Tired.

Thanks eh Abang.

Lets take a break from debates. Urgh.

What has happened for the past few days after screwed-up-SPA?

Here are the updates:

1. Went bowling at SAFRA with the normal cliques.

2. Laughed at people non-stop while bowling.

3. Gotten last for bowling with the score of 9. Horribly funny though. (:

4. Went for FAC and was laughing at people the whole day.

5. Talked non-stop on the bus. Look who is/are around me.

6. Got pinched non-stop by Kak Atikah (later I smack you for sure! Hehe.)

7. Ate at Mr. Bean throughout the entire day at headquarters.

8. Officially gotten sick of Mr. Bean.

9. Bullied for being short.

10. Bullied for Yahoo! email account (oh shut up).

11. Met crazy seniors who has high crazy mode rate and sexy voice (ehem).

12. Happy for AA and NA. (:

13. Got home to an empty house.

14. Did debates from morning.

15. Still doing debates.

16. Completed all assignments (although with blanks).

So see, busy woman. So much for 1 week of rest.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Step by step

Take a step forward, don’t look back.

I officially suck at practical!

I screwed up SPA like omgggggg. ):

Stupid syringe.

***

Does anyone realise that debate is only 4 days away?

Does anyone realise that we have yet to start?

If you do, WOW. I didn’t realise it.

But.

Who cares?

I’m sad about SPA. Tsktsk. ):

Believe it or not?

OH NOOOOOOO!

Believe it or not, today is Wednesday already!

Believe it or not, tomorrow is Biology SPA 2!

Believe it or not, holiday is ending soon!

*Runs around banging head on tables and drawers in panic state*

Ripley’s Believe it or not!

Okeh lame.

Anyway, I had a bad dream last night. Super heart aching!

It was not as bad as the previous one though. If you know it, then you do, if not then, maybe because I don’t trust you. MUAHAHA.

Or maybe because I didn’t even tell. (:

So last night, I dreamt that I was so freaking late for my SPA.

Oh.

My.

God.

I dreamt that I woke up at 9 am when I was suppose to be in school by 8 am. Horrible!

*Sad Face*

And I woke up, only to realise that it was only Wednesday.

Very funny.

So yes, I think I might end up waking up as early as 5 am tomorrow. WOW. That will surely make me the early bird!

Early bird catches the worm you see.

Which reminds me that I have yet to study for tomorrow.

*Runs in circle, panicking*

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Just a little.

Thought I could blow it all away.

Singapore.

I had fun watching videos of Singaporeans. Right after watching Army Daze with who else but Mr. Kelvin Low. Uhhuh. Remember okeh! Once you POP from OCS, call me down! (:

So here is why we love Singapore no matter what people may say. And yes, I take back all the words I wanted to update about Singaporeans earlier in the day.

Singlish Minglish. Who cares? As long as we understand each other, it is all that matters. But of course, don’t take those sentence as me giving up on good English. Because after all, we need good English to survive. We need good English to do marketing around the world. English is important, no matter where we go. Too much Singlish can make people have headache and give up talking to you.

One sentence should never contain more than 1 lah or hor. It’s irritating really. (:

But Singlish Minglish. We understand each other. And that is why, we are uniquely Singapore. That is why, no one else can understand us. Why? Because we are Singaporean. (:

And as a proud Singaporean, we should sing it with pride and dignity.

So yes, with pride now. (Kelvin spoiler!)

Click here!

Nasirahhhhh says:

*after all the insultsssss

*and criticisms of typical singaporeans

*i am proud to say i'm one of the not-so-typical singaporeans

- KeLvin ♂ - -       Clubs™ ♣     - says:

*YES YES YES

*at least

*i dun shout at the mrt

*at least i dun YESSSSSSSSSSSSS while plying psp on train

*at least i dun say SORRY NO CURE

*at least i nvr kana pushed by bus before

Nasirahhhhh says:

*but i'm proud to have such incident in my homeland because afterall that is the only reason why I love Singapore.

