, my future is my decision.
***
Yesterday was pretty relaxing for a school day in my 2009. It was nothing but FT periods. (:
H1N1 is spreading like crazy. The tight control of people going in and out of school makes us all look like prisoners. But at the very least, we can all feel safe with such a control.
Now, let me do my AMaths homework. ):
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 29, 2009
Guilt.
I wanted to blog about something super long and touchy (for me) but since I’m officially down with SLEEP-LATE-FLU, I give up on that. And not to forget that I have not even finish my holiday homework. Swear.
I hate flu. Urgh.
Sleep late, flu. Wake up early, flu. I mean, COME ON! I need a day without flu.
And I still can’t get over the fact that my Malay O Level Oral is on FRIDAY! Wtf. 3rd July 3rd July.
So now, let me continue with EMaths because there’s a lot of blanks in the paper. I think at this rate, I’ll die.
*Touches the wood*
And I still don’t understand why people hate the way MJ dance when their idols follow the way he danced. SERIOUSLYYYYYYYY. I’m not talking about every artists or every other people. I’m just talking about a certain group of people that I know. Please, you won’t know who I’m talking about because you are no mind reader.
AND THEREFORE I NEED TO SLEEP SO SUPER DESPERATELY.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 27, 2009
Like needing a tight smack.
Life is a highway.
OMG. I’m super excited for tomorrow! I mean, later.
No, not the duty part. More to the lunchtime part. HEHE.
I’m watching this one God damn tak boleh angkat punye cute Malay show for kids. But heck, I’m bored and so is my polar bear.
Click here to watch!
English Subs for Hari Raya edition: HERE.
Went shopping today and I got a new wallet! Goodbye to the old and ugly one. HEHE.
Went home like nearing 7 and people piss me off at the interchange. I mean like, please get to the bloody fcuking long queue. People are tired after a day of work or whatever else and they queued up for the bus. Then comes this 2 aunties and a child of one of them, went straight up to the bus just because they want a sit. Like, WHAT THE FUCK?! It’s so sibeh rude. People queue up till it went beyond the supposed ending place and this people, happy-happy, cut the queue like as though they own the entire bus service in Singapore.
What fuck? Typical.
Anyways, I need money.
HAHA. Who doesn’t? (;
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 26, 2009
And again.
Sometimes in life, all that you need to do is just sit there and make sure things happen the way you want it to be.
June 24, 2009
Oh My God.
Cool shit or what?!
Okeh so I wasn’t online throughout the entire day just because someone had to bring the laptop to work. Wth. But it’s okeh, thanks to that someone, I could actually finish up my EMaths homework. Oh yes, oh my goodness!
I think Daddy needs to buy another laptop for the sake of me. Hehe.
You’ll get the curse of the jungle~.
Okeh, child show. Heh.
I’m currently so bored. AMaths worksheet is staring at me. *Pulls hair*
I’ve been unconsciously comparing height with Mother. Proud to be taller. (:
9pm and I have yet to publish this. Wth.
Okeh I should start uploading all the nonsensical photos I’ve taken today and yesterday.
I can die of boredom right nowwwwww.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 23, 2009
Sleepy.
Am currently so super tired.
Should not have heeded someone’s advice in going for the booster. Tsktsk. (:
Learnt something new though. HAHA, yes contradiction.
*Inside story*
So anyway, headed to Pizza Hut after booster. Had the usual crap session and Aishah told me a story! Disney was it? Tsktsk.
Then we explored the CD shop and rented ‘quarantine’ which we watched at Alif’s house.
Okeh, I’m so super lazy to upload the pictures. Next time~ (:
I want duck rice lah!
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 22, 2009
Belatedddd
To the awesome guy who never fails to keep us all laughing.
Who takes care of the family night and day.
Who takes care of our well-being.
ILY Dad.
Happy Fathers’ Day.
Confession
Nobody is good enough.
SMS-ed Kak S the whole day yesterday. Very happy because! SMS is free. HEHE.
Currently I’m complaining to myself. I can’t believe I still think I’m in Sec 3. ):
That explains why I have yet to start on any homework.
*Slaps Nasirah*
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 20, 2009
Because sometimes.
I’m so stressed up and it’s not because of homework or whatever else. I feel like as though my life is beginning to be one Malay drama. Cliche tak habis-habis.
I feel like crying.
Cause you are that one awesome guy that I can never ever forget. I miss you because we’ve never had a proper goodbye. I’ve been thinking, should i or should I not? You left a deep impression on me. People keep asking me to confess. But I know myself better. I’m afraid that you’ll avoid me forever once I tell you that I love you. You’re the first guy who walked in to my heart and keeps going around, insisting to stay. I miss you and you make me go crazy with your cute smile.
