Hope.

Faith begins with trust.

I trusted you with my keys. Now you tell me where did it end up at? And now, it's all because of you that I shall never ever trust anyone else with my keys. If I knew this was going to happen, I should have ignored. You better thank God that someone found it. You better thank God that I got my keys back. If it weren't for God, then I would have broken your bones into pieces.

Damn it you asshole. Yes, as a matter of fact, the 3 keys means a lot to me! Yes, the string thing matters a lot to me along with the light. If you don't see why, just fuck off.

Trusting you is going to be rather difficult now. So guess what Mister, you can forget about having the word "trusted" written all over your face in my eyes.

***

Lil Miss who thinks the world of herself, why not you start closing up that big mouth of yours and stop pretending? And oh wow, you were trying to avoid the aeroplane that time in school during last parade huh? Since the car is pretty much that small to you, I should have left your whole squad in that position and let all 28 of you die? Right on little miss.

At the very least, I got you guys quite a distance away from possible danger. I do want to see all of you carrying on living. But if you wanted to die last Friday, you should have said so. I have no problem of losing a cadet like you. If you don't treasure your own life, why not give some to those who have already died?

***

I don't understand why we need to keep on changing the positions and the procedure. I mean come on, you already agreed to the first one and now you changed at the last minute! Fine. You want us to learn rifle drill? Wow! Send me to the air rifle course too! And you shall be the first few people I'll test my skills on.

Unreasonable people don't deserve to be entertained. Please, it's our year. Why do you have way too much comment? Can't you people just bloody hell wait?!

Impatient.

***

Yes, I have many complains. I think people are just jealous just because I'm sweetest. Fine. I shall try not to be sweet.

***

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR LIM!

Thank you for all you guidance! Have a great life like how great you have always been for us. Thank you for everything! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

How long.

I am so tired. I am so pissed off. I am so happy. I am so sleepy. I can doze off at any time right now.

It has been such a long time. But too bad, I am way too tired to type an ubber long post. Gosh no way!

It's not that I don't want to go online. I want to but I can't. I am like under tight supervision of my sister who only allows me to use the Internet when I am done with my homework. And therefore, I couldn't get the chance because my homework has never been finished.

I have been rather busy for the past few weeks. Busy preparing myself to go to school. Busy getting myself comfortable at my new sitting place. Busy preparing for SJAB day. Oh yes, that seem short but it's a long period of time, thus it's super tiring.

This week is okeh because I changed my sit. At first I was suppose to be between Kelvin and Bani but since Mdm Jas rearranged the tables, I am now sitting between Kelvin and Ivan. Noisy noisy Ivan. Heh! (: Actually, I have the noisiest bunch of people around me. Ishk.

Today! I woke at 4.45 to get myself prepared. Unfortunately, I was late to meet Ais. Sorry, I owe you no dollar. Got to school only to find people forgetting this and that about their uniform. Some ended up going back home to change or take items.

Was really worn-out by the time everyone was all prepared for parade. I was busy going through my commands whereas Alif was busy going through both pledges. Don't stress don't stress don't stress~

Parade was okeh I guess. I don't know. I was having some kind of hibbyjibees so I don't quite realise those stuff. But I bet it went quite well. (:

Luckily for me, I was always sitting under a fan thus wearing a uniform the whole day for me, is certainly a no no problem! Heehee!

Lesson time was rather fast. Especially AMaths and English.

I had difficulty staying awake the whole day. Especially during Malay and EMaths. Boredom! English was at the library and I had fun in there. I took hold of this one particular gore and bloody book. The good thing about it, it has many useful words/phrases.

And thanks Mr Faraz for the compliment. When there's Nasirah, there's power!

Ehem.

Training was better today I guess. Hidayah and I gave my FA group some words. I hope they find it both useful and motivational. (:

Don't get too demoralised. It's not the end of your journey. Carry on. Improve. If you think you can do it, then you can. Don't think about doing those positive stuff, just do them.

All the best. And we really hope to see a greater achievement next week.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Supposedly.

(:

Honestly speaking, I'm not suppose to be online right now. Hehe!

1) I just woke up and need to search something important and thus I haven't bath.

2) I'm suppose to meet Ais around an hour time and I have yet to bath.

3) I'm banned from computers without Sister's supervision.

