I love the book!

Pleasure/pain is a fine line, and you don't have to be crazy to admit that. Children are more honest about that sort of thing, as they are in most matters. ***Real self-harm-the razor blade and kitchen-knife sort-is about releasing an inner welt of pain, and it's about punishment, and it's also a cry for help. It's saying to people: "Look how much pain I am in."

-Judith Fathallah; Monkey Taming

I swear that two paragraphs hit me and I realise, it is nothing but a factual statement... Whatever crap I meant...

The minute that story went to the most saddening part, where the child was trying so hard to lose more weight even though she is underweight, the mother under pressure of her condition and also thinking of the child's grandmum who is still at a home... Ah yes, maybe all those emotionals should have guessed how I reacted to the storyline... It hit me hard that at least my life is not that bad and I'm not anorexic... Uh-huh, the condition the child was in ):

Such a sad thing...! And therefore, I am having this book as one of those homework stuff!

Oh and yes, I cried while reading it le...

Should read it okeh? :p

***

Woke up as usual around 6.30... Didn went back to sleep and then at 10, followed my mum to the market to buy last minute stuff...! Market was pack like hell! Shop&Save was the same...! Collected my new specs...The specs is ugly i tell you! Don't know why i even chose it, maybe because of desperation! nyeahnyeah!

Came back around 11 and did lots of chores because tomorrow dah hari rayer...! Cooked today's meal and helped mum blend this and that... Wash this and that... Carry this and that to over there and here! Okeh, nevermind if you don't understand... Basically, I did double chores today than any other day! But still, my dad nagged at me while I was resting/watching teevee for not helping my mum... Like what the hell!

And now, getting ready for kenduri for hari rayer tmr...!

Woo! I'm tired!

I have written my thoughts with love

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA to all the muslims (: Happy Holidays to the rest who aren't celebrating (:

toodles~

picture time

Hello! My sweet loves! My kuih's pix is finally here~ You want to see? Nice looking! I do not know why but i find it too cute and irresistable that i just have to have this picture up here! Let me introduce you to, one of my jam biscuits whose name is jam biscuits! :) This picture...Erm... During our lunch time at home when I was bored and iffah was eating! To make sure she eat, i took photos! but this is the one and only that I like and saved! I had a nice face because! I was laughing so hard because! She is currently having this attitude! She said NO to cameras! Yes, she currently camera-shy like my sister and mother! -.- Next time I'll load a candid picture of her being shy! Had to fake that there was something at my phone...! Haiz... I have this urge to load up that picture of that donkey-eyed girl...Haha! Thaaaaaat girl should know! But a promise said is a promise to be made (: So I won't! And sorry Haziq, I forgot to say a goodbye to you! Woops! Goodbye & have a safe journey & don't forget to come back to Singapore for school on the 3rd Jan 2007! Sweet love :) , toodles~

training~

Hello! Penat arh! I want to load my jam biscuit pic here :) cuz...erm...i just want to do so! But then my beta yahoo mail is damn slow! I sent the pics already but it's not received yet... -.- Anyhoooooo! Woke up at 6.15 to iron my skirt...then hadta wait for kakak to finish bathing...*yawns* Water was damn cold! Even though my water heater is switched on! Cold giler! Hitched a ride from dad! wee~ i said tt im gonna wait for a fren at block 620 budden my dad suggested that i go straight to school but i said no...i guess he didn hear lah cuz i said that softly while he was talking to my mum! So i thought he was slowing down to stop but actually for him to turn. -.-' And yea...i hadta walk back to that area and wait for aishah... Trained for the last time in the year 2006! Fun! Who came? Aishah,me,shihui,my longlost indonesian sweets; nabila, farhan, fauzi...n haziq hu came 2 hrs later -.- Trained our footdrill sequence...went either to the basketball court or the abv court...whichever and whatever court okeh...! Traintraintrain! Drizzled so we went to the canteen and sat and talked bout tt 'thing'! experiences,beliefs etcetc... just basically, we talked abt it! that it that i will nvr wanna meet! Played wacker...or is it wacko? Nvrm...it's still the same right? wackos playing wacker! wee~ fun! changed rule...wacker are to close their eyes...! NOT suppose to go much further than the circle BUT! aishah n shihui went up to the abv court i went to the corner of the basketball court...nabila n fauzi, sumwhere near the wacker (haziq)... by tt time farahn dah balek dahh! not sporting langsong! yes, tt irritating lab partner of mine! Then more training on the footdrill sequence! Fauzi bcame the 'sir' then he joined us! was fun arh! previously, im sick of tt jadikan dua barisan command, but now! im sick of tt squat beratur! command cuz well...we repeated tt manymanymany times! okeh, that's a halfway lie...! then sat around...played concentration...then played donkey! nyahaha! then started to drizzle so went to SJ room...continued playing budden the seniors hu were there when we came in already went home so we got 'halau-ed'...sat ard at the canteen n the rain was heavy! very heavy! better of asleep! So i decided to take the bus instead of walking home! Oh oh! saw some of the sec1s nxt yr...sum are a little nerdy but some are just pure mats&minahs, ahlians&ahbengs...and some are just acting as themselves... but wait till they mix wif those bunch of people den u'll see THE change! What is going to happen to the future human race arh? All those kiddos, not even in pri2 dah act minah aper smue! like mulut takde insurance nyer type! I wanna tag orang lain nyer tagbrd but it keeps showing error msgs jekk tagbrds skalian... And lagi ponn! Most of the blog's webpages cannot load properly! one example, aishah's! ): Let's ALL pray for the internet to be much better much sooner! I want to sleep now...Holidays has pampered me with afternoon naps, which sucks a lot! I'll upload that kuih's pic for u all nxt time! (: I have written my thoughts with love toodles~ im not taking that as an apology accepted...i don even noe if it is accepted in the first place! one minute u act ok-ok towards me the nxt minute, u look as if u are on the verge of killing ME...so which?

library trip!

HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY KRISTINA!

Hello...! Okeh, that girl's name i donnoe howta spell, but still, happy birthday to my neighbour n thx for the goodies! hehe! dah tuer pon dapat goodie bag! :p Anyway...! Trip to lib today with farah n yana...was supposed to meet at 2pm at lib tapii! i was late! stopped by my mum cuz she hvn pray n i hadta take care of iffah who was suppose to be asleep but she was still hyper! -.- And when i reached cwp, was stopped by donnoe which guy from whatever society to help the needy children! So much for won't take me a minute! It took ard 3 mins for him to finish his practiced speech...! And seriously tauu! I don understand a single bit of what he said! I just said no or yes as and when needed...! woopsie! So blablabla! Sampai lib at 2.30! like wth kaaan?! Search for books and guess what?! My world record! i found 3 bks within half an hour! wee~ Den went home straight and my mum was surprised that i reach home earlier then usual! -.- Straight away read one of the book and it was damn interesting and yes...saddening lah some of the parts! Help mum make jam biscuits! hehe! kuih rayer!!! 3 down n dis one more to go! i think...! Eh! 25th december, at ard 8.30pm while i was awaiting for GEMILANG to start (watching it cuz Juz B [sorry, how do u spell it again?] gonna perform!) my dad ringed me and asked me if i want to make my specs tonight or not...And yea, gonna collect my new specs on sat...! And DAMN my degrees increased by 25...watever crap that salesperson talked abt my degree also akuu tak tau! but i noe it increased by 25 and it's oreadi 300+! like sial! And my internet is going crazy! Thanks to that LAN! pffft! Oh yes, my tagboard also takes a looooooooong time to load and i cannot open cbox's webpage! And...the only tag I have tt i saw at ard 7.10 (i think) was frm alif! reply: aper kau mepek? since when im serani? since when my mum works?! i think kaaaan! u got the wrong person lah deyy! Kak naf seriously hvta call that singtel nyer whatever (no)helpline nyer orang! they can only make my LAN connected again and for god's sake eh! firewall isn blocking my MSN lah stupid ass! My firewall isn even on! Ahh! Fuck you lah! OH OH! Internet gonna end on april! like wth?! is it jus me or is it early? it's just me! dah more than a year ehk internet nii? how would you noe! ahaha! Okeh, enuf craps! Off to help my mum make tt kuih! byes!

i have written my tots with love

toodles~

the 25th day on the 12th mth.

Hello! Guess what?! I spent the whole day watching teevee and i am half way through my functional writing! Wee~ The rest is not done yet :p A few days to 2007... A brand new year with a brand new start, I hope... Ouh! Another programme coming up, maybe I won't blog till 2007! MAYBE... Before I forget, Merry Christmas to those celebrating it :) If not than...happy holiday! :) Ohoh! Yes, that AC timer baruu 13 yrs old today...Happy Birthday! :) toodles~

survey

okeh...found dis at friendster (: god damn bored right now... ***** SECTION ONE - About you + Known as: Nasirah/Irah/Adeq (: + Born: 050293 SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER + Fallen off the bed?: uh-huh! clever people fall off the bed + Broken someone else's heart?: Nope! + Had your heart broken?: Hmm...no... + Had a dream come true?: I donnoe, i don think so... SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY... + Wearing: t-shirt n long pants! + Listening to: the sound of my fan (: + Chatting with: chatroom currently unavailabale )): SECTION 4 - DO YOU... + Have any piercings: Yes + Drive: im too young sweets! + Drink: nope! i drink plain water n cold water but not thaaaat water (: + Have a cell phone: yerp! want the number? :p SECTION 5 - LAST PERSON YOU... + Hugged: Iffah + Talked with on the phone: kak naf + Text: aishah SECTION 6- FAVORITES + Show: million treasures, hikmah etcetcetc + Food : do NOT cook me veges please! + Color: pink&black&red&anyblue&lightgreen SECTION 7 - DO YOU... + Like to give hugs: if u need it, i'm here (: + Like to walk in the rain: i luv it [with an umbrella please,thku] + Prefer black or blue: black! + Sleep on your side: i think i do so + Have stuffed animals: heh! yarps! SECTION 8- THIS OR THAT...(pick) + Pierced nose or tongue: neither! :p + MTV or BET: hmm... + 7th Heaven or Dawsons Creek: 7th heaven + Chocolate or flowers: can i have both please? + Colored or black-and-whitephoto: coloured wld be nice! + Stay up late or sleep in: erm...that's hard! i think, stay up late! + Hot or cold: cold + Sun or moon: sun + Left or Right: right + Spring or Fall: raining :p + Happy or sad: obviously happy! + Wonder or amazement: wander? haha! amazement!!! SECTION 9: FIRSTS. + First piercing/tattoo: i donnoe, ask my mum! + First crush: i think i was 11 or was it 12...? hmm... SECTION 10: LASTS. + Last time you cried: two days ago + Last phone call: yesterday...? with kak naf SECTION 11: CURRENT. Current mood: bored Current food: im hungry! in need of that chicken in the kitchen! Current annoyance(s): nobody i guess... SECTION 12: WHO LAST... +Made you smile: my sweets! +Made you cry: HER! SECTION 13: WOULD YOU RATHER.. +Be serious or be funny?: funny! hehe! +Drink whole or skim milk?: wholei suppose +Spend time with your parents or enemie?: parents of course! but i prefer spending time with friends hu r not my enemy! SECTION 14: DO YOU PREFER... +Do you prefer gray or black?: black! +Lust or love?: love <33 +Sunrise or sunset?: sunrise +M&M's or skittles?: skittles! SECTION 15: ANSWER TRUTHFULLY... +Do you like anyone right now?: it'll be a lie if i say no... +Do you believe in love at firstsight?: depends! +Did you fall for the wrong guy or girl?: hah! no...! :p okeh! eh, im addicted to that stressball arh! stressball...!!! okeh, done! toodles~

bluehee!