June 19, 2009
Bimbo day.
Redzuan came late today! Aishah and I had one long story telling session while waiting. I found out more about that slut friend of mine who suddenly turned into an ultimate bimbo today.
So we reached Ngee Ann Poly by cab and Redz paid, which was expensive shit. I think I can go broke anytime if I’m ever late for school if I were him.
Ievan went “Don’t talk to me don’t talk to me.” when we came. HAHAHA. Hilarious lah.
Went to this one very secluded yet cool place for them to do the shooting. Swear I almost sleep because was super sleepy and tired, but as you know, I’m super popular. People keep messaging me. (:
Ievan’s shades broke on one side and he already screamed early in the morning. Walao.
Ievan: My shades. *sad face*
Me: Nice!
Ievan: Nice right? I think I should break the other side too! *Tries to break it*
I’m never going to forget this guy!
After much scene girl take 11, we headed for lunch. I shared beef lasagne with Ais. It was, okeh. I miss Pizza Hut to the max. Went off while Elaine, Ievan, Jenny and Redz went to edit their video.
Took bus 74 because we wanted to act like explorer. But bimbo’s fault, we ended up figuring out a way to get to Boat Quay because Aishah left her handphone in the taxi we took early in the morning. Bimbo or what?!
So after going to the nice lady who took care of the phone, we went rounding the entire area which have lots of cool shits malls. Thing is, everything was expensive.
We found 2 things.
Perrier and sticky sweets.
And we took load of pictures, found cool people who do cool job and we saw how they actually cut the sticky sweets. WOW.
I’m tired to the maximum. Going out with family tomorrow. AHHH.
***
Everyday I meet new people. Everyday I see new guys.
But you will always be that awesome guy that I got to know and will never forget.
Cause you know what? You’re my night sky.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 18, 2009
Scene Girl.
Accompanied my slut to help out Redzuan’s group in doing their project. It was like one cool shit because they were using the real deal kind of stuff and it’s not those pathetic digital camera. *Coughs*
I met like, awesome people there. Super crazy! And I almost died about gazillion times while taking the last shot. Thanks to no one else but Mr Director, Ievan.
Ievan: Okeh, I’ll stop the car from coming!
* Rest of us runs for the shot *
* Car came *
Ievan: * Screams and run away, leaving the rest of us in shock. *
Was really laughing out loud. (:
Ievan: I don’t wanna die young!
I made a number of friends today.
He is tall giler!
My job was really simple. Go to the front of the camera, say “Scene __, Take __.” For that I got labeled scene girl.
Rest of pictures at you know where.
Lets hope I can go tomorrow. So early.
***
I’ve been keeping this promise since I was 8 years old. And you’re telling me that I’m breaking your rule and not respecting you.
Just what do you want me to do?
***
Thanks. You never fail to make me be wide awake no matter how tired and how sleepy I may be.
Thanks. You never fail to keep me thinking no matter how occupied I am.
Thanks. You’ve been wonderful.
Thanks. You’ve been more than that.
And you’re going to be that one person I never will forget.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 17, 2009
Apple.
I hate the feeling where I dread going to something but feel so sad when it’s gone. Urgh.
SJAB camp was not that bad. NCOs 09 did a good job. (:
There’s so many pictures, I don’t think it can all be loaded up within a day. Especially when my facebook gets error when I try to load up pictures.
I’m so tired right now, I think I can sleep for another 3 hours plus plus.
Been sleeping late throughout the entire camp.
Day 1
ACI was sad. Sad as in sad lah.
Night time was awesome. Like awesome.
Okeh, that’s irritating.
Sat around at the canteen while waiting for the others to finish talking nonsense in the SJAB room. Zhi Xiang came over to our place. Hit my head twice cause I said nonsense stuff. Ehem. Then sat with LXY and Faris (DCC and CC respectively) while they finished up their stuff. Then Som called me a bitch cause I was bitching about people.
And I was a total bimbo the whole day because.. I brought along Farah and Nabila’s present although I already knew they weren’t coming. I forgot a lot of things, ending up going up and down before finally being able to head for camp. But, I still left some things at home. Things I forgot included handphone, camera, beret, belt and toothbrush.
Sat outside GO at around 2am and played donkey. Random dog came in from front gate, Aishah went “Don’t run.” when she was already standing up and ready to go off. Played donkey till 3am and slept outside GO. Wind was super cold.
