I'm back like finally.

After a month without technology, the loved black computer is back and working. Thanks to the hard disk that crashed a month back, all my pictures and whatever documents are GONE! And I have to reinstall everything. Including the Internet and speaker and printer and MSN and etc etc. But of course, the good part is, I can download MSN on my own. Like weee! So anyway, I have decided to post before stressing myself, again, by reinstalling every other thing. What has happened for the past few weeks, has happened. (: Okeh, so it goes like this. The big huhuhaha I've been making about my Quran test, I've passed it! Smiles! Which means I can already teach which I currently am not because I can't seem to find myself a student though I could take over Kak Naf's since she is busy with her projects and works but I don't want to, well, at least not yet. Get the drift? So the thing that I am trying to say here is, I passed. HAHA! Surprisingly of course since the Ustaz was already looking very sleepy. (: Oh and as for my handphone, I'm left with a hundred plus to pay but I don't mind since currently, my SIM card got locked by a PUK code and now it has been rejected. Which therefore means that I will have to get myself a new SIM card, with the same number but with all the numbers saved gone. Poof! Just like that. And on that week also, JD went to Australia to settle some stuff there, for 3 weeks. Then the week after that, I got my stupid result which of course, made me very blue considering that I failed my Geog and History and a stupid D7 for English and for the first time in my history, I got a B3 for Malay. Shocked! So I cried in class and lovely Mr Lim gave me some encouraging words. Ouh gosssh! He rocks! And from that time, I carried on the day quite normally. The Teachers' Day concert rocked! The examination concept bladibla. SJ rocked! Weee~ Mistakes here and there but I guess it was covered pretty okeh. (: Then after that, I didn't went back to WGPS. Instead, we, as in Ziq, Ziie, Ais, Sushee and me, went to Sembawang's Eng Wah to catch Dead Silence. "Beware the stare of Mary Shaw, she has no children only dolls. And if you see her in your dreams, don't ever ever scream." So for the rest of the week, that thing was stucked in the head. =.= My one week holidays was spent on watching VCD and hoping to get the computer fixed. How boring. The Sunday before the school week started, went for the SJ walkathon and my number, 1233, was called out for winning the lucky draw. And that bloody number was called out immediately after I lost the ticket. HAHA! Yes, I lost the winning ticket. (; Then the beginning of the school week was super hectic. Study study homework homework. *Pulls hair* Last week, JD got back from Australia and I was super shocked! Why not? I was stoning at the hall's staircase staring at walls opposite and all of a sudden, I heard my name being called out behind me and when I turned around, it took me like a few seconds to register that the voice belong to JD. And I went "Aaaaaaah! (Sushee's style) Jian De!" Wols on early Tuesday morning. This week, was a mixed and match feelings. Art Fest was great! We profited more than what I expected and it was a WOAH(!!!) experience. After the bazaar, Mr Lim treated Yana, Mirah, Sushee and me to canned drinks which, obviously, the 3 of us brought back home. Then had some study talk and this and that with Mr Lim before he went back to school. 4 of us headed to the playground nearby to get some fresh news. (: And those teasing starts. Coincidentally, when we went back at 5, we met. Coincidence happen. My gosh, the post is superbly wordy and long. Happy Belated Birthday to Hannah, Matthew and Chea Hau. May Pak Long's soul be blessed by Allah. I need to start uploading pictures and taking more pictures. Gosssh! Sweet Love Toodles.

You are always appearing in front of me.

Always the smile and silliness that brights up my day. (; Hello. I'm super pissed at someone. And I feel like slitting my wrist (haha!) because I feel so sad today. Maths. More worksheets strolling into my bag like wtf. All those work will be attacked, soon enough. English was nothing much but vocabulary. And my vocab suck like toot. HAHA. Not funny. Then Malay was nothing much. Malay test tomorrow. Cikgu's expectation, woah! Then CE. HAHA! Since I couldn't be bothered to search for a picture so, I borrowed the WRS platform from not-mentioning-the-name for the SJ's photo. HAHA! Thank goodness or else I would've got a punishment. And Sham somehow got to know about IT through _____. That bastard/bitch who tell him my secret will be fucked by that apek under that block upside down. Urgh. Went through wind in Geography class. I don't understand why I must learn them. I don't seem to have any aspiration to become a geologist like hello! Literature was 12345. I was the only girl reading. And see Haziq, I'm no she-who-must-not-be-named. I kill with knife and not magic. HAHA! Okeh rubbish. IPW was all about Maths. Sat in groups of 5 and Maths all the way. Hip Hop was atrocious. We forgot the steps like for gazillions of times. *Sigh* Such poor memory. And I finally got to do the thing that I have once fell from hundreds of time. So see, if a 181 years old bones can do it, the rest should be able to do it. Anyway, told Ms Siti about Saturday and yea, I'm like super depressed. Saturday is The test and I desperately want to pass. For my own pride because I know, they wouldn't be proud of me as how proud they will be of Sister. F you people. Picnic was loud, like always. But it's where I got to know YB&JD&Fauzi better. (: Such lovely and cute earthling, those two cute stuff. (: And thank goodness I walked just in time to catch dad driving pass WRPS. (: ImgoingtoforgetyoubecauseyouarethefirstonetodothatYouarethefirsttomakemeconfusedrealbadYoujustkeptonappearing.

Toodles

AS, I think I should forget about you.

I love this picture! (:

Yes, I will try my best to forget. I have too. Day was okeh I guess. Homec test was manageable since Sister helped me memorise the 8 factors to consider stuff. And now, I'm trying to crack my brain on what to cook for practical which is practically in 2 weeks time. Sheeeesh. I know I mentioned I found a recipe for myself but no, I can't do that because it doesn't have any meat in it. ): The rest of the day was find. Caught up in a dilemma, that sucked. On a happier note, no Malay test because we had the MOC between WRSS and SP stuff. So yes, postponed. Again. Stayed back to do English project which was fuuuun. Farah's highlighter has many different smells. *Sigh* I like the purple one! Sadly though, it caused my nose to be itchy. Heh! Hip Hop tomorrow. I need Hidayah. No wait, she told me she forgot all the steps also. HAHA! (: That would be settled tomorrow lah. Now lets see, it's time for me to search high and low for my First Aid book because there's a re-examination for FA on Friday. Wtf. Bahahaha! Ouh, Quran exam getting closer. This Saturday. *Gasp* Mum said that all SJ activity on that day will have to stop so, I'm giving the rehearsal a miss. (: Yey! Hmm.. Okeh, I want my Kak Shidah. HAHA! Pestering is not over yet! I'm in the pestering mood you see. (; Toodles

One heart for many.

And I thought I can never get connected. (:

I am super tired. There's Homec test tomorrow and I have yet to study. Like when things fall. Did I mention that Mr Lim became Mr Santa yesterday? Of course I didn't. I was busy mending my ... That shall remain unsaid. Okeh so, Mr Santa Lim gave out chocolates from what we had won for RHD and NDP. Such love. Dove choc is a must-buy-next-time. Anyway, yesterday is yesterday, so is the chocolates. (: Day was fine. As always, PE sucked because I got abandoned like one mofo in the middle of the volleyball court. Thank you ehk people. Thank you very much. *Sigh* Volleyball court. Reminds me of the once-upon-a-time match YBFauziJianDe had with Chea Hau and the other tall seniors. See what SJ camp does to you? No, it doesn't make you tall, it makes you good at playing captain's ball. CE and geography was superbly boring. English was comprehension time; should've known. MT was more about ayat majmuk and breaking down of those sentences. I miss AVA room. And Yana can't doodle drawings on my textbook anymore because she sits behind me. Haaah! (: As for music, we learnt how to read notes. Literature was spent on Simpson's youtube video. (: And now I'm done, all ready for homework to be done bed. Droopy eyes. Sheeesh. (: There's the respect That makes calamity of so long life. For who would bear the whips and scorns of time, Th' oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely, The pangs of despised love, the law's delay, The insolence of office, and the spurns That patient merit of th' unworthy takes, When he himself might his quietus make With a bare bodkin? -Hamlet. Toodles.

