E-Learning Day.

Random-ity, who's fault? Hehe!

I'm taking a break from EMaths online lesson. It's like, so super draggy. Not only that, it's lagging like hell.

Not only my FF is lagging, my whole Live Messenger is lagging too. Because people come to me and complain. And I go to people and complain. HAHA!

I'm currently having this super headache ache. I think I read too much Spud. Screw you Spud!

I want to go to school now! HAHA! Okeh shut up. AMaths test tomorrow. I'm excited! LOL.

Okeh now, lets get back to ELearning. Oh my God.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

If only we don't grow up.

Sometimes, all that you could ever think about was to be a kid again. But then again, we wouldn't have been able to see the great world that God has created if we remained a kid. We wouldn't have been able to meet the people who would be there for us and try to cheer us up.

But then again, being a kid again is everyone's best option.

 

Woke up in the morning. Can't help but to keep on yawning. Feel so lethargic, what am I going to do? Nah, I don't turn on the radio for a basic 5 minutes. Crazy?

I was wide awake in the morning. Probably because I was excited for tomorrow. Which I bet you see no connection in there. Heh!

School was fine I suppose. Am currently suppose to finish up this something that 3e4 is suppose to do. Hehe. But I'm kinda lazy to do it today. Maybe tomorrow.

Currently, I'm holding on to Haziq's book, Spud. English period was going through of paper, which I passed, and also checking of the stroybook we read. So yes, Spud is somewhat a super guyish book that I suggest NO girls that are againts p*** to read. Seriously.

I spent the whole morning in class complaining to Panda about my flu. Sorry arh. Hehe. So my eyes were droopy and I guess sleeping was the best thing that I could and must do. But I didn't. Good girl you see..?

Physics was boring but fun. As always, I get super hyper because that's the only way I can absorb lesson. (See Mr Chong, I don't need villi okeh. For my brain, I mean.) We learnt speed-time graph today! Yes, we're still at kinematics. Lol. (: Very confusing. Oh wells, extra lessons next week. Can die I tell you!

EMaths was about applying bearings and whatever-nots into a 3D diagrams. Gaaah! Can I like, jump over the railing at gunz? Anyways, I managed to pull through I guess. (:

Pull through lessons, number 1. Pull through exams, I might just die.

Malay periods were as always. The guys were being their usual self, ended up having someone hurt. LOL. Not funny now but it was, just now. Hee. The teacher-student acting thing is almost ending. My group will be the last one, presenting on Wednesday. I'm going to remain shy and quiet. But with those kind of guys in my class, doubt so.

Note: That was a compliment. LOL.

Moving on people, moving on.

Got home rather early today because I was basically tired and can't-be-bothered-about-school-anymore. Planned to ride the 912 bus home with Hazirah but we both cancelled it for we were busy being busy bodies. Hehe!

There was an accident nearby, so we decided to walk home instead so that we can actually see the accident. Heh! Then there were some residents, being typical Singaporeans, who were surrounding the place and some, according to our beliefs, actually rushed down from their homes to see the accidents.

But really, the two of us are not that busy bodies for we casually walked home. Hee. *Right*

So while walking home, there was the fire brigade's mini-lorry (what the heck) that was rushing, I bet, off to somewhere near 888. So today, I shall conclude that it is the injury/accident day! Yey!

Okeh, actually, it's nothing to be celebrating about. Hehe!

Tried to switch on the stupid computer but failed for 3 times in a row. It ended up getting restarted despite of the fact that I already ran the FAT32 stuff. This proves that 32 is a bad number. Hmph.

I think it's time for Dad to get me a laptop instead of a new phone. *hints*

Fetch Iffah home and I saw this nursery kids getting so hyped-up! Like, come on, it's only school. What the..

Heard the kids singing "Say goodbye to everyone." When will they change the song? Or maybe at least the rhythm.

Tomorrow's E-learning day. The Day that everyone, I think, is looking forward to. It's just so fun to not be in school. They should do it more often. Considering that they don't overload the server. Tsk.

Currently, I'm like so super bored. I'm unhappy because this someone has gone wayyyy too overboard. But overall, I'm happy for I saw. (: Then again, I said I will forget. Haiyeer. I seriously need to make up my mind.

Nasirah is a lil too fickle-minded!

There's something else I wanna say but I guess I'll spare your eyesight and you brain juice and my energy for some other day. Hehe.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Promising.

