Patheticly pathetic.

*SIGH* It really bothers me. The way you had your eyes fixed and calling out to me. It sucks! And you know that I'm broke yet you asked. Since you insist, I'll start collecting. Just for you. AHH! Damn. I'm super broke! Thanks to holidays, I don't even have money for my self pleasure. And I still owe Sister $137.70 on my phone bill. For 2 months and that is the only amount I've paid. Sheesh! Pathetic btol! Yea, 2 months 8 days and I survived. Surprise surprise. I'm dying to take picture. Used sister's phone just now, damn I miss my phone and the sound of it when a sms comes in, when i press the button to take pictures and when a call comes in. I miss everything about it. I feel pathetic today. Don't ask. I'm super broke and super bored. I may be broke but I want to watch At World's End and Shrek! Okeh, maybe I should just stop blabbering shits. It's just a dream that won't come true unless... *Winks to someone rich* If everything I did was for nothing, I had better just keep my bloody mouth shut and not help you at all. Stop stopping from going out with my friends. I'm not her. She is not me. I need my own space. If everything I want to do and you reject, I'll rebel. And no, there'll be no regrets. Reject and rebel. It mix rather well. I miss YB lots. ): Sweet Love Toodles.

I'm missing the Instructors already! ):

I don't know why but I feel so low. Super duper low. Lower than the ground, as said by Farah. Went back to school today for some SJ personal stuff. (: Everybody tried to turn emo for the sake of it. And yea, hope they really do cry and appreciate it. HEH! I'm so bored. I can't bring myself to look into my school bag and peep for my assignments. LAZY. That's for sure. I'm stuck to neopets again. Just another few hundred thousands more and I'm abondaning it. Just for the pleasure of being a millionaire. And like I've said, if only reality was all about games. If only reality was all about playing, then earn. If only jekk! And guess what, I want to be glued at the television today! RCTI and SCTV! YAY! Oh and they played Heart yesterday at 9pm; Singapore. BLOODY HELL! Missed it, like for obvious reasons. "Typical Malay/Indonesian story. Give me a story that doesn't have a typical starting and plot and ending, like for example Cicakman." -Kak Naf. F btol! And I want to watch Mean Girls and Agent Cody Banks and manymany more! Saturday is going to rock man! And I want to watch Home Alone 4 and Baby's Day Out at RCTI! WOO! My teevee schedule is planned! THE END! Sweet Love Toodles!

Screw rankings!

And I wondered why the top things were different. I was at a different tab! TSK! Had a tiff last night with parents, over me not going for my usual Sunday night class. I was pissed off. I have had enough of my parents melting for whatever sister does and going all red for whatever I do. I'm tired, and you force me to go. She's tired, you don't really mind at all! Sobbed all night. Dad gave me this fkingly angry voice. Mum didn't talk to me. I don't give a single f on this anymore. From now on, I would really love to make my own decision because I have had enough from being bossed around. My decision and my punishment. That would certainly be ace! I was well prepared to be ignored all day but they talked to me like as if the fight didn't even happen. *Sigh* Typical typical. Went back to school just now in the afternoon, to collect my report book. The results were bloody sucky. Class position 27 and level ranking 62. I suck okeh! And -2 marks and I would have failed English. On a brighter note though, I got 45 level ranking for Maths! I was high just now in school. I guess I miss them so much already! I got a B4 for D&T. How cool! I didn't even study and my coursework? I don't know what happened to it. Overall, I have 2 A1s, 2 B4s, 4 C5s and a C6. Well yea, Mr Lim really does most of the encouragements. I do owe him one. I owe Ms Widad too! I passed Geography lah seh! A B4 was so totally unexpected! (: I don't want Mrs Chuah for a Geography teacher! I don't want Cikgu Shikin for a Malay teacher! I'm going to miss Miss Widad and Cikgu Maisarah! All the best to both of you! (; And let's see, I got 2 books on loan that needs urgent attention before 5th June! And I got God-knows-how-many holiday assignments on me. And usually, it gives me a thrill to see teachers' non-stop worksheets coming home with me. But not now, I'm in a dreadful mood to even lift a pen. And I currently feel useless. Sweet Love Toodles.

Sec 2 SE/NE camp 2007. Thanks for the memories Changi.

I am so tired! 3 days 2 nights, finally over with a huge scream and screeches! (: HOHO! I was thoroughly pissed off with some of the girls cause they kept on complaining on how lame the games were. They should organised this camp next year and see how proud you'll be and how tiring it is to even conduct a simple programme with such negative people like you. I'm summarising up, not because I'm tired but because I'm lazy! CHANGI! Got to know each other during the first day. Consist of 17 Sec 2s, 1 group leader and 1 fasci. I can't remember all but let's see, we have Amin, Isaac, Kelvin, Azri, Cynthia, Wesley, Wei Xiang, Tofu (nick only), Shabnam, Nadia, Dian, Dennis and I can't remember the other 4. (: Our leader, Kak Suraya (Kak Susu)! Our fasci, Kak Rafiqah (Kak Fi)! Did some cheering and get to know each other! Was quite dry for the first few hours but we did okeh. Next day, woke up at around 5 to shower. Had breakfast and off for amazing race and treasure hunt. So we came in last for treasure hunt if I'm not wrong but we got 1st for amazing race for batch 2. (: Kak Fi paid for our ice-creams! And guess what, the journey for the treasure hunt is exactly the same for our heritage badge's trip last year. Campfire was fun. My aim was to scream and screech till I can't do it anymore. Despite the many AHHH! and WOOOO! and AHAHAHAHAHA! and AHHHHH!!, my voice is still a normal syrup's. (: I can scream well seh! My group sang the One People, One Nation, One Singapore song. With some banana dance and our own cheer. It was great. Sang at the top of our lungs! AHH! Haha! Last day, woke up at around 4 and showered! Packed all belongings then went for breakfast. Cheered and all. Everybody was so tired except for this one very enthu group, I wonder whose group that is. (: While other groups were cleaning due to some problems at their bunk, the rest left were bombing each other and sang~ Results was in school where eveybody was trying their very best to stay awake. So the best group for batch 1 was Alkaff. For batch 2 was CHANGI! For batch 3 was Victoria. So we were re-screaming. HAHA! Off for home soon after. Hazirah and me got a taxi and off for home!!! First taxi was taken by that Nabila and Farah who initially wanted to cross to the opposite side when a taxi I flight stopped. HAHA! (: Alright! SJ camp left. I'm dead sleepy! Cheers for the student leaders! Cheers for Sec 2s! Cheers for CHANGI! Cheers for Kak Fi! Cheers for Kak Susu! WOO~ Sweet Love Toodles.

Gone for Sec 2 SE/NE camp 2007.

Awww... Camp is tomorrow. ): I'm going to miss the computer and the bed and the pillows and the bear and the radio. ): HEH! Okeh, this is the part that I say to almost everyone today. HAHA! MISS ME EVERYBODY! (: 3D 2N without entries. Sweet Love Toodles my LOVE ones! (:

Sungei Buloh! 2e1 <3

I need to go shopping. I must go shopping. By tomorrow. Not even a single itemss bought! OMG! And it is only hours away to camp. HOO! To hell with it for the moment. (: Sungai Buloh trip. Not that boring. Was snapping pictures all the way. Service at the cafeteria, real bad! Especially the guy. TSK. Okeh, so we were very noisy at that time. Ms Lim was sort of pissed with us but yea, she was still smiling and all. (: Not much to update actually. Okeh, leave it all to pictures. (: Gotten them from Ziq. HAHA! Okeh, I was looking at Farah's camera. (: I looked terribly tired. =.= Sweet Love Toodles!

Holidays! *jumps up&down*

*Closing one finger.* A step closer to holidays! WOW! (: Monday morning and I woke up at 0530. I so don't know why. After much tossing, I turned and went back to sleep! WOHOOO! Okeh, that was not an important details that anybody should know. HAHA! Okeh fine, it's not funny. (: Sec 1s' 2.4km was cancelled as Mr C Lim called for wet weather. So, no public duty~ The whole day, we slack! No geography, no history, no PE, no MT, no SEL! How awesome! SO we talk and talk and laugh and laugh and talk and laugh and talk and laugh the whole day. Teachers got irritated cause we were so noisy. And PE period was taken over by Mr Lim. Just chit chat and he asked us the usual how-are-you-today chat. Was nice spending time like that! And the period I hated most was Malay. Don't ask why cause you don't have to know. For me to know for you to find out. *Evil grins* And I'm stuck with reading. I chose great books these days. Right... But heck, the stories have been rather interesting and sweet. No vulgarities but just sweet words. HEHE! Alright, that is all folks. (: Sweet Love Toodles.

Craaaazy! (:

HAPPY BELATED 3rd BIRTHDAY! Been a really tiring day yesterday and today. Let's begin with yesterday's fun day! (: Had camp breifing and post-exam's briefing, one after another. And Haziq, Rach and me was laughing alot! HAHA! Yes, I still remember this part. Got back Malay paper. I scored a freaking A2. Sister will so going to be mocking me. Now that I failed English, it's going to be a double mocking. English was boring. Went through Distinction In English and stuff. Maths was for once this year, boring. Had to do all the corrections and did some sums which I haven't even start on. Had lots of laugh, as always. IPW was fun. I'm going to pluck a lot of wires from today on. "If the dog barks at you, you bark at them back lah! WOOFWOOOOFWOOFWOOF!" That was what Mr Lim said. We broke into a long laughs and hell yeah, it stayed on till today. (: Public duty. DAMN I'M DARKER!!! Was posted at one of the shelters and thank god I was still fair. And then, we, as in Shi Hui and me, had to be posted to the lots of sits area which was freaking hot. Sat there like around 15 minutes and there was a huge colour difference! *Points to where the watch is worn at.* The Sec 5 casualties were funny! And the guys bet on each runner. LOL! And Ais' 321 was running well! And my 336 became one of the casualty. SUEY! HAHA! And I forgot Shi Hui and Nabila's number. HAHA! I can't believe I had some energy left to walk home. Okeh, maybe more like trudging or crawling. Today's community day. HELL! My leg was hurting because of yesterday's activity, nothing to do with PD.And it was bloody painful. Terribly painful. Residents of Blk 650, damn kind and friendly! We got lots of newspapers and other items starting from the 10th floor! Collected everything and we transfered and tied them all. Waited for the lorry for like a hour or so. Wols. In the meantime, snapped here and there and talk like nobody's business. That is us for you. (: And I don't know why but the source of candid pictures is me. HAHA! Okeh, received this from Ziq and Ying Ying. Some snaps we did. (: The E here is pointing the wrong side by accident. (: Shi Hui and me! (: Yu Juan at work! Wesley at work! Candid okeh! AHAHAHA! Okeh, this was an absolute candid! Where is that Ying?! (: The crazy ones! (: This is the teacher who makes us smile during outdoor activity! Mr Ramthan! (: FUN DAY indeed! (: Quality time with classmates! *** And I know that you can never be proud of my achievements. You mock at me for any achievements I got. No, I don't want you there anymore because you don't know how to make me happy. You people ain't needed anymore. Sweet Love Toodles.

Happy but not thaaaat happy.

HOHO! No, I'm not totally happy yet. Unless of course somebody tells me that I passed English. Okeh, so more papers strolling in. I passed Maths! WOHOO! Okeh, but it is still useless if I fail English right...? TSK. But nevertheless, I passed. I got an A1. WOOTS! I hit Mr Lim's target! WOHOO! Okeh, but let's not rejoice. HEH! And I scored 57 for Art. HAHA! Its okeh and its alright. It's only art. So yes, basically that is all. Results are bad, I know I know. Next week, a trip to Sungei Buloh and camp at Labrador. It's gonna be a long and tiring week next week. And hell yeah, I'll faint in my bed the moment I get home. (: Ouh yes, did I tell you that I got Linkin Park's minutes to midnight? Hell yeah I do! Song is addictive! I don't know just how many times I replayed every single one of the songs. And you are currently listening to one of the songs. And yea, the italic words on yesterday's post was not my own words. Is one of the lyrics so, no worries okeh. (: I'm rushing off for lunch and NEOPETS! Yes, neopets is highly addictive! I know and you don't have to tell me. (: Sweet Love Toodles! My world is closing in I'm so alone The door is locked and nobody's home Desire is the key that I must own Emotions got me losing control I'm losing control.

Sad case gone bad!

It's such a dissapointment. I have never failed my English paper before. Not even the paper 2, not even the paper 1. Now, what did I get? I failed paper 2, nicely done. Yes, everybody just shout HURRAH for me. Holding back those tears, damn it was difficult. So I cried my hearts out before Geography and I don't care anymore about the marks I'm getting on my other papers. Not even Maths. My focus is now on English. While those who failed was as cheerful as always, the usual back arses was wondering I was goddamn quiet. This proves that I'm noisy in class. But what the hell, I don't care. Now, don't compare your marks with mine. However high it is, I'll still somehow fail. Yes yes, paper 1 result compile with this and that, I may not fail but forget it, my paper 1 is sure to be a one big fuck! I almost failed Geography. I almost got my wish come true for Science. I forgot about History, but I don't care. Smart arses, just shut the fuck up if you are reading this. Sweet Love Toodles. I've given up I'm sick of living Is there nothing you can say take this all away I'm suffocating tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.

Awww!

I am so not in the mood. So don't go around asking me why I look like this and that. I'm going to give you a tight slap, that I assure you. Sister didn't give me my school money. TSK. Typical. So I survived on the 60-cents I had leftover from yesterday's. (: Lessons was lesson. I almost broke down to tears to see and hear that I improved drastically in Maths. Yes, that is how I reacted. So just sat there like a dumb person and listen. Man. The sadness in Mr Lim's voice but at the same time he was happy. Yea. Mr Lim was sad for the whole lesson. Due to some stuff and of course, our Paper 2 result. *Sigh* No, I'm still not happy with the results that I got. Yes, I'm very dissapointed in myself. English, well hell! I think I'm going to fail. ): Okeh, enough emotional words. Like I've said, lessons was lesson. D&T was like fuck. I'm tired of it like for real. And yea! Next week is the last lesson? RIGHT? I'm going to jump up and down till I die. HAH! Ouh and my result was like fug too. MT. Neopets terror. Talk whatever we got on our mind about Neopets. Get this right, we got a lot to say. Literature. I failed. Wohoooo... Maths as described above. Despite the sadness I saw in his eyes, well, he showed us the way humans walk. HAHA! Okeh, nobody knows about this. HAHA! English. URGH! Combine class tomorrow. With 2e5 and 2e2, to go through the English Paper. MF. Just how are suppose to fit in 120 students into that bloody small AVA room? Visit to library was as always. FUN! HAHA! Rawr and me took books that looked interesting for us then we sat and chose. Inspired by Ziie. (: Alright, I'm hungry. And I feel sick. And Neopets is waiting for me. (: Yes yes, I owe Rawr and Lili 1k each. =.= Sweet Love Toodles.

Stress!!!

AHH! I am so tired. Of everything. School, studies, homeworks, lack of talking in family and all those shits. I just don't seem to know if I will be able to make it a good future. *Sigh* Yes everybody, I am too tired to even type. All I want to do is get my eyes to shut or even play games. Ouh yes!! Play games. YB are stuck to neopets. I am aiming to be a millionaire. If only life was like Neopets. ALl you have to do to earn real money is to play games and all that. But hey! This is real life. Got to work hard to achieve. Speaking of which, I owe Mr Lim the graph exercises and both exercise books correction. I'm DOOM! I really need holidays. How many weeks away, 2 weeks? Yes. Just a mere 2 weeks and we are so over Semester 1. OMB! Semester 2. Gets much tougher I guess, but I don't hope so. Just in a mere 2 weeks also, Sec 2 camp coming up. And OH-MY-GOD. I will so miss my bed and my pillow and most importantly, my Taufik CD which I listen to everyday. Yes, everyday without fail. HAHA! Seems pretty stupid right? I know. *** You asked me. You didn't tell me. Since you asked me, my answer is a NO! Can't you see how tired I am? All that you care is about him and yourself and how much both of you are so tired. It's time for you two to think about me. To think about how my life in school is. You go around saying that my friends are bad influence. You go around telling me that I should be an individual instead of being a group of friends who cannot behaves. I should be an individual rather than having friends who will betray me. Mother, Father, that is all in the past. You don't even know a single of my friends' name and you are already telling me that they are a bad influence and all? You don't even know their faces and you already judge by the first met? Puh-lease! Nobody told Sister who she should befriends with. Nobody told Brother who he should befriends with. So STOP it. I have had enough. Give me a break okeh. Linkin Park's CD has been released today. Sister has already planned much earlier to go to CD-rama to buy it! And of course, I CAN'T WAIT ALSO! LINKING PAAAAAARK! Okeh, Neopets time! HAHA! 1k np for Lili and Rawr, each. EISH! Sweet Love Toodles!

I still love YB and Ais laaaaaah hey!

When you bloghopped to Aishah's and read my whole blog from links and everything, what do you see? No loving YB. Fights. Swear words. Scolding this and that. No, "I am a YB." No, "I love YB." And what can I say, it was saddening! Maybe I did regret them. Ouh yes, the "Thank you, I'm just out of that stupid thang since you want me to. I'm not your motherfucking princess whereby you can order me around. To think you can put me into this situation huh, slut? I've got smth better to talk abt rather than talking abt your beloved parents. And quitting isn't of any problem, there you got it, DOWNRIGHT BITCH!" and also the "And that someone really thinks that I care about what she thinks? KIMAK nyer pompuan! Ingat diri tu bagos sangat? I don't care about what you think. I have my own pride! I'm not a bitch like u. I'm not regretting this. NOT even a single sense of regrets. Pfft. YOU MAY STEP OUT OF MY LIFE CAUSE I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE." was pure lie! So there you go. I fought with my dearest Ais. NO WAY! And so, while you people got sad and anxious on why we were fighting, we were chatting at MSN and laughing our heads and arses off! Ouh yes we were! We laughed at how you people reacted. We played Neopets together. Last night, was awesome! No, YB will not be seperated. Every words we say are for the better of the other. Ziq, we are so totally sorry for the troubles caused. And also those people who cared about us, we thank you all so much. Yes, everything will be put up as how it really suppose to be. And yes, Ais is a YB still. No matter what, YB will be there when we live and die. YB is forever in our hearts. And to those inncent ones, there were just some vulgarities exchanged and nothing more than a stupid "fight". How did you guys enjoy our show? We drama queens can sure win Oscar lah seh! HAHA! Now everybody, THE SHOW HAS REACHED THE ENDING, with Ais and Syrup laughing together and loving YB and each other. YB #03, still! (: ZALSSR <3 Sweet Love Toodles.

FUG! ):

And that someone really thinks that I care about what she thinks? KIMAK nyer pompuan! Ingat diri tu bagos sangat? I don't care about what you think. I have my own pride! I'm not a bitch like u. I'm not regretting this. NOT even a single sense of regrets. Pfft. YOU MAY STEP OUT OF MY LIFE CAUSE I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE.

Jangan Pandang Belakang; darlings day out! <3

Hello! I'm spooked out... NOT! Outing was as always. Early in the morning, I went for marketing first and then, went to meet up with Aishah and Nabila at the usual place. And as always, Ais kiter cair di rumah dan nampaknyer ader traffic jam di langit kerana Lalat tidak datang on time. (: So, settled down on a three by three sits. I sat next to Mr Wall! Aishah in the middle and Nabila sat next to Mr Air. Liyana in front of me, then Farah then Hazirah. Since we went in early, we talked and get ourselves comfy. When I said comfy, I really mean comfy. Legs up! Snuggled under sweater! HAHA! So the movie is not much of a thriller. While they were busy screaming their lungs out, I laughed my lungs out! Seriously, this movie is for the faint-hearted also. No parts got me screaming and only a few parts got me to shut my eyes. In the midst of the screaming, Aishah still had the time to complain about not being able to eat in peace. HAHA! While the movie was still showing, we whispered lame stuff. The only scary part that got me freaked out was when the funny senile grandmother's duplicate was on Darma's arms. You know, you get that tingling feeling if you were to carry somebody at a moment like that. FUUH! Scary. But anyways, the ghost looked real fake. And ugly. The flying part. Everything about the ghost looked fake. And give me a break! Why are many ghosts have the same acting style as Ju-on and Grudge and Ring2. AHH! It really makes me think that people just doesn't seem to have a good imagination of their own. TSK. But I guess it was overall quite well acted. Especially the senile grandmother, whom I forgot her actual name. (: Claps for the hilarious, thriller movie! (: I recommend to everybody to go watch it. "Mengape kawan kamu tu burok sangat? Rambot kusot. Mari le masok! Mari." -Senile grandmother. "Aku bapak kamu!" -Ghost. LOL. ** So we walked here and there around the causeway. They went to the library while I headed home since mum only gave me 4 hours out of the house. Sheeesh. I have a question! If we can't look back, can we turn back? Sweet Love Toodles~

MID YEAR IS SO YESTERDAY! Wohoooooooo! So art was fine. DUH! Though sitting beside her is a huge heartache, I strived on. Why you ask me? She finished around an hour before the paper ends. How heartache was that?! Others was still struggling to colour and all, she just slept! My artwork was atrocious. As always. No biggie! (: My side of the room is sparkling and dirtless. Throughout the whole time without any electricity, I cleaned my room and made it much cleaner than sister's! No wonder many villages are way cleaner than our skyscrapers and bungalows and terraces. HAHA! So the electricity was switched on an hour earlier than expected and I watched the television. And an advertisement got my mum to ask me something, translated. "You should reconsider your thoughts on taking up nursing course. You know how scary it is? You even have to walk all by yourself at the hospital during night time. You even have to go look at the dead people for some stuff. Be sure to consider. I really hope you would get a job like your sister's. Office work. Air-conditioned. You only have 2 years more to decide you know." One word: Damn! If many were to be like her, no such job as doctors, nurses or paramedics or any job of that sort. TSK. Alright, outing tomorrow with my dearest darlings! Wee! We are going to hit the theater! (: Sweet Love Toodles!

MYE (almost) over!

It's good to be back! Days of mugging and being sick, fruitful? I don't know. Somehow I think I'm going to fail all the papers but, lets remain positive here. First few papers were okeh, I think. Oh well, one more paper and Mid Year Exam 2007 will be so yesterday. Am I really happy about that? Not really. Back to normal school time and damn I hate that! I miss Maths periods. HAHA! Okeh, no offence actually but still, it's a compliment that I love Maths periods. (: Don't mind the song. I've been playing it again and again for god knows how many times. It's really soothing and calm. At times like this, songs like this would certainly be the best! Don't mine the blogskin too. I'll search for another one soon, when I'm so done being busy. Which reminds me of IPW. AHH! I've yet to do the action plan and no thanks, I don't want to come back on the Friday or Saturday just to give it to him. Isn't it weird, if we hand it in tomorrow, when will we be able to print out those flyers? And the publicity is this Monday. Double AHH! Okeh, now I'm stress. Maybe I should go now. I got Art work to do and action plan to work on. It's really going to be one short day. And somebody please save me from tomorrow! No fan, no computer, no television for 2 whole hours, they must have something wrong in their brain! And just this Art paper and we are sooooooo going to bid farewell to MYE 07. How happy. NOT! The result, how I dread... Sweet Love Toodles!