Bowl people bowl!

We had fun today because I was there. (:

Despite all the hard and rough days I have been having, I finally get to go out and enjoy myself finally. (:

So I was being one champion and bowling queen today. Note, queen and not king. Practically because Fauzi was won me by one mark at the last round. Abeh action.

Firstly, we made a lot of noises at KFC then trained to Yishun Int and walked to the SAFRA. After a very hard yet fun first round, we decided to play second round. And it costs us a hole in the pocket. Such a big bomb I tell you. But I still did enjoy myself. Promise to pay full next time round, in fact a little more to cover current loss. I’m broke like mad. I’m sorry.

*Innocent Face*

2nd round.

Now stare at mine. I' improved okeh! Which is good. Maybe one day, I might just be a National team player. (: Don’t laugh don’t laugh.

*SINGS*

It’s possible. (:

Alright, now look at how the 7 professional bowls. (:

Professional bowler I tell you!

This ass tried to hit my score but failed. Muahaha!

This ass tried to curse my ball. But hey, I have professional fingers you know!

The yellow ass tried to hit my score like the first one but he failed by a few. Hehe.

The red one was new so I gave her chance, but I was still second. Hehe.

This one? She went around staring at people’s skills. Tsktsk.

After being broke for 2 games, we headed to Nabila’s crib to get cracking on our homework. Thankfully, I escaped the family’s gathering. Hehe.

We were practically so serious in our work. How do we know? Because that guy up there, whom I have never seen angry or sad or serious, was so fucking serious.

“Wow. I’ve never been this serious.” – Nabil.

Explains everything right?

We watched and laughed at The Ring 2. Haha. Damn bastards.

Had a very long walk from Nabila’s back to home. Guess what I saw?

There were two black figures standing right at the passageway that I wanted to walk. I so fucking scared to the maximum.

 

 

 

 

Only to find out it was two mak cik pakai mini telekong.

Damn nabeh.

Thus, I shall continue with homework and watch Gossip Girl. Hehe.

School tomorrow is such a scare. ):

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Thinking.

Just a little time.

If there's one thing I learnt today, it would be patience. I was so God damn pissed off when I got disconnected about a gazillion times today. But then I thought, what’s the use? It won’t help me get my Internet connected. (:

If there’s one thing that I would love to do during my course of living, I want to get a life. Though it’s filled with problems, that is the only reason why we’re given brains. To think of the good and the bad.

If there’s one thing that I would love to do right now, I would love to watch to Gossip Girl.

So now that you’ve guessed it, I want to watch Gossip Girl, like finally.

I hope I can escape tomorrow’s visit to Grandmother’s. Do you know how frustrating to sit around my cousins who are University graduates and University undergraduates? I’d rather be at Mak Long’s tomorrow spending my hours studying EMaths with Kak Diana.

Oh GASP. 3 months till Kak Diana gets married. ): People are always getting married on every important year of mine. I know I’m too lovable. (:

I’ll be okeh.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

End it all.

I think I need some time away from everything in life to do some thinking.

Or maybe just end it all.

Life is a bitch.

I thought for once, it could last for a longer period.

You thought that I would be happier at home. Why is everybody saying that I should be happier at home?

I have no one to complain to. I have no one to share my woes. Cause nobody seems to care anymore. Nobody will be able to carry my troubles with me, but at the very least, they could share. they could ask.

Why are you always comparing? Expecting so much more of me?

Why can’t you just listen to me and stop telling me things that I can’t carry anymore? You think by stressing me out, you’d get me somewhere? Well I’m telling you, I can never work under pressure. More pressure, lesser work done. Why can’t you just give me some time to think? Why can’t you just accept me for what I already am?

Why can’t I be smarter? How stupid can I get? I can’t even get simple sums right when my friends could. I can’t even get a pass for AMaths and Biology when my friends could. Just what the hell is wrong with me?

Shit ass you.

Just leave me alone.

I want a hug. ):

Well well well. (:

Today was certainly very fun. I had lots of laugh despite being disturb gazillion times. Haha.

Went back to class after some funny moments with Hidayah and Fauzi. Did read and reflect like always then we started our customised activity!

Helped out the lantern-making group. Hehe. (: The other half of the class was making the card.

Then while waiting for the main product of the lantern, I hung 11 of these string stuff at my fingers and was dancing around. Bored you know! Well at the very least, I didn’t hung it at my ears like some people.

“I feel pretty.”

Went off for concert at around 11. Was laughing like mad but I enjoyed myself! Hehe. Was busy laughing with people at people. Nice right? Hehe.

But I nicest.

Training was so irritating. I mean like seriously, in 3 months time! It’s a freaking short time!

