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You know how saddening it is to hear people getting much better results than you? Hello. Let's talk about last night first. Showed Kak Naf my Maths paper and she said I could've gotten A1 if it weren't for my careless stupid&fucking mistakes. See? I told you my mind have gone bonkers on Maths. Wait, I have not tell any of you yet. Haha! Okeh, so Abg Aee came back from the jungle yesterday evening. Showed him my birthday presents (of course must show~). Last night was great laugh. Parents out with Iffah so we had good talk and laugh together. How I miss those moments. The times when we laugh together and make fun of each other and all. Now, I have nobody to laugh with at home. Sis busy with work. Bro busy with work also. The disadvantages of having siblings who work. *sigh* Anyway, today. Went Jurong quite early. 12 pm and we've reached. Kak Khalidah joined us after that. Homenursing was okay. Bukit Batok's footdrill, I will drop dead if they were to be in zone 6! They were very good. Everything was, nice!!! You should have seen how good they were! OMGOMG! Since we were jealous of them, we went to admiralty to train. First, went to McD to eat. Ordered McSpicy. Absolutely spicy! Talked and all. (: HEHE! Then we went to the park to do our footdrills. Lots of fun stuff. From talking about footdrill to... You wouldn't want to know. Ahaha! Then we went off home~ *** My dear cousin, it's alright. I'm sure you can do better. I have faith in you! Don't bother about what others say. They are not you. You cannot change them neither can they change you. Take criticisms as a support for you to push yourself harder. Make someone having a much worse condition than you to be your role model. If you want to fight back for your own pride, I'll be by your side! (: And yes, my studies are getting from bad to worse. I don't know why. I want to appeal to have my subject teachers change to a much better ones. Like for example, change Ms Choo to Mr Faraz. I don't know why but everytime I see my history book, the words that she said to us just came back by itself. The words that made us much noisier now than before. Can't you see the changes in us? Obviously you can't because you were too busy finding our faults. I want my interaction with Mr Lim soon. I know I'll be scared to tell him every grudges I have with the teachers, but I don't think I can hold on to it any longer. I have been reading my previous posts and I have changed, alot. I am much more stressful than before. I don't know why but the pressure is on, challenging myself to be a better person. Challenging myself to be better in my studies. Challenging myself to behave and control my anger. Challenging myself to stop fighting for my own sake. Challenging myself in everything. I'm in need of a break. I'm in need of all-day/week/month-long fun time. I'm in need of long holidays. I'm in need for Sec 2 life to be over and I'm in need of school life to be over. I'm longing for things which can only happens in a very long timeline. My goodness. Oh people. Count down to that day where I will be too nervous that I will break down and lose my focus. OMFG! 28 days FAC, I want you to come to me and not me coming to you. Sweet Love