I have fallen for you again. (;

I guess what is done is certainly done. Don't cry over a test that did nothing but break your heart. Don't cry over a test that did nothing but break your hope. I believe that I have tried my best for that day but not to the extend that I was smiling and easily ready for the test. I believe that whatever I do, there will be a better result in the future. If I study hard and smart, I will achieve that so near yet far target that I long to reach. Everything has been done and we can't do anything to change anything. So smile and improve on. (: I'm disappointed. Yes I am but not about my Maths. I'm sorry but I can't keep this feeling deep down in my heart anymore. If I continue doing it then I would certainly break down. IPW. Fuck shit. I stayed up the whole night just to get the whole file properly done up till I had to wake up with nothing but head aches. I'm telling you three, I'm going all out for this shit because that is the only thing I do best. I'm telling you three, I regret going all out on this shit because neither of you could care less. I'm telling you three, I'm absolutely happy that all this shit is finally over. Whatever I grade you three is based on how you've help me to make this burden lesser. If it's low, you've got yourself to blame and not others. Thank you for the happy memories that we have shared for the past 8 months in doing this project. But these happy memories are not enough to even cover a month burden on my shoulder to get this shit over and done with. Now, I'm having a severe head ache and I'm still worrying about the file. Just half an hour left before we exceed the due date. It's up to her now. I've done my very best to make sure all four of us get a good grade but it seems that it doesn't bother you. Don't you know, IPW is for your working sake. If you can't do a simple task as this, please do enlighten me on how you would be solving your work in the future. And once again, I thank you for the blissful time and the cheering up when I'm down. But seriously, I'm disappointed in all three of you. Toodles.

Burden Sunday.

(;

Sunday Sunday, burden Sunday. Holidays are over but guess what? After 4 days of holidays, I am certainly and most absolutely not ready for school. My IPW shits, god knows how I'm going to complete it with none of my group mates online when I am. Pfft. Which also brings us to Maths. I have yet to complete the bloody worksheet and yes, god knows how and when I'll be able to complete it. Put that aside, for the next few minutes, I'm super happy! HEH! Brother bought me a watch and left it on the table before he left for I-don't-know-what. Wowee! No, I have not been eyeing on it but who cares, at least I got a nicenice watch you know. (: And there's also the phone part. I'm getting it every time I have SJ. And within that few hours per month, I can bet you my bill will go as high as the sky but, I have a limit to maintain. And god, that limit is $30 per month. I can't even exceed by a single cent or else, dearest 6080 will be held by Sister for 3 months and I have to pay the exceeded amount. Petetek. I have not even complete paying the bill for February. Any one up to pay $137.70 for me? I'll kiss you if you do! HAHA! Okeh, as if. I'm taking this exam for Quran. If I pass this (I hope), I can teach. You know what it means? If I teach, there's the payment. When there's the payment, I can complete paying the sum above. Apart from that, I have a good future because I can start my own class and don't even have to look for work but look for students. (: Okeh, now I'm going to worry about my homework. So if you'll excuse me, I have a class to attend and 2 sets of homework to be completed. Sweet Love Toodles.

I think I'm falling for you again.

World peace!

Good day. I'm rotting at home and I've rotted. I think it's time for me to get started on getting stressed with homeworks. No worries for that though. I'm lost for words.

Anyway, IPW file suppose to be handed in on Monday and my group's MOM is petetekly stucked in April. I wonder how many thousands of MOM I would have to do. Fug.

And I'm happy happy. I have list down manymany possible recipes for my practical and family must get ready for I am going to experiment on the recipes. HAHA! (: I'm happy happy too because Sister made a deal. She said that I will have my phone back every time I have SJ. HOHO! I am definitely going to make good of this deal. Like seriously punyer obviously.

Okeh see, I've updated when I wanted to wait till Monday to start posting again. I so have got to be going. I have god-knows how many tons of homework left on my dearest bed.

Toodles.

Who is she to you? ):

HAPPY 42nd NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE! (:

Looks like I have a forgetting job to do.

Eve of National Day. (: Everyone seems so red and a handful of white and some mixtures of red&white. I love this view.

So anyway, the parade was fine. Other than the part where the band ended off the music for marching earlier than expected which also made me looks stupid because I didn't bang on time. Too long to explain but who cares. (;

Slack in the toilet a little while changing and berdandan for I-don't-know-what. But it was good laughing experience though my shoelace got pulled and my legs were disturbed by someone under the cubicle door. HAH!

Went back to class for the activity and 2-1's plasticine thing is super cute. (: The concert was awesome! I had fun screaming and laughing with Haziq, Nabil, Wesley, ShiHui and Farah! 2e1 rocks! (:

We screamed and jump like nobody's business. Oh ho, not only the 6 of us along Jun Hui, Mr Lim joined us as well! As for Liyana, Rachel and YuJuan, they rock! We wanted to stand and sway sway but, change of plan, stand at the very last part but! Didn't have enough time because they went off the stage already. Aww.

And 2e1, we're hot and we can't be stop. We won some prizes. Presenting 2e1's rangoli for RHD. And we won 2nd for this ricey baby. (:

Remember this once-upon-a-time hard work and fun times?

And also the cute Wesley with our overall hard work and fun times?

For this cute design of Farah, Liyana, Haziq, Shi Hui, Sham, Nabil and me, we got 2nd! (; Awww! Overall Best Class for Racial Harmony Day, we won 1st! *Screams&squeals&jump!*

As for the song writing competition, we got 3rd! (: *CLAPS!* This one is without picture. For the in-class activity just now where Sec 2s had to make a model for 'Singapore; City of Possibilities', we got champion! YES! And screamed lah, wove the flag and scream for Aziz. This is without a picture too. Did I mention that Aziz painted his face half red and half white? HAHA! Crazy earthling! HAHA! Yea, we rock. And we're hot. So we can't be stop. (: The performance was great! Dismissed and we, as in FauziHazirahNasirahNabilaEmmeliaHaziqFarahAishah, went for brunch at cwp's banquet. Farah helped me to carry the 8 tins, 8 cups and 8 straws with 3 trays to the oh-so-far away table. People stared which is like wtf. It's only drinks for 8 people. So we ate and had fun! We got cooking! We have 2 future waitresses and 3 future chefs. And the other 5, they would be our consumer! HAHA! (: Walked around cwp. Going gaga over plushies and toys. We had fun laughing and playing and melting evaporating in the shops we went in. Not to mention how noisy we were. HAHA! But I had fun! Went back home and now I'm too tired to go down and get the bills paid. Sheeesh! So anyway, Happy Advance National Day! I'm going off to my grands tomorrow which I don't want to go. ): Ouh yes, we rock your effing world with our fights, emotions and screams of laughter and joy! (:

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I should have known about it. For all this while. ): I asked Mr Lim about my Maths result after being released. I feel super fucked up and super depressed that he just wouldn't tell me. What more, he even said that I should enjoy my holidays first. Yes, I am enjoying it by stressing myself thinking about my result. It seems so obvious that I failed mine. Yes, I am enjoying it all alone with no one to share whatever joy that I have left in me. I know him. He would tell me if I were to pass. Oh god, I can't handle this anymore.

Toodles.

Smirks! (:

Good day. I'm tired. I'm sleepy. I'm energyless. Anyway, English test was quite manageable I guess. Since my head was thumping and my eyes were droopy, I stopped checking and rest my thoughts. Wonderful. It will certainly be a surprise if I were to pass which I really hope I will. National Day celebration tomorrow. Which also means waking up at around 5 and feel like going to a faraway working place. HAHA! I want to change my sitting place. I want to change with either Jia En or Yu Juan but most preferably Jia En. (: I can't say I hate my place because there are some points that made me love my sitting place. Seriously though, I hate the person on my right. Irritatingly stuck up. "I'm sorry but I have an American accent." Please lah, he sounds more like an idiot with that god knows what accent. Pfft. This post is so random. I'm tired. I'm craving for my cendol that is in the fridge right now. Toodles.

Superbly failing.

Hoho. Look beyond the water... Day sucked ever since I sat for my Maths test. Not to mention how I am going to FAIL it but look on the brighter side people, whenever you fail, you learn from your mistake and therefore you'll get better by understanding your own mistake. Main point, failing means learning. It's not learning if you don't fail. There's always a better side of failing something. Anyway, I don't see the point of Maths. Apart from MONEY(!), Maths is practically useless, especially in terms of fraction, circumference of circle or area or whatever else that does not contain money. Put Maths aside, last parade rehearsal of the year of NDP. It was like erm, stupid. It's just a rehearsal. I certainly won't waste soooo much of my energy on a rehearsal. You want to see a good one, wait for the real day itself. (: I'm on the lookout for nice clothes. Mum said that we'll go for picnic on Thursday. But sister is lazy to go there early in the morning. Lazy arse she is. No wait, lazy arses we are. Did I mention that I had a huge fight with my mum on Wednesday last week? HAHA! Yes, I fought with her which she told me not to talk to her anymore. I sealed my mouth on Thursday and locked myself up in my room on Friday. But now, she's talking to me like nothing happened because she knows that not talking to me means not knowing what time I'll be home from school. HAHA! So yes, I'm find not talking to her. It's not as if she always helps me out or tell me tales of her life or tell me anything interesting. Too bad ehk. Talking to her would certainly be useless. Did I also mention that sister is controlling me like a if I'm one prisoner (of the Azkaban prison). Fuck her and her pathetic lifestyle. My life is filled with failures and if-only(s). Toodles.

