Time does not matter.

Freaking warm lah sia!

I'm getting a bit cranky. (Question marks!)

All right, after much challengesstresses, my life has gone back to normal. Almost at least. AMaths test is over and I'm so screwed because I did not get to complete the paper neither was I able to start on the many questions. God, disappointment. I hate when that happens, but too bad, cannot be avoided.

I screwed Chemistry too. Was really hoping to pass because I could understand (finally) what Ms Ho was teaching. But in the end, I failed by 2 and a half marks. Pfft.

History, EMaths and Biology tests are coming up next week, back to back. Got to start breaking a leg but yea, it's kind of difficult you know. I need companion to study with. And that companion has got to be Ms Concentration! (:

Physics has got to wait because we only had 2 periods this week, which is so pathetic especially when you're behind syllabus.

Mr Shah is back from reservist! Which means we History students don't have to get stuck in Geography classes and do SBQs and SEQs! Hurrah! And we're done with this year's syllabus which thus means a very long period for revision. Help! Because I wouldn't want to do thousands of SEQs and SBQs! Especially not SEQ, please!

Currently, I'm down with flu and cough and I have slight disability of hearing because since I have flu, I tend to get ear block. Urgh.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day again. Gosh, since when it isn't. But what can I do, life gets tougher as you grow older. The good thing is, I'm always almost done with my homework. And from now on, Kak Belo shall accompany me with my work and teach me too! Heh! (:

So yea, I guess I have to get down to business since I wouldn't have time to study 3 subjects at one go. What's more, History is going to be a full paper and I can't even remember a single thing about the USSR, British and all that kind of stuff. Help!

Wishing you were here because the memories not enough.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Useless.

Goodbye brain because you seem to be dead.

I hate to get angry but some people really make my wonderful day the total opposite. I hate it when that happens. I've been controlling my anger and have been trying my very best to just shut up.

You can't say that I don't care because I do. I'd rather get hated by you then having more than 20 people hating you. And you don't seem to understand my emotions. You've been hurting it but you don't realise it. I have been keeping quiet because I do not want us to be enemies because we have work to be done that needs unity.

And like I've said, everything depends, as of now. Truly, I don't feel the vibes of this years' p. Don't talk about being proud just yet, look at the enthusiastic faces, if there were even to be one. Really, all you care about is making yourself look good.

Face it, you're making people hate you even more just by doing that. It's not going to be special when all that you do is to boss people around. You have to and must respect people's options. If you can't do that, then seriously, I want out.

And with those 3 around, they don't make it any better. Yea, we are suppose to be in charge but look at who is around. So what if we are in charge when the higher ranking people are all there? What can we say? Nothing.

Honestly, I think you people are important but useless to us. If only she was here. She will appear everywhere. Not that I hate, but it shows that she care. ):

So really, what has come over this people?

Having power sucks. It destroys friendship, unity, trust and love. So just forget it, I don't want to get involve in this stupid matter any longer.

Nobody seem to care about how we feel. Stop getting emotional. It fucking pisses people off. If you think you can gain sympathy by that, you thought wrong because I'm beginning to hate you more than ever. So fuck it, you're not worth to be a friend that I should lend my ears to.

***

And sometimes, I regret letting my secrets out. Because some people can't seem to let their mouth shut.

I miss this two person for they were the ones who has always been there for me. And I miss our friendship that I thought would last forever but now, I can't see it any longer.

I think it's gonna end soon because the sight of you makes me think real hard. Is it your way or is it my fault? I'm sorry, I think I'm beginning to die bit by bit. I'm sorry, my feelings for you seems to have subsided bit by bit. I'm dying to get over you. I'm dying to forget this ever happened. I'm sorry it all started. I'm sorry I ever had feelings for you. I'm sorry I need to get over you. I'm sorry you've been too nice. I'm sorry you've been too friendly. I'm sorry this started. I'm sorry I can't see the end.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Not needed.

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you.

Sounds of table and/or chairs tumbling down at around 1505 during EMaths just now certainly made me lose my last-few-minutes concentration. The first thing that I thought, "It happened again. And this might be my last moments."

Yea, call me stupid since we were at 4th floor in our own classrooms. But you never know, maybe the vehicle was accelerating at super fast rate that it could even fly all the way up. I must say, I do have a wild imagination.