- KeLvin ♂ - -       Clubs™ ♣     - says:

*or kana rammed by a car

Nasirahhhhh says:

*and I love Singapore because the people are very comical

- KeLvin ♂ - -       Clubs™ ♣     - says:

*or whack a old man

*BUT

*I LOVE IT BABEHHH

*AWWW YEAHHHHH ;D

Nasirahhhhh says:

*here is a video for SINGAPORE!

- KeLvin ♂ - -       Clubs™ ♣     - says:

*dun gimme national anthem MV please

*LOL

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Not the time yet.

Because good things always come to an end. All the time.

To the person who has groomed us so hard to be a great leader.

To the person who have been there to tell us our mistakes.

To the person who have to go through hard times because of us.

To the person who have made us a matured leader.

To the person who made a different in our life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

***

Holidays are here! But I’m not feeling relaxed, yet.

WHY?

Because there’s Biology SPA on Thursday. Like OMFG!

Because there’s one week of holiday but there’s quite a number of homework.

Because there’s 2 tests awaiting for me when school reopens.

WOW. Super relaxed!

I have set out a certain schedule for myself throughout the entire holiday.

And I think the schedule states that I’m suppose to finish my Social Studies, History and ACE-Learning by Sunday. Not only that, I’m suppose to be studying Chemistry too.

I have got to learn how to stick to schedule!

I can’t wait for my free day, which is like 1 week from now. HAHA.

Oh and debates on 23rd. Good or what?

***

6 days till second Biology SPA.

1 more Biology SPA before theory only.

> 3 months till Malay O-Level Paper.

> 7 months till English and other subjects O-Level Paper.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Consideration.

Occupations to Consider

Scales	Realistic	Investigative	Artisitc	Social	Enterprising	Conventional
My Interest Level Scores	14	52	38	59	50	30
My Confidence Level Scores	18	36	29	46	38	21
Occupations that are similar to your pattern of interest
Kindergarten Principals	28	61	52	94	80	42
Child Care Centre Supervisors	28	61	52	94	80	42
Health Promotion Executives	33	61	57	94	61	52
Medical Social Workers	33	61	57	99	47	47
Counsellors	33	61	57	99	47	47
Lecturers	47	80	52	90	52	42
Counselling Psychologists	28	80	66	94	38	47
Full Time School Counsellors	38	52	61	94	57	57
Senior Community Development Officers (CDC)	38	42	61	94	80	52
Welfare Officers	38	42	61	94	80	52
Social Workers	38	47	57	99	57	52
Podiatrists	57	80	47	90	57	42
Producer-Presenters	38	52	85	80	75	42
Education Officers	42	61	61	99	42	52

Taken from www.ecareers.sg

Cool or what?

School has been awesome and fast considering that it’s the last week. Not to mention that tomorrow is TGIF! In fact, I would call it ExtraThankGod It’sFriday!

Holiday is coming lah seh!

I’m a 16 year-old that can understand and help. Is that too difficult to understand?

Sweet Love

Toodles.

It just got stronger.

Life is a rollercoaster filled with bitches in it.

Oh, and Happy Woman’s Day.

Dreams.

I classify dreams as something that I don’t look forward to. Officially.

Firstly, let me let go of sad emotions.

Sitting behind the juniors with the other NCOs 08, was a really painful experience. It’s not because we’re sad that they are taking over, it’s because we’re sad that we are stepping down.

Yea, congratulations for your promotion. (:

I don’t know how to describe the feeling. It’s just too saddening to even be place in words. Seeing our position given to the juniors, it’s unbearable really. I wonder how the previous batches did it.

Honestly, I felt like tearing when Ms Siti said “The seniors are POP-ing soon.”

Fcuk, I hate goodbyes.

Secondly, I officially hate dreams that concerns the people around me. Especially the people I have to let and want to let go so that goodbyes will be much easier. ): What’s the use of thinking of them when eventually, it’ll kind of, never happen.

What am I talking? Rubbish. Just like last night’s dream.

I officially declare that 06March2009 is very saddening and very heartbreaking.

I need to go to the library. Okeh that was random.

Dear NCOs 09,

Firstly, congratulations for your promotion. Am very proud of all of you. Work hard and bring the Corp up to glory.

There’s many things in life that you hate at first and will miss it ones it is gone. I hope you will feel that way about us because I’m feeling like that about all of you.