Hello! Okay, since there isn any training but it's already the end of the week's training so as promised! Pictures up! Camwhored with iffah during those days yang takde training! And Haziq, lucky you! I cannot send ur photo here! SUEY lah ur picture! Oh wells...Done! (: Image quality is very bad! I know, bear with me cuz im getting a new phone sooon! christmas! hurryhurry!!! FFAH With love, ASIRAH toodles~

change blogskin!

hello! Okeh...Today, didn went for training! Messaged Aishah n we decided to sleep back! Wahaha! But that sweets of mine tak tauu aper dier type ehk? kesiaaaaan...! So anyway, today was boriiiiiiing!!! Since bro was at home, cudn use the computer...! Blergh! I was lazing around in my house as always...got pissed off real badly that i maki-ed like chibai! I have nothiiiing to write! Tmr no training cuz they're hving sec 1 orientation thingy...Oh wells! Shall try and have all those homeworks done...! Bleek! Since im bored...I wanna change blogskin again...! Let's go to blogskins.com sweets!!! I have written my thoughts with love toodles~

Training Day2

Hello! And finally I can log in to my blogger account...fcuk u error msg!!! Ahahaha! So anyways, who came for yesterday's training raise up your hand high up with dignity! And let me tell you this (: It's raining heavily! What on earth are you doing in school for training when you can sleep all day long with those cold breeze? Messaged Aishah early in the morning, actually she was suppose to be awake alrd -.- I was still in bed with a headache cause i went home all wet yesterday from the rain at that 962 bus stop (; Then today...! Since they wanted to start training at 7.30...i hitched a ride from my dad :D Ahaha! Case malas... Tell you guys something okies? Just now in the morning, my car was without a front plate number...! Cause...I don't know how...! (: So our guess was becuase of the water that my dad drove into while picking sis from work -.-' Story? Wanna listen? Even if you say no, I'll type it anyway (: It was the recent Monday that dad took sis frm work...It was raining heavily! Then after that, there were lorries driving at the side of the road and my dad was wondering why...the woosh~ He drove straight into the water! Cool! And I wish I was there ): But too bad I wasn't! So anyway! Dad drove me to 620 and i waited for Aishah for ard 10 mins for her to get her hair done! At 8, Haziq finally came -.-' And Alif didn turn up...! Laughed all the way! Haha! Only became a little serious when SSG Asyiq was looking and when SGT Wanie was around there :p Then Kak Wanie made us do the whole sequence...! Seriously, we weren't serious at all! Then traintraintrain... Played donkey, bluff and snap! Funfunfun! ((: Then at around 11, accompanied Kak Wanie to the kopitiam there...drank lime juice! And that attitude auntie was not the cashier! FIUH! Went back to school, more trainings! And they came and made us do a serious drill on the phase 1 :p As if! And you know what?! He compared us with the NP! Like, eh! WTH?! Don't compare us with the NPCCs please ): Then walk home...Reached home at exact 1... Had 3 hrs of sleep, for the first time in my 13 yrs history! I won't be asleep for that long if I am not sick! Wohoo~ Tomorrow, hitching a ride from dad again! But don't worry, dad has the front plate numberfixed for $30...Ahaha! Pathetic! I have written my thoughts with love toodles~ seriously, I am sorry for hurting you guys! I am terribly sorry! I gave you a message at friendster and you merely replied a 'wat ever'...! I am trying with all my heart to gain that friendship again...!

I hate you, I do.

You treat me like some kind of fool and now you expect me to give you my nice&sweet behaviour? FUCK OFF! The reason of me being like this is your attitude towards me... You think that I love going out with you just becuase I smiled, some times?! Oh you got my smiling wrong my dear... My smile is for the public! I answer your fucking unreasonable words back because it is simply unreasonable! Why do you have to make me do everything for you when kakak is home? You see me resting while she was watching the television for liek the whole time, why didn't you ask her to do your bloody chores? Who did you choose to pick? ME! For all the bloody reasons you have, why me?! You just don't seem to see the fact that you ARE being one-sided... And not only that, you are not being reasonable towards me! I do not need to hear your "wise" words because it isn't wise at all! I have had enough of you taking sides towards kakak and never once towards me or abang... What do you take us for? Fools and idiots? Just who do you think you are to control my life and my mouth! I say whatever i want! Nobody are to stop me! And can I ask you a long list of questions that I bet you'll be scratching your head for the answer? What is wrong with having a blog? What is wrong about going out with friends much further than Woodlands? (trust me, my parents didn found out) What is wrong with being just a 13 yr old? And kakak, what is wrong with wearing a pink! Abnormal girl, criticise me all you want but seriously, pink does not have to be the main colour for girls! STOP insulting and criticising me for liking and loving and wearing pink! It's just another colour on the list! And this post is going to end with a... I HATE YOU&YOU&YOU! And I'm the main target because abang isn't home... I'm bursting like a balloon with just a little too much negative air!

training

hello! okeh, now im tired...! training was funfunfun without being scolded at first... budden we got scolded cuz we were sorta playing while training...! haish! donnoe larr... took a photo of thaaaaaat AC leader yg tengah kecoh before we started training... sort of camwhored wif aishah...gambar both of us wif her lar yer...! lemme jus type thru at a glance (: so yea...we took photos while waiting for the grand entrance of alif hu was LATE! ishkishk! heh! aishah kept checking her hair as per norm...! den did some drill at quadrangle den break den NP used the area n we took the basketball or volleyball or watever ball nyer court arh! did more drills den started to drizzle den it rained! wee~ did the circle drills...this time, with haziq,alif,kak atikah,aishah n me (: sweat like hell! den comes the part where they spoil my mood of fun (: den inside SJ room, played donkey ): ohok, i was THE donkey for both the rounds...n we played 2 rds only waaaat! hmmph! im gonna get my revenge sooner or later, n how does tt donkey sound again...? 'played' hide-n-seek wif THEM :p n yea! did more drills near the lower sec block n the two of the boys jus luv the slow march's two rows thingy -.-' okeh, to tell u the truth, im sick of tt drill lah! *yawnz* ended at 1+... okeh done, im sleepy *yawnz* pix will be up aft the week's training (: and i bet Haziq wanna know which photo...NO wait, he saw alrd kaaaan? keh nvrm! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

enjoy?! fcuk!

Hello people! Just came back frm shopping at sheng siong at wdlands checkpoint there... So, at ard 2.30, dad was already waiting downstairs n the reason of them being late is of coz, me! ye larr! hu else will they blame except me as they noe im choosy when i go out! searching for clothes n ponder whether i shld bring a bag or not...hmm! n mum said: kau pergi pakai baju smlm jek lar! oh wells! den there is the bag thing...n yea! decided tt i shld jus bring my pink&black purse n handphone only! Den...headed for rasa-rasa restaurant there...lets see... Foods ordered: fish&chip (mine faithfully!), nasi ayam(sis's yg takde standard langsong!), yong tau foo (mum yg nagging at me since 13 yrs ago), n i donnoe wat my dad ordered cuz i was busy layan-ing iffah n waiting for my drinks! (: water ordered: milo dinosaur shack (mine le! actually i forgot the full name,namer pnjg2), lime juice (sis's which was masam to the max!), coffee (dad's n i hv no comments) when the water came, iffah gave dis look towards my YUMMY drink! please be aware that this is a re-enactment of her reaction! ahaha! n look at my drink! foo~ tasty n huge giler! so eateateat...took time to eat larr actually! for the first time ever i finish my food first...no wait! second cuz dad abes dulu! thats an improvement okeh...! den went shopping! mum saw dis gorgeous kain...! den i saw a shop for bags!!! wee~ n therefore! dis is my nxt year's bag... ugly kaaaaan? cost $16 aft discount...whatever i choose, there'll be an objection from my mum n sis! org punyer suker arh! as if they are gonna carry tt bag all ard the yr! pffft! but hey! at least i got a new bag...!school stuff checklist: bag, black shoes,spectacles! pens,erasers,new pencil box! okeh, den dad move the car nearer to sheng siong -.-' jus don see the point arh! we hadta go out of the carpark which has tt paying thingy n den go in again...waste of time...! okeh, den shopshopshop...THEY shop, I walk ard much further from them cuz i was pissed off! Whatever i want, there'll always be an objection from my mum...n sis! eee! geram nak mampos so i jus walked away from them...n they bought kinder bueno cuz i asked for tt a few hours ago n lost interest in it already cuz they think tt it's gonna cheer me up...! aha! as if! wat will cheer me up at tt moment was if they would just listen to me to wat i want for a moment or two! will they? Noooo! they just walk away...! hmmph! den aft tt, mum n sis n iffah went to the 2nd level while me n dad went back to our car to keep all those stuff...dah simpan smue barang, dad smoked at the front part of the car while i sit at the boot of the car...! n i DETEST smokers to bits n pieces! so smokers, smoke far away from me or i will do something tt u will surprise tt somebody of MY age will do *evilgrins* took a few pix...muahahaha! a few as in very little...! This, was sitting at the boot nyer tmpt while waiting for them n i was taking all those fresh smoke-filled n other toxics air... This, was erm...at the boot of the car also lar...! Keh, dis one was waiting for them inside the cold car...please ignore tt hand as it is unintentionally there (: And straight back home...! at the exit, stuck for ard n hour or so! the bus frm malaysia kaaaaaan, macam sengajer giv out asap!!! like aper? nak kasi pollute Singapore's air? tak payah lah! we have received too many pollutions from our neighbouring countries (: den ader this van which was filled wif mat rock SESAT...we were already at tt place for a few minutes, den wen dad drove much forward, the person beside the driver asked us to stop! like wtf! org dah ke depan dier pon ke depan...asal tak langgar je?! kan lagi bagos! I swear i'll make a very bad driver one day ((: woopsie! eh yarr...for your information kaaaan...! nobody except my sweets n u readers noe tt i go bugis yesterday! yea, lied lar! u think i can even go ut further then woodlands area?! told my dad who was so pissed already yang akuu gi sunplaza! *bluek* I have written my tots wif luv toodles~ oh and, my darling aishah! get well soon sweets~

