Your smiles.

HAPPY 43rd NATIONAL DAY! (:

So sad! ):

Yesterday's parade was okeh I guess. I was smiling because I saw. Hehehek! (: And I had fun standing at the podium talking though it was a screwed one because the cue was somewhat wrong. HAHA! (:

But never mind, I had fun! (:

Had to miss the mini-concert because someone said we MUST have 10 FA kits. So stayed in the SJAB room and packed together with Nabila, Judah, Naufal and Firdaus. Super noisy I tell you!

They were like,

"Eh, then this one how?! Eh, haven't put this thing! Eh deep heat have? This roller bandage arh? Which surgifix?!"

So yes, imagine the chaos. But it would have made me happier if I went to the mini-concert. *Ehem*

Went off for Connect Singapore. Had to separate from the other 3e4s so I was left with Nabila, Issac, Atiqah, Lymen, Augustine, Reyhana and Bernie! Muahahah! If only I didn't have to leave for duty, then I would get stuck with this people! ):

Was suppose to be attached to one of the office lady but there were last minute deployment so I was untold and left behind. While panicking, slacked around with Jeremy and one of his sec2 Junior SC. Wahlaaaao! Super noisy!

Ended up with Mr Chong! Bahahaha! And we exchanged items half way since he said I walked super slow. Hmph. So I carried his loud-hailer and he took my FA kit! Muahaha! And he was blabbering nonsense all the way. Omg. Why do I always get stuck with noisy and nonsensical people?! HAHA! Okeh kidding. At least it's fun. (:

Was abandoned half-way, though! So sad. Hmph. But I went to my TICs! Yey! (:

The walk back to RJC was noisy! But at least I didn't have to carry anything because Zhi Wei was carrying my FA kit. Hehe! (: Then Lester, Ivan and Zhi Wei started marching and humming the tunes. LOL.

Had an awesome doze on the bus~! And went home after cleaning up the tornado-hit-ed SJAB room. Was asleep from 2.30 all the way till 11pm. And woke up, watched Olympics opening ceremony.

Encore! *Inside joke*

Happy Belated Beijing Olympics people! (:

Okeh I'm done and I'm sad. ):

So sad so sad so sad. ): SO sad. And Shi Hui was being a berok at MSN just now. Tsktsk! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Stand by you. (:

After all people, after all. (:

Hello. Life's been the usual wave. The higher ones were marvellous, the lower ones were certainly not loved.

Lets start with the oh-so terrible days. Hmm. I get pissed off quite easily this week. I think it's due to all the challenges that I had to face 3 days straight. Hell yes, the 4 dreaded tests. Tsk.

On a lighter note of the 4 tests, its over! (:

Moving on, I failed AMaths. Unfortunately or fortunately, I have no idea. And I guess Kelvin is right lah. I need to be truthful to my ownself. Haiyeeeer!

Had a small chat with Mr Lim about my result. Yea, I'm a huge disappointment to everyone. Even myself. I am capable of achieving more than just 17 because I've been able to do most of my AMaths stuff. Sighhhhh! I hate it when this happens. ):

On a lighter note of the bad result, at least this is not end-of-year just yet. I'll cry rolling if it were to be EOY. And yea, at least I know someone cares. Thanks SH and Mr Lim. (:

On a little brighter side of my life, I passed Physics for the very first time this year. You should have seen. I screamed a little and everyone turned to look. And Kelvin was giving me this shocking face of his every time I shout. Heh! Sorry hor!

But unfortunately, I failed my combined Science for I failed my Chemistry super badly. Sighhhhh! I just need 2 more freaking marks before passing Combined Science for the first time.

HAPPY SIDE! *Screams*

Number 1: I passed Physics! Okeh shut up.

Number 2: Chea Hau came yesterday! Muahahaha!

And I'm so dead meat.

Me : Chea Hau, so perasan! *shakes head*

CH: Never mind, you wait till November camp! *grins*

Die arh die arh die arh.

And he was being one ^&^%^ basket. Hmph. I was bullied! OMG! Like since when I'm not? HAHA! (:

Number 3: I spoke to I-know-who. Hehe!

Number 4: I got a little chance to talk to Kak Belo! Muahah! (: And sms (a lot a lot) her! (:

***

I am short, yea I agree. HAHA! So the fun part of today is that, I was talking with 3 tall guys who just can't stop growing taller. So I had to look up.