4) I'm sweetest! (What were you thinking?)

So anyway, congratulations to Ms Siti! Take care and get well real soon! (:

Suppose to go back to school today.

1) Doing homework with berok.

2) Having some kind of meeting about UG stuff.

Can I don't go back? I want to sleep again. Hmph.

Hmm, lets see. I have nothing much to update about. I have tons of pictures but yea, lack of time thus I can't possibly upload them all into this post. But of course, I can upload them into the computer. But just that I'm too lazy.

It's been a long time since I type thus it's really weird.

Yesterday was ubber fun! (: Finally met the Beroks without Farah and Nabila though since they were overseas. Finally, the table is gone!

Rushing-ly, I have to go off now if not I will be late and have to pay Ais a dollar. Totally no no. :p

And happy superbly belated father's day to Dad.

Dad is rather sick today so he isn't working. Dad has been coming back home rather late like around 10pm everyday since last week since his workplace has been shifted to somewhere I-don't-know-where. So yea, rest well Dad and get well soon! (:

Ihaveanissuewithyou.Whatdoyoucare?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Change of View.

Yes, that's Haziq and Shi Hui for you.

Hello people! No, you're not dreaming. I am updating.

News, nothing. I'm only done with Maths worksheets and not the exercises. I'm actually done with Biology, but then, I lost the paper. Bad joojoo.

I do have pictures of my own to upload, but too bad, I have yet to download my SE stuff here. So yes, wait for a very long time. And in fact, it'll be quite some time later that I will be able to go online again.

And worst of all, today is the last day I am on EBuddy. Say whatever you like, but I can't stop it.

Refering to my post title.

Wouldn't it be totally cool (no not Haziq.) to change souls with others. So that people can actually be you and you be others. Cool right?

(And again, that was not referring to Haziq.)

And as of today, I shall be away for I-have-no-idea long.

So till then.

Sweetest Love

Toodles.

Goodbye.

Goodbye messy computer table. ):

I am so sad! ): No, not because I'm sweetest. That one should be happy! Heh!

Sister asked me to clean up my computer table because it's going to get 'transferred' to Brother's room. I hope the computer get spoilt! *evil grin*

Anyway, I woke up rather early because I slept rather early. So I decided to watch some teevee. I kept the volume to the level where I can hear but yet not disturbing others who were still asleep. And came one stupid deaf human, switched on the volume and disturbed others who were still asleep. I mean like come on! If we were to disturb his sleep, he'll go maniac! Such an asshole I tell you.

And today, I shall do homework and get myself ready for duty tomorrow. And just where did I put my full-uniform?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

24 hours.

Happy YB day! (:

Sorry I'm not able to come for the second time in a row. ):

Did you know, 24 hours is actually a very long time. That is if you put sleeping aside.

Last night was spent with papers and pen. I have like two stupid paper cuts and thankfully, it doesn't hurt. Heh! Switched on the computer again at 0100 because I had no idea what the instruction to make origami cranes were talking.

I have no idea how Sister can actually read super many manuals. I can't even understand a single thing the instruction stated. Therefore, I always end up exploring and figure my way out myself. And therefore, instructions and manuals actually belong to the rubbish bin.

Told Ais some stuff last night and I swear it got me stopped working. After she went offline, I did my stuff all the way till 5.30am. Omfg! Not sleeping is like some serious cool stuff! Not referring to Haziq. And seriously, if you were to just put aside your sleep and do your own work and concentrate on it, trust me, you'll make it through~

Went out in the morning. I don't know why but I just feel so, different. Different me. And it feels so god damn weird. Had our early-morning-talking session with Fauzi, Shi Hui and Aishah. The other NCOs were busy, sick and camp. Also had a short footdrill session where we did so many 'tukah langkah.' Ubber fun! (: Been a long time and now, our legs just starts to vibrate. Like oh God!

Training. Okeh lets see. First Aid was like how it has always been. God help! Footdrill was okeh I guess. Because it was only for an hour and we have lots to do! So yes, okeh stuff. (:

Break time, we NCOs did footdrill again. And again, legs vibrating. And I can start to feel all the nails at my boots poking out at the heels' part. Ouch I tell you.

Rehearsal for SJ day was gasp. Fingers pointing and I had no choice. So sad! Hmph. Lets just hope I won't screw anything up.