Berjalan-jalan di bugis

hellooooo! i jus don understand why my dad gets so angry when im home later then time asar ): sick of dis seh! oh well...had this weird talk with sis last night when it was time to go to sleep...! talk abt her friends n mine, comparing more likely...n yea! sis is an abnormal girl lar! n tt was from her own mouth okeh! den today...training was kecohtiringfun! had those silly games...tt loqman lar! close eyes for stationary drills lah, open eyes while moving lah, do the opposite of the command...lame hor? for the sec 1s...haziq,alif,aishah n me came n farah tagged along! hehe! :) den aft zohor berjln wif my sweets! suppose to meet at 2.10pm...n i saw kak nures once n abg faroq twice for ard 20 mins of waiting for farah,liyana n aishah outside boots n shoes...! yes, was there for 20 mins n my leg hurts like hell! saw dis grp of eeeeew step-goth nyer people! *vorrrmit* wanted to go cwp at first but instead...we hit bugis! stand throughout our mrt ride... in search for a place to shop...ended up at bugis junction n went to McD for erm...lunch! n the french fries kaaaaan! so VERY MASIN! den jalan-jalaaaaaaaan! den went to bugis street n jalan-jalaaaaaaan! so yes, i bought nth except for coke,french fries n chicken Mcnugget (which i gave to yana cuz rezeki,jgn di tolaaaaak!) den took 960 to go home...the last time i rode which was 2+ yrs ago, we took ard 45 mins frm wdlands int to sumwhere near tt area...oh wells! SORRY IF IT TOOK AGES TO GO BACK TO THE INTERCHANGE! SORRY! n wat time did i reach home? 7+! AHH! get ready for nags n explanation lor! done! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

ignore it!

ignore my prev post...thk u! ****** oh mymymy! ard 2 wks to 2007! thats fast i tell u! n yea! homewrk blom abes (: erm...i wanna go cwp ke any other shopping centers! saper nk ikot?! raise ur hands! kiter gi shopping till we break our legs! bored at home...don even think of me asking my mum! if i go wif her, it'll be window shopping -.-' gonna order rite pizza later! weehee~ craving for pizza larr... eh eh! sing wif me my dears! im bored so sing to dis blog song wif me!!! usah lepaskan Yang terindah Terlukis di bibir mu Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu Sebegitu Pudar kah sudah cinta yang ku beri Bewarna warni segalaYang dijanjikan ia (Chorus) Usah biarku bersendirian Usah biar hati mu di tawan Usah biar diri ku disini Seorang menunngu tanpa teman Usah lepas genggaman tangan mu Usah biar semua berlalu Usah terlupa perasaan hati Pertama kali kita bertemu Usah lepaskan (Bridge) Tak mudah ku melupa segala yang berlalu Ku ingin selalu bersama mu Chorus Ku tak peduli apa sebabnya Engkau dan dia harus bersama Mendungnya langit bila berkata Kita patutnya masih bercinta Usah lepaskan Usah lepaskan Yang terindah Terlukis di bibir mu Tak pernah ku lihat senyum mu Sebegitu source: http://www.taufikbatisah.net/hometbtaufik.html keh, actually i hv nth to write...lets do some maths sums!!! really? nah! youtube-ing...! taufik-ing...! n nasirah-ing! yea! im waiting toodles~

Oh Shut up!

FULFILL UR UNFULFILLED PROMISES!

Why don you shut? Why do you have to always do this? You promised! ):

bandaging!

Hello! My leg aches due to too much of sitting n lying dwn at home! ): Bad! Was so bored at home n Iffah was fiddling with my bags...n she took my bandage! u noe...the bandage tt we were suppose to bring home to practice... so yea! n the result was amazing: See...since her head is small,we hv a very long xtra to be tied! n she was luffing the whole time aniway! oh n she made me tied dis head bandage on myself n it was much better on my big head! the hand bandage! i used the narrow bandage n it's still too big for her small hand -.-' so the result was atrocious! Hehe! And this one is at the knee...still a narrow bandage! n wehee! it's nice but i think it's wrong! ): the narrow bandage again...since it cannot cover only one eye, i do my way! huahua! nice eh? n finally, my casualty is unconscious... now where is tt bear of hers? HAHA! okeh, i luv tt eye bandage on her! =D oh n dearest peeps! add my yahoo mail (hipgalondalose@yahoo.com.sg) at msn...and those hu chat wif me kaaaan, sorry for the very late reply cuz my fon slowreactionkeypaddahsiaoconnectionslow! okeh? (: Standing waiting for you to be okeh toodles~

nyeahnyeahnyeah!

I still hv the mood to shout a tiring HELLO! :D Too bad that MSN n ebuddy isn functioning or that spleak robot would have to endure my craziness! Actually im very sleepy but here to blog cuz the temperature is high and my room so panas i jus can't fall asleep... Anyways lar, my day is as bored as ever...woke up quite late for suboh n luckily my dad was out to masjid wif neighbours or i'll be as dead as a dead person would be! -.-' okeh, woke up ard 6.35 or later, n saw kak naf walking frm my parents' room to ours'...n where else would she be off to except her work place! aiyoh! This sis of mine seriously donnoe howta hv like hugehuge fun... aniways...bladibladibla, switch on the comp n check mail blablabla... den dadsie came back home wif tosai-s (or toseh, donnoe lars) n prata-s n 2 packs of nasi lemak! lotsa food...n i ate 1 egg tosai n i was full to the max! blablabla...got ready for madrasah which i dread to go since exam is afterall over! nad n syariza pon tak datang...! n blablabla! n guess wat?! only 8 of us turn up n 9 wld be including the teacher! hah! see?! den yay! we got our results! mine is horrible n my mum is furious at me ): bluek! i did pass waaaaaat! Fiqh: 30.5/50 Arab: 70/100 Akhlak: 44/50 n damn HIM, he got full marks for arab! screw u! obviously i hadta tell my mum hu got the highest blablabla...! n the convo goes: ibu: asal kawan kau boleh dpt markah penuh kau tak boleh?! me: (abt to answer) ayah: suroh blajar tak nak! markah mcm gini?! kakak ngan abg kau lagi bagos! n c...my results are always compared to theirs! why can they do better then u? kau pemalas! nak dekat exam baru blajar! mak oi! waited for half an hour for dis malaysian ustazah of mine...n the class was still quiet! woo~ surprisingly! den dismissed 5 minutes early...cuz class was boring n i played my phone the whole time...*yawn* hadta wait ard 20mins cuz dad fecthed me home...skali ader mak aku ngan iffah daa~ so straight away went to pick kak naf n we were half an hour early! so dad drove ard n tt huge house is damn nice! im sooooo drooling over THOSE houses...u noe! the one that is like a bungalow...it shld be a terrace le...hu cares?! i wanna be richrichrich n gonna own tt house! hehe~ amin. smoga ditunaikan hasrat hamba mu (: im so alim today! hehe! den blablabla...at 4pm, kak diana came and the tuition has officially started...n so! i hvta finish up her 5 questions n do ard half of my maths homewrk by dis sunday...Eek! hopefully... den finish up at ard 6.15 n i was so damn sleepy n tired!n nxt wk shall hv mental sums where my brain is gonna explode to bits n pieces! shout 'yay!' everybody! *wohoo!* n i tot i stated for a yay!?! night time falls n hadta go kedai n buy sis's n me, dinner...Ee! im sick of eating at vista's banquet! reason being, service slow...! okeh larr, i always buy my action-aku-yang-masak meal there when my mum isn cooking n more likely nobody's home! n the only kedai that i luv going is the chicken rice stall! hehe! delish! n i think i saw faris (madrasah mate lar) when i walked out of banquet...! Mak Ciks' hv been staring at me for donnoe wat reason! can my face tell tt i hv attitude wif adults? tt's nice to noe (: n bla...watch teevee the whole night! n i watched senario,tt dikir barat competition on rtm1 n the apprentice! ahha! the dikir barat competition was no where near singapore's style... the tukang karut nyer karut tak mengarut! the tok juara nyer suare made me sleepy! so lembek! the awok2...u can tell tt they r shouting their lungs n stomachs n all those intestines n organs they hv out so tt they can be loud! the music? typical dikir barat's music lar... the lyrics or watever, cannot understand at all! they spoke the kelantan way! n u noe, i pretty much think tt Singapore's is much better...the adventage of a girl is, wen u are bored listening to dikir barat of Singapore's (which makes u insane if u r bored), u can go guy-looking! cuz many are cute n young! most likely u can fall for org lain nyer bf or tunang (: but wen u watch dis(malaysia's) dikir barat,wen u r bored, no guy looking cuz they can be of ur father's age or even worse, ur grandfathers'...okeh sorry! im being mean...): n worse cum to worse, u'll fall for somebody's dad (or much more worse, ur bf's dad) n somebody's husband! if u don understand the writings abv,pls ignore it thk u! okeh...apprentice was boring! they jus showed the prev challenges! tmr hikmah's last episode...! n tt remote is mine to control frm 9.30 onwards! nyeahnyeah! i've found one interesting blog to read! so say goodbye! *toodles* standing awaiting for you toodles~

MSN

And in jus a few seconds, she is gonna slam her computer n throw it down to the first level and right into tt huge rubbish chute! Damn tt stupid firewall and damn that stupid LAC!!! Aiyoh! Wat has that firewall n LAC have against MSN messenger (all those fcuking versions)?! And just wat has that ebuddy have against my hotmail account! And i install ALL the versions cuz im sick of waiting for ebuddy to recover! Screw u lah internet, MSN, ebuddy n even dis blardy IE!!! How i wish i can throw the whole set of computer dwn to th efirst level! nice eh? This computer set is kak naf's responsibilty! She bought the whole set n i wld rather hv myself in tt rubbish chute instead of hving her to kill me (: And since she is the comp administrator (or however u spell that), she shld be the one repairing every single thing! And haha! I'm smart enuf to know her password and change my account frm limited to administrator! lala~ You see...if my account is limited, i hvta hv her to install the things that i want...cuz limited account is so limited that u can only do things like going frm a webbie to another but u can't install anything! pathetic! If kak naf switch on the computer everyday and be informed wat is new on computer life and have her download it without hving me to ask...! then im find with having a limited account! But hey, she is very busy at wrk that she doesn switch on the computer everyday n she is useless in being informed what's new on computer life and she won't download anything cuz she thinks that it's gonna take up my time of studying...! I'd rather have the admin account! Blah! And therefore dis gives me the idea of going to my sis's account! wahaha! And yes, lucky me...! She doesn noe my blog add tho she noes tt i hv a blog! :p She has been sleeping frm the time she came back frm wrk till now! T.T And the greatest part is, she won't noe! Ooo! Im basically telling everybody hu is reading this! Haha! Okeh, im evil...! But as if i care! And u noe...i feel like hitting my handphone hard on the wall seh! I'm being very violent today (: good thing or bad thing, up to how violent i'll be ((: That effing phone of mine...internet connection slow nak mampos! And that mobile ebuddy lagi tak gune! Nn...i can only change my phone aft christmas -.-' pffft! Yes, my dad took an advice frm his fren at work cuz they are, according to my dad, good at knowing the prices! Ouh...thk YOU so much...But if the prices are bloody high aft xmas and i don get to change my phone, i'm so gonna cum aft them!!! ouh well...my phone is practically mute already! And actually, im happy of tt cuz tt means, my fon bill is much lower! if it is so...my dad won't take my phone away! like, WOHOO!!! ((: Standing, waiting for you to be okeh toodles~

ihateyou

Hey-ho... Getting away frm this house would really be nice...! This house is just the room for me to be insulted! What's the use of a family if u can't share ur thoughts with? Everybody is busy doing their own stuff n leaving me all alone to cry my eyeballs out! Ouh haha... That came out wrong! I don have any feelings, as said by that particular someone... It's a waste of my breathe n saliva to fight my own rights in this house... Ouh, yea! I'm the young one, wat do i noe bout THAT?! My utmost heartfelt to myself! It's nice to engage urself to a song that can just make u feel like u are one of them...At least u won't feel like u r alone eh! been listening to it lotsa time!

a prob aft another...haish!

Hello awake humans (: It has been a very boring n suckish holiday n am really in need of window shopping or/and shopping without my parents...! But im very lazy to go out...lala~ Hmm...homeworks are still on hold! Hehe! Not even a single dot on my english works... A few questions done for maths...Ah goy! I hate doing maths on holidays...! Tuition gonna start dis sunday! Eek! Ain't ready i tell u! Forgotten lotsa thing that kak diana thought me... Formulas blablabla! The only thing that i can rmb is tt i met her target for my maths eoy paper n howta do algebra! (: Good eh? I want my bloody MSN back seh! if not MSN then ebuddy shld be good enough! Not fair seh, how cum my bro's computer account can sign in to ebuddy but my comp account can't?! Siak jek... Hmm...Kak Naf said tt she mite consider bringing me to wrk! Haha! Imagine a 13 yr old stepping her feet for the first time to sembawang shipyard! I wanna go but kaaaaan...she said tt her office is very far in so im considering! Home is certainly not the best place to let out your crazy self! Im planning to sleep late tonight! lets say...3am? yea! shall watch the VCDs i hv at home...hehe! n disturbing kak naf's sleep will mean tt im gonna hv the worst day of my life ): Hah! Wat the heck...im on a holiday in my own room wif my sweets computer bebeh! Saper suroh gi overtime besok?! takder yg suroh pon...Her work is calling HER n the computer n VCDs are are calling ME! huahuahua! too bad kak! :D aites! since tt ebuddy isn functioning like it shld be, im off...teevee, here i cum! teevee n internet are getting boring-er nowadays... Joyous holiday wif teevee ): blergh! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

im sorry

I'M SORRY FOR THE MISTAKES THAT I DID

huever is using oggix as a tagbrd, im sorry i didn tag but i did try but the msg didn cummout ):

Just another word. ):

N i have been thinking how to apologise to all of u for my mistakes for the past few weeks...i need my ebuddy really badly! just how am i suppose to say my sorry?! eurgh! i hate dis computer...! They want me to say sorry personally...will a SMS do? will a testimonial do? will a tag do?! Gosh...Pick one will u? 5th dec is finally here...but im not happy! gonna miss my current phone n i hv nobody to share the joy wif...like as if they care! i shldn hv posted tt stupid post...!

I do not know what else I should do to be forgiven...

If everything I did and am going to do will not change the situation,

I do not know what else I am going to do...

I miss the happy n joyous moments we had,

And I am losing those moments we shared,

Each time the clock ticks...

I miss the times when we go out together,

The laughters are still in my head,

And I know,

Those moments are losing everyday because of what I did...

If my apology is not to be taken,

Then please,

Tell me a way that it will even if it means getting myself hurt...

N i'll start sending my apology soon...

i hv written my tots wif luv n tears

toodles...

Sick! Damn!

hellooooooo! i don think i can come for tmr's training...! blah! we shall c (: started training wif case studies...! NA started off first! wahahaha! erm, ms siti combine the 2 prev case studies...! n wahahahaha! u noe, im a lazy bum ryte? i bcame the nose bleed! budden i hadta faint...cuz wrong treatment...! best arh fainting! in the mid of treatment i mean...! like so coooool, okeh lame! den NC's turn...n i gotta do the easiest injury cuz i hadta call for ambulance...n guessguessguess hu i hadta treat? kak kiirah! the ticklish casualty...nk angkat dier jekk, she luffed a lot! n i made a lot of mistakes for today's case study...dang! den half an hour break n footdrill...! blah...wasn in the mood cuz 1) the weather was blardy hot! 2) my temperature was slowly rising up again... stupid siak! n weeheeeee! we finished the whole footdrill sequence...! kak wanie taught the commands aft slow march...n urgh! glenda din turn up cuz of flu, she n her excuses...! so we've finished the sequence n we need to train hard n a lot...! n i can't rmb the last timing...! dang! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

case study...!

helloooooo... my leg hurts!!! footdrill...! i loikehate! hehe! erm...learnt slow march...! blarghblarghblargh! i don like~ slow march is so, well...SLOW! my timing for it was so fcuking eeeeww! den half an hour break den had case study! wee~ i hate case study! today, NC hadta start first! urgh! if not then we cld've jus cut n paste watever the NA did...hehe! n the first time i got shirley!!! wee~ nose bleed...den the gunshot wound casualty died! woohoo! cuz nobody seems to be treating kak atikah! second time...ahh!!! i hate yet i like (: i hadta handle 2 casualty since these 2 are not thaaaaaat serious...! nose bleed n miscarriage...n both are ultimately kecoh! guess my two casualties? u shld noe :D me n shi hui can't lift kak atikah up to change the dressing...! waaaaaaat?! i became the nose bleed casualty...i soooo shld've been kecoh seh! n kak wanie kept boo-ing wen i was facing dwn as instructed -.-' aft tt, we had footdrill again...! wahahaha! shld i say dis...? nah! don think so, nanti kene marah ngan the kakak-s! n they want us to be the 3rd position...no promises! (: another case study tmr...2 cases! siak je! case study makes me sleepy sehz! unless i go kanchiong den im wide awake! aft tt usual larr...den it started to rain oh-so-heavily! okeh...i need my pillow right now!!! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~ ouh nn we will go 'boom cha'cha'' for slow march tmr!!! lolx!

my gosh!

helloooooo... my hands damn tired...its no use talking to u (: oh well...my timing suck n i lost my focus during training jus now... well, hidayah was acting quite strangely at first n i kept feeling sumthing halfway near that tree...n my drills so totally sucked today! sorry to NC for any cause of tiredness due to my timing n my lack of focus! too much on my mind n i donnoe howta put it in wrds...! footdrill was as desribed above...we kept far enuf frm tt tree...! but sgt wee yong kept on disturbing us abt yesterday's incident... first aid was blargh! my right hand is tired frm copying a chunk of notes for FA n home nursing...im no machine...! tmr case study! n i've yet to forget bout yesterday n keep my focus on wat im doing...n i've yet to study for the case study...! case study...it sux, but we hvta do it, wattodo?! aites...im in need of sum sleep...! nn i told my parents n kak naf bout the incident...! n i got a scolding for not ajak-ing the rest to read prayers ): haish! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

oh yes...no!

hellooooo... no mood to blog arh... reasons ehk? 1) im pissed off! wif tt stupid n inconsiderate neighbour n my darn handphone! 2) im not feeling like myself right now 3) im sorta spooked out by tt incident... oh training was still the same...till we got to tt particular huge tree, aishah n me felt weird, u noe, like the chills... okeh, im very diff...i don get chills! whenever i feel like there is tt thing there, i will be feeling like very hot out of a sudden...im much more weird i noe! n hidayah was well...she saw tt thing siak! im blogging dis n almost maghrib ready seh! lets get dis done fast! so...hidayah starts to get all scary n all! like, she get rasuk by that thing... n sgt wee yong n kak atikah went to tt tree...fcuker! n watever hidayah saw, im hallucinating it here in my room, sumhow! n now...im sooooo totally cancelling tt wish...! ouh n its bad enuf tt i can actually feel it...! i take back watever wrds i said abt me rather seeing it then feeling it...! i take back!!! seriously... huever is luffing at dis post is practically heartless! ouh n jus now...went to cwp wif aishi! dat alif n haziq ehk! tak guner langsung! cakap nk ikot tapi batang hidong pon tak nmpk! so we went to shop arh...i bought my sis's VCD...! blah! while walking, we kept on thinking bout tt incident...n i donnoe howta face hidayah tmr aft wat happened today...! my mum n aishah's mum said tt, tt thing can menjangkit...! now...im thinking like very god-damn hard howta face hidayah tmr! n im standing right bside her for footdrill sequence summore...kak kiirah looks pale seh! aft wat happened to hidayah, n wat she did to calm her dwn...i'll faint i tell u! n ya Allah!!! i cannot stand it larr...whenever i think howta face her tmr right...i'll be hallucinating... okeh...i donnoe...! im feeling very spooked out larr...n now im pissed cuz my inconsiderate neighbour let his dog out of his house...fucker! n when i came back, tt two dogs was at the lift there, then dis neighbour's bro quickly force the dog to go back in...like so obvious he noes wat is right n wat is not kaaaan?! n my fon is giving me headache...! sial nyer handphone! i hv written my tots wif luv [im giving tt a 2nd thought] toodles~