In the end, Chao Jian, Jeremy and Haziq had to stoop lower so that they can be of the same height as me! Muahaha! (:

And I laughed a lot a lot today, all thanks to Issac! HAHA! That sponge guy who will be selling McChicken tomorrow! *Inside joke*

Okeh people, I am done with my script for tomorrow! So yes, I'm gonna be sweetest tomorrow! (:

Oh wait, I'm sweetest everyday~!

Sweet Love

Take Care!

For the memories.

So lets count. We've been working together for approximately 6 months now and there has been lots of disagreements. But despite all the fights and disputes, we did it and we're still united.

Thank you for understanding. Thank you for agreeing. Thank you for staying. Thank you for everything.

I love you guys! (:

***

Honestly, I have nothing to write on or blabber about.

I'm just so challenged on the tests coming up next week. And I just can't bring myself to start revising! Gaaaaah! I need a break from everything!

This week has got to be super hectic because of the short days we're going to have. Haiyeeeer! I hate hectic weeks. ):

And I think it's bed time because my eyes is super droopy. I want to sleep! *Snores*

Okeh please, I have manners. I don't snore unless I have suuuuuuuper block nose.

And Kak Belo, sorry but you cannot make me jealous. Unless of course I see it myself. Muahaha! I'm very pessimistic about things okeh..?

Nasirah is in between optimist and pessimist. So choose! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Of all the memories that I had, seeing you smile is my best. (:

Happy! (:

EHEM!

I'm extra happy and I know Nabila is jealous. HAHA! It's okeh my dear, time will come soon.

I'm extra happy and only Shi Hui know the whole story. Hehe! (*angel)

Lesson time was interestingly short because today is the shortest day ever! It feels short because (no, not because I am short) I'm only seeing 3 different teacher in 1 day and not a thousand of them.

TGIF! Yey people, scream! Alright fine, shut up.

First Aid Re-Examination! I had to invigilate since I was the DI and Mrs Chuah was busy with the Sec1s. Now I know how the teachers felt when we make noise while they count the paper. But at the very least, the teachers was not doing the paper like how I did. Tsk.

I hope I pass. Nah, not hoping. I think I'll pass! (: I think all my NCOs will pass! *Duh*

Training was fun today. No, not the sadist kind of fun but the fun kind of fun. (: Left the Sec2s to train themselves because there was only the almighty me and only me to train the Non-NDP and Non-AGI people. Gaaaaah!

So yes, thank God though, Sofian and Kak Atikah came to the rescue to help put a little bit though they left me stranded after approximately 10 minutes.

Tadaa! Time for footdrill to end and recreational activities to start. And just when I was about to get so stressed up just to think on what games I should play with them, Wee Seng Sir and Amos Sir came to the rescue!

Quite a lot of people come to my rescue today. HAHA! Okeh, thanks to the four who came to my rescue! (:

Due to unforeseen stuff, had to end CCA though we didn't even start our fun activities. Started last parade and, God I feel so old. Hmph.

While awaiting for them all to finish the parade, I was slacking at the podium and chatting with Redzuan and Atikah. After which, I slacked alone in the SJ room. Muahaha! Fun lah okeh!

What I learn today?

I learnt that in life, there's no such thing as misunderstanding because we understand that particular person but we interpret them wrongly. Either that or we just can't be bothered to do things their way.

I learnt that no matter how happy you may be, there's always that teeny-weeny bit that makes you feel a little down. How dumb can that feel?

Very dumb.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Time does not matter.

Freaking warm lah sia!

I'm getting a bit cranky. (Question marks!)

All right, after much challengesstresses, my life has gone back to normal. Almost at least. AMaths test is over and I'm so screwed because I did not get to complete the paper neither was I able to start on the many questions. God, disappointment. I hate when that happens, but too bad, cannot be avoided.

I screwed Chemistry too. Was really hoping to pass because I could understand (finally) what Ms Ho was teaching. But in the end, I failed by 2 and a half marks. Pfft.

History, EMaths and Biology tests are coming up next week, back to back. Got to start breaking a leg but yea, it's kind of difficult you know. I need companion to study with. And that companion has got to be Ms Concentration! (:

Physics has got to wait because we only had 2 periods this week, which is so pathetic especially when you're behind syllabus.

Mr Shah is back from reservist! Which means we History students don't have to get stuck in Geography classes and do SBQs and SEQs! Hurrah! And we're done with this year's syllabus which thus means a very long period for revision. Help! Because I wouldn't want to do thousands of SEQs and SBQs! Especially not SEQ, please!