It’s time for you to carry that responsibility that all 10 of us have been carrying. It’s time for you to prove to everyone that you are worth the respect. At this time, you will realise that being a junior is still the best although being a senior seem so awesome. At this stage, you will realise, being a junior is far better than being a senior. At this stage you will realise, being a senior, you have so many responsibilities to carry out.

Don’t embarrass yourselves in front of others. Especially when you’re now officially a SGT. Don’t always ask for respect, give them too. Afterall, every single living thing deserve a respect.

Don’t be cocky. Don’t be rude. Behave yourselves, cause you know you should. We’ll drop by someday just to see how you people are doing. But even if we’re not there, we can always be the person that you can pour your feelings to.

Great power comes great responsibilities. Don’t let the standard drop and do be a gold unit for as long as possible.

Yours Truly.

Dear NCOs 08,

Our time is coming to an end. But nobody would want to budge from the position and from the trainings. We grew up together and we grew with the Corp. For more than 3 years, we saw the glow of glory that the seniors have worked for, shine even further.

The times we suffered together. The times we rebelled together. The times we fought each other. Memories that I will keep forever. Our journey as leaders of WRS SJAB might end here, but our journey of life isn’t.

Don’t give up hope although you see yourselves falling. Don’t give up faith although you see yourselves dropping. Always take chances to push yourselves harder to face the challenges. Always stand up straight and be proud of yourselves. Always stand up and take another step even though you know you might fall again.

Dearest friends, we’re going to say goodbye soon. Are you ready? Cause I know I’m not.

Yours Truly.

Did I say I hate goodbyes? Oh yes, I hate goodbyes.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I think.

Shi Hui : What kind of work are you thinking of doing?
Me : Anything. As long as it’s in the medical industry.
Haziq : Oh ok, so you want to become a medicine?

LOL.

All the worries we had, it came to an end on 7 Feb. We didn’t care if we got it or not. But all I have to say is, everyone deserves what they think they deserve. Hey, it’s hard work.

(:

Issac was absent today. I become so bored in class because there’s nobody to fight with. Urgh. But anyway, at the very least, I have some peace. Hehek.

I’m going to sleep at 2am since I skipped last night’s personal night study. And I felt weird sleeping in kind of early, although it was already close to midnight. Wow.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Meet an addition to the species.

10 days till stepping down from CCA.

Less than 3 months till Malay’s Mid-Year O paper.

7 months till English and other O papers.

***

I may be busy. But friend, I will always be there for you and hearing you out. Friend, I will always be by your side to cheer you on. Friend, there is no reason why we will lose contact. Because friend, you were the one that has been hearing me out all the time. Friend, we have been through thick and thin together. It’s impossible to lose a friend like you.

You were given another chance, make good use of it. Because friend, you will always be my role model of resilience.

***

Thank you for approaching me for help. But I can never help you. We have to he help ourselves. But friend, if you are determined on your choice of forgetting, then I doubt it will be hard. Hey, we have the same timeline for ‘crush’. Believe me when I say it is hard because yours’ will be in front of you all the time. Friend, if you really think that giving it away is the most appropriate thing to do, then I guess you should. Choices are different for everyone. Maybe now, we should all just leave it to this thing called Fate.

Hey friend, I believe we can do this. But friend, if you really can’t, then I suggest not to. Stop thinking so hard about it, concentrate on what is and not on what was. The more you think, the more you won’t.

***

Friend, I am not saying those things just because I hate you for trying. It’s because I am concern. All these while, the advices I gave, you returned me with insults. If my advices fall on deaf ears, might as well you don’t ask for it.

But I know, deep down, you can make it someday. You can make it because you had the will to carry on even when people don’t think you could make it. So friend, do work hard for what you want. But in the first place, do you have the confidence in passing the two most important and valued subjects of all?

***

I know it’s been hard. No matter how long it will take, I will forever try. Friend, you have been appearing and helping and caring. I wonder how. Or maybe the answer is staring right in front of me. Because friend, there’s someone who is just like you.

(:

***

I am officially facing muscle pain. Screw 2.4 run! But looking on the bright side, at least I now love to run. Oh fcuk, it’s either really good. Or really bad.