If only it is true.

Lets just say I'm currently feeling like that. Just interpret it your way. Was a long and boring day. I have yet to finish up Maths worksheets and art which is halfway done. Maths test tomorrow. Pure joy. The look on Mr Lim's face tomorrow will either be so stress or smiling very widely. Either way, it won't resemble how hard the paper will be. Tsk. I washed my uniform yesterday and now, I'm superbly lazy to fix the 8 badges. Not to mention how hard it is to have it on a straight line and how my nails hurts every time I put thaaaat thing. Bag won't be heavy I guess. With many two periods tomorrow and the effect of Maths test will be a less burden to the shoulder carrying the eversoheavy bag. Please someone enlighten me and tell me why I'm blogging at this hour when no homework is completely done. When no badges are fix. When no boots are polished. I'm lazy to do all this now. Anybody up for a bet that my art will be most likely undone? (; Less than 4 days to National Day. (: Toodles

When everything went down.

Greetings earthlings! (: Read that in thaaat someone's tone and with the alien hand sign. HEH! I'm sorry for the shitty emoshit post wrote on Thursday but seriously, I got over it by doing something that only I know what it is. (; Went for the mock paper in the morning. Left the house without telling mum, I felt like I was running away from home for good and damn it felt great! Anyway, stranded between choices of walking and riding the bus, I walked since I missed a good and fresh air yesterday. The paper? God, it was quite difficult and I could only pass with an average mark. When Things Fall. Lets just pray that Monday's paper won't be that difficult. And I brought home some last minutes tips and more Maths worksheets to practice on. Went to meet Nabila and Farah with Shi Hui to start some studying on none other than Maths. Headed to McD first and grab a quick brunch and off for library when they came. A few minutes of studying and the rest of the time, we set aside our work and talk gossip. HEH! And the works came back on our lap only when the security guard pass by. (: HOHO! What do you expect when you get at least 2 YB together for studying? Farah left to get some shopping done with her bf (ref to blog people). Left with the 3 of us to gossip and gossip. Left for McD at causeway for erm, lunch cum tea break. I bought McSpicy meal as always. (; Eat and well, gossip more. Then, confessions! *Winks deliberately* Shi Hui and me were you know, telling Nabila whom we like which is like very dued news. The reverse psychology thought by Nabil in Homec class wasn't working. So yes, we shall find out one day if we try doubly harder. *Evil smirk* You must appreciate this post because I missed the channel 5's news just to type this. If you catch my point that is. HAHA! I'm sincerely sorry for lack of updates on every other day starting from today on. You see, my computer's account has a password. And to this computer, there's an administrator which is my Sister. And that fcuking administrator account can remove or change password of a limited account. And also to add another account. Anyway, my point here is that, my computer's account password has been changed and god knows what the password is since only my sister knows. Fuck eh. Losing all the connection in the world. Pfft. NDP in a few days to come. *PULLS HAIR* Monday is The Maths test. And tuesday is english test. And comes Wednesday! HEH! I'm so done. Sweet Love Toodles.

It ends with a kiss of poison.

If only emotions can be kept in a drawer as easy as what Mr Lim has once said. Yes, easier said than done. I wish I could but I can't. If only emotions can just ooze out of your body as easy as how blood ooze out when you slit your wrist. Fuck life. Fuck respect. I hate them. I hate them all.

He has changed too.

Hah! Don't mind the bunny hand from Nabil (I think). =.= I'm pissed. Like very super punyer pissed. Lets just say that I'm going to flunk my History. And soon enough, I might flunk my English paper also. Though I haven't sit for it but at the sight of my mock test's result, fuuuh! Was greatly done. Homec was fun. "So Liyana (or Rachel), who do you like?" Grin people, grin! (: So, I was like "I like ***!" HAHA! See what joy it brings when you have confessed something to that someone so after that you find it like freakishly easy to say it over and over again. Get it? History was fuccck! While revising, ate my pizza, which I cooked, since didn't have enough time for recess. Ate some and Haziqah finished the rest. Banyak aku tak tau masak ehh! (: Anyway, the test, don't ask arh. I'm flunking. Great. Just so great. English was shits. Went through mock paper which I almost fail. Then did some comprehension. Need I remind myself that I suck fucking badly in comprehension. Don't expect thaaat high of marks for my comprehensions. I can imagine stuff like really too much and pen them down but i can never be good in answering questions like those compre style. Just get the main point that I suck at comprehension. Had no Malay test since Cikgu Memy didn't come today and the paper isn't with Cikgu Jumain. In the end we had to do this 10 rules for special room stuff and I had fuuuun! HAHA! (: And I'm glad we didn't have test but being postponed till god knows when, that is dreadful.

Ouh and sorry YuJuan, Liyana, YeanChoon, XinEr and Haziq and whoever else was there for not staying back. The reason I stated just now was partially true but there's another part to it. Sorry, some other day, I hope. Why I'm pissed? There's reasons behind everything. If she thinks that she is super great, go arh, control everybody. Control each and every single soul out there. Fuck you people lah. I've had enough. I hate yooou!

One big motherfucking people. Stop scolding me like I'm this one stupid and retarded girl. I'm perfectly created like every other human out there. If you hate the way I am right now, F you. I hate the way you are too. Fuck off with a shit on top. Dampen my mood by the non-stop shits of all of you.

Toodles

HOHO!

Ain't scenery like that awesome? (: I feel happy! I got my thumbie back from Farah so yes! I got pictures~ More of them I mean. Anyways and anyhow. My throat feels super itchyitchy. My voice sounds better than Farah's, still. My throat filled with gazillions of phlegm. -.- PE sucked. Ran for 6 minutes then played badminton, which made my day suckeh cause I hate to play badminton. I don't even know how to play them. Pfft. CE was urgh! Mrs Chuah took us instead of Mr Lim himself. Aww. When I thought we could at least spent 2 more periods with him instead of Mrs Chuah. Malay was boring stuff. Cikgu Memeh Memy didn't come so the other class' teacher took over like always. Did some comprehension and class was dismissed! Music was free period. No teacher walked in for class so whole class was super noisy and we talked and laughed like always. (: And my handbook finally has some doodles on it. HAHA! Literature was nothing much. Like always, we did Sing to the Dawn. And finally, we've completed the whole book that consist of 13 chapters. *Claps* (: Geography. No more Mr Kheng. Mrs Chuah from now onwards and god I hate her. It's as if the child has taken away her voice, she doesn't seem to be as loud as she was last time. Or was it just me dreaming that her voice was loud. Nevertheless, I prefer Ms Wong. English was fun! HAHA! I love Mdm Rabia lah. She's like the feminine side of Mr Lim. Always smiling unless troubled. And no matter how loud we laugh or how hard we joke, they'll always smile and give a puzzled HAHA(!) look. (: That's what I like about them. Ouh and English lesson was fun just now because we did group work! (: Went to library with Farah after school. Been a very long time. McD there has changed. In fact it has shrunk. I'm tired. There's 2 tests tomorrow. I don't feel like coming to school tomorrow. It's only tuesday and I'm tired like fug. Oh wells, NDP coming up next week! Okeh, that was so random. Ouh and the picture at the top there, I took it using Farah's camera. Nice angle and whatever shits right? (: Sweet Love Toodles.

Fuck you people.

I don't wish to entertain this anymore. Treated like a bunch of gundus and shits. Please lah, it's only for a matter of time. We won't feel sad if you carry on like this. Bullshit. Hello long weekdays! =.= School was crap. God knows why I was pissed off for every little thing that is just so overboard. Anyway, tests coming up real fast. Like for example History and Malay. *Pulls hair* I don't want to fail History laaaah. I suck at SBQ and whatever shit that is something like that. Lessons was boring, except Maths! HAHA! I enjoy Maths nowadays you know, though I'll feel super stress by the workload given. Nevertheless, Maths has always perk up my mood in many ways. (: But please, peer tutoring is pure crap and I don't enjoy them. NDP rehearsal. I don't want to talk about it. Air freshener and whatever fuck, I don't care. I like the way I smell. I like the way YBs smell. I like the way the other Sec 2s smell. If you don't, then I don't care. I got nicenice perfume you know. Want some, just say. (; No hard feelings. Ouh and the music, terribly sounds like funeral. And the national anthem, super cool. NDP coming soon. Next Wednesday seh! *JumpJumpJump.* Sweet Love Toodles.