Currently, I'm down with flu and cough and I have slight disability of hearing because since I have flu, I tend to get ear block. Urgh.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day again. Gosh, since when it isn't. But what can I do, life gets tougher as you grow older. The good thing is, I'm always almost done with my homework. And from now on, Kak Belo shall accompany me with my work and teach me too! Heh! (:

So yea, I guess I have to get down to business since I wouldn't have time to study 3 subjects at one go. What's more, History is going to be a full paper and I can't even remember a single thing about the USSR, British and all that kind of stuff. Help!

Wishing you were here because the memories not enough.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Useless.

Goodbye brain because you seem to be dead.

I hate to get angry but some people really make my wonderful day the total opposite. I hate it when that happens. I've been controlling my anger and have been trying my very best to just shut up.

You can't say that I don't care because I do. I'd rather get hated by you then having more than 20 people hating you. And you don't seem to understand my emotions. You've been hurting it but you don't realise it. I have been keeping quiet because I do not want us to be enemies because we have work to be done that needs unity.

And like I've said, everything depends, as of now. Truly, I don't feel the vibes of this years' p. Don't talk about being proud just yet, look at the enthusiastic faces, if there were even to be one. Really, all you care about is making yourself look good.

Face it, you're making people hate you even more just by doing that. It's not going to be special when all that you do is to boss people around. You have to and must respect people's options. If you can't do that, then seriously, I want out.

And with those 3 around, they don't make it any better. Yea, we are suppose to be in charge but look at who is around. So what if we are in charge when the higher ranking people are all there? What can we say? Nothing.

Honestly, I think you people are important but useless to us. If only she was here. She will appear everywhere. Not that I hate, but it shows that she care. ):

So really, what has come over this people?

Having power sucks. It destroys friendship, unity, trust and love. So just forget it, I don't want to get involve in this stupid matter any longer.

Nobody seem to care about how we feel. Stop getting emotional. It fucking pisses people off. If you think you can gain sympathy by that, you thought wrong because I'm beginning to hate you more than ever. So fuck it, you're not worth to be a friend that I should lend my ears to.

***

And sometimes, I regret letting my secrets out. Because some people can't seem to let their mouth shut.

I miss this two person for they were the ones who has always been there for me. And I miss our friendship that I thought would last forever but now, I can't see it any longer.

I think it's gonna end soon because the sight of you makes me think real hard. Is it your way or is it my fault? I'm sorry, I think I'm beginning to die bit by bit. I'm sorry, my feelings for you seems to have subsided bit by bit. I'm dying to get over you. I'm dying to forget this ever happened. I'm sorry it all started. I'm sorry I ever had feelings for you. I'm sorry I need to get over you. I'm sorry you've been too nice. I'm sorry you've been too friendly. I'm sorry this started. I'm sorry I can't see the end.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Not needed.

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you.

Sounds of table and/or chairs tumbling down at around 1505 during EMaths just now certainly made me lose my last-few-minutes concentration. The first thing that I thought, "It happened again. And this might be my last moments."

Yea, call me stupid since we were at 4th floor in our own classrooms. But you never know, maybe the vehicle was accelerating at super fast rate that it could even fly all the way up. I must say, I do have a wild imagination.

But I truthfully and sincerely thank God because if it weren't for Him, I would not be here. I might just be that someone in some one's life.

Alhamdulillah.

Yea, I've experienced it myself now. Life really is too short. One minute you were just sitting down and talking with your group of friends and the next minute, a vehicle is moving towards you at fast speed. God.

The hot topic now, yesterday's incident. And we can't point at the driver and say it is his fault. It's human nature to make mistake at a moment and cause some one's life to be in danger. And yesterday was his moment. But of course, we can't point away from him because after all, he should have think twice.

Just learn that if we're not responsible, it might lead to something even worse. And at this point, respect others' action and side of the story.

Just like what I told Lymen just now, people's mindset differ. The way you and I think is different. Yes, there are times we think of the same thing but mostly, it's different.

***

NDP rehearsal was nothing much because we only did 2 rounds which was not totally a complete round. The main thing is, I was smiling away. (:

AFAZN, shut up. Hmph.

School hours were tiring. Like since when it is not. *Sigh*

I want out now. I meant school. Hehe!

And as we speak, you started to walk away. Show me the reason why I should respect you view because I think we did it better. (: Trust me when I say it is so.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Racial Harmony Day 2008

This is the beloved TICs. Happy RHD you people! (:

Let us all just put unhappy thoughts aside and concentrate on our happiest moments. (: Today was fun because it was filled with picture takings since many of us brought along our cameras! Yey!