But I truthfully and sincerely thank God because if it weren't for Him, I would not be here. I might just be that someone in some one's life.

Alhamdulillah.

Yea, I've experienced it myself now. Life really is too short. One minute you were just sitting down and talking with your group of friends and the next minute, a vehicle is moving towards you at fast speed. God.

The hot topic now, yesterday's incident. And we can't point at the driver and say it is his fault. It's human nature to make mistake at a moment and cause some one's life to be in danger. And yesterday was his moment. But of course, we can't point away from him because after all, he should have think twice.

Just learn that if we're not responsible, it might lead to something even worse. And at this point, respect others' action and side of the story.

Just like what I told Lymen just now, people's mindset differ. The way you and I think is different. Yes, there are times we think of the same thing but mostly, it's different.

***

NDP rehearsal was nothing much because we only did 2 rounds which was not totally a complete round. The main thing is, I was smiling away. (:

AFAZN, shut up. Hmph.

School hours were tiring. Like since when it is not. *Sigh*

I want out now. I meant school. Hehe!

And as we speak, you started to walk away. Show me the reason why I should respect you view because I think we did it better. (: Trust me when I say it is so.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Racial Harmony Day 2008

This is the beloved TICs. Happy RHD you people! (:

Let us all just put unhappy thoughts aside and concentrate on our happiest moments. (: Today was fun because it was filled with picture takings since many of us brought along our cameras! Yey!

And so, I was able to take pictures with quite a number of people but the sad thing is, I didn't took any pictures with Kak Belo, Alif, Fauzi, Nabil, Yi Xun, Nabila and quite a number of others. ):

So sad but I'm happy for 3 times. *Hints*

But better than nothing.

Just view the pictures. I'm way too tired to type any longer. Happy viewing and happy Racial Harmony Day! (:

And presenting two noisy people.

These two are the ones who kept me awake in class. Not that I ever sleep but it's because of them that I just can't bear to be sad or angry. And they are also the reason why I'm noisy. Influence! Hmph. And anyway, Ivan owes me a ruler because I lost my ruler in class during the RHD activities. I think my rulers are cursed! ):

Changed for performance and audience seriously don't have basic courtesy. We are not born dancers. We are not trained dancers. We are not born First Aiders. We are trained First Aiders.

Then Farah, Shi Hui and I sat down together after changing and did some nonsensical no-brain stuff. Heh! (: Took some pictures while awaiting for the time to change for training.

Yes, Fabian was there to make the atmosphere double the noise! HAHA!

Me: Eh Fabian take picture with me! *Turns one part of my camera.*
Fabian: Eh wah! Why the picture upside down? Can turn one arh? *Turns the part that I turned*

Fabian betol! But yea, at least he is nice unlike some people. *EHEM* And he was trying his hard to be of the same height as me. Damn it. HAHA! (:

And I saw him 3 times today. *Smile*

Sweet Love

Toodles.

When there was once.

You once told me that I can be anything I want.

I just can't be bothered anymore. If that's the way you want it to be, then just carry on. I don't want to make myself so busy bothering about you.

***

Walkathon today but instead of going out walking, YuanYu, Fauzi, Haikal and me stayed at school's guidance hub just to wait for any unforeseen casualty. So yea, The two guys and I had fun in the room because we were talking nonsense and SJAB stuff. (:

So we went walking around the whole place for about 2 times during the Arts Alive session. Seriously nothing better to do so we went to check out every single stall.

There was a tournament thing going on so we carried on doing duty there. Stationed ourself and seek help from Nabila, Haziq, ShiHui and Farah. So yea, it was covered. (:

Stationed at soccer match with Farah and Fauzi. And Farah was being Ms Annoyance! LOL. So yea, I had fun there though Syazrul and Azri S got injured. And it's interesting how casualties usually gets better when they have their beloved by their side. *Hints*

By the time all the matches ended, I was really drained out so yes, went back to SJAB room and had a little rest.

Headed down to somewhere after some misunderstandings and all. So yea, miscommunication is 24/7 present. So, thanks Diaz for the treat. (:

***

It's weird sometimes how things can't be seen but can be felt. It's not possible to write it down in words so I guess I just have to keep everything in. There's not a chance to say it out because it can be felt but not heard. If only you knew.

You seem to be able to read me like a book and I seem to know your every move. I'm sorry this ever happened because I can't help but to change things. I'm sorry you had to face it alone but you know you can tell me your deepest darkest words.