Last night I told my sister, today is certainly not TGIF. More like OhGodIt'sFriday.

But then again..

So what has been up and down..? Quite a lot of things I suppose.

And I guess many still don't believe the phrase, "What goes around comes around."

"Cause what goes around comes around what goes up must come down."

- Alicia Keys; Karma.

Karma:

Theosophy. the cosmic principle according to which each person is rewarded or punished in one incarnation according to that person's deeds in the previous incarnation.

Courtesy of Dictionary.com

So please, every time lesson time, will you just shut up and listen. It's a no wonder if you keep on failing that subject because you keep cursing and swearing that teacher. I have had enough. I'm here to study. I'm there to get away from being so stressed. I'm there to learn. I just don't want to listen to your crap anymore. I have had more than enough of all this.

I'm like so really sad for I have to go for AGI next week and on that exact same day, I have Service Learning with fellow TICs. ): I do want to spend a day with my fellow juniors but I really want to spend an even more quality time with my TICs considering the fact that we're always seperated for almost all activities. From Racial Harmony Day class activity to enjoying RHD concert to 10th Year Anniversary Walkathon to NDP Connect Singapore. Please lah. For once, I want to enjoy something with them. It's that like, so hard to ask for?

I don't know how. I want to go both. And that is like, the only Service Learning Day we're going to have.

I'm feeling blue, dejected, desolate, dispirited, down, downcast, downhearted, dull, dysphoric, gloomy, heavy-hearted, low, melancholic, melancholy, spiritless, tristful, unhappy and wistful. And please, I'm not so pathetic till I feel so down just because of one matter or two.

I have many questions and nobody can answer it. And AMaths test is coming. Prepared? Unprepared? I have no idea.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

But then again.

Tsk tsk.

I had fun in EMaths class today. LOL. Mr Lymen Neo was being a mute teacher whereas Mr Issac Tan was being the drop-out teacher. HAHA! You should have seen. I guess we're all not cut out to be teachers. Hurrah 3e4! (:

I'm rather sad today because I finally really truly understand and know why. Eurgh. I feel so slow and stupid for I only felt likewise after so much incidents.

I'm tired. I'm stressed out. I screwed Chemistry Test just now. I'm still going to fail Combined Science and Mdm Jas will surely call down my parents again. Whatever lah, can't be bothered with human beings anymore.

That's why I tend to go around places with bunch of beroks. They're not humans you see.

Anyway, I have got to start studying because AMaths test is round the corner. Luckily though, I improved my skills. Especially through partial fractions. Hehe! (:

2e1 is a memory that all of us should keep forever. For now, try to focus and concentrate. I know it's going to be difficult, but try.

- Mr Lim.

My reflections suck. But I think he is the only teacher that I dare to open up with. Apart from Ms Siti. I miss Ms Siti. Why can't she come back, like tomorrow?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

But I keep trying.

I'm suppose to be studying for Chemistry right now but heck, I'm currently super listless sia. So anyway, I have decided to start studying at around 8pm later so yes, it will not get delayed. I think.

School today was rather, slow. English was quite fast though. I think because I was rather hyper in the morning for the fact that I finished AMaths! YEY! So yea, awesome lah.

Currently, I really have nothing much to complain about. Looking forward to E-Learning day because I don't have to go to school and don't have to go for PE. Hee hee! Not only that, there's no need to attend History class. But sadly though, will be studying and doing homework through internet. Wah die! I have one SEQ to be done by next week and GASP lah. It's going to be freaking difficult.

This post is really boring because I'm bored like I-have-no-idea-what.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Screwed.

I want to cry lah!

Alright, so I have my AMaths Preparatory Test tomorrow and I'm superbly not ready lah! Stupid revision paper makes me feel stupid. Tsk. Suppose to be studying right now but I can't study alone! Sister is asleep and I'm stuck with the questions. Highly irritating.

On a little happier side of studies and tests, I passed Biology for like, the first time ever! And it was all thanks to the additional one mark that everyone gets! Else, I would have failed by half a mark. Hehe! Mr Chong said my answers would have been correct if the question asked something else. Haiyeeer! When will I ever answer to the question?!