Grudge 2

hellooooo! morning morning! yesterday! my feet hurts...monday confirm the 2 of us cannot do footdrill! (kalau ader) huahuahua! firstly, we promised to meet up ard 1.20pm at blk 620...budden i went out at 1.30 or so den by the time i reach tt blk, i was drenched wif rainwater -.- msg her, she hvn siap! wt... why m i using 'her' n not the real name?! o.0 so waited n waited...my payung also drying already n my seluar also drying up! shldn hv wore tt green pants...blergh! n finally, ms aishah kiter sudah sampai...! *claps* den went to cwp nyer cinema! wakakakaka! yesyes, shld noe how i escape frm my mum's clutches of not going to movies...! bought the tix then went jln2 ard cwp... movie was okeh...scary larr! huever msged me frm 3.34 till 5.35 or so n i din reply, sori, in the mid of the movie bebeh! aishah was erm...u shld hv seen her larr...in the midst of her shouting "eh, my fringe okeh tak?" -.- takot2 ponn bleh tanyer pasal fringe... oh n u shld catch it!!! nicie! aft the movie...we went ard cwp for hourss... den went to CD-rama n i sooooooo wanted to buy tt black parade CD but there was also hot hits 2007 CD...darn! so bought tt hot hits2007 den off to search for farah's bdae present! safe for me to write here cuz she cannot online waaaaat! fiuh! keh den frm metro to hallmark to john little to cards n such to precious thots to manymany otehr stores! now my leg hurts...n when u walk wif me, u shld open ur ears bigbig cuz i can hear watever other people r talking so wen i tell u my opinion i don hvta repeat it (: but it'll be much more fun to repeat dem...khakha! den we went to music junction den to TS CD shop in search of VCD for kak naf...yesyes, aishah was right...! the VCD at TS much cheaper (: bought ice age 2 for $12.90 n the ring two for $8!!! cheap kaaaaaaan? reached home at almost 9...! tak kene marah! woo~ den watched ice age2 n wee~ i loike! n we started watching at 11...so ended late night but now im not sleepy!!! blargh! my sis wants scary movie nyer VCD...blargh! which meeeeeans, i hvta go again...*calling aishah to go out soooon* keh erm...today, go madrasah n planning to buy lunc kat kfc cuz i very lazy to cook for myself...wahahaa! aites, that is all...! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~ HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY to dearest FARAH!!!

darn sis!

helloooo! im back aft erm...a few unupdated (mcm ader wrd niie!) days... lets make everything short (: my IE is going crazy...ebuddy cannot sign in! blah! lets c... wednesday training was okeh...i suppose! footdrill n first aid...bla3! booooooring! first aid i mean... den rushed home n got ready to ber-rayer wif 1e1 peeps...its not as fun as it was suppose to be... oni 7 of us turned up... -farah -yana - mememememememe!! -aziz -sham -nabil -farhan reached home 5 mins b4 the time we were suppose to meet so i asked dem to cum my house themself! hehe! at my house, eat eat! iffah was scared of sham for i donnoe wat reason...n iffah seems to be smiling at aziz all the time -.- den while i was wearing my tudong, my mum went in n nag at me to bhave myself cuz the boys' behaviour was horrid...nxt was sham's house...he made us walk ard like idiots! n they pressed the lift buttons at all numbers...god! den farah n farhan fought over hu's house we shld go ferst...so we ended up going to farhan's den farah's...den we serbu-ed haziq's den went to aziz's which was god-damn spoooky! n the guys left us 3 gerls bhind kat 911 bus stop...blah! assholes! reached home ard 8.30 n slept right aft cleaning myself n praying...khekhe! thursday footdrill n played 'game' -.- n kak atikah gave the command so fast larr~ first aid...blah!!! nxt day hv case study...oh mann! aft tt went to kfc at admiralty wif kak atikah n kak kiirah n aishah...was talking bout me n aishi cursing sumbody time prefects investiture...den dis sumbody came -.-'' n we luffed like mad people on the lose! n i spilled my drinks while aishah was outside luffing like mad wif her mouth filled wif water! kwangkwangkwang! friday footdrill n den combine wif the NA, AC n AA to do footdrill wif the 2 seniors... hentak kaki mcm nak mampos...my legs hurts n the guys wanted to sabo me to bcum timer, budden timer tak tukar...hahaha! :D first aid case study was scary...my dearest caualty kept on luffing n sitting den lying dwn den sitting n continue-ing tt cycle...yes, that kak kiirah dah giler :) today nth much...going out wif aishah later...gonna watch grudge 2! ahh! later at nite perhaps...going jln rayer wif fam to cik amat's, cik awie's n cik hashim's if not at nite time, then aft dadsie has cum back frm johor... aites! tag replies: (yanaNESS) yes, tt song very jiwang! haha! yesyes! waste his money on us :) (ellie) ellie! yea! (pyroalif) huh?! i hv dis song nyer vid kat youtube larr...i'll tag wen im free (yanaNESS) yea! i luv the vid...! updated :) n yerps! tt's the name of the song! found out ready! (singping) erm...its not tt im listening to 80th century song, but its u hu hv not been listening to too much english nicenicenice songs! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

kenangan yg terindah; samsons

This song has nvr failed to make me think of somebody...God knows who! And the song is just well...Emo kinda song? o.0 Well, those malay students just read the lyrics n understand the deep hurtful but true words of the lyrics... (: Aku yang lemah tanpamu, Aku yang rentan karena, Cinta yang kau telah hilang darimu yang mampu menyanjungku, Selamat tak terbuka, Samapi jantung tak berdetak, Selama itu pun aku mampu untuk mengenangmu. Darimu... Ku temukan hidupku Bagiku... Kaulah cinta sejati... Bila yang tertulis untukku, Adalah yang terbaik untukmu, Kanku jadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku, Namun, takkanmudah bagiku meninggalkan jejak hidupku, Yang telah terukir sebagai kenangan yang terindah. n check for the full sadding video here ((: n the video jus makes u feel very sad n feel like crying...no effects on u den my reason for u is tt, u r not me (: n these are specially for her

Yes. We do laugh...With each other n also at each other!

Don't expect anymore friendly words and actions from me!

When I can't stand something, I'll say what i really wanna say...

Words that I've held back in my heart so that you will not be so hurt!

But guess what?!

I feel hurt by what you did to me n I still do!

I won't forget how others treat me and talk to me, easily.

If friendship you are searching for, search for it!

But I'm gonna tell u dis much earlier before you'll search for it in me.

My friendship with n for you is no longer available.

Though I won't give you my friendship, all the best my fren

cockroach!

helloooooooo! okeh, thk u aishah! now im stuck wif tt kenangan terindah ;by samsons, song (: okeh! lets c... been shouting a lot today! my timing has been god-damn fast for the last 2 days n i find it soft! blah! nn my timing sux to the core ): nn lastly...overall,my timing sux ): nn the sec 1 n 2 nursings n ms siti was shouting for "COCKROACHES!" muahahaha! lots of cockroaches was in tt SJ room n i mite jus lose my voice aft aaaaaall those shoutings... so...today dadsie isn wrking so i hvta type this whole post quickly so tt i won't be scolded for being in my room for sucha long time on the comp... woke up later than yest... n by the time i reach at tt block, i c a banana standing (: den bla3... diorang smue training, NC helped out wif the SJ board... cantek tauu!!! den we did 3 rounds, wif mrs chuah... -.-'' isn she suppose to be resting a lot?! keh fine watever...! den bla3... went for FA theory like yest... ms siti came in n we helped out to clear the files at the shelves n tadaa! cockroaches starts to cum out...! eeww! n kak kiirah was the ferst one to shout cuz the roach was near her... n wat do u noe...! all the nursings including ms siti was standing outside of the room shouting... haha! n mr chong came to the...rescue o.O teachers went off so the ambulance hu was hving TOC came to help (: muahahaha! n sgt chea hau picked the roaches by it feelers (or however u spell it) like eww!!! n he picked, erm...5 of those small cute cute roaches...! blergh! disgustingNESS! den when everything has been cleared up, we continued our thoery lesson... ended at 1.30!!! den blablabla... den we went to kedai~ haha! wanted to buy my aloe vera pulps budden! i saw seasons ice lemon tea~ muahahaha! keh den bla3... my hp dropped on the grd... right aft i took aishi's foto while she was singing...! heex~ tmr make sure u sing like today keh sweets?! haha! den my fon was alright again cuz! nabila dropped it on the grd again -.-'' stupid fon! den bla3... switched on the comp n straight to youtube.com n search for tt *points to the starting of the post* song n yes! i like luv it!!! keh...that is all...! gotta revise those FA theory thingy cuz tmr mrs chuah is taking us...! argh! scared stiff~ n yes...revise my timing also! fcuk larr...i hate my timing ): okeh...plan plan: -revise FA notes -revise timing -polish boot -gosok baju PE -gosok baju for tmr jln rayer wif 1e1 peeps most importantly...! -WATCH TEEVEE!!! oh n...god! dis jln rayer kaaaaaan! making my head pening! one minute they say they r cuming, the nxt they say they aren't...wth! make up ur mind larr peeps! watever it is...2.40 sesiapa takder kat outside BK, goodbye! we shld go off! err...im excused? cuz mine first house waaaaat! n my house is far frm the sch larr... yana...rmb wat to do aites! keh...done! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

"bila yang tertulis untukku, adalah yang terbaik untukmu

kan ku jadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku

namun takkan mudah bagiku, meninggalkan jejak hidupku

yang telah terukir abadi sebagai kenangan yang terindah"

Kenangan yang Terindah-Samsons

note to my dearest self

for the last time nasirah! the timing for berhenti is:

fall on left leg = check one *bang*

fall on right leg = check *bang*

argh! go practice by urself!!!!

first training...

hellooooo... dah tak bernyawer lagik akuu nk type! damn tired! lets c...yest, oni a few dearest aunts n uncles n cuzzins came...aperr daa~ org ader kat umah tak nk dtg, org takder kat umah nk dtg...ishk ishk! aniwaaaaaays...! woke up ard 8.15...gosok-menggosok! den reached at aishi's house waaaay earlier den watever time we r suppose to meet up...hee! while waiting for tt cik kak turun, saw dis cute n chubby kiddo main playgrd wif his maid...sooooo cute larr! so bla3....jln sambil memorise commands (for aishi) n timing (for me)...den luff! n donnoe y she kept on luffing at my timing for marching -.-' den had footdrill session wif KAK atikah...n aishah hadta report to the tree nerby...n hahaz! tt tree is a female? o.O bleh larr tuu...! lol den sgt gan chea hau took us sec 1 fac teams...n blargh! im not gonna do timing animore...! penat dan mengahus kaaaaaan larr~ den bla3...half an hour break den had theory session wif ms siti...! learnt abt the unconscious casualty bla3...den balik! kak atikah ajak me n aishah gi mkn...budden lmbat larr!!! went to check her nxt yr's class again n again... -.- so me n aishi jln jekk balik! wahaha! den blablabla! walked home by myself...den started to rain! aperr daa~ so reached home, iffah asleep n mumsie in e washrm n abg aee is asleep... hahaz! now is my turn to sleep larr yerr!!! kk! tmr training again...ahhh!!! tonite going out to cik rahman n cik karim's house... wahahaha!ore pix cuming, i suppose... im done~ abg aee wanna use the comp...so that's all for 2dae my dears! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

lalala~

helloooooo! hari raya has nvr failed to make me oh-so-god-damn tired... n jus now went to madrasah but oni 11 of us turned up...! pffft! gi bukak siang-siang saper suroh?! so yesterday, oni went to rumah cik mamat, cik eda, mummy{cik mail} n cik aide... so few houses but i was sooooo tired...! cuz bro's frenz came over in the morning...abg fareez came first so he asked me bout my studies...bluek! he was like, damn shocked tt i failed my maths at sec1 level...okok! fine, my maths is soooo damn bad tauu! den we talk n talk...den abg aee's frens came... den helped them to take the pix...n yes! crazy bunch...wasn any candid pix arh...aperr daa! den they went off... i had the back seat of the car to myself wif iffah!!! woots~ hahaz! den hadta wait for him to cum home cuz he had forgotten to bring his house keys...blergh! n so me n kak naf slept outside while awaiting! lalala~ den on e prev friday nite, lotsa ppl came...! my house was jammed wif humans...heex~ lets c: -wak dol came over wif mak ton, abg azri n abg sharil...abg sha'in din manage to cum cuz he was wrking, i think... -abg asri wif kak su n their 2 daughters -cik jamil n cik ani -cik kiah n cik dahlan wif one of their cucu hu is a sri warna's dancer...kiiiiiiut! -cik hasna n cik karim -mak long n kak diana... that's all i think...kak diana n mak long went home at 1.15 am...talk bout lots of things! hehe! i loike! n kak diana was happy tt i got 63 for maths! wee~ n yes, i can do much better! erm...thats all...! so boring but tiring! ((: keh, ader tamu so i'll make a move... (: ouh n my dearest peeps yg akan berjln rayer on wed nanti...no outsiders please! if possible, bawak lots of cameras...sayer undur at dis prt cuz my cam rosak! n i'll use my hp jekk larr... n if yana have called, we might be going to mdm rabia's house... ouh n yana, i was seriously kidding jus now... ((: n saper2 nyer umah boleh dtg, tag me or msg me directly! my house ferst house but we'll still be meeting outside BK... jus in case korang smpi akuu blom balek training... aites, trainings starts tmr...blargh! n aishi...i rmb my timings already!!! :P wee~ so gd luck to the NC n AC leader in memorising ur commands...lala~ aites! im gone :) i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

survey

hellooooooo! im back wif survey frm friendster...was encouraged by those crazy wrds tt was put up by non other den my dearest ms evil rebekah! hahaz! jus too farnie...but i'll post my own wrds: -type ur reactions to the following- why are you always like that? -what? don like my attitude or sumthing? why r u always like thaaaat den? i jus realised now that i luv u -y did u jus realise it? i jus realise tt u r not my type :)) leave him/her already! u'll be much more happy wif me -how do u noe? n puh-lease! u wanna beg me to leave him, check ur english! come on! smile, you're cute when u do tt -hahaz! :D pls do my math homewrk too -wth?! no waaaay! if u r gonna ask me to do ur maths, wats nxt? ur laundry n house chores too?! i m so blessed to hv sumone like u -awwww...thats so sweeeeet of u! me too... :)) why does monday cum bfore tuesday? -that's a stupid question! y aren't u born earlier to state tt tuesday cums before monday?! i hv two tix to go to the linkin park concert. wanna cum wif me? -wat to wear?! how did u get the ticket?! shld i go shopping?! wat make-up shld i apply?! u picking n sending me home?! when is it?! where is it held at?! OMGOMGOMG! wat shld i do?! ahh!!! *speaks very loudly n fast n go crazy!* u r one of the most special people in my life.did u noe tt? -awww...i jus noe that, since u told me! :) i think im falling for u -m i a staircase? since u noe, u r falling...*speaks very uncomfortably* i can't smile without u -u shld learn! its very easy...jus bring up ur lips nearer to ur nose...shld end up looking like dis :) thk u for everything...but u jus aren't him/her -welc...i noe, im jus glad i was here to listen to u :D *smile very hugely* wats ur mobile number? -oh it's 944 tekan-tekan tak dapat! *run off,FAST! while shouting 'help! rapist!'* can i hv dis dance? -oh ok :) one only! may i escort u? -i need the ladies! u wanna escort me, it'll be very sweeeet of u! ((: u still luv him/her till now? -yarps! so? nth to do wif u ryte? u were everything! everything i wanted -im not everything u wanted! im not ur food ryte? so believe in wat im gonna say, i ain't ur everything! when will i get ur sweet eyes -do u c the rightful owner sign down in there in my eyes? it states tt its mine n soul-ly MINE!!! hahahaz! plain stupid... okeh, wanna catch sum sleep now! nitey-nitez! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

jln raya!!!

helloooooos! my hands are effing tired frm typing all those sms-es too yana n sham... so its all ready n we r jus waiting for answers as to which people cuming to jalan raya wif us... Sec 1e1 2006 jalan raya: Wednesday, 8 Nov 2006 2.30pm outside burger king at causeway pt don be late! okeh, so...any other stuff to clarify, i donnoe hu u guys shld ask! hahaz! okeh crap... erm...im jus simply bored at home arh... nth much to do... thought of doing those composition that is still in my bag, but blah! nxt mth perhaps...im still in the mood for rayer, not! i mean im in the mood for holidays so don spoil it! okeh, i wanna watch princess hours...! heex~ i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

Bloody Stupid

hell ooooooos...! hellooooos! yes, there is a different :) glad u noticed... aniwaes...lets just say that world war 3 is about to start...! if this continues, their secrets will leak ): saddening but true... you don expect me to keep quiet for a long time... im as open minded as adults are... n if u people think u guys r so clever...get dis matter settled quickly! it'll be jus a matter of time, den i'll be exploding wif words cuz this is jus too much...! u guys fight, u guys quarrel! wat? u want me to sit back n watch! NO WAY! soon, i'll talk...u guys will be surprised indeed... n jus no matter how tight my parents hold me back frm talking, when i start my words, i'll only stop when i feel like it! u guys don need to understand wat im blabbering...i have many things on my mind n i jus donnoe howta solve them...when i do, there will be new problems arising out of the old-solved ones or my parents will stop me... but the above case, i won't sit for long unless they talk it out real soon and out of my sight! oh god! im stressed up larr...forget abt it! niways...i forgot all those short timings BUT! i rmb the long timing! haha! crazy right? but hey! thats me! okeh, aishah! jadi jgn tak jadi! hahaz! i was jus kidding tauu! 912 bus stop it will be... nn any other nc hu wants us to wait for u? jgn nk harap...hahaz! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~ imserious!upeoplehavepunylittlebrain,nowonderucan'tthinkproperly!fucker!

It's true

life is too difficult... everybody change, it is up to them to whom they wanna change themselves into... life is too good to be true, cuz its nvr good n nvr true! sumtime u can trust a person, all the time, there is nobody u shld trust... nobody is good at keeping secrets... its a lie if they say so... not all ur secrets will be safely kept. nobody says the truth... nobody speaks the truth... y can't they jus say the truth... will it hurt? it won't kill, will it? u shldn trust anybody, at all... u won't noe when they will leak ur secrets... u won't noe when u will leak their secrets... u won't noe when n where secrets will leak... y is life this difficult...? jus y? y can't people be happy wif wat they have? y do they want more? y do they disagree wif one another? ain't life full of stress... nobody understands each other... so everybody shld jus stop pretending to understand each other... life is abt understanding! but u shld try to understand tt if u don understand urself, nobody can ever understand u... so wat if people criticise u? so wat if people underestimate u? u shldn criticise urself! u shldn underestimate urself! u r leading ur own life! they won't! they walk in to ur life, they walk out of ur life! they don leave their footsteps, cuz they r not ur true frens... so stop pretending tt they r ur true fren! u noe they aren't! u will understand that one day... sumthing u din expect, will cum true... sumthing u long for, sumthing u've been hoping, n wishing, n dreaming for... but u won't noe, when they will cum, where they will cum, why did they cum, what did they cum for, how will they cum...true, for u... jus wait for that one day...n pray hard, it will come! expect the unexpected! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

penat

hellooooooos! been jalan raya-ing wif my family during the weekends, so no updates larr... on saturday, managed to cover up 8 houses... started at 10.30 in the morn...n we went to busu's house!!! been a long time since i went there aft mak long pindah...i miss tt house! n the night before i dreamt abt my arwah nyayi...nn i dreamt tt she kissed me...! awww, i miss her so much! i miss those time...! aniwaaays...then on the sunday, 7 houses out of wdlands n 3 houses at my house area... so 10 houses on sunday... haha! banyak nyeerr... but there is still a whole lot more to go...i hv my mumsie's sedare-sedares' houses to complete n my dadsie's siblings...n we can nvr complete within this one mth...haha! tt much of houses to go including wrks n schools to go... fiqah n alisha came wif kak linda,abg fandi,kak iana n mummy on the recent fri...it was gooood! fiqah n alisha was sumhow fiting over iffah's toys...wat can iffah do but sit n stare at dem! hahaz! okeh, there's sumbody cuming to ber-rayer at my house, i'll blog in other times when im free aites... u noe, wen it cums to hari rayer...im oways bz...! pix will be uploaded at multiply wen im free... n im not cuming tmr... my fever always cums back in the morn... so im not cuming (: i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