No wonder many of us felt like we didn’t want to come down for training today.

After the ever-so URGH training, we had orange party/picnic!

On the way there..

This people all damn bastard sia!

Then while eating..

They were like making me the dumping ground for all the crackers. And they accused me of hogging!

*sad face*

Then Haziq placed the orange that Aishah wanted to eat on my lap and hair. Wtf. Then we passed it around. Hehe.

*Evil grins*

And you know what was worse? They were all bullying me. Good or good?

EMPTY! EMPTY! *points to head*

Aishah’s toes cramped throughout the whole journey home. Funny or funny?

GAHAHA!

And therefore, my stomach hurts from laughing a lot a lot! (:

I hope all 10 will pass. Because I see that true toughness in all of you. Because I see the true strength of leadership quality in you. (:

HAPPY (advance) CHINESE NEW YEAR!
May the year of Ox makes us someone diligent! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Finally.

At approximately 7.20am on Tuesday morning, these things came crashing to the floor. Thankfully, I was still sitting at home doing homework. The even better thing, it came crashing when Dad already went into the lift and the door was already closed. Good or what? (:

After what seems to be a very long time, we finally played The ball game again. Very happy you know!

But before we actually played the real game, we played the anyhow-version-of-volleyball and anyhow-version-of-frisbee.

Look how very organised and expert we people are.

The more the merrier you see. (:

So in the end, we played against Firdaus, Naufal, Faris and Haikal. We as in Kelvin, Shi Hui, Aishah, Haziq, Jeremy, Fabian and I. The so-called seniors versus juniors game.

After God-knows-how-long of game, we stopped with a score of 3-2. Which obviously conquered by the juniors. Hmph. Never mind, we were just giving them chances. (:

The game reminded me of us when we use to play against Henry, Chea Hau, Wee Yeong and whoever else. ):

“Play high play high!”

*Plays bloody high till it was impossible for us short sec2s to reach.*

Memories lah.

We then rested at room and played the don’t-laugh-or-smile-else-you’ll-lose game. Screw Firdaus and Faris for making me laugh like mad! (:

Oh wells, I’ll be very orangey tomorrow. You’ll know why soon. Just the NCOs and those whom I’ve promised.

Alright, I shall now do more stuff that I’m preparing for 2+ months time. (:

Hehe.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Seems like a mile or two.

*Smacks head*

I went for public duty today and had the shock of my life. Spent my day at Northland Sec helping Nad with 2 AMaths questions! We couldn’t believe that we could actually solve it. Hehe. And she freaked out on the bus. Oh God. (:

The coaches there were shouting things to encourage their own playing teams. I heard one of them shouting, “Be strong on your launch.”

Which to me, applies to my studies. My launch is my effort on my academics.

This therefore brings me to Mr Chong’s words. Urghhh!

2 weeks is a freaking short period to think of something that might change my life, majorly. Haiyer.

Tomorrow is Wednesday. Like oh my God! I have lots of homework due tomorrow and here I am complaining. Good or what?

I feel so fucking lethargic just now in the morning and I thought I would be down with fever. What’s worse, my throat was hurting from all the cough and I looked like a Rudolph. ): But thankfully, I DIDN’T FELL ILL!

Apple, here I come! Haha.

Okeh, I should get going and do my homework. I can die if I were to skip any homework. I will not take chances to see the Mrs Principal. No thanks. (:

Sweet Love

Toodles

I think with all my heart.

“To lose a heart means not that it will be lost forever,
But the right one must find it and take it back home.”

Sat with Mr Chong during lunch break and he has officially given me 2 weeks to think through if I want to drop Biology or not. He asked if I could cope with my Combined Phy/Chem or not.

So much for the New Year resolution huh. I can’t and have yet to get my thinking sorted out. I’m so totally not going to have a good night sleep.

On a much brighter side of studies, I have yet to do my homework. Alright, that is like the duller side of academics. But seriously, the sight of those oh-so-fcuking difficult Maths questions, I’m so not motivated to do my work.

I’m not delaying my work as what some people might see it to be. I just can’t solve those questions and I have to squeeze my brain juice all the time in order for me to get a starting step. Do you know how difficult that is? Of course not.

You know why?

Because you don’t have my brain. Our IQ level differs you see.

So how was school for me today?

As it has always been, super fun yet super tiring. AMaths was already squeezing and almost cutting my brain just to get the brain juices out. ):

Life is like a boat on the water. Either you’ll be safe or you’ll be drown forever.

PE was like so fun. For the first time in my whole almost-16 years of life, I’ve never reached 8 for pull-up, what more 5. Hehe. But I’m happy that I did it! (: Mr Kheng made us girls run with the help of our own luck. Haziqah was cursing me because I kept winning. Hehehek. (:

EMaths was a hair-pulling experience.