And so, I was able to take pictures with quite a number of people but the sad thing is, I didn't took any pictures with Kak Belo, Alif, Fauzi, Nabil, Yi Xun, Nabila and quite a number of others. ):

So sad but I'm happy for 3 times. *Hints*

But better than nothing.

Just view the pictures. I'm way too tired to type any longer. Happy viewing and happy Racial Harmony Day! (:

And presenting two noisy people.

These two are the ones who kept me awake in class. Not that I ever sleep but it's because of them that I just can't bear to be sad or angry. And they are also the reason why I'm noisy. Influence! Hmph. And anyway, Ivan owes me a ruler because I lost my ruler in class during the RHD activities. I think my rulers are cursed! ):

Changed for performance and audience seriously don't have basic courtesy. We are not born dancers. We are not trained dancers. We are not born First Aiders. We are trained First Aiders.

Then Farah, Shi Hui and I sat down together after changing and did some nonsensical no-brain stuff. Heh! (: Took some pictures while awaiting for the time to change for training.

Yes, Fabian was there to make the atmosphere double the noise! HAHA!

Me: Eh Fabian take picture with me! *Turns one part of my camera.*
Fabian: Eh wah! Why the picture upside down? Can turn one arh? *Turns the part that I turned*

Fabian betol! But yea, at least he is nice unlike some people. *EHEM* And he was trying his hard to be of the same height as me. Damn it. HAHA! (:

And I saw him 3 times today. *Smile*

Sweet Love

Toodles.

When there was once.

You once told me that I can be anything I want.

I just can't be bothered anymore. If that's the way you want it to be, then just carry on. I don't want to make myself so busy bothering about you.

***

Walkathon today but instead of going out walking, YuanYu, Fauzi, Haikal and me stayed at school's guidance hub just to wait for any unforeseen casualty. So yea, The two guys and I had fun in the room because we were talking nonsense and SJAB stuff. (:

So we went walking around the whole place for about 2 times during the Arts Alive session. Seriously nothing better to do so we went to check out every single stall.

There was a tournament thing going on so we carried on doing duty there. Stationed ourself and seek help from Nabila, Haziq, ShiHui and Farah. So yea, it was covered. (:

Stationed at soccer match with Farah and Fauzi. And Farah was being Ms Annoyance! LOL. So yea, I had fun there though Syazrul and Azri S got injured. And it's interesting how casualties usually gets better when they have their beloved by their side. *Hints*

By the time all the matches ended, I was really drained out so yes, went back to SJAB room and had a little rest.

Headed down to somewhere after some misunderstandings and all. So yea, miscommunication is 24/7 present. So, thanks Diaz for the treat. (:

***

It's weird sometimes how things can't be seen but can be felt. It's not possible to write it down in words so I guess I just have to keep everything in. There's not a chance to say it out because it can be felt but not heard. If only you knew.

You seem to be able to read me like a book and I seem to know your every move. I'm sorry this ever happened because I can't help but to change things. I'm sorry you had to face it alone but you know you can tell me your deepest darkest words.

You, the greatest story in my life. Thank you, but I'll never be able to forget you.

Sweet Love

MrD.MrAS.

Toodles.

Weepers.

Camera camera of us all.

Who's the busiest people of us all?

Dear _______,

So you want to go on a strike? So you think all your efforts are not appreciated? So you think we NCOs are taking all of your credits?

Been there. Done that.

Come on, it's not as if you did anything that much. So we're the ones who are always picked to do things, why? Because you people rarely appear. Because you people always disappear. Because we were always appearing. Because we were always there.

Just what credits do you want?

I really don't understand you at all. Firstly, you don't respect us with our ranks. That is still okeh. Secondly, you don't respect us as a person. That is certainly not okeh.

Please arh! Where's the basic courtesy and all? Are we like woods or perhaps part of the cupboards in the room to you? If that is what we are, then fine. I shall treat you like some ghostly being who is on the floor. You want it that way, then I shall do it.

"Why Us Not Given A Chance? We came in equal only they are given the chance to rise. Only 10 could go. I'm the 11th or so on."

1) Check your grammar alright?

2) You were given a chance but it's just that you chose to ignore them.

3) We did came in equal but since we're always appearing, we grew up more than you did.

So yes, think it through because I think I've wasted enough energy.

World Peace.

***

I am currently having horrible mood swings. One minute I'm super nice. The next minute, I can be really super mean.

I easily burst nowadays and it seriously pisses me off. Oh God. Currently, I just feel so down but I can't find the reason. And school is certainly not helping anymore. Though the sight of some makes me smile a bit more.