1e1

been bloghoping to my classmates blogs n heard the news tt 1e1 won the best class competition yerr? congrats larr! though each one of us do think tt it is a funny thing tt we cld actually won... but hey...we won ((: n its a gd n lucky thing tt we will still be together nxt yr...! if not, i'll miss their seriously irritating yet funny attitudes :) n im gonna miss my 5 darlings since its the holidays ryte... without u knowing n realising, u hv finish a yr of ur studies n there is ard 5 or more yrs to go...everyday, a day less for u to start wrking...every yr another step to maturity...every year, u'll meet people tt change-for the better or/and worst-or people who will stay as hu n wat they r... everyday is a step to everything new. Nothing shld be a surprise cuz tt is wat life is all abt... nobody expects u to get worst but people still change to be worst... jus so to make this clear to her a girl's life is not abt hving the beauty, not abt hving the fringe, not abt clips...its all abt maturity n how u behave in front of others...ur first impression for them is the most impt thing ever...n not forgetting ur heart n ur mindset... if u r gonna tell me tt u r going to behave like wat u r now till the end of ur life, i hv nth else to say but, pls change for the better...nth bout u is gd cuz everything is bad... n to my 5 most treasured fren, aishah,farah,liyana,hazirah n nabila, thk u so much for being there for me when i needed u...life wif u guys by my side was wonderful n i luv it to bits n pieces of my life :)) n to my teachers...sorry for those cold looks i gave...n those harsh wrds... u din see or heard me but i did do it... n to my seniors, thk u for ur wise wrds...thx to u, im able to move on wif my life ((: everyone is obsessed wif princess hours n so am i! hahaz! my blogger seems to hv woken on the wrong side of the bed, so i cannot post any pix...it'll all be at multiply aites?! okeh, nights! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

sick, again

hellooooooos... im still sick as a sick gerl can be...n tt was y i didn turn up for the last sch today, n i watched teevee for the whole day...good eh? tmr hvta go to sch to collect my report book...dammit sia! as if im sooooo rajen nak pergi gituk... y can't my dad take it? darn leceh... anihooooos, i mite not b able to jln rayer tonight cuz im hving fever, again... n i carry panadol where ever i go since the ferst day of rayer((: erm...lets c, i don hv anythigng else to write in... oh wait...! i passed my science!!! so unexpected! erm...56 yesyes, so low! but watever tt will show on my report book might be worst... so expect the unexpected... okeh, i finally found my panadol which i lost it sumwhere in my bedroom...now, i gotta go n eat it, blergh! n if there's any school-ing during the hols, msg me pls n thk u! ((: i hv written my tots wif luv tag replies: yanaNESS: slamat hari rayer! same here, sori berlori-lori! khalidah: hie kak! i was much better but im sick again...slamat hari rayer to u, samer-samer larr yer...! thk u, u stay cute n preety too keh?! pyroalif: slamat hari rayer! im sori for watever i said oso, n gd to hear tt u'll change for the better...yesyes! a promise should be well kept! thx for tagging peeps! toodles~

Selamat Hari Raya!

hellooooooos! wen u hv the time to rest, do watever u wanna do [except eating cuz u r fasting ((: ] Hari Raya tmr...n im damn not excited... my demam like hell, skejap aderskejap takder! lets not talk bout tt larr...hari raya cuming n i sound like sum type of saddist frm donnoe which country ntah...(: n yes, sempene hari lebaran yg akan menjelang, i wanna say sorry to all those around me hu hv been affected by my ridiculous moods... sorry for donnoe wat wrds tt came out of my mouth for the whole 13 yrs of my living... im deeply sorry for everything i've done...im jus another human living on this planet earth, im not perfect ((: so please forgive for anything n everything i've done. if watever i wrote in my blog hurt u or anything, im sorry i didn realise that...my deep apologies((: Ampun dan maaf andainya: TERkasar bahasa, TERsilap bicara, TERmarah yang tak kena, TERsasul yang tak sengaja. TERpukul di mana-mana, TERpekik di telinga, TERhantuk di kepala, TERpinjam harta-benda, TERmoody tak semena-mena, TER umpat bila-bila, TERmacam-macam lagi yang sewaktu dengannya... Harap dimaafkan dengan serela hati anda((: to all the MUSLIMS, EID MUBARAK ((: to the non-muslims, enjoy dis one day holiday ((: i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~ n again, selamat hari raya aidilfitri

sick sick sick

helloooooo! im so sick tt i don think i will actually be able to jln rayer on the first day itself...we shall c how... anihoos... friday late night n saturday early in the morn, seriously early...went to geylang! wahaha! tt was the night, or shld i say morn, before i fell sick... so...was in search for dadsie's last minute baju rayer n mumsie's clothes... n i was craving for dendeng! been a very long time since i eat dendeng yarr... so...we took more then an hour to park the car, so long! so in the meantime, there's like lot of policeman there n wat else can i do in the car bored to death?! oh u r so darn clever...guy-looking*ehem* n all of dem r so cute ((: den walk here n walk there... kak naf found a baju... a long dress kebaya...blergh! dadsie got 2 pairs of baju... mumsie bought lotsa tudung...for us larr cudn find her baju cuz many shops was oreadi close... in the midst of all the joy, i felt very lonely... yes, i donnoe y )): my mum nvr include me in any searching of clothes... she says i hv a bad taste... like puh-lease larr, its teen fashion n she thinks its horrid... watever! i was on the edge of tears actually... nobody saw cuz nobody care... n all 3 of dem went hm happily cuz they enjoyed the shopping very much... blah! i cudn buy tt dendeng cuz basically, my family oni walks to the place where they see their stuff... blah! aniihooos! went hm at ard 3 plus...so late kan? i slept throughout the whole journey cuz i was basically tired of flying...lolx ((: den went to the kopitiam at vista there n i bought justea peach...been a very long time since i drank tt! wat? one mth...! kak naf bought bird nest... den went hm...sahur-ed by myself cuz nobody else wanted to sahur wif me...was lazy to sleep n wake up again...headache nanti! den i woke up for subuh wif a high fever n headache! like argh! n it must be bcuz of all those smokers at geylang... u noe how smokers are at night time bulan ramadhan... one aft another...same goes for my dad larr... so irritating! n i slept throughout the day... in no mood to do anything at all! den buker time, mumsie forced dwn those awful rice down my throat... seriously not nice... i oni eat half of a quarter...((: n drank air buah dat mumsie asked me too... at least tt taste better ((: n in no mood for food at all, no larr, not totally i ate 3 kuih bangkit... den aft tt i slept throughout the whole night... syiok! n today... i felt a lil better so cleaned my awfully looked room... n it looks much better den me... n is there madrasah today, i donnoe... but i i noe tt i din go (: aites... mumsie n dadsie plan to go geylang again tonight... we shall c if i dare to take the risk... nyehaha! maybe i shld bring a mask for myself! good idea ((: aites, im done! i hv written my tots wif luv tags replies 'Ziq: car season cuz it is raya season...gd enuf larr! at least hv car... sing ping: wats so lame bout liking this skin? watever larrs... kak khalidah: hello! yes, we shall tok n gossip soon (: linked! toodles~

n finally, we've got a car!

helloooooooos! okeh, im god damn tired but i had great joy today ((: lets c... first 3 periods did nth...ferst 2 periods was suppose to be malay period budden don hv... den mr faraz came in for his hist lesson... but, we jus sat ard n talk le...okeh, so it was sorta more of gossip n hitting here n there... Rachel's obsession is bothering me...not so lar... den aft tt we had a face facts talk... obviously she is promoting the brand...oxy n lipice... hah! too bad...my lips anti-lipice...n my face anti-oxy :x den recess time, yana kept on pulling my hair -.-' in search of fallen hair on my head...sakit woii!!! tt adek kak sarali... ((: den aft tt...had thinking fiesta... okeh i suppose... oni tt i hate tt acting part to the core...((: n my plan to actually 'bully' kak sarali tak jadik cuz the rest of the class has done the job for me ((: bedek jekk! im an innocent kiddo aites?! wassup wif my sch n their SEL lessons? even dis fiesta also hv dem n those watever competencies or however its spelled... like so lame... den aft tt, i rushed hm... changed my bag, took my handphone n my discman... clear unneccessary stuff n bring those needed den off back to sch... took 900...den 912, biaser larr...pemalas katerkan! hee! den aft tt...waited for those 2 cik kaks... den went off for aerospace!!! quite fun...! did erm...race which farah, liyana n me got lost oni on the ferst map... lolx! my measurement salah... n it was suppose to be west n not east... tt was practically y we got lost n donnoe how many times restarted back at the airport farnie sehz! choco-pilots gossiping n the pilot, flying the 'plane' hehe! den the instructor introduced us to the multiplayer nyer tmpt... the three of us jus went in there to chat n not to fly... so we disturbed the ppl... ((: i loike! n u noe tt wen we get together, its all rubbish! den ended at ard 6... took 912 den 900A... my dad wasted my time...he shld've msged or called me n pick me up, n instead, i hadta rush here n there jus to get back hm... -.-' n we finally got a car! wee~ i reach hm, jus in time to buker! den eat n drink... den took a shower... den here i m updating... basically tt is all for today! ain't my life interesting? i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

hooked!

hellooooooooos! u noe wat?! isn it a good night to listen to hari rayer songs? ryte ryte? so now im on a lookout for 2D & tt dikir barat nyer lagu rayer, at the radio stations! im hooked n addicted to it!!! nice song i shld say...! i hv a good taste so u shld trust me ((: n gosh! tt ulcer is freakingly killing me sia! not practically but jus literally or is it another around? okeh nvrm... but tt ulcer is still making me stop eating... okeh... lets c... i jus ate one fried hot dog...n drank air bandung-okeh,im in need of tt now-den the rest of the time i drank plain water den off to solat maghrib! blah! now im damn hungry... okeh... hunting for food n lagu rayer!!! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

Aerospace was goooood!

hellooooooos! today is gooood! im having fun in aerospace...yesyes! sounds boring by the title but fun n awesomely wicked...i loike! but first! we went back to class n readreadread...den, got our art mrks... n guess how much i score for tt patheticly ugly art piece of mine?! 63/100... ahahahah! i was practically luffing my ass off my chair... den at 8... kemarok plane start! i luvluvluv it! partnered up wif haziqah n i flew by myself while she *lets not mention* lalala~ n when i took off, i was like stuck up in the air n sorta screaming larr... so absolutely fun! n i did landed safely, once... the rest of the time, i crash! wee~ n luckily i don wrk as a pilot or my plane will crash even before we reach the destination or even b4 the enemy attack...gd! ahakz! attention! do NOT hire me as a pilot...reasons as stated! i don wanna be a pilot anyway...((: okeh...den we wrapped up the flight n went back to class at 12pm mr faraz came in n gave us our hist eoy paper... n I PASSED! i was bloody sure i was gonna fail seh! n how much did i get? 64/80...ahaha! n can u believe it? i actually got 31/45 for my sect B which consist of so many internal n external threats which i so very am bad at! n got a 33/35 for sect A...better believe babe! lolx! okeh...so im happy today! i think n suppose so ((: but SOME people will change my mood for the whole day...trust me! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~ n ouh, my yahoo mail is back in good condition!

he is the whole asshole ((:

I miss my nenek nyayi...lots! n dis will be the 6th yr i won't be able to celebrate wif her Hari Rayer...sobs )): okay...im crying... i end of here lar... byes~

wohoo?!?! o.0

the answer is still a NO helloooooooooooos!!! quite happy today! ((: unsuspectedly, i pass my maths! like wohoo~ so...basically, that *point to the list* wish can be cancelled babe! woots~ okeh, my mrks are still horrible...n im begging u NOT to go... "i got higher then u!" "i tot u so clever?!" "i tot u so clever...u 1e1 mah!" if u do, den fcuk off cuz hey! i passed which is good...i improved okeh! so lets c... English: 49/80 for paper 2 only... n im dying to know my overall english...oh yes i am! Malay: -make sure u don fall off ur sit frm luffing ur ass off the chair... 41/60 for paper 1 75/100 for paper 2 n i've counted the mrks i got out of 100...n urgh! 72.5/100 which means, it is an A2...alaaaaaaaaah! )): Maths: 32/50 for paper 1 31/50 for paper 2 n i've reached kak diana's target of me getting 60 but i hv yet to reach MY target of 70... blah! but...looking n the brighter sight n side (-.-'') i pass my maths for the erm...2nd time, dis yr... yesyes...luff at me for all i care but yohooo! i hv gotten an F9 and now? a B4...ehkehk? F9 to B4...wohoooo!!! aites...tt shld be all... i hv written my tots wif luv toodles~

wat more can i say...haish!

dis shld say it all: geography: 51/100 yes i did improve...but lookie lookie, i got the lowest for MCQ questions n bcuz of tt i gt low marks...8/15...imagine tt! ms wong smiled at me, finally...it might be bcuz i passed n improved quite a lot...haish...n a 43 for the last prts...n thk god i got most of those facts abt ozone depletion blablabla~ correct... Science: 35/70 for section B & C only... jus an exact passing mrks is not wat i want n is not wat i like... n im left hoping to get at least 16 for MCQ...haish! u shld noe how i m feeling so don hope of reading a long positive post for today... n to my 5 darlings, i cannot make it this thurs...jus so i don hvta repeat myself, i can't go cuz: -abg aee 'cleaned' the house n my mum is not happy wif the arrangement so i hvta help her out n re-arrange everything this thurs... -my mum don allow me to go to movies cuz of how kak naf behaves when she was my age... so there u go... n yes...i still hate dem... its no fun hving older siblings... they r to be my role models like forever... n shout at me for hating dem but i hate people wif reasons... it is so rude n downright stupid to hate people without reasons... n yes...i am certainly not happy with my effing marks... n those late nights gone for nothing... n i can't bear to see my sister's smirk when i tell them my results... i should jus wait and let them read it themself while i prepare myself for the most heartbroken-n-crashing insults... i will reply to those tags wen i feel like it...but firstly, thx for tagging... chiaoz~

wthwthwthwth!

helloooooooooooooooos... sheesh! now i need a new discman/mp3... damn tt stupid thing arh! rosak when i need it...f seh! so, ahhhhh!!! so sad larr...no radio till late nite readi...urgh! okeh, updating cuz im reeeeeeeeeally reeeeeeeeeeeeeeally sad... n tt fcuking asshole jus hvta rub it in! n u noe wat my dad said? my discman spoils cuz i oways get fcukingly{okeh, he din say dis wrd} pissed off wenever i hvta go to school...hah! n u noe y? cuz im fcukingly pissed of by THEM! NOT my fault for being pissed... n u noe wat? my discman being spoiled takder kaitan langsung wif me being pissed off! wat kind of stupidity is tt? i din even bring my effing discman to school! stupid ass! okeh...now im piss! rabak! n u noe wat? surprisingly i've made a list of things tt i wanna buy: -discman/mp3/iPod -watch -lots n lots of clothes!!! -2 earphones (of diff colours) -lots n lots of neccessary accesseries {screw me! donnoe howta spell larr,understand it urself} okeh, i suppose that is wat i wanna buy...at least for now! n i mite jus chip in sum amt of money so tt i can get a new fon faster...blah! fat hope larr... nn u noe? my dad wants me to change to a pre-paid card instead of those billings numbers... F! n guess hu supported him? yes...none other than dose 2 bitches whom i despise like hell lots! ye... sekongkong larr tuu anak-beranak! n u noe how i feel? i feel like me n abg aee is a total stranger in this effing family... they jus despise us! n u noe wat? they LOVE n pamper my sis cuz: -she is soooooo clever -she use to be in JC -she chips in to the family finance -she luvluvluv to joke -she doesn make my parents nag all the time -she has gd manners n bladibladibla~ the list goes on like wth?! haizz... kk better go cuz my mum has start nagging cuz im on the comp for erm...ard an hour olreadi... i hv no time limit to use this computer mine u! i hv written my tots wif luv hatred toodles~ HATE ME IF U WANT TO BUT I ALREADY HATE U TO BITS N PIECES OF MY LIFE! THOSE FUCKING LAUGHTERS ARE FAKE N I DON LUV U MY DEAREST ______! SO MOVE ON WIF UR PATHETIC LIFE...

lalala~

helloooooooos! my hand hurts frm editing skins for wen cong n sing ping... lalala~ nvrm...at least i get credits frm bof of dem...ahahaha! check it out! im going nutcase today...don ask me cuz i myself donnoe y...wee~ nihooooos...im very tired today! finished baking those cookies...lalala~ i loike! hmm...lets c... yesterday... went to cwp...rode the 900 bus alone...den at 888 bus stop...dadsie called so we meet up to go to metro...wee~ so i din went alone aft all...ahah! den bla3... went to vista to buy 4 packs of cendol n one pack of ice kachang... nice! den b4 tt...i was crossing den suddenly, a lorry horned at me...like wtf! stupid driver...its like i looked left n right (eventho it's a one way rd) n there isn any vehicles...n dis dumbass driver can still gimme the fcuking angry hand action...(not the middle finger) like stupid ass ryte...its not as if it is my fault... everytime i go for sch, its the same situation...near the traffic light at wrps... esp those BIG BIG cars like the 7-sitters bla bla3 drivers... so their car is big...like heck larr! wat? they want me to raise my hand upright? its not as if im short larr okeh! they r jus blindly driving... no wonder there r many accidents... n u noe wat? i support dis blog ver much! press here so its more to parking...but they are all actually the same...since they can't drive properly, they donnoe howta park properly... they shld go back to the driving sch...pffft! nihooooos~ i reached hm aft buying tt, jus in time to buker...lalala~ the auntie arh...buat pon lmbt budden nvrm...as long as i got myself a cendol...huahuahauhua! okey...plans for today? today no plans...ahakz! for tmr...lets c... -go for madrasah -watch tv... shld be all...hee~ k done...eh eh! sum guys i noe denies tt guys don hug each other wen they r happily-sad...hah! i can prove them wrong! c...hady n jon did hug each other like tons of time... lalala~ kk...gone! wee~ i hv written my tots wif luv toodles!

plans for tooooooodayy!!!

helloooooooooos! okeh, jus basically im bored at home n im like, wide awake already! so now lets c...no school today cuz hv marking day...blah! den nxt week on the 19th also another marking day...no school again...blah! den on the 18th n 20th gonna have post-exam activities...ahh! one thing that is gd to be in 1e1 is that we r gonna do aerospace [watever that is]...the bad thing is, we r gonna stay in school for the activities...ahhhh!!! but nvrm...better then going to the NLB at civic to donnoe do wat...lalala~ oh yes, wishlist...added 3 more wishes...uh-huh! im desperate for the veeeeeryy last one... n a few will be able to be cancelled...soon enuf... 1 mth +++ to new fon~ the exams part, wait till i get my report bk lorr... haish! lets c...plans for today: -go to vista to change batteries for watches... {mumsie, kak naf n mine watch smue mcm united like that...all the battery spoil n one go...F!} -go metro at cwp to collect my dad's pants... {saper nk pergi ngan akuu?! yohooo! i don wanna go alone seh! aft 4.30...anybody nk ikut? [im serious tauu!]} -buat kuih rayer~ wee~ {last one i must do...argh! but nvrm...i loike!} -marketing { wahahahahhaa! gd gerl i m! } okeh dah...using my sis nyer mp3 nyer earphone to listen to my discman... n yes...listening to radio...ahahahha! no larr...lagu raye n oso 98.7 FM... been an effing long time since i use my discman...ahahahah! okay...actually i don like listening to lagu rayer during the fasting mth...like org despo nk hari rayer time tuu jgak...ahahaha! kk...im done...bye! oh yes! if u wanna follow me to cwp kannn...msg me hp ye...k dah bye! i hv written my tots wif luv toodles!