PISA survey just now was rather lame. I got nothing but English and it kind of screwing my head right now. There were like so many things to read and the 'instructor' didn't say that the paper would be 2 hours but for 2 separate periods. So I ended up rushing the paper. Sigh! But still, it was sort of an easy paper because everything is base on the reading. Hee! (:

The survey was somewhat unrealistic because they asked me about my parents' previous/current main work and what their main work is all about. Weird, but yea.

Dropped by for last 45 minutes of SJAB. Last parade was bad. Slacked outside the SJ room with the ambulance since they were released early so I was looking at them doing the last parade. Came 5 beroks: Naufal, Firdaus, Faris, Jeremy and Haikal, and they stood in one straight line with me in the middle and squeezed me. Nah, not to death of course. Else I wouldn't be here typing. (:

Alright, I'm so done. Now, lets all play Gunz and wake early tomorrow morning to study AMaths. Die lah!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

And so we thought

Because life is confusing.

I am so tired. It's a 4-day week yet I'm much more lethargic than every other days. I guess due to the excessive work I'm facing. Haiyeeer.

Anyways, I passed Social Studies! Heehee! And I have AMaths Prep Test this Saturday and I already plan with Sister to mug all night tomorrow. Lets just hope it happens because I seriously need help from her though she's an AMaths-dropout as so she claimed.

Tomorrow's going to be a short learning day and I'm not that glad because I'm getting keen to learn. Especially if you're talking about Biology. (:

I'm so going to take a break now because I'm just so tired. Haiyer haiyer haiyer!

And I think it's CH's fault because he said he would be coming to school on my behalf for 2 months! Screw you!

And I'm gonna be screwed for Nov camp if he knows I said 'Screw you' to him. Die lah!

*Shows highly innocent face*

Sweet Love

Toodles.

You Remind Me.

If only it could be true again.

OMG. I'm having this clever headache! Argh!

Nah, it cannot be stupid because the headache is caused by my studies, so that explains the cleverness of the headache. Get it? Okeh shut up.

Yesterday was really depressing. Why? Because I got down to business like no body's business. I mean, I got really honest and hardworking.

Since Mr Lim wanted those who failed to write down a reflection and all, I did so truthfully. See, I'm an honest student. *Right.*

Wanted to crash to bed right after I finish my EMaths but thank the mouth, I actually asked Sister to help me with AMaths and I couldn't get myself an awesome rest last night. Haiyeeer!

Spent the whole night studying AMaths while watching MIO tv. Wah! Can die you know! Ended up sleeping at around 3.15am but we initially planned to stay awake and do countdown to the time that we should wake up at. Tsktsk.

Today was okeh I guess. I was really in the down-to-business mode so I made myself wide awake. Don't ask me how but I just did.

Stayed back with Kak Belo today to get some work done. The 'study group' that was suppose to have started since January. LOL. But yea, managed to solve almost all of one of the worksheet and halfway through 9.1 of AMaths. YEY! (:

The camp planning is always side tracking. Why? Because the people planning it, except me, are beroks. Ishkishk. And the problem now? I'm like the sweetest of them all.

Biology tomorrow! I don't want to fail again! But then, if I pass, I'll owe Kak Belo a drink. Haiyeeer! But, must pass! No more failing because I don't want this particular teacher of mine to keep looking down on me. And no Mr Chong, not referring to you.

And I think I'm getting more villi to absorb all my studies. Ehem.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Tak mengenal ingkar.

So heads up, it's not the end. Lets start again. (:

I just can't understand. I have my pride. My honour. You can't destroy them with your words. I am much more than you see. So just beat it.

H is for heart. H is for hurt.

F is for friend. F is for foe.

S is for sweet. S is for sour.

Whatever it may be, I'm still me and you can't change that fact. I'm proud of being who I already am.

***

I am officially bored, sick and tired of everything. Tried to do AMaths in the afternoon, but I can't even get a single question correct. Urgh. Life. Why did I even pass Maths last year? I'm in deep shit now.

And Mother don't understand me at all. She's trying to force me to stop going to tuition at Kak Diana's and go to my neighbour's so that my days will be spared. But excuse me, can't she see? I am never comfortable with my neighbour!

To me:

Comfortable means understanding my work.

Uncomfortable means failing the very next tests that I'm going to face.

There's school tomorrow and I don't even know if I'm prepared for it. I'm not ready to face any more topics. I'm not ready for any more tests. And Mr Lim says he's going to change my place.