The week has been really busy and I'm really tired. I don't think I can think and see things positively anymore.

*Sigh*

MrDorMrAS.Forgetboth.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Luck.

To love is hard but to hurt is not.

The week has been long. Getting home late till around 7+ is getting common because many things has been happening and demand for homework to be handed in as soon as possible is getting higher.

Anyway, I have been picking up lots of quotes from 'La Femme' and those quotes have filled up the once-upon-a-time empty spaces at my table. Heh! Speaking of table, it reminds me of ruler. Which reminds me of Ivan who keeps showing off his ruler just because mine is broken into two. Hmph.

My ruler broke during EMaths. Thus you could imagine how stress I was during EMaths while doing stupid graphs. Graph suck therefore I'm nice. (:

This week is nothing much. Been rather down for some things. I just can't seem to get things right. Like come on Nasirah, just what the hell is wrong with you?

So I have comments. You want to read, you carry on. If not, goodbye because I'm way too nice for a 'fuck off.'

Firstly, friends come and go telling me about SCs' behaviour. Yes yes, I'm not part of them but so what? I'm a student of WRS and I have the right to comment. Note, it's comment, not complain and not whatsoever else.

SCs are getting rude and I'm serious in this matter. SCs are getting so arrogant about the red badge, about their green badge or about the yellow badge. Come on and get a grip of life, those badges are non-living things. Yes, do take pride of them but at the same time, can't you just get a hold of your attitude? Please, my nose can go higher than yours if you want me to.

Secondly, the people of the school is getting so bias that I just have to rest my case. Like come on, are we not important to you people?

Who is the first person you run to when you have someone injured? SJAB cadets. Who is the first person who gets scolding when treatment is wrong? SJAB NCOs. Who is the first person who gets all the nagging when someone injured is unattended? SJAB cadets.

Yea, so we're not very important at all. I suggest we close down for two months and see how you survive without all those FA stuff running.

Thirdly, so what if they have been gone for a week to do all this stuff. And this is what I mean by bias. You don't see it all the time because you're doing it. You don't see it, we don't see it. You don't feel it but we do feel it. So lets just say, we feel left out. We feel unappreciated.

Yes, figure that out.

I can't stand people who changes their mood within five minutes. And I totally hate it when that happens to me. It's utterly annoying. And yes, I'm referring to myself. So don't read it and go perasantan and syiok sendiri one corner crying and saying I find you annoying.

And I can't stand this group of people who pisses me off when we're in front of those group of people. Like come on, what the hell is their problem?

And to end this all, I have a quote to share and which I shall use it in my daily life, for now.

"The world will unite to fight with you as long as you remain determined."

- Mister Fighting.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Hope.

Faith begins with trust.

I trusted you with my keys. Now you tell me where did it end up at? And now, it's all because of you that I shall never ever trust anyone else with my keys. If I knew this was going to happen, I should have ignored. You better thank God that someone found it. You better thank God that I got my keys back. If it weren't for God, then I would have broken your bones into pieces.

Damn it you asshole. Yes, as a matter of fact, the 3 keys means a lot to me! Yes, the string thing matters a lot to me along with the light. If you don't see why, just fuck off.

Trusting you is going to be rather difficult now. So guess what Mister, you can forget about having the word "trusted" written all over your face in my eyes.

***

Lil Miss who thinks the world of herself, why not you start closing up that big mouth of yours and stop pretending? And oh wow, you were trying to avoid the aeroplane that time in school during last parade huh? Since the car is pretty much that small to you, I should have left your whole squad in that position and let all 28 of you die? Right on little miss.

At the very least, I got you guys quite a distance away from possible danger. I do want to see all of you carrying on living. But if you wanted to die last Friday, you should have said so. I have no problem of losing a cadet like you. If you don't treasure your own life, why not give some to those who have already died?

***

I don't understand why we need to keep on changing the positions and the procedure. I mean come on, you already agreed to the first one and now you changed at the last minute! Fine. You want us to learn rifle drill? Wow! Send me to the air rifle course too! And you shall be the first few people I'll test my skills on.

Unreasonable people don't deserve to be entertained. Please, it's our year. Why do you have way too much comment? Can't you people just bloody hell wait?!

Impatient.

***

Yes, I have many complains. I think people are just jealous just because I'm sweetest. Fine. I shall try not to be sweet.

***

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR LIM!

Thank you for all you guidance! Have a great life like how great you have always been for us. Thank you for everything! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

How long.

