I may be short but I'm sweet at the very least. (:
Maybe that someone is right after all. I'm deprived from attention when I was young. Yea, I can remember everything that ever happened but the reason for me to forget everything about is the way you react to me for anything and everything.
No, I'm not all of a sudden emotional. I have been reflected a lot on my actions and I just feel like everything around me is wrong. I don't seem to have the trust that I use to have. I don't seem to have faith in someone. I don't seem to be truthful anymore.
Maybe she was right, everything I say are just a bunch of beautiful lies. But it's not totally true. I do tell truth when it's the right time. In fact, all the time is the right time.
But who cares about me right? No, I'm not talking about my life here so that someone out there will pity me. For God's sake, I don't even wish to be pitied. Please, I'm just stating some things that I find useful for my future reflection.
So fuck off if you don't want to know. As if I care.
And things has been getting too hard for me. There's going to be a day when you'll be gone forever. There's going to be a year that you will just go. Then from that day, I guess I'll forget my fall. I sound stupid but I know I'm not. (:
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MYE English paper is totally screwed. If I were to fail and Mr Faraz gets disappointed with me, there's no wonder to it. I just can't seem to find the need of Language. Call me weird but yes, I don't find the need. Maybe when I get older then I would but now, just let me think about it.
And it's not the whole class fault and they should have known because it was bloody obvious. God, I know my blog is being monitored but you think I care? Some times, there's this one day where you think that everyone in school has a brain as small as pea. In fact, even smaller. And then there's this every single day where you feel as though you're brain is way too smaller than the pea.
Well, whatever crap that is, I'm feeling it right now. Tsk.
So anyway, I'm just so bored right now you know. I need to start mugging for stuff but I have too many things on my mind that I can't lift them up and throw them away. Things like: Will I pass Physics for the first time this year? Will I pass my AMaths? Will I ace my Maths? Will I pass Malay because the standard has change? Will I ever get my butts off the computer chair and start mugging?
Anyways, going to Malaysia tomorrow to get the clothing sewed for Abang Shahril's wedding which is coming in about a month time. Gosh, my cousins are like so old and married. Heh! And yes, I'm one of the youngest thank you for asking.
There's this one day where as a family, we will go out to anywhere. Now that things has changed, everyone is busy with their own stuff, this someone not talking to that someone, all those outings was on a sudden halt.
Coming up events, 1st May. Zoo outing which finally has come. Planned since December and now look at the time. Tsk. And maybe a Sentosa some other day.
And I still prefer chalets. (: Because it gets people bonded and stories of the pass told all of a sudden. Now that is what I define as catching-up session. The more the merrier. I miss my Aunts and Uncles and Cousins.
But no matter how I miss them, I'm missing out all the time. Yea. As people always say, age gap. It has always been a problem. And who the heck are you kidding? You can't expect me to mingle with a 13 year old who knows nothing but to stick with the parents! And guess what, I'm always staring at somewhere and think of happy thoughts: School. Wow.
In this blog post, I sound like a total sadist. Wow, too bad.
Toodles.