Are you really?

And as my heart broke into pieces.

Thank you very much.

Fantastic.

I was browsing at Twitter when I saw:

Okeh so, my huge congratulations to these 4 people below for getting an A!

***

There’s a burden in my head and it’s making me wide awake. I need some rest.

Sweet Love

Toodles

Mental.

Four years of studying in a school filled with love and care, we have learned a lot of new knowledge and go through experiences that cannot be repeated. Not only do we have knowledge that can be used in the future, we made friends whom we learnt to trust. Friends we will remember for life. This curtain of memories is made with love and friendship of four long, yet memorable, years.

***

I feel like crap today. Just a totally sudden change of mood.

From very high to very low.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

V?

The computer is lagging like crap. I hope it’s not virus cause seriously, I need the laptop to study!

National Day celebration tomorrow! Picture picture~ (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

My heart.

Nothing better.

It’s a shame that you can’t answer when I’ve told you everything.

I refuse to believe that everything happened cause I said so. I refuse to believe that I’m at fault for everything that happened.

I refuse to know.

Whatever is possible.

***

I bought 3 books from Kinokuniya on Sunday. It’s like very super addictive!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Somewhenever.

Meat my friend.

Okeh dah. Enjoy while I stress over Linear Law and EMaths practice paper.

I cannot wait to go DPIA. I don’t know why.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

After all.

I got dumped at home with homework. Tension headache is back and I cannot take it.

I need a little proper laugh. I need a little smile.

It’s messed up. For I-don’t-know-how-many times.

Moving on.

I’m so super happy cause I know how my name is spelled in Arab!

Nawshad!

And the most incredible thing was, I survived today’s class.

Irritatingly, she keeps asking me to do things for her. Oh wait, she has no idea that I’m sick. Oh double wait, since when does she care?

Be better.

I need MC, medicine, sleep, at least a day away from homework and studies. Most importantly, I need to make sure I’m in class to catch up with all my school work and everything.

I almost fall in the toilet just now. Haiyaaaaaaaa!

One day.

People are getting so super stereotypical.

Almost every person I met is filled with criticism towards me when I said I intend to continue DPI Andalus.

I met someone today who says that whatever we do, do it for ourselves and God. Don’t let anyone stop you.

Nawaitu. (:

The table will turn one day.

I’m going to be there.

***

People keep asking me why there isn’t any paracetamol in a first aid kit. WTHeck.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

The best RHD.

I had the best Racial Harmony Day this year with these people. (:

I’m going to miss celebrating occasions in secondary school; WRS. But like every other year, I didn’t have the chance to take picture with everyone that I know. I’m going to hunt for them during next celebration.

The best thing was, I finally got the chance to eat ondeh-ondeh. Happy to the max!

<3

Till then, I shall wait for National Day for next round of many pictures.

I miss 2e1 2007.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Headache.

I’m having this one major headache. It feels as though I can faint anytime and anywhere.

I hope I don’t come down with fever tomorrow. Headache is a major symptom for me. I want to take lots of pictures! ):

Sweet Love.

Toodles.

I don’t know.

Be glad you’re seeing this.

Have you ever felt so super low and feel like crying for the entire day but you never really know the reason why?

I’m feeling like that.

I’m so bored and tired.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Collide.

Sometimes I wonder, is it the skill or is it the Creator?

Okeh, I must admit. My hands are damn itchy that I just have to get online every single day without fail unless some people are, well you know. (:

What’s been up and about? Many things.

Lets just talk about one of it. Because I talk a lot.

My goodness, I think I should thank God that I have the patience. People are sometimes getting too religious that they forget relatives are part of religion too. They forget that Islam is not only about praying. Not only about getting yourself closer to Allah. It covers everything in life which includes being closer with all your relatives and not being stingy!

Sorry eh, my blog is getting a bit religious because I think people are getting the wrong idea. Not to mention how people are beginning classify Muslims in Singapore as Malays only. Hello, I have friends who are Chinese yet Muslim. So Hub Islam Singapura or Islamic Hub of Singapore?

I don’t mean to jadi orang yang sibuk, menyibuk dan disibukkan. But then what I’m stating is true.

Sorry eh, I’m talking about my own people here. If terasa, then I’ve got nothing to say.

