12th

so 2day jus found out tt my cuzzin is getting married...n NO! i wld not go...it's a total embarresment! i noe i shldn be writing dis but i jus can't help it!!! argh! sumbody pull me out of my suffering life! 2day was a boring day as usual...woke up at 10.30am cuz i slept ard 3am but rolled ard in my bed for like wat seems to be hours... so now here i m blogging aft watching virtues of harmony...so great! u shld watch it on channel 8 on weekends(at 4.30pm till 6.30pm...) now i m freaking bored...cannot log in 2 msn cuz donnoe wat the heck happened!!! (sobs!!!) miss my wgps frens...usually chat wif dem at msn now cannot readi! argh! so at 8 suppose to take out my science bks and study...idiot sis!!! y must she control watever i do?! urgh! bcuz of her i hvta study n study...my sis is the most pampered one ard here! i noe u guys think the youngest will oways be pampered...but in my case, i beg to differ!!! my family is like a grp of ppl against me! sux seh! feel like killing myself! n guys...sori but frm monday on...i can't on my comp but we hvta c how it goes first...i mite not be updating cuz MYE cuming n my sis not allowing me to on the comp will be a total horror! n i must not disobey dem...though my sis will be away, wrking instead of being at hm... so...pls don be angry if i don update kays?! will this sorrow end? i don want life to be a suffer... i don want life to be a burden... cld death be the solution? cld death means a better life? death is not the solution... death will mean a worst life... how m i gonna survive dis life?!can't wait for SJ annual camp...can't wait for June...though it means suffering in my house, i hvta go to sch still!!! so, yeah! can't wait for JUNE!!!