life is bad...its a pair work for heavens sake! u gave me scolding...u din giv her a scolding...wat rubbish in the whole wide wrld is tt?! once u r a pair tt wrks together...they'll get scolded together, they do things together...i hv been keeping watever hurtful things teachers had said to me when it cums to pair wrk! i can't hold on animore...u xpect me to sit there n jus think it out...well dream on! i've been doing tt for more than 5 yrs...n i can't take it animore...i can't hold on to tt angry feeling anymore! wat do u expect...u asked me not to feel bad...well...I DO! i feel bad tt u teachers insult me cowardly! u teachers turn ur wrds ard jus so tt we wont noe tt we r being insulted...lemme tell u dis...i've been going through tt u-r-not-insulting-me-u-r-insulting-me lecture! i feel bad tt i din hand the wrk on time! i feel bad tt u only scolded me n not farah...its not fair! how m i suppose to noe wat farah has been doing...wat kind of fucking questions is tt?! wat do u actually expect me to do?! sit there n smile...urgh! dream on...no more smiling, no more acting tt everything is fine! no more! frm now onwards...im gonna cry my hearts out even if its in front of the guys...so wat?! i jus did...u said tt we students don hv feelings bla bla bla...u were once a student urself...so tt means u don hv feelings too...ryte ryte ryte?! u want us to be a total perrrrfect-o is it?! oh wat the fcuk...get out of my sight...n yes! im hurt by wat u said...
the day strated wid art did the texture thingy...helped boon boon wid his shapes for the whole thing n yes...u r ryte...!!! i din finish it up...hehx! Ms Sarah decided to print out the pieces of trees bla3...
den had MALAY...wat do u tink its all abt?! Cikgu Shikin was talking to the malay dancers hu skipped thier practice...y can't she do tt during the urss period of recess tym...mepek sehz! one an a half of tt 2 period...she talked to her dancers...bla3 den the rest of the tym...she lectured us bout wat better than studies...our attitude...lemme quote a lil of wat she said:-
"baru menengah satu...hah! dah pandai nk tunjuk attitude! hah! nanti menengah dua atau tiga...dah mcm mana...skarang dua2 tanduk sudah kluar...hah! nanti menengah 2 atau 3...apa lagi kluar...! awak semua ini...sepatutnya menunjuk sikap yg baik...hah! awak dikirakan klass yg cemerlang...klass band satu"
n she continues...bla3 yada fcuk3 pffft3 till it was the tym for recess...seriously, the more u want us to act positively...the more we will giv u tt attitude tt u teachers keep on rubbing it in...
Recess time did nth else but eat (crap)...did the brochure thingy...
off for science...the water took such a looooooooooooooooooonnnng tym to boil sehz...me n man qin was soooooo bored waiting...like wtf?! den bla3...tested for starch for the leaf...bla3...was quite boring since tt 2 idiots, farhan n yaznisham, did most of the wrk...blergh!
den english...was suppose to hand in the borchure but farah n mine wasn totally finish...so it was up to me to lie to tt joyce...urgh! yes...since i was holding on to the paper...n when she came to me...she started scolding me for not hving like 250 wrds...urgh!!!n the convo goes:-
MJ: its not 250 wrds ryte? u r expecting me to collect dis...
ME: *remains like a mute child*
MJ: i'm not going to collect it u noe...? wat do u suggest i do...? huh? wat hv u n ur fren, farah, been doing?
ME: can i giv it to u aft sch?
MJ: wat...?
ME: (in a louder voice) can i giv it to u aft sch?!
MJ: sure? one day, u nvr hand in, minus 2 mrks...cuz its not gonna be fair to the others? its tt understood...?
ME: *in the edge of tears* yes...
n rite there...rite then...rite at tt moment...i burst in2 tears...like WTF?! how m i suppose to noe watever fcuking reasons farah is giving...n u scolded me, alone!!! humph! tts so totally unfair okeh?! u called amirah to be scolded
WITH jia en...y can't u do the same here? do u hate me or sumthing...u told "don feel bad abt it..." like watever!!! so den i cried the whole english period like fuck...n thx to ying ying n haziqah...i ended wid sobs if not den i'd be crying all the way till maths...urgh! thhx ying2 n iqah...!!!
farah...if u are reading dis...im not blaming u for wat happen...well...sort of...im sorry if this post offended u...so sorry!