By the time it was CE lesson, my body was totally knocked out I don’t even know if I could survive the day. MT was practically a time for snoring and coming up with nonsensical English to Malay translation.

Alright, I should start with Physics now. Wouldn’t want to be left behind.

Again.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I will remember you.

I realise that I have been lacking of updates as the days get closer  to the end of 2009. No wonder I have been having lots of emotions running in me and I feel so stressed up so easily.

And so I thought I should get myself penning myself down more often than what I have been doing.

So what has been up? I’ve been rushing lots of homework, especially AMaths. When I say rushing, I meant really am into my work. Woah.

Dad said he’ll change my phone soon. I don’t know how soon. But it’s hard to believe others’ words nowadays. It’s like, I’ve been getting lots of empty promises. I don’t even know if I can say “I believe in your promises,” anymore.

I flipped through my phone contacts today. I can’t believe there’s so many nick names in there that I didn’t even knew existed still. Like for example, Big Bully (ehem). I think it’s a little too lame for that now. Thus, I’ve changed it to ‘Hottest.’

Now infer who I’m referring to.

There’s public duty tomorrow. I don’t know why but I dread missing Malay classes nowadays.

Could it be?
I think I’m driving myself mental!

Anyway, I’m so off for bed. I mean sleep and not bed.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Thorns in life.

Sometimes, the things in life that you hates the most keep pricking you. I need space. It’s only the 16th of January but many are already falling sick with virus and fever. And I can feel the pressure of O-levels that is coming in 9 months time.

Some feathers have certainly been ruffled by the winds in Singapore this week. In a country where the average wind speed is around 15 to 20 kilometres per hour, it has reached the time of the year when that figure goes up to 30 to 40 kmh.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20090116/tap-794-uncommon-strong-winds-singapore-231650b.html

Interesting. No wonder I’m now prone to flu almost every single night. ):

The day today was rather fine. Lessons was alright I guess. Could cope. Issac was so freaking happy because he could do the questions by himself. 180 degrees turn that guy will make. (:

After class, was the ever-so-boring CIP. But it was okeh I guess. Grouped with KimYet, HaoYang and Felicia. Oh yes, imagine the noises! The lift was rather stupid. Maximum of 8 persons but as the lift was closing, with Group 3 with us, the lift doors reopened and the two guys, being very gentlemanly, went out. Felicia and I found it rather LOL.

So CIP was a very funny thing today. I don’t know why.

Flag day tomorrow. Hehe.

***
It doesn’t mean that when I keep quiet, I’m sad. It doesn’t mean that when I keep quiet, I can be stepped all over.

I’m thinking. Thinking of what? Of everything.

Letting go. A new life. A new year. What’s going to happen tomorrow, or in fact later.

I just need a time to think. Is that so hard to ask for?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I take what I can cope.

I don’t understand why my parents keep asking so so much from me when they don’t even know how difficult it is for me to cope with everything.

Was watching the Malay news and pops the O-levels result for top Malay student who opted for Chinese as her 3rd language. Dad kept on going why are children from other families able to take so many subjects and especially Chinese.

Can’t he understand that not every one has equal abilities? He say this and that, this and that but he doesn’t even know anything. Not that I’m insulting but he didn’t get a proper education. Yes, he doesn’t want me to end up like him or my mom but really, at the very least I would be doing something that I can cope and can understand.

***

Studied for upcoming Biology test which is on Wednesday. Surprisingly, I could actually understand and explain almost everything about excretion. Happy or what? (:

What is left is to memorise secretion! I can do this!

So I have learnt that time management really helps me in my studies. Serious time management is all that I need.

Approximately:
- 5 months to Malay O-level paper.
- 9 months to Science Practical.
- 9 months to first O-level paper.

And 2 more Biology SPA before it gets down to theory and only theory. (:

If 3 years is short for me, what would 5/9 months be? ):

Sweet Love

Toodles.

First training 2009

Alright, I promised a proper post but then again, I’m too tired and way too sad  to update. I don’t want to let go. Stupid graduation.

3 months to go and we get closer every time it’s time to move on. I don’t know how I’ll survive my other days of life after we officially go through Passing Out Parade (POP). I thought it would be as easy as how I moved on Primary school, but when I think and look back, it’s way too different to compare.

3 years of working together very close is one difficult thing to built. But to just let go all of a sudden, is certainly just out of the question.