But can't you see, wherever I am at, I can't do it. Not yet. I don't think I'm prepared.

Gaaaaaaah! F life lah.

And please, stop reminding me that I am the bottom 10 in the class. So what if I am? You are not in my position so you have no idea what I'm facing.

So you see me smiling and laughing. But you will never know how much hatred I have etched in me. And I thought you'd be the first to understand every single shit teenagers are going through. But I was wrong. You are all the same.

I gave up hope on you. And I guess you should give up hope on me.

Stop telling me, "Been there, done that."

You were in my position 6 years ago. But time has change. Can't you see?

You did what I did? Not entirely. What did you do? Were you taking subjects that you have no confidence in? Were you facing people who don't respect you for what and who you are? Were you?

So stop it and just let me control everything.

You don't control my life. Not now, not ever.

I don't feel like going to school tomorrow.

Although Chea Hau offered to exchange place for 2 months! Muahaha! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Your smiles.

HAPPY 43rd NATIONAL DAY! (:

So sad! ):

Yesterday's parade was okeh I guess. I was smiling because I saw. Hehehek! (: And I had fun standing at the podium talking though it was a screwed one because the cue was somewhat wrong. HAHA! (:

But never mind, I had fun! (:

Had to miss the mini-concert because someone said we MUST have 10 FA kits. So stayed in the SJAB room and packed together with Nabila, Judah, Naufal and Firdaus. Super noisy I tell you!

They were like,

"Eh, then this one how?! Eh, haven't put this thing! Eh deep heat have? This roller bandage arh? Which surgifix?!"

So yes, imagine the chaos. But it would have made me happier if I went to the mini-concert. *Ehem*

Went off for Connect Singapore. Had to separate from the other 3e4s so I was left with Nabila, Issac, Atiqah, Lymen, Augustine, Reyhana and Bernie! Muahahah! If only I didn't have to leave for duty, then I would get stuck with this people! ):

Was suppose to be attached to one of the office lady but there were last minute deployment so I was untold and left behind. While panicking, slacked around with Jeremy and one of his sec2 Junior SC. Wahlaaaao! Super noisy!

Ended up with Mr Chong! Bahahaha! And we exchanged items half way since he said I walked super slow. Hmph. So I carried his loud-hailer and he took my FA kit! Muahaha! And he was blabbering nonsense all the way. Omg. Why do I always get stuck with noisy and nonsensical people?! HAHA! Okeh kidding. At least it's fun. (:

Was abandoned half-way, though! So sad. Hmph. But I went to my TICs! Yey! (:

The walk back to RJC was noisy! But at least I didn't have to carry anything because Zhi Wei was carrying my FA kit. Hehe! (: Then Lester, Ivan and Zhi Wei started marching and humming the tunes. LOL.

Had an awesome doze on the bus~! And went home after cleaning up the tornado-hit-ed SJAB room. Was asleep from 2.30 all the way till 11pm. And woke up, watched Olympics opening ceremony.

Encore! *Inside joke*

Happy Belated Beijing Olympics people! (:

Okeh I'm done and I'm sad. ):

So sad so sad so sad. ): SO sad. And Shi Hui was being a berok at MSN just now. Tsktsk! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Stand by you. (:

After all people, after all. (:

Hello. Life's been the usual wave. The higher ones were marvellous, the lower ones were certainly not loved.

Lets start with the oh-so terrible days. Hmm. I get pissed off quite easily this week. I think it's due to all the challenges that I had to face 3 days straight. Hell yes, the 4 dreaded tests. Tsk.

On a lighter note of the 4 tests, its over! (:

Moving on, I failed AMaths. Unfortunately or fortunately, I have no idea. And I guess Kelvin is right lah. I need to be truthful to my ownself. Haiyeeeer!

Had a small chat with Mr Lim about my result. Yea, I'm a huge disappointment to everyone. Even myself. I am capable of achieving more than just 17 because I've been able to do most of my AMaths stuff. Sighhhhh! I hate it when this happens. ):

On a lighter note of the bad result, at least this is not end-of-year just yet. I'll cry rolling if it were to be EOY. And yea, at least I know someone cares. Thanks SH and Mr Lim. (:

On a little brighter side of my life, I passed Physics for the very first time this year. You should have seen. I screamed a little and everyone turned to look. And Kelvin was giving me this shocking face of his every time I shout. Heh! Sorry hor!