If Perjumpaan Hari Raya is HARAM according to rukun, then I suggest you sit at home and not mix around. Even if you die, I wish you the best cause I know you’ve brought yourself closer to God through all your prayers. Zikir lah banyak-banyak dekat rumah tu.

If giving money to mosque is more afdhal, I suggest you donate all your money. Stay there too. Don’t bother about your relatives. Jangan lupe zikir dengan doa.

MY GOD!

Sometimes I wished that I should have spoken out loud. But I know who I am, I sedar diri lah okeh. 16 years of living, like as though any of those oldies would listen to what I say.

But really, if your idea of Islam is super wrong. I suggest you go to Admiralty, level 3.

Andalus awaits you.

Which reminds me that LPPI 4 is in December. GASPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Busy.

For any updates, refer to Twitter at the side. Assure you that I’ll update that every single day.

Apart from that, am very super happy today. *Smiles widely*

Not to forget tired, after Kak Ani (Saturday) and Abg Nizam (Sunday)’s wedding.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Power.

Don’t ask me how many times I have watched this video because I didn’t count. It’s practically countless.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lSl2CR4TrM0

Amazing how numbers can make shorten your life. Amazing how hitting by a little can cause you a life or more.

Amazing how people don’t really bother about anything at all.

At the very least, bother about the people around you cause they want to live even if you don’t.

Safety starts with me!

(Danger doesn’t start with me Fauzi, Alif and Nabila. So yes, I’m safe! (:)

Sweet Love

):)

Toodles.

Getting tired of it all.

Gonna keep smiling.

I keep telling myself, “It’s gonna be okeh. It always will.”

But I know it isn’t. It can never be.

And I know you won’t really care.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Tired

Disturbing.

Jian De says:

*like for lol, its a head of a man raising his hands

*it has different meaning

*-.-, dash , fullstop , dash

Who says this guy doesn’t need a tight smack? Just because he is cute and adorable.

***

When people dream high, they wish they could fly.

I’ve been trying to make my dreams come true but by proving it to people. So I realize that all these while, it’s about others and never about me.

For once, I’m going to decide.

For once, I’m going to do the right thing.

For once, I’m going to do it for myself.

For once and forever, I’m gonna start believing.

And I’ve decided to follow my heart, which says “Hold on tight for a good ride.”

Now, where’s my motivational songs? (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Who isn’t in debt?

For more than a year, I’ve been trying so hard to make sure I do so super well. But I guess it should all end right now because O level isn’t a time for me to see if I can make it for my future or not.

For me, personally and honestly, I wanted to stick to all my 7 subjects because of 2 reason.

First, I really honestly wanted to prove to Mommy that I can do 7 subjects. 2 of which wasn’t taken by either siblings at my age. I wanted to prove to them that I can do well for my O level just like how Sister did. I wanted to be someone that Mommy often talks about. I’m sick and tired of listening to Mommy telling me that Sister should be my role model. She did so well in this and that. She is so kind she is so nice. I want her to, for once, talk about me. And that is why I wanted to keep all 7 subjects and make sure that I do well.

Second, I didn’t want to waste the $43 that Daddy have paid. It’s not easy for him and I know that. He may be all smiles at home. All happy when he meets people. But I know that a day at work can drain him especially at such age. I know that delivering metals under the hot sun or the heavy rain isn’t easy and it never will be. $43 may look so small to some, but I know it isn’t.

I know I can always pay back that $43 once I work. But I also know that the value of $43 that he earns will never be comparable to the value of $43 that I’ll earn. Because I know that I have an education back ground and he doesn’t even have one. But he survived life the hard way, which I doubt I can if I were in his shoes.

I’m trying so hard. I’ve been telling myself this 2 reasons since last year and especially so after the payment is being made.

At the end of the day, I know I’m playing with my own future.

So guess what?

I’m gonna drop Additional Mathematics no matter what people may say. Cause I know, my future is my decision.

***

Yesterday was pretty relaxing for a school day in my 2009. It was nothing but FT periods. (:

H1N1 is spreading like crazy. The tight control of people going in and out of school makes us all look like prisoners. But at the very least, we can all feel safe with such a control.

Now, let me do my AMaths homework. ):

Sweet Love

Toodles.