OMG.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Without knowing.

There’s many things in life that you can never look forward to but it’s the only good thing that you are able to do. Will you walk away or will you carry on?

I have many complains even though it was only Wednesday since I last updated. The best thing is, the complains are only from Friday! Wow.

So here we go:

1. Arrogance never make a person real.

It’s so super disappointing to see the people you tried very hard to groom to be a leader becoming someone so super arrogant just because of a rank. It’s not a matter of respect. Being a senior, you should receive as much respect as you should no matter what rank you hold. If they are looking down on you, it’s not because of your rank but it’s because of the way you carry yourself in front of the others.

2. What is a service without any thanks?

All you do is complain. Whatever happened to the thanks that you owe us so so much? You complain, you insult but you don’t even know what we are suppose to do, what we have do and what we have been doing. It’s irritating to repeat myself again and again. It’s funny how you scold us for shouting at the juniors. It’s funny how you complain when don’t do any screaming. Interesting. People just want to make our lives difficult and they think it’s funny.

Fuck you.

3. You complain!

While doing so many homework and ironing uniform last night, I complained and I nonsense-ed with who else but Kak Shidah! LOL. You know, sometimes life is very super irritating that all that you want is a break! OMFG. I need a break! March holidays will certainly not be like the previous ones. It’s going to be either 100% work and 0% play or 90% work and 10% play. I seriously and certainly will pick the second one.

No doubt, who wouldn’t?

***

I want to throw everything in the book shelves ASAP. It’s kind of interesting. Throwing off something that you practically worship when you were so in need of the books for knowledge. But seriously, I want a new, improve and very nicely revamped room. Nothing less thank you. (:

I want to sleep but at the same time I want to study. Caffeine doesn’t help. How interesting since it helped a lot of others in keeping awake. I guess I’m really special. Hehe.

Bed time and it’s a wrap!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Stupidity kills. Some times.

Aishah and I was randomly walking and reading things and we saw something super AWW!

You are very welcome Haziq. (:

***

How dusty is the blog? Well, it is too dusty till even my pet in Pet’s Society had 2 flies all over her. Okeh rubbish.

This week is not good at all. ): Stupid mood swings and all. ):

Anyway, Ms Gomez said I did well on Monday. Hehe. *Blush*

What happened on Monday? TIC won and got through to semi for Debates 2009.

Good or bad? I leave it to me, myself and I punyer brain to decide.

Anyway, been sleeping rather late and waking up early. Then sometimes, sleep early and wake up late. Weird or what?

Talk about sleeping, I’m super sleepy. I have been trying my very best to keep wide awake because I really do want to study like mad every single day.

I seriously cannot believe that O level is practically less than 8 months away! Great or what?

And I cannot believe it too that POP is 2 months and/or 4 months away. Interesting huh?

I want to Taboo with Kelvin, Wei Sing and Hazel again! Although in the first place, we suck at it terribly. Hehe.

***

I cannot take it anymore when people accuse me of something that I didn’t do. That I didn’t feel. Fcuk, why must it always be this way?

Unlit the burning flame.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

What’s up? And down.

Happy Belated Birthday!

Hoping all the curries that you had yesterday will remind you of us. Forever. All the best!

So what has been happening?

1. My phone almost dropped inside the toilet bowl while changing.

2. My wallet dropped inside the toilet bowl while changing.

Not funny okeh. It felt as though I threw away a million dollars bill inside the main rubbish chute.

3. I passed EMaths.

But not of my satisfaction since the paper was the easiest I’ve ever sat for.

4. I screwed up AMaths paper.

But I was really so calm during the paper. And I’m worried about that.

5. I passed Chemistry.

Which resulted in me passing my Combined Science CA1! YEY me! Okeh, this will be the second time I’m passing. Hehe. (:

6. I was so worried about Biology paper, I kept quiet throughout Biology period.

7. I really did screwed up my Biology paper.

I seriously felt that I could pass Biology for the second time, including last year’s, but nope. I practically screwed up my paper because my answers seems to differ from many others’.