You, the greatest story in my life. Thank you, but I'll never be able to forget you.

Sweet Love

MrD.MrAS.

Toodles.

Weepers.

Camera camera of us all.

Who's the busiest people of us all?

Dear _______,

So you want to go on a strike? So you think all your efforts are not appreciated? So you think we NCOs are taking all of your credits?

Been there. Done that.

Come on, it's not as if you did anything that much. So we're the ones who are always picked to do things, why? Because you people rarely appear. Because you people always disappear. Because we were always appearing. Because we were always there.

Just what credits do you want?

I really don't understand you at all. Firstly, you don't respect us with our ranks. That is still okeh. Secondly, you don't respect us as a person. That is certainly not okeh.

Please arh! Where's the basic courtesy and all? Are we like woods or perhaps part of the cupboards in the room to you? If that is what we are, then fine. I shall treat you like some ghostly being who is on the floor. You want it that way, then I shall do it.

"Why Us Not Given A Chance? We came in equal only they are given the chance to rise. Only 10 could go. I'm the 11th or so on."

1) Check your grammar alright?

2) You were given a chance but it's just that you chose to ignore them.

3) We did came in equal but since we're always appearing, we grew up more than you did.

So yes, think it through because I think I've wasted enough energy.

World Peace.

***

I am currently having horrible mood swings. One minute I'm super nice. The next minute, I can be really super mean.

I easily burst nowadays and it seriously pisses me off. Oh God. Currently, I just feel so down but I can't find the reason. And school is certainly not helping anymore. Though the sight of some makes me smile a bit more.

The week has been really busy and I'm really tired. I don't think I can think and see things positively anymore.

*Sigh*

MrDorMrAS.Forgetboth.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Luck.

To love is hard but to hurt is not.

The week has been long. Getting home late till around 7+ is getting common because many things has been happening and demand for homework to be handed in as soon as possible is getting higher.

Anyway, I have been picking up lots of quotes from 'La Femme' and those quotes have filled up the once-upon-a-time empty spaces at my table. Heh! Speaking of table, it reminds me of ruler. Which reminds me of Ivan who keeps showing off his ruler just because mine is broken into two. Hmph.

My ruler broke during EMaths. Thus you could imagine how stress I was during EMaths while doing stupid graphs. Graph suck therefore I'm nice. (:

This week is nothing much. Been rather down for some things. I just can't seem to get things right. Like come on Nasirah, just what the hell is wrong with you?

So I have comments. You want to read, you carry on. If not, goodbye because I'm way too nice for a 'fuck off.'

Firstly, friends come and go telling me about SCs' behaviour. Yes yes, I'm not part of them but so what? I'm a student of WRS and I have the right to comment. Note, it's comment, not complain and not whatsoever else.

SCs are getting rude and I'm serious in this matter. SCs are getting so arrogant about the red badge, about their green badge or about the yellow badge. Come on and get a grip of life, those badges are non-living things. Yes, do take pride of them but at the same time, can't you just get a hold of your attitude? Please, my nose can go higher than yours if you want me to.

Secondly, the people of the school is getting so bias that I just have to rest my case. Like come on, are we not important to you people?

Who is the first person you run to when you have someone injured? SJAB cadets. Who is the first person who gets scolding when treatment is wrong? SJAB NCOs. Who is the first person who gets all the nagging when someone injured is unattended? SJAB cadets.

Yea, so we're not very important at all. I suggest we close down for two months and see how you survive without all those FA stuff running.

Thirdly, so what if they have been gone for a week to do all this stuff. And this is what I mean by bias. You don't see it all the time because you're doing it. You don't see it, we don't see it. You don't feel it but we do feel it. So lets just say, we feel left out. We feel unappreciated.

Yes, figure that out.

I can't stand people who changes their mood within five minutes. And I totally hate it when that happens to me. It's utterly annoying. And yes, I'm referring to myself. So don't read it and go perasantan and syiok sendiri one corner crying and saying I find you annoying.

And I can't stand this group of people who pisses me off when we're in front of those group of people. Like come on, what the hell is their problem?

And to end this all, I have a quote to share and which I shall use it in my daily life, for now.

"The world will unite to fight with you as long as you remain determined."

- Mister Fighting.

Sweet Love

Toodles.