Our very last CCA orientation was certainly very successful I must say. The juniors made us proud and made us feel that all the things that we taught, came in handy and it was worthwhile. Congratulations! It’s not mainly about us training you, it’s about your own mentality. (:

I’m going to miss coming down and planning things for SJAB. But it’s okeh right? I have to let go eventually. ):

3 years of friendship.
3 years enduring the hot sun together.
3 years of rebelling and fights.
3 months till official POP.
3 months left for CCA.
3 months left till we have to do strict studies.

Just make sure you don’t forget who we were together.

Tell me it’s going to be NCO ‘08 forever.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

all these while?

I want to create my own path and not follow what is already planned for me.

Yes, I owe quite a number of posts. Hehe. But considering how busy I’ve been trying to catch up with studies and preparing myself for next week’s Biology test (OMFG!), I think posting about all these things will have to wait.

School has been a-okeh. Class has been very superbly noisy and getting very comfy nowadays. Trying to get comfortable with new sitting arrangement and surroundings. I miss sitting at the back, in between Kelvin and Ivan. ):

I so have to do my homework consistently nowadays. Why?

I want to choose not chosen. (:

You know what I aim? It’s not impossible because I aM POSSIBLE. Hehe.

L1B5 ≤ 13 and L1R4 ≤ 10.

Crazy right? That’s why I can do it because I am crazy. Hehe.

Alright now, CCA Orientation posts will be coming up soon. Right after I finish important homeworks and upload all the photos. (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Trying to let go.

Look at the very untidy timetable. I need a school organiser super soon! I mean like seriously, teachers ask us to buy our own organiser when in the end they’ll give us a school handbook. Waste my money okeh. It’s not as if I print money like as though it’s legal stuff.

Anyway, look what the four of the no-lives got themselves. (Okeh fine, it includes me too.

Oh yes, 4 exact same designs and brands but different colours.

Red, would be mine. Pink is Farah’s, green is Shi Hui’s and yellow is Haziq’s.

Today was nothing much but first day of madrasah. It was all Kak Shidah’s fault till my class will be next to office itself. Damn it. Same ‘form’ teacher, different 2nd period teacher. The guys were practically being amused with ‘ASIAN DRINK’ sold at the office. LOL.

Now, I need a new school shoes like seriously. I need a new phone too because it gave me a shock of a lifetime by not being able to switch on all of a sudden after switching off by itself. ):

Brother showed off his new phone yesterday. SHOW OFF~!

Guess what? I’m not done with my homework. Hehe.

So you should know what I’m off to do now. (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Nothing more.

You know, it’s weird how you asked me to keep to my promises when you don’t even show me how by breaking all your promises to me. Right, so who do you think I should learn it from?

Yesterday was horrendously funnily empty. (Inside joke)

Aishah: I wonder what to give her.

Me: Give her a pink pig.

Aishah: Hah? Where to buy?

Seriously, we should consider yesterday as an Official Retarded Day. (:

First day of school was awesome.

Spot check was good because I dress well. Since when I don’t right? Considering that the socks are so freaking long and kind of thick.

In class, Mdm Jas made us introduce ourselves again.

Me: *smiles* Hie, my name is Nasirah. Glad to see all of you back. I know all of you will turn sweet 16 this year, but too bad I’ll still be the sweetest.

4e4: EEEEEE! *makes all different noises*

Mdm Jas: Don’t you want to spit on this file?

We were given a yellow file filled with many sheets of paper. There were words of encouragement from the key personnels of the school. Very scary words of wisdom that reminds me of the big ‘O.’

Now what else? We had talk on ACE website for Maths stuff. So many websites this school subscribe to. What’s more, it cost my Edusave a heavy amount of $17. (Heavy? Not really. Heh.)

After much huhuhaha in class and school hours, went to the SJAB room (like finally) to monkey around before meeting. Will be so super busy on Wednesday. They seriously should place the CCA orientation on Friday nights (although this year I might have to miss Sinaran Hati with Taufik Batisah in it). Please, we got school on Thursday and what’s more, timetable resumes on Thursday. Give me a break (yes, I had it for 2 months)!

And after a noisy and filled-with-laughter meeting, the NCOs (except Jeremy) went to turn the whole centralised room upside down. The room looks so so much bigger and comfortable-er. I’m going to miss that room once I graduate. ):

Stupid graduation.

I’m so going shopping alone tomorrow. Which reminds me, madrasah has reopen after only 2 weeks break. Tsktsk.

This year shall be a very busy year for the whole family. Cousins getting married from April onwards up till August and October and December. Not to mention 2 different O levels in a year (hope it’s still ongoing).

Whatever it may be, I shall keep myself busy as of now not to mention that I have EMaths worksheet to hand in on Monday. GASP! 2 and a half worksheets to go.

I WILL SURVIVE, I WILL SURVIVE. (sings)

Sweet Love

Toodles.