Zhi Xiang came by at 4am and tried to wake Shi Hui up to lend us his sweater. Was scary shit because his head was in front of us and I wasn’t wearing my spectacles. And he lent us his sweater which was AWW. (:
Oh and I thank God SH tied her hair when I slept next to her. (:
At 4am, I woke up cause I couldn’t sleep any longer after ZX’s popped by like, really pop by. Sheeesh.
Day 2
Went up to bunk to accompany Jeremy cause I was bored since the rest was still sleeping. *SMILES WIDELY* Hehe.
Chatted with Jeremy about lots of stuff, at the podium. Was a good chatting session and the wind was super syiok. Turns out that he knew about HIM after all. Sigh.
Stayed for PT which I spent doing nonsense exercises with my batch. Like LOL.
Packed stuff and went for Abg An’s wedding.
Followed to Kak Aidah’s side with these guys. *COUGH*
Was laughing to myself like one retard on the bus. And the bus was for 40 people, so you should expect it to have a high steps up the bus. Was struggling like shit cause I was wearing heels and kain. Wth. Iffah was worse. But thankfully, Abg Aee was there and I threw Iffah up the bus. I mean to brother.
Rush back to camp at nearing 8. Skipped dinner cause was really not in the mood to eat although the last time I ate was at 12. Why not in the mood? For me to know. Harhar.
Planned to sleep at quadrangle but it was somehow very warm there. Slept in between Alif (my Gay) and Haziq (my pole dancer). Was noisy cause gay wouldn’t stop talking and pole dancer couldn’t stop stealing my sleeping bag.
Surprisingly, woke up late. Late as in 6.15am where it was time for first parade.
Day 3.
Went to watch them do PT.
Camp Night was funny. After camp night activity was LOL.
***
Went for DNA workshop. My group was being one total bimbo.
Fauzi dropped the micro pipette, we were sitting at the front table. Not to forget that he was holding on 2 sets of paper and said WOW because he thought it was one set.
Kim Yet used the same pipette tip after Fauzi finished using. That resulted us all in doing the same thing.
Lester hit his head on the cupboard while washing his hands. HAHAHA.
Was suppose to hit the pipette tip on the holder itself so that it can be fastened. I hit and 2 other tips flew up.
The person in-charge was smiling at my group. Ehem.
Before heading off, I learnt that McD isn’t Halal. From who? Zhi Wei. Tsktsk.
***
Day 4
Slept all the way till nearing 7. Was at the bench all the way till 4am. Neck was like, super painful. Went back to bunk and continued sleeping. Syiok!
The whole thing ended up like normal.
“OI. Tell us next time!” *Poses*
Oh and I like this picture the most.
Went to watch Drag Me to Hell with Aishah, Haziq, Shi Hui and Fauzi. Was funny, disgusting and funny. The surround sound was scary.
Some scenes were aww. Made me sad lah. ):
Now, to load picture at facebook and sleep some more. Heheh.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
Will we ever have a proper goodbye?
June 12, 2009
Finger.
Aww Jody, I can’t find THAT picture. ):
I’m like so pissed with my printer. Stupid laptop too. Can’t detect the printer. Urgh. ):
Sesungguhnye aku give up dengan printerku. Omg sister, I need your fucking help sia.
***
Physics lab session was awesome. Managed to finish one practical within an hour or two. Chatted with Jody, Bani and Lymen about Karma. HAHAHA. Ehem. About erm, fat wives and finger and smacking of butts. Gahaha. (:
KARMA Lymen, KARMA.
Sweet Love
Toodles.
June 11, 2009
SCREAM!
After much pulling of hair, I have finally managed to complete all of tomorrow’s assignments. Excluding 16.3 because I’m still terkial-kial trying to complete it. Sigh. Horrible Nasirah. Horrible.
Oh and I’m proud to say that my Biology SPA file is very neat and is very complete. HEHE. I think apart from my Malay and English file, that is the other file that is super neat and complete. Yea, I’m that disorganised. Thank you very much.
Okeh so tomorrow is a hectic day because I’m suppose to do everything for camp by day time tomorrow. YES! Excited you know!
***
Jeremy: Nek, what you bringing for camp?
Nasirah: I don’t know.
Jeremy: You going back to and fro?
Nasirah: Nope, only that on Sunday I’ll out for my cousin’s wedding.
Jeremy: I thought the other day cousin married already?
Nasirah: Yea so? I have many cousins.
And now people, feast your eyes on the hugeness of my family.
Mommy’s.
Daddy’s; COWHA.
And you guess it right, there were some missing people. Will that now explain why I have many weddings to attend?
Thus I’m sweetest and very young. (:
Sweet Love
Toodles.