I am so tired. I am so pissed off. I am so happy. I am so sleepy. I can doze off at any time right now.

It has been such a long time. But too bad, I am way too tired to type an ubber long post. Gosh no way!

It's not that I don't want to go online. I want to but I can't. I am like under tight supervision of my sister who only allows me to use the Internet when I am done with my homework. And therefore, I couldn't get the chance because my homework has never been finished.

I have been rather busy for the past few weeks. Busy preparing myself to go to school. Busy getting myself comfortable at my new sitting place. Busy preparing for SJAB day. Oh yes, that seem short but it's a long period of time, thus it's super tiring.

This week is okeh because I changed my sit. At first I was suppose to be between Kelvin and Bani but since Mdm Jas rearranged the tables, I am now sitting between Kelvin and Ivan. Noisy noisy Ivan. Heh! (: Actually, I have the noisiest bunch of people around me. Ishk.

Today! I woke at 4.45 to get myself prepared. Unfortunately, I was late to meet Ais. Sorry, I owe you no dollar. Got to school only to find people forgetting this and that about their uniform. Some ended up going back home to change or take items.

Was really worn-out by the time everyone was all prepared for parade. I was busy going through my commands whereas Alif was busy going through both pledges. Don't stress don't stress don't stress~

Parade was okeh I guess. I don't know. I was having some kind of hibbyjibees so I don't quite realise those stuff. But I bet it went quite well. (:

Luckily for me, I was always sitting under a fan thus wearing a uniform the whole day for me, is certainly a no no problem! Heehee!

Lesson time was rather fast. Especially AMaths and English.

I had difficulty staying awake the whole day. Especially during Malay and EMaths. Boredom! English was at the library and I had fun in there. I took hold of this one particular gore and bloody book. The good thing about it, it has many useful words/phrases.

And thanks Mr Faraz for the compliment. When there's Nasirah, there's power!

Ehem.

Training was better today I guess. Hidayah and I gave my FA group some words. I hope they find it both useful and motivational. (:

Don't get too demoralised. It's not the end of your journey. Carry on. Improve. If you think you can do it, then you can. Don't think about doing those positive stuff, just do them.

All the best. And we really hope to see a greater achievement next week.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Supposedly.

(:

Honestly speaking, I'm not suppose to be online right now. Hehe!

1) I just woke up and need to search something important and thus I haven't bath.

2) I'm suppose to meet Ais around an hour time and I have yet to bath.

3) I'm banned from computers without Sister's supervision.

4) I'm sweetest! (What were you thinking?)

So anyway, congratulations to Ms Siti! Take care and get well real soon! (:

Suppose to go back to school today.

1) Doing homework with berok.

2) Having some kind of meeting about UG stuff.

Can I don't go back? I want to sleep again. Hmph.

Hmm, lets see. I have nothing much to update about. I have tons of pictures but yea, lack of time thus I can't possibly upload them all into this post. But of course, I can upload them into the computer. But just that I'm too lazy.

It's been a long time since I type thus it's really weird.

Yesterday was ubber fun! (: Finally met the Beroks without Farah and Nabila though since they were overseas. Finally, the table is gone!

Rushing-ly, I have to go off now if not I will be late and have to pay Ais a dollar. Totally no no. :p

And happy superbly belated father's day to Dad.

Dad is rather sick today so he isn't working. Dad has been coming back home rather late like around 10pm everyday since last week since his workplace has been shifted to somewhere I-don't-know-where. So yea, rest well Dad and get well soon! (:

Ihaveanissuewithyou.Whatdoyoucare?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Change of View.

Yes, that's Haziq and Shi Hui for you.

Hello people! No, you're not dreaming. I am updating.

News, nothing. I'm only done with Maths worksheets and not the exercises. I'm actually done with Biology, but then, I lost the paper. Bad joojoo.

I do have pictures of my own to upload, but too bad, I have yet to download my SE stuff here. So yes, wait for a very long time. And in fact, it'll be quite some time later that I will be able to go online again.

And worst of all, today is the last day I am on EBuddy. Say whatever you like, but I can't stop it.

Refering to my post title.

Wouldn't it be totally cool (no not Haziq.) to change souls with others. So that people can actually be you and you be others. Cool right?

(And again, that was not referring to Haziq.)

And as of today, I shall be away for I-have-no-idea long.

So till then.

Sweetest Love

Toodles.

Goodbye.

Goodbye messy computer table. ):

I am so sad! ): No, not because I'm sweetest. That one should be happy! Heh!

Sister asked me to clean up my computer table because it's going to get 'transferred' to Brother's room. I hope the computer get spoilt! *evil grin*

Anyway, I woke up rather early because I slept rather early. So I decided to watch some teevee. I kept the volume to the level where I can hear but yet not disturbing others who were still asleep. And came one stupid deaf human, switched on the volume and disturbed others who were still asleep. I mean like come on! If we were to disturb his sleep, he'll go maniac! Such an asshole I tell you.

And today, I shall do homework and get myself ready for duty tomorrow. And just where did I put my full-uniform?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

24 hours.

Happy YB day! (:

Sorry I'm not able to come for the second time in a row. ):

Did you know, 24 hours is actually a very long time. That is if you put sleeping aside.

Last night was spent with papers and pen. I have like two stupid paper cuts and thankfully, it doesn't hurt. Heh! Switched on the computer again at 0100 because I had no idea what the instruction to make origami cranes were talking.

I have no idea how Sister can actually read super many manuals. I can't even understand a single thing the instruction stated. Therefore, I always end up exploring and figure my way out myself. And therefore, instructions and manuals actually belong to the rubbish bin.

Told Ais some stuff last night and I swear it got me stopped working. After she went offline, I did my stuff all the way till 5.30am. Omfg! Not sleeping is like some serious cool stuff! Not referring to Haziq. And seriously, if you were to just put aside your sleep and do your own work and concentrate on it, trust me, you'll make it through~

Went out in the morning. I don't know why but I just feel so, different. Different me. And it feels so god damn weird. Had our early-morning-talking session with Fauzi, Shi Hui and Aishah. The other NCOs were busy, sick and camp. Also had a short footdrill session where we did so many 'tukah langkah.' Ubber fun! (: Been a long time and now, our legs just starts to vibrate. Like oh God!

Training. Okeh lets see. First Aid was like how it has always been. God help! Footdrill was okeh I guess. Because it was only for an hour and we have lots to do! So yes, okeh stuff. (:

Break time, we NCOs did footdrill again. And again, legs vibrating. And I can start to feel all the nails at my boots poking out at the heels' part. Ouch I tell you.

Rehearsal for SJ day was gasp. Fingers pointing and I had no choice. So sad! Hmph. Lets just hope I won't screw anything up.

Had the very last debrief by Ms Siti! ): Aww. And then we have to wait all the way till October to see her again. Aiyer. But it's okeh and it's alright because now we'll work with Mrs Chuah right? God, that rhymed. HAHA! (:

Got home, had lunch and I slept like a log for 3 hours straight. When I woke up, 3 messages was waiting. This shows that I'm popularly sweetest~! Thanks! (:

And now, I don't think I can sleep well tonight. But, afterall, I had 24 hours long day yesterday! (: Lets do it again some day.

Therefore now, we shall go to the television and stare at my reflection. *swing

Oh my fuck. Being a PC sucks and stressful! ): hmph.

This two beroks! Jolly well get well soon! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

When we thought.

When we think something, we always think it'll be right. Thirteens and fourteens, what can we do to change your mindset? If you hate us so much, then just leave. There's no use carrying on if you hate something. Just move on.

Just when we thought our glory will rise thanks to the thirteens. I think we might be wrong about you, thirteens.

I thought you would understand

So life sucks. Especially after Sister met Mdm Jas. I can't point fingers. I'm at fault for not doing so well. They're at fault for not helping totally. I mean come on, my brain might have a maximum capacity. And what do you know, during MYE period, it got to that level. And therefore, I failed lots of subjects.

So life has been interesting. Especially when I'm around my circle of friends. With Ais, Sushee, Lalat, Rawr, Ziq, Alif and Fauzi. They've been the ones keeping me away from my woes. They've been the ones who were always there for me when I needed them. And now, you're trying to keep me away from them. What do you know about me Mother? What do you know about me Sister? Just how much do anyone knows about me?

I'm not some kind of a see-through person. How deep do you know all about me? Nothing. Zero. You don't even bother to ask.

No Mdm Jas, my knowledge is not depleting just for your information. Come on, the insult you said right to face, it still cut deep through. And guess what? I don't care if my blog is being monitored or not. Get a life people, this is my privacy. If Government were to monitor it, I don't mind. School? Please. So I insult the teachers. So I insult my own school. You tell me. Who's teacher am I always insulting? Mine. Who's school am I always insulting? Mine.