Had the very last debrief by Ms Siti! ): Aww. And then we have to wait all the way till October to see her again. Aiyer. But it's okeh and it's alright because now we'll work with Mrs Chuah right? God, that rhymed. HAHA! (:

Got home, had lunch and I slept like a log for 3 hours straight. When I woke up, 3 messages was waiting. This shows that I'm popularly sweetest~! Thanks! (:

And now, I don't think I can sleep well tonight. But, afterall, I had 24 hours long day yesterday! (: Lets do it again some day.

Therefore now, we shall go to the television and stare at my reflection. *swing

Oh my fuck. Being a PC sucks and stressful! ): hmph.

This two beroks! Jolly well get well soon! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

When we thought.

When we think something, we always think it'll be right. Thirteens and fourteens, what can we do to change your mindset? If you hate us so much, then just leave. There's no use carrying on if you hate something. Just move on.

Just when we thought our glory will rise thanks to the thirteens. I think we might be wrong about you, thirteens.

I thought you would understand

So life sucks. Especially after Sister met Mdm Jas. I can't point fingers. I'm at fault for not doing so well. They're at fault for not helping totally. I mean come on, my brain might have a maximum capacity. And what do you know, during MYE period, it got to that level. And therefore, I failed lots of subjects.

So life has been interesting. Especially when I'm around my circle of friends. With Ais, Sushee, Lalat, Rawr, Ziq, Alif and Fauzi. They've been the ones keeping me away from my woes. They've been the ones who were always there for me when I needed them. And now, you're trying to keep me away from them. What do you know about me Mother? What do you know about me Sister? Just how much do anyone knows about me?

I'm not some kind of a see-through person. How deep do you know all about me? Nothing. Zero. You don't even bother to ask.

No Mdm Jas, my knowledge is not depleting just for your information. Come on, the insult you said right to face, it still cut deep through. And guess what? I don't care if my blog is being monitored or not. Get a life people, this is my privacy. If Government were to monitor it, I don't mind. School? Please. So I insult the teachers. So I insult my own school. You tell me. Who's teacher am I always insulting? Mine. Who's school am I always insulting? Mine.

I can never understand adults. It's not as if shutting us away from technology straight after meeting our teachers will do us any good. I can never understand teachers. It's not as if practicing so much without understanding can make us score straight As.

I won't need MSN. I won't need computer. But for once, will you listen to all my woes? But for once, will you listen to all my needs? But for once, will you always be there for me to carve my smile? But for once, will you be that some one who will talk nonsense with me all the way till midnight? But for once, will you ask me to do something silly yet meaningful? But for once, will you stop trying your very best to turn me into a nerd?

For once, will you just stop worrying? For once, let me worry about myself. I'm fifteen. I'm still trying to manage myself. If you don't let go, then I'd rather be five.

***

Today is such a drag. 9 NCOs left because Jeremy has left for CSSP camp. And half of us are falling ill. Goodness, I hope this people get well real soon! (:

Had a brunch at KFC with Farah, Shi Hui and Nabila. The rest had to go off for Drama workshop stuff. Too bad Farah, no cute guy. HAHA!

I'm seriously so broke. 'Income' always stop flowing in during holidays. And fuck I hate it. I want to get myself a job and get out of this living hell. But too bad, as if I'll be allowed.

And yes, I have completed my AMaths worksheets! (: Planning to complete AMaths exercises or EMaths worksheet tomorrow. And you know what? I'm sick of Sister's planning. I mean come on, I'm the one leading this life. Why must she be the one planning it?

Oh and training today was rather slack-ish to me. Took the Sec1s because of lack of manpower since more than half of us had lessons. So I took Nabila's group and they are such a nice bunch of trainees. (:

Now, I have got nothing better to do and I'm super pissed off.

Through it all?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

In times of needs.

Where do you turn to?

HIE! (:

When it comes to snacks, you're more likely to grab some candy than heat up a pizza. There's a good chance you're female (women prefer sweet snacks)... Or at least, you prefer to be in the company of women. Your tastes are simple and predictable. You are young at heart.You tend to crave food you can just grab and eat.

HAHA! How true. That's the sweet or salty test for you that I took from Perinder's blog. And guess what? It has been proven that I AM sweet.

*Gives a grin* Told you so.

Nothing much has happen when I was offline. I mean come on, my life is very dull and boring. Especially in holidays. Tsk.

I'm just disappointed in your attitude. No, not I. We. Are we seriously that useless till you people give us those kind of attitude? Like what we've said, you reflect us.

Please, we don't run Ah Beng and Ah Lian Corporation. If you want, open it up on your own. We have no time for people like that. Yes, we'd rather be harsh then to befriend all of you. You tell me, what's the use of being nice when you treat us like a bunch of idiots?

Gotta stop rolling your eyes people. God created a pair of eyes for you to admire the scenery. If all you ever know is roll your eyes, you gotta get your ass off that position. Go get your ass to elsewhere where people like it, love it, when you roll your eyes. You wanna continue, get off our sight.

We have our reasons. You may not see it now, but when you do, you'll regret not bucking up from the start.

I am so tired. Been going out for the past 2 days. The whole day. Saturday was a day in Malaysia where we shopped at Giant.

*sings*

Giant varieties! Giant savings! GIANT!

Alright, shut up.

Sunday was a birthday party for two year old Syahrul! (: Upcoming on 14th will be for a year old Syaqilah. And guess what? I saved my nephews/nieces names at my handphone. Call me short term memory but really, two reasons to it. First, I seldom see these kids. Come on, people got a life. They go to work and gets their hands busy all the time. They are certainly not like me who have no life. *Coughs*

Second, my cousins have a very outstanding knowledge you see. Even I can't beat that. Yet at least. So my nieces/nephews name would be rather difficult to remember. Like for example the youngest one of all, Deanda Nirgina. Wow. And Nirgina is actually the Malay band, Search, song. The exact same group where the older sister, Isabella, got her name from. Yes, my cousin is all about them. HAHA!

And how about this one, Nur Syaqilah Emmelia. Super long! So what am I suppose to call? Sweet one! Oh no wait, I can't call her that because by then, I would be the one running to myself.

I'm talking gobbledygook. I'm nice.

Huh?

So anyway, I have nothing better to do right now like seriously speaking. You know, it has been quite some time since I logged in to Friendster. And when I recently did, it looked super old and super dull. My goodness. And there it was again. A whole load of people that I didn't know I added them once-upon-a-time. Truckload of fuck.

Training again on Wednesday! I feel so guilty for not coming for History class. I wonder what they did and what I seriously missed?!

Will you ever get out of the way?

Will you ever stop assuming?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Random~

Hateable lights. Hmph.

Hello everybody! (:

I have nothing better to do right now (apart from doing heymath! and also doing homework) and I'm so super bored. I'm leaving the Virtual Village as it is. Nothing is apearing. Hmph. It's okeh, I'll introduce my character later. (:

So today's training was like always. First Aid lesson was wow. And you should see today's phone. Very nice.

Courtesy of Fauzi and I. There were even emergency numbers by the side.

Had a little talk with the Sec2s. I sincerely hope they've realised that what we're doing, is for their own good. (:

After that had a KFC lunch with The Beroks! Except some. ): Bus-ed home alone. Luckily, there was no one to disturb me. *Hints* And unfortunately, bus 913 just now was rather too comfortable that I seriously felt like sleeping in the bus and go one whole round. *blinks.

At home just now, around 8, played spelling 'class' with Iffah and Sister. Alright, mainly it was Iffah who played. Whilst Sister was the one who gave out cards and I was the one who took pictures and laugh out sweetly. (:

First step:

Draw cards. Whenever she close her eyes, she'll automatically smile. Thus, she decided not to get disturb and so she covered her mouth. HAHA! Nice move. (:

Second step:

Learn how to spell. First you read it from there. Then you'll get the spelling covered and you spell it again.

Third step:

You write down the spellings on a book neatly. And while writing, make sure you laugh. HAHA!

Oh and Sister tried to make chocolate truffle. Truffle? Whatever it's called.

A quarter of it all.

And now, back to Virtual Village. I named all the characters after all the berok's name. Now left with Hidayah! There's no baby girl. I hope the next baby is a girl. And thus, I will complete all 10 names of The Beroks. (:

This is Ziq. Out of name for guys. The next few, you should be able to see their names so yes, I'll leave it to you to read it.

These 3 kids, including Ziq, are the ones who have been helping me collect all the necessary items! Yey! (:

She has a baby. Thus the white thing you are looking at is her baby.

These 4 characters have been doing all the heavy work. Like building the hut, harvesting food and researching. And now, Nasirah and Alif are adept builder. Nabila is a master scientist and Jeremy is an adept farmer. (: YEY!

And this is the tribal chief who is currently so hopeless. He is always thinking. He is always contemplating. When I ask him to do work, he does 'directing work.' Wow!

Yes, Haziq is wearing a robe. This was actually named Shi Hui. But when I realised its a male instead, I changed. Hmph.

And this is where they fuck. All those adult villagers. They'll embrace each other first. If they like it, they'll 'go indoors' into this hut.

See, cool right? (No not Haziq. The game although he was the one who recommended this)

So thus, I'm sweetest and I can swim. *In Virtual Village*

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Congkak.

Inside joke! (:

I went for Congkak! And I didn't pass my curfew. Yey! Improvement Nasirah! Improvement.

So anyway, the movie is not as bad Jangan Pandang Belakang but seriously speaking, I personally don't like the movie.

1) Sound effects were too loud. There were even some unnecessary sound effects that almost made me go deaf. Goodness, sound system needs serious help.

2) You tell me, do ghosts sits randomly on/near sink? My goodness. The ghost was more like an innocent old lady who gets her face splashed with acids. Realistic? Personally, no.

3) Erm, sound effects. Sorry but cannot help it. Sound effects were too loud and they covered the voice of the character who was reading the prayer. Personally, should let the prayer be the background sound.

And to top the boredom, my bubble tea finished. Hmph. It was not even half of the movie!

Anyway, I'm bored of heymath! Like please, as if I don't know what HCF and LCM is. They lack pictures. They lack sounds. They need colours! Actually, I'm too tired to do any Maths. I have got to stop complaining. Tsk.

Training tomorrow! I cannot wait! (: *Evil Grins*

***

So people, how about a surprise one like last week? Please, get yourself prepared. You should've done all this shits and be ready for it since all the way back to January. Don't tear please. We've gone through what you're going through. Much harder. Much like seriously much.

It's coming nearer to June and if you continue that standard, might as well forget about leading. As a senior, we take our role seriously. As a junior, you should take your role seriously. If you can't even get the smallest thing right, you're in for trouble. And who's to blame? Us?

Certainly not. Everything in life, you can't put the blame on others. Fingers pointing but it's all to yourself. If you think we're making your self esteem low, then let me tell you, you're making my high hopes on you guys go lower. We're not all about love and boosting your morale, we're here to make sure you lead well.

If you think you can't handle sudden news about leading at the very last minute, I think you should quit now. If you can't take it, leave it.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Cause it ain't true.

I'm bored!! GASP GASP GASP!

Alright, like finally, a day break from school apart from Monday! Seriously speaking, I have no idea what to blog.

Yesterday's training was fun! Despite all the shouting, I bet the other 2 NCOs who came down for footdrill with me had fun! We played 'The Game' with the Sec2s and if they still cannot remember, I have no idea what to say.

First Aid, even more fun! Lots of hand exercises yesterday! (:

Physics was so confusing. Since I came in late and had no bloody idea what Ms Lim was talking, I crapped with Hao Yang and Yi Xun. Heh! But it was fun!

Today was even better! History class was rather interesting since we're studying "Rise of Adolf Hitler." And what made it better was that I was sitting in between Amirah and Isaac. Noisy people.

English was like always, so super noisy! And we sang birthday song. Correction, birthday songs. (: After English, bus-ed home with Hazirah and some other random TICs. (:

I swear to God they were super noisy. Right in front were Jody and Yvonne saying super loudly, "HIE NENEK!"

Right beside me was Perinder who was giggling away. And then comes Felicia who talks non-stop and Syahirah who laughed like there's no tomorrow. Hehe! And me? As always, I was quiet. And I was sweetest of course! Heh!

Tomorrow. English class post-poned and I'm suppose to follow Sister to her religious class to hand her project. Goodness, I have nothing better to do I tell you. Then after that, if she permits, I'm going to go with the other Beroks to watch 'Congkak.'

And now, I seriously have nothing better to do. I think I should go reload my mp3 with songs. I just realise that it's getting super boring. Tsk. See, sweet people always have *ehem*latest*ehem* songs and all that.

(S) Hello :] says: this convo lacks of chlorophyll.

* Nasirah says: the chlorophyll step save the world

* Nasirah says: i think he making food lah

***

* Nasirah says: i wanna wear baju kurung

(S) Hello :] says: i got no more shirt to wear.

(S) Hello :] says: i wanna wear sari.

* Nasirah says: okeh rubbish

- Haziq says: u froze to death inside the cinema i dunno ah

(S) Hello :] says: HAHAHAHHAHAAA

- Haziq says: *shuts eye to sh*

* Nasirah says: nvrm, got me

(S) Hello :] says: only the stomach froze.

* Nasirah says: can melt

(S) Hello :] says: HAHAHHAHAHAHAAA.

- Haziq says: shit

- Haziq says: wrong shut eye

(S) Hello :] says: i cant stop laughing.

* Nasirah says: aaaahahhahahaha!

(S) Hello :] says: HAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH

- Haziq says: I WAS EXPECTING SUSHEE TO LIKE

- Haziq says: NVm, i hot so i can melt her

- Haziq says: SKALI

- Haziq says: the opah strikes.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Redundant.

I'm cutting down. (:

Alright now. Sister and I have came to an agreement. Aww. First time ever! (:

So anyways, sad to say, MSN is going to be removed as of 010608. But never you mind, I can still blog. And I can't decide which to hope. Desktop removed from room and use Sister's laptop or desktop stay and can sneakily go EBuddy. Hmm.

Nothing much nowadays. Just that I'm currently stuck on Didi Cazli's song. Hot I tell you! (: And I have a Malay article to read and do some stuff about it by 9.30 tonight. That's like 15 minutes away actually. What the fish. Hmph.

So I guess I should go now. Get things done. Don't worry, even when I'm not at MSN, I'll still blog! (:

But who's going to listen to my woes? Who's going to accompany me when I feel so low? ):

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Tired.

I can myself move forward if the sky can do it. (:

I am way too tired of everything. School's weekly/daily/hourly/minutely/secondly hectic schedule is over for now but I have classes and trainings to attend for next week and also the following week.

I don't understand how June holidays work.

Courtesy of Dictionary.com:

Holiday:- A time or period of exemption from any requirement, duty, assessment.

Wow. I can see that us students are exempted from everything about school. Wow.

Anyway, Singapore got the Pedra Branca. Sorry, I'm being very random here till I changed the subject so motherfucking-suddenly; from school to Pedra Branca.

Courtesy of MFA:

THE HAGUE, 23 May 2008. The International Court of Justice(ICJ), principal judicial organ of the United Nations, today rendered its Judgment in the case concerning Sovereignty over Pedra Branca/Pulau Batu Puteh,Middle Rocks and South Ledge (Malaysia/Singapore).

In its Judgment, which is final, binding and without appeal,the Court

⎯ finds by twelve votes to four that sovereignty over Pedra Branca/Pulau Batu Puteh belongs to the Republic of Singapore;

⎯ finds by fifteen votes to one that sovereignty over Middle Rocks belongs to Malaysia;

⎯ finds by fifteen votes to one that sovereignty over South Ledge belongs to the State in the territorial waters of which it is located.

Not interested never mind, because this is my blog and I'm interested. (:

Don't ask me about Parent-Teacher Meeting. I seriously think it suck because I felt insulted. Yea, my results are bad but I'm not a disgrace to the Malay community. Please, at the very least, I pass Malay even after stepping into Sec3. Mother, many people dropped. So you can't blame me. Even my Malay teacher will understand.

And yea, I suck at Biology I know. And I know my L1R4 cannot make it to anywhere, according to you. But what do you know, there's a course that I want to take and is acceptable for my points to go RP. Please, I'm not going to dream on. You can say that to my face as much as you want but seriously, I hate it when you start insulting people. Yes, you're nice, but you suck when you insult us.

Lets not talk about L1R5, I can't even make it to YJC with that kind of points. And Sister wants me to beat her L1R5. Hmph.

Open the tap of your potential in life.

- Dr William Tan

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I know.

Yea, I know I am. You can't help it but I can't.

I'm sorry.

While others got their smiles, I got my tears. While others got their report book, I got to return my book without looking at my slip.

I felt like a loser.

I'm sorry I suck at my Sciences. I'm sorry I suck at my studies. I'm sorry that I feel sorry for myself. I know you're holding on to an Alevel certificate that has brought you to somewhere. I'm sorry I'm not as good as you.

I have my own strength and weaknesses. My aim in life is not to get a great certificate. Yes, that I have got to admit. My aim in life has never been about good grades, it has always been about me living it well. And currently, I don't think I'm doing it greatly.

Your words cut me deep. I bet you realise how I cried in your class because you stopped staring at my place like you always do. I'm sorry I'm a disappointment to your career. I'm sorry if I'm the first person in your class to do really badly. I'm sorry that I lack of 'villi' as you said, to absorb all the notes you asked me to memorise.

And you, your words are your prayers. You know what they say. "Your mother's words are prayer's for you."

I'm sorry I suck. I know.

Tell me what I'm suppose to do.

If they can keep it this tidy, I'll hail them. That's for sure.

I have lots to complain. And yes, if you have been the group of people who goes around saying "OMFG! You guys are so fierce. Relax lah!"

Well people, read on. (:

So you tell me, if you were me and your people don't do their job properly. Will you scold them? Will you scream your own sweet voice at them? Will you tell them nicely about their mistakes after they were repeatedly reminded?

Please. We NCOs don't shout for no reason. We NCOs don't shout because we received them before. We NCOs don't have time to shout at them. We rather be in school relaxing and laughing then scolding them. Please, who wants?

We NCOs shout for the best of them.

So I advice you not to pity them and not to tell us NCOs how strict we are and how lenient we should be. Please, I'll shout at you if you tell my fellow NCOs that again. And I'll keep my words.

Try to be in my shoes. Try to be in our shoes.

And you tell me. Why should you be afraid of us? It's not as if I'm screaming at you. It's not as if we're screaming at you. Please, we're treating you. In fact, you should be the one screaming at them. It's you they're treating. Not me. Not us. You.

So you think about it.

I don't know why but some people think we NCOs are the only first aiders around in the school. Please, if we're the only first aiders, what do you take the sec2s for? Why are we training them if we're the only first aiders there? Why am I screaming my lungs out when my fellow NCOs and I are the only first aiders.

What do you take me for? There's only one unique me. Please lah. I don't and can't multiply myself. What do you take us for? There's only ten uniquely us. Please lah. We don't and can't multiple ourself. We're not some kind of wizard and witch. If you are, why not multiply yourself and learn first aid.

Thanks for doing so.

And you? Aren't you a first aider yourself. Why not start taking initiative?

I am so pissed and sick.

I need to sleep. I'm deprived from sleep. No wonder I'm like this.

Hmph.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Tired.

Hie people. I'm too tired to update anything for today. No worries, you don't really miss out anything much.

Those people who cheered during PE period just now, thanks~ Appreciated! (:

And people, bloody hell pick up your phone and stop going to the toilet. Please, I know I don't really make your bladder go full okeh. Tsk.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Wedding. (:

Congratulations Abg Sharil and Kak Masita. (:

So the whole weekend was spent at Bedok. Super tired but it was somewhat fun. I'm too tired to type super long so picture time! And people always say, "Let the pictures do the talking." Okeh people, imply that now.

Decorations:

And I had to entertain kids. Why? Because I'm sweetest. (:

(Sunday; 180508)

Before the groom go off, the hadra did a performance with their kuda kepang dancers.

And off they went to the bride's place.

And this is the side decoration stuff.

After some hoohoohaahaa, approximately 3.30pm, the bride and groom arrived back to the groom's house. (:

Silat:

Professional people:

(That would be the groom's brother himself. Make it shorter, my cousin.)

Dancers:

And then comes the photographing part. Very kecoh! Why? Because that's my aunts and uncles for you. (:

(Another addition to the family.)

After more hoohoohaahaa, we went off for home. Super tired.

And I have yet to finish my AMaths. Oh no. Hmph.

And once again, congratulations to the newly-wed. (:

*Sings the congratulation song~*

Sweet Love

Toodles.