Memories of 100307. (;

Looking out of the window from my Islamic class and what I saw was the canvas of KFC. You have no idea why I'm talking about this canvas now do you...? Simply because that place holds memories of FAC. ):

The place where we toss to our unity yet feeling all upset on how we actually somehow screwed up. Thinking back, not only did that canvas bring back of FAC night memories, but also days and weeks or even months of trainings we had before 10 March. The hardship of not only 6, but 24 people that led hardship to friendship. The very first day when NC came together with SGT Radzee for the very first training. How I got chosen to be the timer will never be forgotten.

AbgRadz: I want somebody to volunteer to be the timer. Naszirah?

ME: Can I say no?

AbgRadz: Erm, no.

How Ais got very shocked to know that she was the commander.

Henry: Who's Aishah? Congratulations, you are the leader! (:

Aishah: HUH?!

It's all a memory now. For the whole half an hour of break, I stared at the canvas and thought back on the days before FAC. The struggle we made, the fight we fought, the tears we cried and the joy we shared. How we actually had a fight even among ourself but it only brought us closer. How we fight against this particular babi for the sake of ourself and how, thank god, we got Farah as our new steward at the very last minute. How the 5 of us, before Farah came, went to Jurong for weekly homenursing session with Mr Rafi and the Bukit Batok. We criticised him yet we learnt many things from him. We wished he would just go away yet we wished that he could have just stay on by our side.

It's just a KFC canvas for all but it's a place to remember how we ate and had fun laughing under that one canvas in just one night. It's just a KFC canvas that is red for all but that was where we relieved ourself after minutes of tears. It's just a KFC canvas that people sit to eat for all but it is where we eat and got together much better under one canvas in just one night.

There's one place, and that particular place reminds me of 10032007.

(:

JD leaving so soon! ):

I'm going to remember that smile, that laughter and that voice. Can't you stay for another 2 years? ): Let's have one last special moments.

School was boring. Early in the morning was the story telling competition and I must say, it must be a tough fight. *Holds head in confuse*

PE was ergh! Ran for 10 minutes like always then played basketball which is so basket! English was nothing much. MT was nothing also. History was election period. Congratulations for Wesley! Mr Personality 2e1. And he thanked me! YEY! (: Then we learnt more about the past elections in Singapore. CE was free period. Ms Nurfa only steps in at the last minute of the period and left us with "It was nice teaching you guys. Goodbye! *Smiles effing widely*" Her last day and I'm happy! And finally CE won't be spent on vulgarities because Mr Lim will be taking us from next week on! HAHA! (:

Timetable has been changed. Art straight after assembly. How fucky is that?! I have not done my art! AHH! Anyway, less than 2 weeks to NDP which means! Less than 2 weeks to Maths test. Shits.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Hiphop lesson #2.

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY TO AMIRAH! And Valerie. (: All the best in life and may you have a great future ahead! I had a great day at school! Yey! HAHA! That is not so rare nowadays. Right right?

Anyway, lessons was okeh. Geography test is manageable I guess. With around 4 marks worth of questions answered stupidly but God knows if it's truly correct. Maths was fun like always! "Those people who asked for Merci." HAHA! (: You know what? I miss Mr Ramthan's advices and fun times we had with him. Did I tell you that he has left us? Well Friday last week was his last day. And not only will it be him that will be gone, Jian De too. ): Oh and Hip hop lesson was great! Please do remind me not to dance next to Haziq because he makes me laugh too much with his opera and shaking that I would be having difficulty with the tummy. Sheeeeesh! Learnt more steps today! Unfortunately, I'm always lost. =.= And you know what?! *GASP&CLAPS* I almost did baby freeze when my front hand lost balance and I got a great deal of thud on my head. HAHAHA! Now, I seriously can't do it because my hand is too tired to even lift my keyboard. Petetek, I know. Nevermind, we must persevere and try again next day! Practice makes perfect you know! And I'm tired! Very very very tired. Like tired as in tired kind of tired. Ouh God! There's PE tomorrow. How horrid. I hate some of the people in my group. Very typical girl. Blergh! ): Okeh, homework is calling. Too bad. And yea, no SJ tomorrow. Finally, another day off from SJ. (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I'm predictable.

I love them except for *points here points there points here points there.*

And I got pictures of this year's events from Mr Lim! YEY! *Jumps left and right* HAHA WC! (: So so so, I seriously can't believe that I told them but I trust them to keep it a secret! And they are the second to know stuff. But I have yet to tell it to some others lah. =.=

Geog test tomorrow. *Pulls hair* Tests sounds superbly pressurising. Oh and Maths. It has been 1 hour 33 minutes since Mr Lim's dateline is due. And no! I did hand in my book except that my corrections is not properly done and same goes for my work. Sorry but I felt like giving up just now. ):

I have been begging mum and sister for the past 2-3 days to have my phone back but all that they would say is, I'm not responsible and I will certainly go over again. And Sister said that I should get a top up line and save my own money to pay. How F can she be? All that she ever care is how badly I'll be without a phone or whatever shits! I hate my family and I really do.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Attack!

Ouh hello nice and gorgeous people out there. In conjunction of the Speak Good English week, I shall blog in a proper English. *Bullshit*

Anyway, school was superbly boring except for Science and Homec periods. Early in the morning, I met Ms Ais as always, yang lambat. Takpe takpe, lain kali turn saya! (: So anyway, they launched the Speak Good English movement after Mrs Kok made us sing the national anthem twice and putting on the oh-so-nice-from-afar collar pin. And school is going to hold some activities. Left a period for Malay and which reminds me that I have yet to do my Malay homework. During Malay period, I did the bloody CE that I have to re-do and if she doesn't accept that length, I'm so going to kill her! *Grins*

Homec was nothing. Ms Nadia was absent. Mr Nasir was absent. So the whole class was in class. And unfortunately for us Homec students, we had work to do on our research for 'snack.' And while I was busy stressing on my work, Shi Hui, Farah, Haziq, Wesley and Aziz, which Nabil joined in later, discussed on YB Family Tree. And the family tree is absolutely nice. HAHA! Different age yet all are still at sec 2. 14 years old at heart we are! (: English was going through worksheets. Science, Ms Ira did an experiment in class. And Boon Hao just won't stop talking in Malay on *shakes head*. HAHA! But it was funny and fun.

And there you go, my long and tiring and boring yet fun Tuesday. (; Ouh and Sister's Harry Potter and Deathly Hallows have arrived today. And not only the book, Iffah arrived today after a day spent at her mother's. I'm going to start on draggy homework and lets hope that my IPW PowerPoint is up to Mr Lim's standard. And I am absolutely going to complete my artwork by today and hand up tomorrow. I absolutely hope so.

Ouh and guess what? Yesterday's was my 4th month. No, not with a bf silly, without a phone! And look! It's the 24th yet I'm without a phone, still without a phone!! Yes, so much for getting back my phone after 4 months. And please lah eh Sis, I paid more than $10 and that is such a pain to my pocket mind you. I don't work so I don't have money and please, you seldom give me pocket money and I have to struggle through my recess so that I can pay you. No more such F. I don't care. I've hated you once and I've hated you twice. I'm hating you for the rest of my life. And mom, you lied to me so badly I can't seem to trust you anymore.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Too predictable.

I was rummaging through the pictures in my document folder. It's weird to see the old us, with the old times hair style and face. In terms of attitude, I don't know. Some changed for the worse and most are for the better. Some just don't change their I-have-a-mouth-but-I-can't-be-bothered-to-talk attitude. (: But that is what we humans are like. And that is what makes us different. School was bullshitsfrog. Lessons was kind of boring. Please someone change my CE teacher, like, right now. My reflection and whatever stuff for the NE camp was much longer than Ziq's and she made me re-do mine and Ziq got away with it. I can't believe it seh! How many times does she want me to re-write the bloody shits. You want it to be perfectly straight, then go wrap the booklet for us! F you arh! I won't entertain this shits anymore. And THANK GOD you are leaving in 2 weeks time lah eh! Anyway, homework loading up really fast now. And I'm trying really extra hard to cramp all the notes into this poor brain of mine. Lots of test around the corner and I'm pack with external stuff to do. Wowee! At the very least, I have something to do rather than to be nagged at, at home. And which reminds me, I've been watching lesser and lesser teevee shows nowadays. It has been computer all day and week long. Seriously, I need to watch some teevee else I'll be zombie-like. Alright people, I have to finish the IPW and submit softcopy tomorrow before my presentation which is one Wednesday. Pfft. Got to get busy~ Sweet Love Toodles.

RHD-SJ cum NDP rehearsal #2-WNP roadshow.

Hello people! Lets update on yesterday on today shall we. (: Yesterday morning, I came to school at 6.30 to meet up with the stall people to discuss and decorate about the stall. In the end, we ended up doing CE and talking. HAHA! After changing and all that, we went down for the stall. 2e1 is in charge for the game where you throw balls at the aluminium cans. Ouh yes, it was, no doubt, dangerous. Haziq and Hannah got hit near the eye and Farah got hit at the back of her head. Yea, you can say it was an OUCH-y experience. In the end, we, as in AishahFarahLiyanaNabilaNasirahHazirah, walked around looking at the other stalls.

After recess, we went back to class when the models representing their class went down for the 'concert' rehearsal. There were the best dress and 3R contest. We sent down Haziqah and Aziz! Who wore Cheongsam and Punjabi suit respectively. As for the 3R contest, someone didn't design the costume so in the end, Farah, Liyana, Haziq, Shi Hui, Nabil, Sham and me dressed Wesley (!) from all the stuff we could find inside the metal cabinet. Our ending piece was like this:

Cute right? And surprisingly, our 10-15 minutes work came second! (: And I must say, I had fun dressing Wes up! HAHA!

The catwalk-concert was great. Fun times screaming! YEY! And we screamed for Wesley! And not to forget Haziq&Nabil who represents us as the designer! We rock lah. <3

So I rushed home and walked like one mofo. Changed and off to meet Ais for SJ. And by the time we reached school, I don't think I could even feel my leg! Anyway, had footdrill first and it was great. Except for the part we got interrupted by that arseholeh for uniform inspection. I hate it lah! But thank god I cut my nails while walking to school. Thanks to Ais! (;

After footdrill was NDP rehearsal. And some bastards just can't keep their hands to themselves. All they ever want to do is to hit others. Fuck you okeh. And some people just don't know how to have fun. And please arh, we are Sec 2s, so what ehk MF? So what?! We are Sec 2s and proud to tell you that we are one and as good as you MF. HAHA! What can we do if you made mistakes? You make mistakes, we laugh. We make mistakes, you laugh. Isn't that like fcuking fair? I hate them lah! They really want to treat it like a senior-junior shits. Pfft.

Had a picnic with YB at the usual place. Fun times!

The mess we made. Rest assured, if you go to that shop, you won't be able to find it because we cleaned it up before leaving. Good Banana citizens okeh.

Was walking, or more likely trudging, home when I heard someone screaming my name at WRPS. And I saw Kak Shidah, Kak Liyana and Kak Ayuni&bf. And they walked me home, not. They sent me to the Vista's traffic light and I walked alone from there. HAHA! But thanks anyway! (:

Tuition was sooo super sleepy time. ):

Today! Met e1 YBs and fans and off we went for our WNP roadshow. And trust me, that place is seriously without litter. Grouped with ManQin, Haziqah, Liyana, Farah and Nabil. And NEVER buy peppermint ice blended. We met this attitude cleaner MakCik and the lady who is in charge of us for the stuff was so F. She just can't wait for a moment. We were busy issuing the 'roses' to each group and she scolded us for not going around. My group were waiting for Nabil because we forgot to take the 'roses' that were suppose to be given out to the public and what do you know, that lady came and scolded us for not going around the area. MF bitch. And so, we avoided her! And it worked because we ran away whenever she kept following us. HAH! (:

Despite the fucky attitude of all those people, we ran into a veryvery friendly guy! And this guy has a cute, big-headed and big-footed friend who's name is Boy-Boy. And sorry Boy-Boy for the Milo thing. HEH! And the cookies are nice! Fortune cookies! Mine read:

You have an ambitious nature and may make a name for yourself. Your dearest wish will come true.

HAHA! Okeh, after that, every one else went home while Liyana, Farah and me waited for Nabila, who wanted to come. In the end we waited for her at interchange. Headed for LJS for brunch and Combo1! (: Kekenyangan. Yana went off to meet her family so the 3 of us walked around on the hunt for Nabila's memory box. And we found something! Okeh shush. =.=" Walked around and around. Found Nabil and Wesley who were out to sell bears cum donations. Nabila paid for two of them! HAHA! Wes said it's fcuking expensive but yea, a small bear is always expensive when it comes to donation stuff.

Then we went off for home and I'm waiting for the nicenice photos that I took. Which, of course, is a beaut because I was the one taking the photo and my photographing is better than Yana's. HAHA! Okeh kidding jekk!

I'm tired. And there's Madrasah tomorrow and I have not finish up my homework. *GASP*

Chat with Emmelia just now and I'm glad to know that my all of my juniors passed their Basic First Aid Test! Congratz juniors. (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Hip-hop lesson #1.

Lesson today was fuuuun!

Except for Malay because I got all emo over something. Malay period was boring anyway. Maths was like F. Mr Lim went through all the works we did which I have yet to finish. Overloading lah! I don't think I can stand Maths anymore. Lets drop Maths everyone! *Throw Maths textbook on floor and picked it up* Science was okeh. We just went through digestion in further details which was sort of boring. And that Sham just won't stop denying that he copied my Science answer. There's always next time! But anyway, I was busy drawing for Art. Geography was as always. Stress stress because well, Mr Kheng just has that stressful voice for students and *Pulls hair*. English was fuuuuun! YuJuan, Sham, Haziqah, Haziq, Shi Hui and me were like crapping non-stop! Mostly were just YJ, Sham, Iqah and me. And because of that, Mdm Rabia were like staring at us like some retards. HAHA! It was fun lah! Art was crap. Rushed through my drawings and in the end, I didn't hand it in. And guess what? It's considered late already. Oh what the hell lah. After school, had our first ever Hip-Hop lesson. It was tiring and painful. My shoulder hurts from trying to do the baby freeze stuff. Our instructor was someone I've seen teaching Hip-hop before. Mr Cash (I think that is how it's spelled) and Miss Adeline! It was cool arh! I miss dancing~ I miss Ms Faye~ I miss my choir~ ): Okeh, no emos allowed for today. And I'm so going to try the baby freeze on my bed again later. I'm excited! Tomorrow is RHD and I'm going fugly leafy green. But sadly, I don't have a nicenice footwear to accompany it with. AWWW, I feel so sad! ): There's NDP rehearsal too! WOOO! But I dread for tomorrow's training itself. I forgot my timing and I'm going to suck tomorrow. ): Oh damn! Would there be a sissy tomorrow? *F* Sweet Love Toodles.

NDP rehearsal #1.

I'm tired. Super tired. Very tired. Anywaaaaay! Today is great though I'm pissed off by people who gets pissed off for no particular reason. And it will always be me who gets hurt because they are both someone close to me. ): Maths was urgh! Despite being sick, Mr Lim still gave us work on cone stuff. He taught us this and that and there you go, another exercise of homework to be done! And I'm not even done with 13a. Lets just hope that Mr Lim will not recover yet thus he won't be able to mark our books. (: Literature was fuuuuun! Grandmama! *Giggles* Malay was irritating. The table at AVA room just can't stay put and Amirah and I were like pulling it back to position. And since Amirah didn't bring her book, I asked her to hold it with two hands. HAHA! Sorry Mirah! English was fun, for the first period. Got to do some reading and during my part, the electricity went off. At first, before I went up front, I tripped on my bag then I read out the title of my stuff and TADAAA! The lights went off and the fans were off too. Everyone was like "NASIRAH! You must have said something wrong!" Cause you see, I need electricity to read lah. Without electricity, my reading will be like F. HAHA! Second period was spent on RD worksheet. Which is booring! Music, class internet connection was gone so the video for FOB is postpone to next week's lesson. Sorry classku sayang. Blame the wireless! IPW was boring. I chat with Wesley all the way till bell rings and pretended to be listening to the presentation. NDP rehearsal at 3+. I was in between Lalat and Sushee but for Ais' sake, I swapped places with that person. Was actually fun lah, especially at the last part! HAHA! Jun Hui was like soooo innocent while Ziq, Ais and me were like joking around and dancing to the drum beats! (: So anyway, hip hop lessons tomorrow. And we'll soon be like the picture at the top! HAHA! Okeh, as if. Sweet Love Toodles.

Chocrock.

Test coming up soon. From Geog to Literature to Maths. Gosh! And you know what you need when you in a middle of lots of dilemma. Ever heard of comfort food? Yea, chocolates would be of much help for now.

So anyway, I have like manymany tons of homework to be done. Art is currently something I would certainly want to get it over and done with. And the oh-so many exercises from Maths textbook just for a single chapter. Sheeesh. And what else? Oh the project work that seems to be never ending. I have to re-edit the shits for music just to satisfy that partner of mine. Anyway, I have yet to plan a snack for Homec which I die-die want to pass with a veryvery nice A.

Assembly was a talk from this 83-years old guy. I must say, he still looks so healthy despite the age. Now that is what I call a healthy old man. Not like some who keeps going in and out of hospital and suffers from tons of illnesses. No offence okeh.

After that, Mr C Lim call for the UG group people for the NYAA stuff. Mr Lim said we are left with one more stuff to do to complete the bronze award and that is sport. So, for the other two UG, they were asked to go for shooting courses, for 2 months. And as for SJ, teacher requested us to go for hip-hop dance lesson. HAHA! And we are suppose to perform on Teachers' Day. Upon completing, we'll get 3 CCA points. (: Now that is what I like.

Missed the last few minutes of History and by the time we came back was for CE. At the door were e1 YBs and Wesley along with Nabil. HAHAHA! Okeh, so we fall in like some idiots but we certainly were laughing like one $#@^. CE was basically the shitass stuff.

Geography was fun laughing at someone. Take that~

Literature was food-giving-out period. But we have to answer the STTD questions.

Science was fun! I had a great time laughing because early in the morning, there was a cockroach at Sham's place and he blamed Mariyah for bringing it into class. Since then, Boon Hao and Sham were disturbing her and Matthew for being god-damn-it stinko.

"You have no BO that means you are not manly."

Laugh out loud lah people! I can't believe he said that! No BO means not manly and not matured. Gahgahgah! For all this while I thought having BO was unhygienic.

And I'm home now all tired and sleepy. Lets get cracking with homework and studies. *Drags self to bring out the books.* Or maybe lets just do that in a few minutes time after a short distressing moment by singing. I train my voice everyday you know. HAHA! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Depressed lah seh!

If ever you feel so low and in need of something to calm you down, go on into your bathroom, switch all the pipes you got in there and sit on the floor, under the rushing water. Did that yesterday and it worked. Sat under the shower and let the water from the pipe flow down my leg. Cry your heart out in there, don't mind the time. But really, do mind the bills and the hygiene of the floor. Anyway, papers for Sunday class are out. Failed none but I did very badly. I passed Arab and Tajwid very well and the rest was pretty much screwed. But anyway, it's all equally bad to those people out in the hall of my house right now. Yes yes, they would have certainly done much and way better than me.

For the past few days, life has never been the same as last few weeks. I don't know. Some are fighting with me, some are against me and some are just hating me for God-knows what reason. Whatever it is, I've tried my very best to remain the same old me wherever I go. The biggest sin in life is being rude. And after that, to me, are lies. She thought me not to lie, since I was young. But look now, who's the one not doing whatever she promised me. I thought that finally, you will be on my side but I was wrong. You can never be on my side. She's the one you prefer. She's the one you love. No, I'm not trying to make a mountain out of a molehill but what I write right now, are nothing but the truth. And you can never understand me because you can never appreciate me for who I am. If you really think that I'm nothing but a useless someone in your life, ditch me. I don't mind and I don't care. You made me lose my connection with my friends out there who really cares. You are just trying to take away whatever else I have left in my life just to make me feel double miserable.

Life is as always. A routine like how you sing A-Z where all letters should be in order. Reminds me of my unmemorable childhood where everything I do, I do it alone. When I'm busy struggling to get out of my mom, Brother is busy studying and Sister is busy playing. When I'm busy playing, both of them are busy studying. When I'm busy studying, they are busy working. All the way, I'm neglected. The disadvantages of having someone 7-8 years older than you. Obviously it suck. All you do is go to the playground accompanied by your parents and only to be left there playing all by yourself. No thanks. That was why I'm barely anywhere near the playground or wherever else kids play.

School tomorrow. I have yet to do my CE and Science. Good news though, we end off early due to the Os' LC. All the best seniors! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

POP 2007.

I woke up late because Sister didn't went for work. Was almost 7 when I woke up! And bahahahahaha! I have not even fix the badges. Okeh so anyway. WRSS POP 2007 It was great and memorable. The parade actually started at around 10, so for the first few hours, we rehearsed. The real thing was kind of scary. Cause the TIC were all sitting on the stage. Sheeesh! After the parade, Ms Siti ordered pizza for us. Ate one slice and a cup of Pepsi. Delicious~ And the moment Ms Siti steps out of the school, the Sec 3s passed us plastics and balloons to be filled up with water! HAHA! Was fun! I screamed side-by-side with Shi Hui. And I got wet which is like so, WOOO! Firstly, my boots got wet because Abdullah threw a balloon on the ground near me. Then next, I don't know who, went to spray us with the water hose. And that got my skirt wet! And when I thought my sweater was going to be dry, Kak Atikah splashed me with pail full of cold water. And therefore, my sweater got wet and my skirt got doubly wet. Before that, Haziq went to splash water directly at my face, directly from tap and got my sweater wet! Some of the seniors ran away from us. After the Sec 2s left, the seniors caught Fido who was still dry. I love them laaaaah! We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun~ Went to shop opposite school and we sat there. We talked and crapped and laughed and whatever things things that we always do. (: After that, off for home. We had fun at the bus stop there. They slided and slided like no body's business! HAHA! Then the bus came and they; Nabila, Farah and Haziq, rushed off. Sat there for a few minutes with Aishah and went home. I walked really really really slow but went I got home, it was only 1345 when I left 962 bus stop at 1330. Eish. Okeh, so I couldn't escape the gathering at Busu's even though I was tired like fuck. And anyway, at the gathering, I sat one corner and ss with Hikmah 3 which my cousin played. So yea, I was freaking bored. Anywaaaaay, I'm tired and I need to sleep. There's school tomorrow. I want to skip. Sweet Love Toodles.

Harry Potter! ZALSSR! <3

So firstly, those who got hurt during school hours, I'm really sorry! It wasn't meant to happen this way. We are all sorry. ): School hours was suckish yet fun. Because in class, I had great time laughing the woes away. (: Anyways, went out today with YB! Yes! Finally, all 6 could turn up. Okeh people, as grounded as I am, I act well okeh. And no worries YB, I got no scolding. If I do, then I will surely tell you guys and this post would have been emoshit. But look! It's not emo! (: We caught Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix, 3pm show. And we sat accordingly! Cool ehk?! So Harry Potter was great! The part where they fought was really touching. I don't know why but it is. Catch it okeh?! (: And my neck hurts. We sat at the second row from the screen! Ok lah, I got nothing much to say about it because I was worrying about the time. (: After that, it was either I go home or stay with them. So I just stayed since it was the very first time we all were there and we just have to have a picture of us all. $1.60 has now been reduced to $0.60. And I'm all broke again. But anyway, who cares?! I got a perfect, sweet and gorgeous YB photo! (: I'm with the mic because I sing the best! HAHA! (: Alrighty, POP tomorrow. Marching side by side with the seniors would be very difficult. AWW! And I'm having tuition tonight. Without further notice, Sister told me in the morning when I was all pissed and tired and sleepy. F laaaaaaaah. I'm kind of lazy to study tonight! HOW HOW HOW?! Eish! Nevermind, persevere is what Syrups do best. Like real. Ais call me later tonight when you are done deciding what time you guys want to meet up. (: I'll be waiting. (: Okeh, I'm off for bathing. HAHAHA! (:

I'm smiling outside but I'm breaking inside. You just won't understand.

Sweet Love

Toodles!

F you see keh!

Firstly, Happy 14th Birthday to Hazirah! Smile 24/7 always. (: Life is so getting much stressful nowadays. Homework homework and mooooore homework! She took my Geography textbook which was "lost" and liquid my name away and write her own name in permanent marker. So what? Permanent marker can also be liquid away. And sorry ehk, whenever I write, there will always be the wordings at the back of the piece of paper. F seh. If the book were to be so cheap like $1 or $4, I won't mind. But really, she should have thought of the consequences okeh. And when I got to know from Xin Er and the e1's YB, the people around was super shocked. And I thought she have changed for the better. Farah thought so too. But only to find out, she just got worse than before. Anyway, I'm dead tired today. Slept at 10.30 last night and only to get up all aching and still sleepy. Alright, let's start. Maths homework loading like nobody's business. And guess what, many got punished for the graph again. *GASP* And I don't know if I am one of them but I'll do the work anyway. Art is crap. Ms Heng was like bloody angry at us for being late. We reached there as per norm and it wasn't us who is late, she was early. And she is really wasting away my printer's ink. Next week, suppose to hand in the sketches and another that is coloured. And also, have to do mind map. Yes, again. *sigh* And I'm getting veryvery tired of all the shits going on in life. My mum lied. She didn't tell my sister that I can have my phone back. ): And I know, I have yet to pay the rest of the bills. And I just don't understand why she just don't seem to get it. Get the number one reason why I hate to be at home. She just won't listen to me. Always comparing. Compare the results. Compare the attitude. I just don't know why she can't understand that life then and now has changed. By millions of times. And I want to go out with YB tomorrow. But I'm broke and penniless. Okeh, now off for homeworks! *Pulls hair* Sweet Love Toodles.

And again! (:

Somebody is turning 14 tomorrow~ (: Hello earthlings on earth. Great depression II is here to attack. And I seem to be one of the victim. School was stress! Every single free time, I would spend it on doing my shitty Maths. Yea, the one that I owed Mr Lim since Monday. I have been delaying my Maths homeworks for the past few days. And so, money is not the only problem I have been having. Homework load is getting oh-so too much! Like for example Maths homework which was given just now. There may be one question but that one question has many parts. WTF. And as for the rest of the homework, I have been copying lots of Geography and Science homework. And oh-god, I have Science and Geography and Art shits to do. And !!! Art sucks. Sketch whatever fruit stuff. Ergh! Might always I bring a basket of fruit variety to school and pass them to Miss Heng for tea break or whatever else. That's Art too. Art of the tummy. Rehearsal just now was shitty. And what do you know, the sir is so totally a know-it-all. Truthfully, I hate the way he treats SJ like stupid gundus who doesn't know anything about footdrill. I know lah SJ's priority is FA but really, our footdrill is much better than NPCC's. *Beams with pride* And he need pronounciation help in his commands. "Cantikkan 3 barisan." WT. And talk about SJ. I'm suppose to hand in the walkathon card by tomorrow. And I'm still stuck at $10. It's so petetek! I know lah, every body's pocket and wallet is so dry nowadays. Oh wait, what's this: [ * ___ » §hïÐåH « ___ * ] says: eh giler..me n kak raudah donate 2 bucks each.. Okeh, so now it's $14. I need $22 more. Still petetek lah. Ouh and I'm pissed at Rach. I mean its like it is good enough that I did the FOB slides all by myself and now she's like saying three slides is not enough. ICUCIC you okeh. If you think you are thaaaaaat good, go do the slides of FOB or JM yourself. And please, I'm sick of having you to want every single shits done in your own way. Others have opinions too and that opinion should be heard and is an alternative from yours. FUG laaaaah. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. ): Sweet Love Toodles.

Saw you! (:

Oh hello bananas of the world! (: Happy Bananaly Birthday to Nabila! (: She's 14 like the other Bananas! Except Rawr. HAHA, few more months Rawr, a few more months. School was fine. As always of course. Yes yes, as you would have thought, I still owe Mr Lim my Maths shits and I have yet to complete the 'punishments' of exercise 10a. Oh I love Maths *bullshit*! What have we here today? Had temperature taking today which was fug simply because we talked too much. Way too much and Mr Siva got angry. Ouh, did I tell you that Mr Siva, the kind soul, donated $2 to all YBs and Emmelia's walkathon card? Let's just say that he is one of the top teachers whom we will search for just for donations. Which brings me to any kind souls who would like to donate $26 to me so that my walkathon card will be finished before Thursday which is the day Ms Siti will be collecting. (: I feel so pathetic and penniless when it comes to the walkathon card. No wait, I don't have to feel penniless, I am freakishly penniless! WOW! That's something old to say. Anyway, Malay did nothing. The people read out the scenery stuff they have written which I got 8 for. Wohoo... Homec was blergh! Did no cooking simply because the Monday and Friday classes didn't cook last week's dish. Tsk. And I failed my task analysis by half a mark which is so totally a big ERGH! And what's worse is that, my dearest cooking partner still laughed like one mofo just because he passed much better than me. Fuck you lah Farhan. English was so super boring. Did correction for the write up that the whole class rushed about last week. My writing was shit stuff and that was why I got 17. I don't even know if the stuff on Heliopolis is true or not. And I have had enough of her attitude lah! She wants everything done in her own way, how f can that be? Science I did my Maths which is still undone. MF. Did corrections and more elaboration on sounds. Yes, it got me bored to death! Like, help my brain and myself~ So anyway, today's mood was so totally unpredictable. I just suddenly had the urge to let all the stressness out of myself at the start of English. And I thought I would still be laughing like yesterday but no, it was the unpredictably opposite. And yea, tomorrow is the rehearsal for POP which will be held, erm, Saturday? That reminds me that I have somewhere to go with family. ): Grounded, penniless, lonely and phoneless. How worse will it be soon? Sweet Love Toodles.

Didn't see you. ):

Kalau ada bunga di taman, Engkaulah bunga itu. Kalau ada kumbang di taman, Akulah kumbang itu. Hanya kita berdua, Kerana Tuhan menciptakan kita. Hanya kita berdua, Yang layak berada di taman itu. Hanya aku dan kamu. Salahkan bila kumbang menghisap madu bunga? Salahkan bila hati menaruh cinta? Salahkan bila rindu memanggil nama? Salahkah bila aku ingin berbicara Pada bulan pada angin pada malam Agar semuanya turut faham Sebuah rasa yang dinamakan cinta Salahkah? School was great. I love my class! HAHA! Though fights here and there, we rock! (: Assembly was spent worrying over my CE worksheet. Ouh yes, and laughing too. Sorry lah speaker. Lessons was great. Literature and History without Mr Bruce and Ms Choo respectively. And I had a great time laughing! (; Class party, a great time spent with 2e1. Made a great bunch of noise and WOOOOO! I say Two-one, we're hot, We can't be stopped. We go front go back, And we can't be stopped. I say Two-one, we're hot, we can't be stopped. We go left, go right, And we can't be stopped. Goooo two one ! (: Out with YB just now! I wanted to like take manymanymany pictures lah but then not many. Only in bus on the way to the place. But anyways, I'm broke. I mean seriously broke. All YBs are broke. Bananaland having Great Depression indeed seh! Anyways, you guys read it right. I'm grounded for god knows how many days, weeks, years. Who cares ehk. They lie to me all the time. I'm not getting my phone back as stated before. Fug lah. If that is the way they want to treat me, I want to leave this bloody shyt. NDP training coming up! Everybody jump!!! Excitedness! Hehe! Okeh, I should get to my Maths homeworks now. *Pulls hair* Sweet Love Toodles.

Day out to Junction8

I went out today, with Ais, Sushee and Lalat. (: To where people? To Junction 8 Best Denki where Amir works. What we do? We watch people play the games. Funny! The arse can shake and they get excited over it easily. Especially the kids! Okeh, hold back laughter. HAHA! First thing we reached there. Said hi and off for brunch? Sort of. Every else where was full with manymanymany schooling people and those adults who took the initiative to take their bored child out of the freaking house. Yea, great adults in there. McSpicy was spicy and it got the bitterness out of me. And the coke made the bitterness back into the throat and tongue. The fries? It made the food all go over my stomach. YEY! I've told you guys what I ate in a much nicer and longer way! HAHA! After that, went back up and watch. The item? Not very expensive lah. Just $200 is it? Somewhere there. Cheap indeed! HAHA! Walked around the mall. To minitoons and bought sweets/marshmallow/sweets. 4 strikes and met Amir back and us, being such a good bunch of people, accompanied him. McD we went. And why oh why, does the milkshake seems to be endless though the cup already feels so light? Weird right? It seems to be a never ending. What we do? We talked. What we talked about? Everything. From yesterday's public duty till the fights till the whatever else. So yea, it was fun. Let all the bloody shyts you have out kind of stuff, it has always make me feel awesome and it got me touched lah since all I have to tell my shyts too is the computer. HAHA! Okeh no, this part is not meant to be funny. After all that, we went back up and they finally bought the chocs they have been eyeing for since hours ago when we set our feet to the level. BUAHAHAHHA! Drop off to cwp for a while and off for home. Ouh and Happy Earth Day. It's 070707. Go buy toto! (: Win, and I'll get the share! HAHA! As if ehk. Okeh, baboons calling and I got to go. Ouh and YBs, sorry, no more outings for me.

WRS Sports Day 07 @ Wdlands Stadium

I'm super tired. Woke up at 4.15 just now so that I can bath longer. In the end, instead of bathing for half an hour, I bath for 15 minutes. EISH! Got ready and read book while waiting for the time. 10 minutes after 5, I woke mum up. I don't know why because she was certainly not the one sending me to school seh. Met Shi Hui at 912 at 5.30 and walked crazily to McD. First person I saw there was Jian De! HAHA! Half an hour later, we called Haziq and only to find him still at home. =.= So we were late to meet the rest. From interchange, we ran and ran to the stadium. Yes, heck care to the people around us. (: And the very first hour we step into the stadium, we saw the sissy arseholeh. It's very wtf-ish okeh. I don't like him to be there and always on the look out for whatever shyts we do that does not coincide with whatever shyts he have learnt. And what more, Chea Hau saw. ): And he didn't came talking to us like how he always does. Went back to class and was greeted with cold stares. Oh no worries, I'll get to this part later. (: Just so you know, I hate the way you people treat others like servants and thinking that we are stupid just because we follow whatever you said. Please lah seh! Public duty was gerek! I had fun getting black together with Shi Hui. HAHA! The boys were as rough as always. Gives me the shivers whenever they run. The cheering competition was so whatever lah. I know, 2e1 won second. Mesti dah bangga macam merak minah untuk si yang diorg2 tuu. Shi Hui and me just crazed around while they run. I got a casualty with a headache when I was at the endpoint. They don't teach us headaches, they teach us wounds. And with that, I got scolded. If I were to get a headache, I'll lie down and not put the axe oil. Oh wells, whatever it is, I still got black. With a white patch caused by my watch. Cool right? (: *** I'm so sick of everything okeh. This is my blog. If you want to know what I wrote about you here, read yourself and come face-to-face with me. Don't ask your friends to ask us. Don't ask her. She doesn't know why we typed them out. Because it is our blog. You know what the use of a blog is? It's for your personal feelings for shitty people and shitty life. Either you face-to-face with me or just don't read them! What? You are scared that people will hate you by me and a friend of mine posting something like that?! Well, what some of your friends have spread about us, don't you know it hurts? Oh right, you guys don't have feelings isn't it. So much for you guys not doing anything. No. I'm not hundred percent angry about you guys for shouting at Farah. And please, the reason you gave me was shit. So what if Mr Lim was outside?! Is it a sin to laugh out loud? Why should it be "Shut up!" that you shout? There's a substitute for shut up, just for your extra information. Right, so now. I've written all these shyts so go and flood again okeh? I do need your comments. HAHA! Oh yes Serene, they are your friends, so you should help them with this shit. And I'm glad you people know that you guys act cute. That was a total relief! Ouh and I don't care about your cockroach hair okeh. Because it's not a single bit a beaut to look at. 6 Jul 07, 16:55 Serene: at least we have fun & understand each other , so for what FCUK we needa be jealous ? Not happy , say t us strght , no need t write in eur blog & thinking what a masterpiece you're writing HAHA! You guys have fun? Yes, true. Fun times saying bad things about others yet acting all angelic. You guys understand each other? Yes, true. Understand each other till you guys are so close till you can act whatever together. Yes, I'm not happy so I write at MY blog. You aren't happy with me, so go post at YOUR blog. You don't have to tag for whatever reason you know. But anyway, thanks for flooding my blog Serene, I needed them. Ouh and I don't why but Ying Ying, Ellie, you said sorry to me yesterday and now you are giving me these, along with your 'sisters'. Oh fine. Lets stay it that way if that is what you want.

Sports Day is tomorrow!

I'm excited! Tomorrow is sports day and I'm excited. But the words that Fido said, the one where he said there will be lots of casualties, *GASP* touch every single thing around me okeh! Alright, we got our class tee today. I love 2e1! (: We are going black&orange tomorrow. Ouh and green too! HAHA! Celebration on Monday. Wowee! Ouh and bitch alert. Thank you God for the retribution they got! (: Ais and me were very happy to see it happen! HAHA! We even turn back from going to search for Judah. That was how happy we were! School was school. I asked family to donate to my unwealthy walkathon card in the morning and they kept on saying that whatever I am doing is useless and it's for the sake of other people and not for me. I mean okeh fine, they don't want to donate, they don't have to criticise me till that badly okeh. They got religious with me. Whatever okeh. Isn't donating for other people adds to the good deeds?! F lah F! Well anyways, I got a longer time line to collect more money. Great souls, please do donate to me. I'm like, in need! Ouh and did I say we are having sports day tomorrow?! HAHA! Yes lah, I'm very and truly excited. (: And please people, do reach there before 7 or else... *Hands on hips* AIYO AIYO AIYO! It's going to be a horrible public duty if you reach after 7. ): Okeh, I'm very tired. And just now, I had great times with YB! Without Sushee though. ): We talked and talked and talked. (: As always~ Sweet Love Toodles. (:

YB (: with Emmelia.

Let's make this a very cheery post though I'm feeling totally shit today. Ouh and please lah eh, nobody has any regrets on yesterday's post. (: Day starts with me getting pissed off. Please lah seh. It's my problem on how I want my bag to be. It's my problem on how I want my bed to be. It's my problem on how I want my bedroom to be. Everything I do is for my own self. Never should they mind. Anyway, first period was Maths. Did graph and Pythagoras theorem? Whatever pie lah. Ouh and gratz class 2e1 for winning best class again! (; Then had literature. Stare stare stare. Pffft. I've told you, if you are not happy with us, come, we go battledome. You don't have to stare you know. Malay next. Did whatever group work. English. We discussed about the travelling blog. BLABLABLA. Music was presentation. I'm going next lesson cause someone terlalu excited. IPW was shit. So I rush through Maths after school. Did some collection and I'm stuck at pathetic $8. ): I'm soooooooooo going to hunt for Mr Shah tomorrow. Had a YB talk. The days that we wish will never come. God. Can life get any more miserable? And please lah eh, juniors, you don't know how it is to be us. Always under p... Doing things that are stupid to you and makes you paiseh makes us smile and be happy. Even if you don't like it, you don't have to criticise us you know. You want to criticise, say it, face-to-face. F you.

I LOVE YB!

Do get a life. Stop pestering and bothering her if she doesn't want to be with you people. It's her choice. There can never be force in any relationship. You hurt one bananas, you hurt the rest. Oh, for your information, I do dare to type out your name here. Yes, I don't care if I get into trouble with friendship, if there ever was one. Yes Ellie, you gave us that face of yours just for making SH smile. Please, don't think that you guys are super great. Super long fringe, super short culottes, super act cute voice, super act cute posture, super act cute walking and super action. Oh Yean Choon, creating an Anti-Bananas group? Go ahead because we don't care. Get all your 'brothers' and 'sisters' to join. Ouh yes, Ying Ying, please, stop being a kerbau and follow whatever shits they say. You have a brain of your own that God has created for you. Either you use it right or others will step all over you. To the friends of these people, please lah, get your mindset right first. You are jealous of us. The words that says "I'm jealous of YB!" is written all over your face. Stop hiding it. The more you hide, the more it shows. You know what people always say? Relationships can never be forced. Why oh why do you have to badmouth us? The teachers don't scold us whenever we laugh. Why do you have to be so rude and say "Shut up!" Since you want things to be this way, I'm all geared up to face your shitty comments. Bring it on. *Shakes ass* YB rocks, They sucks. Got a problem, go battledome with me. Pfft. Dearest YBs, Stay strong. We don't shed tear for useless people who gets easily jealous over our strongly bonded friendship. We shed tear for each other and with each other. YB'S FOREVER! #060606 -our significant number. where we bond as one, where we come together as one, where we beat as one, we're just being the number one. Dearest YB, till death do us apart. Has always been 060606. (: 6 people with 1 heart beating together. Sweet Love YB