But unfortunately, I failed my combined Science for I failed my Chemistry super badly. Sighhhhh! I just need 2 more freaking marks before passing Combined Science for the first time.

HAPPY SIDE! *Screams*

Number 1: I passed Physics! Okeh shut up.

Number 2: Chea Hau came yesterday! Muahahaha!

And I'm so dead meat.

Me : Chea Hau, so perasan! *shakes head*

CH: Never mind, you wait till November camp! *grins*

Die arh die arh die arh.

And he was being one ^&^%^ basket. Hmph. I was bullied! OMG! Like since when I'm not? HAHA! (:

Number 3: I spoke to I-know-who. Hehe!

Number 4: I got a little chance to talk to Kak Belo! Muahah! (: And sms (a lot a lot) her! (:

***

I am short, yea I agree. HAHA! So the fun part of today is that, I was talking with 3 tall guys who just can't stop growing taller. So I had to look up.

In the end, Chao Jian, Jeremy and Haziq had to stoop lower so that they can be of the same height as me! Muahaha! (:

And I laughed a lot a lot today, all thanks to Issac! HAHA! That sponge guy who will be selling McChicken tomorrow! *Inside joke*

Okeh people, I am done with my script for tomorrow! So yes, I'm gonna be sweetest tomorrow! (:

Oh wait, I'm sweetest everyday~!

Sweet Love

Take Care!

For the memories.

So lets count. We've been working together for approximately 6 months now and there has been lots of disagreements. But despite all the fights and disputes, we did it and we're still united.

Thank you for understanding. Thank you for agreeing. Thank you for staying. Thank you for everything.

I love you guys! (:

***

Honestly, I have nothing to write on or blabber about.

I'm just so challenged on the tests coming up next week. And I just can't bring myself to start revising! Gaaaaah! I need a break from everything!

This week has got to be super hectic because of the short days we're going to have. Haiyeeeer! I hate hectic weeks. ):

And I think it's bed time because my eyes is super droopy. I want to sleep! *Snores*

Okeh please, I have manners. I don't snore unless I have suuuuuuuper block nose.

And Kak Belo, sorry but you cannot make me jealous. Unless of course I see it myself. Muahaha! I'm very pessimistic about things okeh..?

Nasirah is in between optimist and pessimist. So choose! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Of all the memories that I had, seeing you smile is my best. (:

Happy! (:

EHEM!

I'm extra happy and I know Nabila is jealous. HAHA! It's okeh my dear, time will come soon.

I'm extra happy and only Shi Hui know the whole story. Hehe! (*angel)

Lesson time was interestingly short because today is the shortest day ever! It feels short because (no, not because I am short) I'm only seeing 3 different teacher in 1 day and not a thousand of them.

TGIF! Yey people, scream! Alright fine, shut up.

First Aid Re-Examination! I had to invigilate since I was the DI and Mrs Chuah was busy with the Sec1s. Now I know how the teachers felt when we make noise while they count the paper. But at the very least, the teachers was not doing the paper like how I did. Tsk.

I hope I pass. Nah, not hoping. I think I'll pass! (: I think all my NCOs will pass! *Duh*

Training was fun today. No, not the sadist kind of fun but the fun kind of fun. (: Left the Sec2s to train themselves because there was only the almighty me and only me to train the Non-NDP and Non-AGI people. Gaaaaah!

So yes, thank God though, Sofian and Kak Atikah came to the rescue to help put a little bit though they left me stranded after approximately 10 minutes.

Tadaa! Time for footdrill to end and recreational activities to start. And just when I was about to get so stressed up just to think on what games I should play with them, Wee Seng Sir and Amos Sir came to the rescue!

Quite a lot of people come to my rescue today. HAHA! Okeh, thanks to the four who came to my rescue! (:

Due to unforeseen stuff, had to end CCA though we didn't even start our fun activities. Started last parade and, God I feel so old. Hmph.

While awaiting for them all to finish the parade, I was slacking at the podium and chatting with Redzuan and Atikah. After which, I slacked alone in the SJ room. Muahaha! Fun lah okeh!

What I learn today?

I learnt that in life, there's no such thing as misunderstanding because we understand that particular person but we interpret them wrongly. Either that or we just can't be bothered to do things their way.

I learnt that no matter how happy you may be, there's always that teeny-weeny bit that makes you feel a little down. How dumb can that feel?

Very dumb.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Time does not matter.

Freaking warm lah sia!

I'm getting a bit cranky. (Question marks!)

All right, after much challengesstresses, my life has gone back to normal. Almost at least. AMaths test is over and I'm so screwed because I did not get to complete the paper neither was I able to start on the many questions. God, disappointment. I hate when that happens, but too bad, cannot be avoided.

I screwed Chemistry too. Was really hoping to pass because I could understand (finally) what Ms Ho was teaching. But in the end, I failed by 2 and a half marks. Pfft.

History, EMaths and Biology tests are coming up next week, back to back. Got to start breaking a leg but yea, it's kind of difficult you know. I need companion to study with. And that companion has got to be Ms Concentration! (:

Physics has got to wait because we only had 2 periods this week, which is so pathetic especially when you're behind syllabus.

Mr Shah is back from reservist! Which means we History students don't have to get stuck in Geography classes and do SBQs and SEQs! Hurrah! And we're done with this year's syllabus which thus means a very long period for revision. Help! Because I wouldn't want to do thousands of SEQs and SBQs! Especially not SEQ, please!

Currently, I'm down with flu and cough and I have slight disability of hearing because since I have flu, I tend to get ear block. Urgh.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day again. Gosh, since when it isn't. But what can I do, life gets tougher as you grow older. The good thing is, I'm always almost done with my homework. And from now on, Kak Belo shall accompany me with my work and teach me too! Heh! (:

So yea, I guess I have to get down to business since I wouldn't have time to study 3 subjects at one go. What's more, History is going to be a full paper and I can't even remember a single thing about the USSR, British and all that kind of stuff. Help!

Wishing you were here because the memories not enough.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Useless.

Goodbye brain because you seem to be dead.

I hate to get angry but some people really make my wonderful day the total opposite. I hate it when that happens. I've been controlling my anger and have been trying my very best to just shut up.

You can't say that I don't care because I do. I'd rather get hated by you then having more than 20 people hating you. And you don't seem to understand my emotions. You've been hurting it but you don't realise it. I have been keeping quiet because I do not want us to be enemies because we have work to be done that needs unity.

And like I've said, everything depends, as of now. Truly, I don't feel the vibes of this years' p. Don't talk about being proud just yet, look at the enthusiastic faces, if there were even to be one. Really, all you care about is making yourself look good.

Face it, you're making people hate you even more just by doing that. It's not going to be special when all that you do is to boss people around. You have to and must respect people's options. If you can't do that, then seriously, I want out.

And with those 3 around, they don't make it any better. Yea, we are suppose to be in charge but look at who is around. So what if we are in charge when the higher ranking people are all there? What can we say? Nothing.

Honestly, I think you people are important but useless to us. If only she was here. She will appear everywhere. Not that I hate, but it shows that she care. ):

So really, what has come over this people?

Having power sucks. It destroys friendship, unity, trust and love. So just forget it, I don't want to get involve in this stupid matter any longer.

Nobody seem to care about how we feel. Stop getting emotional. It fucking pisses people off. If you think you can gain sympathy by that, you thought wrong because I'm beginning to hate you more than ever. So fuck it, you're not worth to be a friend that I should lend my ears to.

***

And sometimes, I regret letting my secrets out. Because some people can't seem to let their mouth shut.

I miss this two person for they were the ones who has always been there for me. And I miss our friendship that I thought would last forever but now, I can't see it any longer.

I think it's gonna end soon because the sight of you makes me think real hard. Is it your way or is it my fault? I'm sorry, I think I'm beginning to die bit by bit. I'm sorry, my feelings for you seems to have subsided bit by bit. I'm dying to get over you. I'm dying to forget this ever happened. I'm sorry it all started. I'm sorry I ever had feelings for you. I'm sorry I need to get over you. I'm sorry you've been too nice. I'm sorry you've been too friendly. I'm sorry this started. I'm sorry I can't see the end.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Not needed.

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you.

Sounds of table and/or chairs tumbling down at around 1505 during EMaths just now certainly made me lose my last-few-minutes concentration. The first thing that I thought, "It happened again. And this might be my last moments."

Yea, call me stupid since we were at 4th floor in our own classrooms. But you never know, maybe the vehicle was accelerating at super fast rate that it could even fly all the way up. I must say, I do have a wild imagination.

But I truthfully and sincerely thank God because if it weren't for Him, I would not be here. I might just be that someone in some one's life.

Alhamdulillah.

Yea, I've experienced it myself now. Life really is too short. One minute you were just sitting down and talking with your group of friends and the next minute, a vehicle is moving towards you at fast speed. God.

The hot topic now, yesterday's incident. And we can't point at the driver and say it is his fault. It's human nature to make mistake at a moment and cause some one's life to be in danger. And yesterday was his moment. But of course, we can't point away from him because after all, he should have think twice.

Just learn that if we're not responsible, it might lead to something even worse. And at this point, respect others' action and side of the story.

Just like what I told Lymen just now, people's mindset differ. The way you and I think is different. Yes, there are times we think of the same thing but mostly, it's different.

***

NDP rehearsal was nothing much because we only did 2 rounds which was not totally a complete round. The main thing is, I was smiling away. (:

AFAZN, shut up. Hmph.

School hours were tiring. Like since when it is not. *Sigh*

I want out now. I meant school. Hehe!

And as we speak, you started to walk away. Show me the reason why I should respect you view because I think we did it better. (: Trust me when I say it is so.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Racial Harmony Day 2008

This is the beloved TICs. Happy RHD you people! (:

Let us all just put unhappy thoughts aside and concentrate on our happiest moments. (: Today was fun because it was filled with picture takings since many of us brought along our cameras! Yey!

And so, I was able to take pictures with quite a number of people but the sad thing is, I didn't took any pictures with Kak Belo, Alif, Fauzi, Nabil, Yi Xun, Nabila and quite a number of others. ):

So sad but I'm happy for 3 times. *Hints*

But better than nothing.

Just view the pictures. I'm way too tired to type any longer. Happy viewing and happy Racial Harmony Day! (:

And presenting two noisy people.

These two are the ones who kept me awake in class. Not that I ever sleep but it's because of them that I just can't bear to be sad or angry. And they are also the reason why I'm noisy. Influence! Hmph. And anyway, Ivan owes me a ruler because I lost my ruler in class during the RHD activities. I think my rulers are cursed! ):

Changed for performance and audience seriously don't have basic courtesy. We are not born dancers. We are not trained dancers. We are not born First Aiders. We are trained First Aiders.

Then Farah, Shi Hui and I sat down together after changing and did some nonsensical no-brain stuff. Heh! (: Took some pictures while awaiting for the time to change for training.

Yes, Fabian was there to make the atmosphere double the noise! HAHA!

Me: Eh Fabian take picture with me! *Turns one part of my camera.*
Fabian: Eh wah! Why the picture upside down? Can turn one arh? *Turns the part that I turned*

Fabian betol! But yea, at least he is nice unlike some people. *EHEM* And he was trying his hard to be of the same height as me. Damn it. HAHA! (:

And I saw him 3 times today. *Smile*

Sweet Love

Toodles.

When there was once.

You once told me that I can be anything I want.

I just can't be bothered anymore. If that's the way you want it to be, then just carry on. I don't want to make myself so busy bothering about you.

***

Walkathon today but instead of going out walking, YuanYu, Fauzi, Haikal and me stayed at school's guidance hub just to wait for any unforeseen casualty. So yea, The two guys and I had fun in the room because we were talking nonsense and SJAB stuff. (:

So we went walking around the whole place for about 2 times during the Arts Alive session. Seriously nothing better to do so we went to check out every single stall.

There was a tournament thing going on so we carried on doing duty there. Stationed ourself and seek help from Nabila, Haziq, ShiHui and Farah. So yea, it was covered. (:

Stationed at soccer match with Farah and Fauzi. And Farah was being Ms Annoyance! LOL. So yea, I had fun there though Syazrul and Azri S got injured. And it's interesting how casualties usually gets better when they have their beloved by their side. *Hints*

By the time all the matches ended, I was really drained out so yes, went back to SJAB room and had a little rest.

Headed down to somewhere after some misunderstandings and all. So yea, miscommunication is 24/7 present. So, thanks Diaz for the treat. (:

***

It's weird sometimes how things can't be seen but can be felt. It's not possible to write it down in words so I guess I just have to keep everything in. There's not a chance to say it out because it can be felt but not heard. If only you knew.

You seem to be able to read me like a book and I seem to know your every move. I'm sorry this ever happened because I can't help but to change things. I'm sorry you had to face it alone but you know you can tell me your deepest darkest words.

You, the greatest story in my life. Thank you, but I'll never be able to forget you.

Sweet Love

MrD.MrAS.

Toodles.

Weepers.

Camera camera of us all.

Who's the busiest people of us all?

Dear _______,

So you want to go on a strike? So you think all your efforts are not appreciated? So you think we NCOs are taking all of your credits?

Been there. Done that.

Come on, it's not as if you did anything that much. So we're the ones who are always picked to do things, why? Because you people rarely appear. Because you people always disappear. Because we were always appearing. Because we were always there.

Just what credits do you want?

I really don't understand you at all. Firstly, you don't respect us with our ranks. That is still okeh. Secondly, you don't respect us as a person. That is certainly not okeh.

Please arh! Where's the basic courtesy and all? Are we like woods or perhaps part of the cupboards in the room to you? If that is what we are, then fine. I shall treat you like some ghostly being who is on the floor. You want it that way, then I shall do it.

"Why Us Not Given A Chance? We came in equal only they are given the chance to rise. Only 10 could go. I'm the 11th or so on."

1) Check your grammar alright?

2) You were given a chance but it's just that you chose to ignore them.

3) We did came in equal but since we're always appearing, we grew up more than you did.

So yes, think it through because I think I've wasted enough energy.

World Peace.

***

I am currently having horrible mood swings. One minute I'm super nice. The next minute, I can be really super mean.

I easily burst nowadays and it seriously pisses me off. Oh God. Currently, I just feel so down but I can't find the reason. And school is certainly not helping anymore. Though the sight of some makes me smile a bit more.

The week has been really busy and I'm really tired. I don't think I can think and see things positively anymore.

*Sigh*

MrDorMrAS.Forgetboth.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Luck.

To love is hard but to hurt is not.

The week has been long. Getting home late till around 7+ is getting common because many things has been happening and demand for homework to be handed in as soon as possible is getting higher.

Anyway, I have been picking up lots of quotes from 'La Femme' and those quotes have filled up the once-upon-a-time empty spaces at my table. Heh! Speaking of table, it reminds me of ruler. Which reminds me of Ivan who keeps showing off his ruler just because mine is broken into two. Hmph.

My ruler broke during EMaths. Thus you could imagine how stress I was during EMaths while doing stupid graphs. Graph suck therefore I'm nice. (:

This week is nothing much. Been rather down for some things. I just can't seem to get things right. Like come on Nasirah, just what the hell is wrong with you?

So I have comments. You want to read, you carry on. If not, goodbye because I'm way too nice for a 'fuck off.'

Firstly, friends come and go telling me about SCs' behaviour. Yes yes, I'm not part of them but so what? I'm a student of WRS and I have the right to comment. Note, it's comment, not complain and not whatsoever else.

SCs are getting rude and I'm serious in this matter. SCs are getting so arrogant about the red badge, about their green badge or about the yellow badge. Come on and get a grip of life, those badges are non-living things. Yes, do take pride of them but at the same time, can't you just get a hold of your attitude? Please, my nose can go higher than yours if you want me to.

Secondly, the people of the school is getting so bias that I just have to rest my case. Like come on, are we not important to you people?

Who is the first person you run to when you have someone injured? SJAB cadets. Who is the first person who gets scolding when treatment is wrong? SJAB NCOs. Who is the first person who gets all the nagging when someone injured is unattended? SJAB cadets.

Yea, so we're not very important at all. I suggest we close down for two months and see how you survive without all those FA stuff running.

Thirdly, so what if they have been gone for a week to do all this stuff. And this is what I mean by bias. You don't see it all the time because you're doing it. You don't see it, we don't see it. You don't feel it but we do feel it. So lets just say, we feel left out. We feel unappreciated.

Yes, figure that out.

I can't stand people who changes their mood within five minutes. And I totally hate it when that happens to me. It's utterly annoying. And yes, I'm referring to myself. So don't read it and go perasantan and syiok sendiri one corner crying and saying I find you annoying.

And I can't stand this group of people who pisses me off when we're in front of those group of people. Like come on, what the hell is their problem?

And to end this all, I have a quote to share and which I shall use it in my daily life, for now.

"The world will unite to fight with you as long as you remain determined."

- Mister Fighting.

Sweet Love

Toodles.