I can never understand adults. It's not as if shutting us away from technology straight after meeting our teachers will do us any good. I can never understand teachers. It's not as if practicing so much without understanding can make us score straight As.

I won't need MSN. I won't need computer. But for once, will you listen to all my woes? But for once, will you listen to all my needs? But for once, will you always be there for me to carve my smile? But for once, will you be that some one who will talk nonsense with me all the way till midnight? But for once, will you ask me to do something silly yet meaningful? But for once, will you stop trying your very best to turn me into a nerd?

For once, will you just stop worrying? For once, let me worry about myself. I'm fifteen. I'm still trying to manage myself. If you don't let go, then I'd rather be five.

***

Today is such a drag. 9 NCOs left because Jeremy has left for CSSP camp. And half of us are falling ill. Goodness, I hope this people get well real soon! (:

Had a brunch at KFC with Farah, Shi Hui and Nabila. The rest had to go off for Drama workshop stuff. Too bad Farah, no cute guy. HAHA!

I'm seriously so broke. 'Income' always stop flowing in during holidays. And fuck I hate it. I want to get myself a job and get out of this living hell. But too bad, as if I'll be allowed.

And yes, I have completed my AMaths worksheets! (: Planning to complete AMaths exercises or EMaths worksheet tomorrow. And you know what? I'm sick of Sister's planning. I mean come on, I'm the one leading this life. Why must she be the one planning it?

Oh and training today was rather slack-ish to me. Took the Sec1s because of lack of manpower since more than half of us had lessons. So I took Nabila's group and they are such a nice bunch of trainees. (:

Now, I have got nothing better to do and I'm super pissed off.

Through it all?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

In times of needs.

Where do you turn to?

HIE! (:

When it comes to snacks, you're more likely to grab some candy than heat up a pizza. There's a good chance you're female (women prefer sweet snacks)... Or at least, you prefer to be in the company of women. Your tastes are simple and predictable. You are young at heart.You tend to crave food you can just grab and eat.

HAHA! How true. That's the sweet or salty test for you that I took from Perinder's blog. And guess what? It has been proven that I AM sweet.

*Gives a grin* Told you so.

Nothing much has happen when I was offline. I mean come on, my life is very dull and boring. Especially in holidays. Tsk.

I'm just disappointed in your attitude. No, not I. We. Are we seriously that useless till you people give us those kind of attitude? Like what we've said, you reflect us.

Please, we don't run Ah Beng and Ah Lian Corporation. If you want, open it up on your own. We have no time for people like that. Yes, we'd rather be harsh then to befriend all of you. You tell me, what's the use of being nice when you treat us like a bunch of idiots?

Gotta stop rolling your eyes people. God created a pair of eyes for you to admire the scenery. If all you ever know is roll your eyes, you gotta get your ass off that position. Go get your ass to elsewhere where people like it, love it, when you roll your eyes. You wanna continue, get off our sight.

We have our reasons. You may not see it now, but when you do, you'll regret not bucking up from the start.

I am so tired. Been going out for the past 2 days. The whole day. Saturday was a day in Malaysia where we shopped at Giant.

*sings*

Giant varieties! Giant savings! GIANT!

Alright, shut up.

Sunday was a birthday party for two year old Syahrul! (: Upcoming on 14th will be for a year old Syaqilah. And guess what? I saved my nephews/nieces names at my handphone. Call me short term memory but really, two reasons to it. First, I seldom see these kids. Come on, people got a life. They go to work and gets their hands busy all the time. They are certainly not like me who have no life. *Coughs*

Second, my cousins have a very outstanding knowledge you see. Even I can't beat that. Yet at least. So my nieces/nephews name would be rather difficult to remember. Like for example the youngest one of all, Deanda Nirgina. Wow. And Nirgina is actually the Malay band, Search, song. The exact same group where the older sister, Isabella, got her name from. Yes, my cousin is all about them. HAHA!

And how about this one, Nur Syaqilah Emmelia. Super long! So what am I suppose to call? Sweet one! Oh no wait, I can't call her that because by then, I would be the one running to myself.

I'm talking gobbledygook. I'm nice.

Huh?

So anyway, I have nothing better to do right now like seriously speaking. You know, it has been quite some time since I logged in to Friendster. And when I recently did, it looked super old and super dull. My goodness. And there it was again. A whole load of people that I didn't know I added them once-upon-a-time. Truckload of fuck.

Training again on Wednesday! I feel so guilty for not coming for History class. I wonder what they did and what I seriously missed?!

Will you ever get out of the way?

Will you ever stop assuming?

Sweet Love

Toodles.