8. My boots’ heel is officially able to turn 90 degrees East and West. I NEED COBBLER!

9. Class celebrated the Mr Rumi, Felicia and mine belated/ontime birthday with a brownie cake.

10. Mdm Jas gave me an inspirational bookmark and a peg with my name on it.

11. I dread debates 2009.

I shan’t elaborate. Because it’s time for readers to start learning inference skills.

12. I got so pissed with someone.

He is suppose to be helping me with Biology. But he isn’t able to help himself. So what if he was an A1 Biology student? It doesn’t mean he can do his work in class instead of home. Who the heck does he thinks he is?

13. Going for the MTPS later.

Without them of course. Since when?

14. Had a quick catching up with someone.

***

1. I miss Kak Shidah.

2. I miss my relatives.

3. I miss 2e1.

4. I hate her because she thinks that I aim to win and only win. Look who’s talking about winning all the time. Fcuk you women, will you make up your mind? It’s not about losing face because we might not be able to get to the finals. It’s about how I can cope with my studies. Hey, my results are not consistent. I can’t even sustain an A1 for Malay, what more the other subjects.

5. I hate sitting next to I. Because he keeps looking down on me as if I don’t even deserve the position in the class of 4e4. I mean come on, he doesn’t even deserve to have that sit in the class too. Giving up, insulting teachers, insulting friends. Insulting me. Who do you think you are? Mr World?

And therefore, I can conclude that I have experienced quite a number of things for just and only one week. Amazing.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

The only reason.

Although it’s belated. (:

When I say my friends are the sweetest people that you can ever have, I mean it.

There are suppose to be more than a million reason why I should love home. I’m suppose to look forward to a place that I can just forget all the troubles.

The two soulful eyes that I see. The pair of eyes that I love. The only reason I look forward to home. (:

They represent the care and the concern I get from all my beloved friends. The only group of people I can feel relax and happy. I might be feeling all blue and sad deep inside, but when I stare into those eyes, it made me feel better. It made me feel cared for. It made me smile again.

Cause that is the only reason why I love the place called, home.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

What has happened.

There are many reasons that I have been busy to even get in touch with my inner self.

Someone once told me that Secondary 3 life is the most slacking year. Oh God, how right could it be?

I’m terribly struggling through my 16-years old. I wonder why they called it sweet 16 when being a 16 years old isn’t sweet at all (though I sweetest).

Let us get this right. Since this is my personal blog and I am terribly terribly challenged and so pissed off with quite many things, then I warn you that I will be straight to the point in telling things.

And I’m serious about it.

1. I failed Physics.

Oh yes, again. I went in to the room understanding everything, knowing the formulas and shits. But once I flipped open the paper, my brain suddenly flip too. I can’t understand why every one of my friends can fail well and do well and I can’t. I can’t even fail well or better, what more a pass. I really don’t want to let Dad sign the paper. ):

2. I failed Biology.

Yes, thanks. I’m so sad lah! People can actually pass and I can’t. Biology, not even a chance to talk fail better because the teacher doesn’t believe so. Nabila has passed it, and I’m still failing like nobody’s business. Dad signed the paper, without saying anything. Although it looks so freaking obvious that they are all disappointed in me.

3. I screwed up History.

- I didn’t finish the paper, was at the very last evidence for the very last questions.
- I gave rubbish inference because the inference picture was fcuking difficult.

4. I screwed up Chemistry.

This one is the saddest situation that I’m facing. I memorised every single thing that I could for Periodic Table. I was so sure that I will surely pass for the third time in my life studying Chemistry. But what happened?

I went in with full confidence and only to find my confidence all drained out of my body. Don’t ask me what happened because I don’t know about it myself. What the fcuk is wrong with me?

5. Debates coming up.

I hate to say this but I can never survive my studies if I have to put in debates in my busy schedule. And what is the use? I will be sitting there like a lamp post between the many of you and it’s not as if my presence makes a different.

I just want out of debates. Why not get someone that will not or have not done anything I have written above? At the very least they can never screw up their results and making parents come down. I wouldn’t and don’t want that to happen again. I have had enough of insults and complains.

6. $4k. Lets discuss.

I don’t know how I am going to survive but I hope they’ll never get me involve. I’m just so tired of everything like for example solving my own problems called “Project Forget.”

Yes, it’s not a small sum. Yes, he showed you that he is useless. The only reason why we are doing this is to get your attention. What the heck is so difficult?

7. I feel useless.

Now use your History/Social Studies skills to infer from above.

Should all acquaintance be forgot.

 

Sweet Love

Toodles.

16th (:

Before I continue with my hectic assignments, I would like to express my deepest gratitude to a whole lot of people for making my day so wonderful today. (:

Thank you:

Farah, Kak Shidah, Nabila, Aishah and Shi Hui for the after midnight SMS-es. Sorry I didn’t reply on time cause I practically was snoring away to welcome in my birthday. Hehe. (:

Reyhana for the the 61 birthday wishes! GWS too. (:

Hidayah, Aishah, Haziq, Nabila, Alif, Farah, Shi Hui, Nabil, Wesley and Aziz for making a whole lots of noises at the quadrangle with your wishes.

Happy birthday you old bastard! – Nabil.

4e4 with Mdm Jas for singing me a birthday song with Neneks and Nasirah mixed.

Issac and Felicia for ‘booking’ a place at the old folks home for me. Ehem, though I don’t really need it, at all! (:

4e4 and Fiasco for the written wishes on the whiteboard. Although you put the word ‘OLD’ in Chinese in front if my name. (:

Fiasco and Sham for the tak-menjadi bash! HAHA. I’ll never forget that part. (:

Felicia, Aiin and Syazwana for the glam presents. HAHA. Although Felicia’s gift wasn’t really glam. (:

Farah and Aishah for being the most bastard people on my birthday! You bimbo and slut! (:

Nabila and Farah for spreading that oh-so-creamy cake on me till I went home smelling of coffee and whatever else that was in the cake. (:

My escorter, Firdaus, who didn’t help at all in protecting me from the creams of the cake.

Alif, Aishah, Kelvin, Jeremy, Faris, Firdaus, Naufal, Farah, Nabila, Aziz, Nabil and Wesley for the wonderful time out of school. For the presents that was so utter sweet and cute and awesome! For making me smile truly for the first time this week. For making my birthday ever so memorable (like me)

Shi Hui, you may not be there but you had a part to play. Thank you still. (:

Fiasco and Shabnam for the SMS after 7pm. (:

Hazirah and Amirah for the wishes in school. (:

Thank you all of the people who had wished me, either through SMS or verbally or sign language-ly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL 5th FEBRUARY BABIES. (:

Thank you all for making my day! Love you lots!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Gonna move on.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY OLD NENEK!

May all your wishes come true Old Nenek! All the best for your Ns and make sure you make it to Sec 5 or I’ll smack you! (:

Tell me don’t lie.

HAPPY BELATED 16TH BIRTHDAY FIASCO!

Due to my anger yesterday, I have honestly forgotten to post the above. Nevertheless, may all your wishes come true and all the best for Os! (: Thank you for everything Fiasco.

So how was today? I have no idea why but I felt freaking tired and was in difficulty to walk. Unlike others who have aches on their thighs and/or abdomen, unluckily for me, my left ankle hurts like shit. Whatever it is, I improved like mad dog okeh!

Thus, I am now squeezing in revising Physics, doing English and AMaths homework.

So tell me, to drop or not to drop? I think not.

Lets use the weekends to think. AGAIN.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Our sweat and tears.

I officially bear a grudge against a certain committee for screwing up all our marks and positions. We worked so hard. We did so much. And you totally screw up your calculations. Losing our things. WOW. And you wanted us to show how good we are as a leader during the courses.

It hurts us so badly. You didn’t tell us our position while you told other CCA. What the hell is wrong with you? We have the right to know first because we are the ones who are working for the Corp and not the other CCA. Especially when that CCA is the one who has been insulting and being so unfriendly towards us.

Fuck you people for being such screw ups. Fuck you people for being so careless.

And I’m telling those people who will laugh at us in advance that I will kick your ass upside down and make you go for a bungee jumping without the cord.

So pissed.

But I know that if our heart believes in something, it will happen. You 9 are the gold in my life. (: