Depressed lah seh!

If ever you feel so low and in need of something to calm you down, go on into your bathroom, switch all the pipes you got in there and sit on the floor, under the rushing water. Did that yesterday and it worked. Sat under the shower and let the water from the pipe flow down my leg. Cry your heart out in there, don't mind the time. But really, do mind the bills and the hygiene of the floor. Anyway, papers for Sunday class are out. Failed none but I did very badly. I passed Arab and Tajwid very well and the rest was pretty much screwed. But anyway, it's all equally bad to those people out in the hall of my house right now. Yes yes, they would have certainly done much and way better than me.

For the past few days, life has never been the same as last few weeks. I don't know. Some are fighting with me, some are against me and some are just hating me for God-knows what reason. Whatever it is, I've tried my very best to remain the same old me wherever I go. The biggest sin in life is being rude. And after that, to me, are lies. She thought me not to lie, since I was young. But look now, who's the one not doing whatever she promised me. I thought that finally, you will be on my side but I was wrong. You can never be on my side. She's the one you prefer. She's the one you love. No, I'm not trying to make a mountain out of a molehill but what I write right now, are nothing but the truth. And you can never understand me because you can never appreciate me for who I am. If you really think that I'm nothing but a useless someone in your life, ditch me. I don't mind and I don't care. You made me lose my connection with my friends out there who really cares. You are just trying to take away whatever else I have left in my life just to make me feel double miserable.

Life is as always. A routine like how you sing A-Z where all letters should be in order. Reminds me of my unmemorable childhood where everything I do, I do it alone. When I'm busy struggling to get out of my mom, Brother is busy studying and Sister is busy playing. When I'm busy playing, both of them are busy studying. When I'm busy studying, they are busy working. All the way, I'm neglected. The disadvantages of having someone 7-8 years older than you. Obviously it suck. All you do is go to the playground accompanied by your parents and only to be left there playing all by yourself. No thanks. That was why I'm barely anywhere near the playground or wherever else kids play.

School tomorrow. I have yet to do my CE and Science. Good news though, we end off early due to the Os' LC. All the best seniors! (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

POP 2007.

I woke up late because Sister didn't went for work. Was almost 7 when I woke up! And bahahahahaha! I have not even fix the badges. Okeh so anyway. WRSS POP 2007 It was great and memorable. The parade actually started at around 10, so for the first few hours, we rehearsed. The real thing was kind of scary. Cause the TIC were all sitting on the stage. Sheeesh! After the parade, Ms Siti ordered pizza for us. Ate one slice and a cup of Pepsi. Delicious~ And the moment Ms Siti steps out of the school, the Sec 3s passed us plastics and balloons to be filled up with water! HAHA! Was fun! I screamed side-by-side with Shi Hui. And I got wet which is like so, WOOO! Firstly, my boots got wet because Abdullah threw a balloon on the ground near me. Then next, I don't know who, went to spray us with the water hose. And that got my skirt wet! And when I thought my sweater was going to be dry, Kak Atikah splashed me with pail full of cold water. And therefore, my sweater got wet and my skirt got doubly wet. Before that, Haziq went to splash water directly at my face, directly from tap and got my sweater wet! Some of the seniors ran away from us. After the Sec 2s left, the seniors caught Fido who was still dry. I love them laaaaah! We had joy, we had fun, we had seasons in the sun~ Went to shop opposite school and we sat there. We talked and crapped and laughed and whatever things things that we always do. (: After that, off for home. We had fun at the bus stop there. They slided and slided like no body's business! HAHA! Then the bus came and they; Nabila, Farah and Haziq, rushed off. Sat there for a few minutes with Aishah and went home. I walked really really really slow but went I got home, it was only 1345 when I left 962 bus stop at 1330. Eish. Okeh, so I couldn't escape the gathering at Busu's even though I was tired like fuck. And anyway, at the gathering, I sat one corner and ss with Hikmah 3 which my cousin played. So yea, I was freaking bored. Anywaaaaay, I'm tired and I need to sleep. There's school tomorrow. I want to skip. Sweet Love Toodles.

Harry Potter! ZALSSR! <3

So firstly, those who got hurt during school hours, I'm really sorry! It wasn't meant to happen this way. We are all sorry. ): School hours was suckish yet fun. Because in class, I had great time laughing the woes away. (: Anyways, went out today with YB! Yes! Finally, all 6 could turn up. Okeh people, as grounded as I am, I act well okeh. And no worries YB, I got no scolding. If I do, then I will surely tell you guys and this post would have been emoshit. But look! It's not emo! (: We caught Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix, 3pm show. And we sat accordingly! Cool ehk?! So Harry Potter was great! The part where they fought was really touching. I don't know why but it is. Catch it okeh?! (: And my neck hurts. We sat at the second row from the screen! Ok lah, I got nothing much to say about it because I was worrying about the time. (: After that, it was either I go home or stay with them. So I just stayed since it was the very first time we all were there and we just have to have a picture of us all. $1.60 has now been reduced to $0.60. And I'm all broke again. But anyway, who cares?! I got a perfect, sweet and gorgeous YB photo! (: I'm with the mic because I sing the best! HAHA! (: Alrighty, POP tomorrow. Marching side by side with the seniors would be very difficult. AWW! And I'm having tuition tonight. Without further notice, Sister told me in the morning when I was all pissed and tired and sleepy. F laaaaaaaah. I'm kind of lazy to study tonight! HOW HOW HOW?! Eish! Nevermind, persevere is what Syrups do best. Like real. Ais call me later tonight when you are done deciding what time you guys want to meet up. (: I'll be waiting. (: Okeh, I'm off for bathing. HAHAHA! (:

I'm smiling outside but I'm breaking inside. You just won't understand.

Sweet Love

Toodles!

F you see keh!

Firstly, Happy 14th Birthday to Hazirah! Smile 24/7 always. (: Life is so getting much stressful nowadays. Homework homework and mooooore homework! She took my Geography textbook which was "lost" and liquid my name away and write her own name in permanent marker. So what? Permanent marker can also be liquid away. And sorry ehk, whenever I write, there will always be the wordings at the back of the piece of paper. F seh. If the book were to be so cheap like $1 or $4, I won't mind. But really, she should have thought of the consequences okeh. And when I got to know from Xin Er and the e1's YB, the people around was super shocked. And I thought she have changed for the better. Farah thought so too. But only to find out, she just got worse than before. Anyway, I'm dead tired today. Slept at 10.30 last night and only to get up all aching and still sleepy. Alright, let's start. Maths homework loading like nobody's business. And guess what, many got punished for the graph again. *GASP* And I don't know if I am one of them but I'll do the work anyway. Art is crap. Ms Heng was like bloody angry at us for being late. We reached there as per norm and it wasn't us who is late, she was early. And she is really wasting away my printer's ink. Next week, suppose to hand in the sketches and another that is coloured. And also, have to do mind map. Yes, again. *sigh* And I'm getting veryvery tired of all the shits going on in life. My mum lied. She didn't tell my sister that I can have my phone back. ): And I know, I have yet to pay the rest of the bills. And I just don't understand why she just don't seem to get it. Get the number one reason why I hate to be at home. She just won't listen to me. Always comparing. Compare the results. Compare the attitude. I just don't know why she can't understand that life then and now has changed. By millions of times. And I want to go out with YB tomorrow. But I'm broke and penniless. Okeh, now off for homeworks! *Pulls hair* Sweet Love Toodles.

And again! (:

Somebody is turning 14 tomorrow~ (: Hello earthlings on earth. Great depression II is here to attack. And I seem to be one of the victim. School was stress! Every single free time, I would spend it on doing my shitty Maths. Yea, the one that I owed Mr Lim since Monday. I have been delaying my Maths homeworks for the past few days. And so, money is not the only problem I have been having. Homework load is getting oh-so too much! Like for example Maths homework which was given just now. There may be one question but that one question has many parts. WTF. And as for the rest of the homework, I have been copying lots of Geography and Science homework. And oh-god, I have Science and Geography and Art shits to do. And !!! Art sucks. Sketch whatever fruit stuff. Ergh! Might always I bring a basket of fruit variety to school and pass them to Miss Heng for tea break or whatever else. That's Art too. Art of the tummy. Rehearsal just now was shitty. And what do you know, the sir is so totally a know-it-all. Truthfully, I hate the way he treats SJ like stupid gundus who doesn't know anything about footdrill. I know lah SJ's priority is FA but really, our footdrill is much better than NPCC's. *Beams with pride* And he need pronounciation help in his commands. "Cantikkan 3 barisan." WT. And talk about SJ. I'm suppose to hand in the walkathon card by tomorrow. And I'm still stuck at $10. It's so petetek! I know lah, every body's pocket and wallet is so dry nowadays. Oh wait, what's this: [ * ___ » §hïÐåH « ___ * ] says: eh giler..me n kak raudah donate 2 bucks each.. Okeh, so now it's $14. I need $22 more. Still petetek lah. Ouh and I'm pissed at Rach. I mean its like it is good enough that I did the FOB slides all by myself and now she's like saying three slides is not enough. ICUCIC you okeh. If you think you are thaaaaaat good, go do the slides of FOB or JM yourself. And please, I'm sick of having you to want every single shits done in your own way. Others have opinions too and that opinion should be heard and is an alternative from yours. FUG laaaaah. I don't want to go to school tomorrow. ): Sweet Love Toodles.

Saw you! (:

Oh hello bananas of the world! (: Happy Bananaly Birthday to Nabila! (: She's 14 like the other Bananas! Except Rawr. HAHA, few more months Rawr, a few more months. School was fine. As always of course. Yes yes, as you would have thought, I still owe Mr Lim my Maths shits and I have yet to complete the 'punishments' of exercise 10a. Oh I love Maths *bullshit*! What have we here today? Had temperature taking today which was fug simply because we talked too much. Way too much and Mr Siva got angry. Ouh, did I tell you that Mr Siva, the kind soul, donated $2 to all YBs and Emmelia's walkathon card? Let's just say that he is one of the top teachers whom we will search for just for donations. Which brings me to any kind souls who would like to donate $26 to me so that my walkathon card will be finished before Thursday which is the day Ms Siti will be collecting. (: I feel so pathetic and penniless when it comes to the walkathon card. No wait, I don't have to feel penniless, I am freakishly penniless! WOW! That's something old to say. Anyway, Malay did nothing. The people read out the scenery stuff they have written which I got 8 for. Wohoo... Homec was blergh! Did no cooking simply because the Monday and Friday classes didn't cook last week's dish. Tsk. And I failed my task analysis by half a mark which is so totally a big ERGH! And what's worse is that, my dearest cooking partner still laughed like one mofo just because he passed much better than me. Fuck you lah Farhan. English was so super boring. Did correction for the write up that the whole class rushed about last week. My writing was shit stuff and that was why I got 17. I don't even know if the stuff on Heliopolis is true or not. And I have had enough of her attitude lah! She wants everything done in her own way, how f can that be? Science I did my Maths which is still undone. MF. Did corrections and more elaboration on sounds. Yes, it got me bored to death! Like, help my brain and myself~ So anyway, today's mood was so totally unpredictable. I just suddenly had the urge to let all the stressness out of myself at the start of English. And I thought I would still be laughing like yesterday but no, it was the unpredictably opposite. And yea, tomorrow is the rehearsal for POP which will be held, erm, Saturday? That reminds me that I have somewhere to go with family. ): Grounded, penniless, lonely and phoneless. How worse will it be soon? Sweet Love Toodles.

Didn't see you. ):

Kalau ada bunga di taman, Engkaulah bunga itu. Kalau ada kumbang di taman, Akulah kumbang itu. Hanya kita berdua, Kerana Tuhan menciptakan kita. Hanya kita berdua, Yang layak berada di taman itu. Hanya aku dan kamu. Salahkan bila kumbang menghisap madu bunga? Salahkan bila hati menaruh cinta? Salahkan bila rindu memanggil nama? Salahkah bila aku ingin berbicara Pada bulan pada angin pada malam Agar semuanya turut faham Sebuah rasa yang dinamakan cinta Salahkah? School was great. I love my class! HAHA! Though fights here and there, we rock! (: Assembly was spent worrying over my CE worksheet. Ouh yes, and laughing too. Sorry lah speaker. Lessons was great. Literature and History without Mr Bruce and Ms Choo respectively. And I had a great time laughing! (; Class party, a great time spent with 2e1. Made a great bunch of noise and WOOOOO! I say Two-one, we're hot, We can't be stopped. We go front go back, And we can't be stopped. I say Two-one, we're hot, we can't be stopped. We go left, go right, And we can't be stopped. Goooo two one ! (: Out with YB just now! I wanted to like take manymanymany pictures lah but then not many. Only in bus on the way to the place. But anyways, I'm broke. I mean seriously broke. All YBs are broke. Bananaland having Great Depression indeed seh! Anyways, you guys read it right. I'm grounded for god knows how many days, weeks, years. Who cares ehk. They lie to me all the time. I'm not getting my phone back as stated before. Fug lah. If that is the way they want to treat me, I want to leave this bloody shyt. NDP training coming up! Everybody jump!!! Excitedness! Hehe! Okeh, I should get to my Maths homeworks now. *Pulls hair* Sweet Love Toodles.

Day out to Junction8

I went out today, with Ais, Sushee and Lalat. (: To where people? To Junction 8 Best Denki where Amir works. What we do? We watch people play the games. Funny! The arse can shake and they get excited over it easily. Especially the kids! Okeh, hold back laughter. HAHA! First thing we reached there. Said hi and off for brunch? Sort of. Every else where was full with manymanymany schooling people and those adults who took the initiative to take their bored child out of the freaking house. Yea, great adults in there. McSpicy was spicy and it got the bitterness out of me. And the coke made the bitterness back into the throat and tongue. The fries? It made the food all go over my stomach. YEY! I've told you guys what I ate in a much nicer and longer way! HAHA! After that, went back up and watch. The item? Not very expensive lah. Just $200 is it? Somewhere there. Cheap indeed! HAHA! Walked around the mall. To minitoons and bought sweets/marshmallow/sweets. 4 strikes and met Amir back and us, being such a good bunch of people, accompanied him. McD we went. And why oh why, does the milkshake seems to be endless though the cup already feels so light? Weird right? It seems to be a never ending. What we do? We talked. What we talked about? Everything. From yesterday's public duty till the fights till the whatever else. So yea, it was fun. Let all the bloody shyts you have out kind of stuff, it has always make me feel awesome and it got me touched lah since all I have to tell my shyts too is the computer. HAHA! Okeh no, this part is not meant to be funny. After all that, we went back up and they finally bought the chocs they have been eyeing for since hours ago when we set our feet to the level. BUAHAHAHHA! Drop off to cwp for a while and off for home. Ouh and Happy Earth Day. It's 070707. Go buy toto! (: Win, and I'll get the share! HAHA! As if ehk. Okeh, baboons calling and I got to go. Ouh and YBs, sorry, no more outings for me.

WRS Sports Day 07 @ Wdlands Stadium

I'm super tired. Woke up at 4.15 just now so that I can bath longer. In the end, instead of bathing for half an hour, I bath for 15 minutes. EISH! Got ready and read book while waiting for the time. 10 minutes after 5, I woke mum up. I don't know why because she was certainly not the one sending me to school seh. Met Shi Hui at 912 at 5.30 and walked crazily to McD. First person I saw there was Jian De! HAHA! Half an hour later, we called Haziq and only to find him still at home. =.= So we were late to meet the rest. From interchange, we ran and ran to the stadium. Yes, heck care to the people around us. (: And the very first hour we step into the stadium, we saw the sissy arseholeh. It's very wtf-ish okeh. I don't like him to be there and always on the look out for whatever shyts we do that does not coincide with whatever shyts he have learnt. And what more, Chea Hau saw. ): And he didn't came talking to us like how he always does. Went back to class and was greeted with cold stares. Oh no worries, I'll get to this part later. (: Just so you know, I hate the way you people treat others like servants and thinking that we are stupid just because we follow whatever you said. Please lah seh! Public duty was gerek! I had fun getting black together with Shi Hui. HAHA! The boys were as rough as always. Gives me the shivers whenever they run. The cheering competition was so whatever lah. I know, 2e1 won second. Mesti dah bangga macam merak minah untuk si yang diorg2 tuu. Shi Hui and me just crazed around while they run. I got a casualty with a headache when I was at the endpoint. They don't teach us headaches, they teach us wounds. And with that, I got scolded. If I were to get a headache, I'll lie down and not put the axe oil. Oh wells, whatever it is, I still got black. With a white patch caused by my watch. Cool right? (: *** I'm so sick of everything okeh. This is my blog. If you want to know what I wrote about you here, read yourself and come face-to-face with me. Don't ask your friends to ask us. Don't ask her. She doesn't know why we typed them out. Because it is our blog. You know what the use of a blog is? It's for your personal feelings for shitty people and shitty life. Either you face-to-face with me or just don't read them! What? You are scared that people will hate you by me and a friend of mine posting something like that?! Well, what some of your friends have spread about us, don't you know it hurts? Oh right, you guys don't have feelings isn't it. So much for you guys not doing anything. No. I'm not hundred percent angry about you guys for shouting at Farah. And please, the reason you gave me was shit. So what if Mr Lim was outside?! Is it a sin to laugh out loud? Why should it be "Shut up!" that you shout? There's a substitute for shut up, just for your extra information. Right, so now. I've written all these shyts so go and flood again okeh? I do need your comments. HAHA! Oh yes Serene, they are your friends, so you should help them with this shit. And I'm glad you people know that you guys act cute. That was a total relief! Ouh and I don't care about your cockroach hair okeh. Because it's not a single bit a beaut to look at. 6 Jul 07, 16:55 Serene: at least we have fun & understand each other , so for what FCUK we needa be jealous ? Not happy , say t us strght , no need t write in eur blog & thinking what a masterpiece you're writing HAHA! You guys have fun? Yes, true. Fun times saying bad things about others yet acting all angelic. You guys understand each other? Yes, true. Understand each other till you guys are so close till you can act whatever together. Yes, I'm not happy so I write at MY blog. You aren't happy with me, so go post at YOUR blog. You don't have to tag for whatever reason you know. But anyway, thanks for flooding my blog Serene, I needed them. Ouh and I don't why but Ying Ying, Ellie, you said sorry to me yesterday and now you are giving me these, along with your 'sisters'. Oh fine. Lets stay it that way if that is what you want.

Sports Day is tomorrow!

I'm excited! Tomorrow is sports day and I'm excited. But the words that Fido said, the one where he said there will be lots of casualties, *GASP* touch every single thing around me okeh! Alright, we got our class tee today. I love 2e1! (: We are going black&orange tomorrow. Ouh and green too! HAHA! Celebration on Monday. Wowee! Ouh and bitch alert. Thank you God for the retribution they got! (: Ais and me were very happy to see it happen! HAHA! We even turn back from going to search for Judah. That was how happy we were! School was school. I asked family to donate to my unwealthy walkathon card in the morning and they kept on saying that whatever I am doing is useless and it's for the sake of other people and not for me. I mean okeh fine, they don't want to donate, they don't have to criticise me till that badly okeh. They got religious with me. Whatever okeh. Isn't donating for other people adds to the good deeds?! F lah F! Well anyways, I got a longer time line to collect more money. Great souls, please do donate to me. I'm like, in need! Ouh and did I say we are having sports day tomorrow?! HAHA! Yes lah, I'm very and truly excited. (: And please people, do reach there before 7 or else... *Hands on hips* AIYO AIYO AIYO! It's going to be a horrible public duty if you reach after 7. ): Okeh, I'm very tired. And just now, I had great times with YB! Without Sushee though. ): We talked and talked and talked. (: As always~ Sweet Love Toodles. (:

YB (: with Emmelia.

Let's make this a very cheery post though I'm feeling totally shit today. Ouh and please lah eh, nobody has any regrets on yesterday's post. (: Day starts with me getting pissed off. Please lah seh. It's my problem on how I want my bag to be. It's my problem on how I want my bed to be. It's my problem on how I want my bedroom to be. Everything I do is for my own self. Never should they mind. Anyway, first period was Maths. Did graph and Pythagoras theorem? Whatever pie lah. Ouh and gratz class 2e1 for winning best class again! (; Then had literature. Stare stare stare. Pffft. I've told you, if you are not happy with us, come, we go battledome. You don't have to stare you know. Malay next. Did whatever group work. English. We discussed about the travelling blog. BLABLABLA. Music was presentation. I'm going next lesson cause someone terlalu excited. IPW was shit. So I rush through Maths after school. Did some collection and I'm stuck at pathetic $8. ): I'm soooooooooo going to hunt for Mr Shah tomorrow. Had a YB talk. The days that we wish will never come. God. Can life get any more miserable? And please lah eh, juniors, you don't know how it is to be us. Always under p... Doing things that are stupid to you and makes you paiseh makes us smile and be happy. Even if you don't like it, you don't have to criticise us you know. You want to criticise, say it, face-to-face. F you.

I LOVE YB!

Do get a life. Stop pestering and bothering her if she doesn't want to be with you people. It's her choice. There can never be force in any relationship. You hurt one bananas, you hurt the rest. Oh, for your information, I do dare to type out your name here. Yes, I don't care if I get into trouble with friendship, if there ever was one. Yes Ellie, you gave us that face of yours just for making SH smile. Please, don't think that you guys are super great. Super long fringe, super short culottes, super act cute voice, super act cute posture, super act cute walking and super action. Oh Yean Choon, creating an Anti-Bananas group? Go ahead because we don't care. Get all your 'brothers' and 'sisters' to join. Ouh yes, Ying Ying, please, stop being a kerbau and follow whatever shits they say. You have a brain of your own that God has created for you. Either you use it right or others will step all over you. To the friends of these people, please lah, get your mindset right first. You are jealous of us. The words that says "I'm jealous of YB!" is written all over your face. Stop hiding it. The more you hide, the more it shows. You know what people always say? Relationships can never be forced. Why oh why do you have to badmouth us? The teachers don't scold us whenever we laugh. Why do you have to be so rude and say "Shut up!" Since you want things to be this way, I'm all geared up to face your shitty comments. Bring it on. *Shakes ass* YB rocks, They sucks. Got a problem, go battledome with me. Pfft. Dearest YBs, Stay strong. We don't shed tear for useless people who gets easily jealous over our strongly bonded friendship. We shed tear for each other and with each other. YB'S FOREVER! #060606 -our significant number. where we bond as one, where we come together as one, where we beat as one, we're just being the number one. Dearest YB, till death do us apart. Has always been 060606. (: 6 people with 1 heart beating together. Sweet Love YB

ouh YOUTH day indeed.

I don't know what to write. Okeh, firstly, lets start on Friday. Friday Woke up at 5am! Got ready and went to meet Aishah and Shihui at around 6.10. Skipskipskipskipskip! (: Lets skip lessons also! Just know that we were very F-ly tired. Training. Oh God, please make that sissy arsehole go away. Take him away from Earth if you must. I want all seniors down and tear the sissy apart! Night time, alone at home and what do you know! Sis' phone was staring at me on the computer table! And weeeeee~ Took pictures and transfer the oh-so many days ago pictures to my folder! Saturday Early morning, I got up all bored and empty. Went online and WOOOOO! Got a date with YBs! (: Got ready and blabla went off to meet Ais, who came minutes later after Sushee did. Met up with Lalat at cwp and we hit Banquet. Rawr came at 2 then we caught the 2.30 Surf's up show and comments on movie, reminds me of those sad moments where the seniors were there for us. Big Z was like playing CH's role and the rest were the rest of the penguins who gave encouragements. It's a great movie to catch with fellow friends.

Walked around cwp for an hour or so. All the way we were like cursing the sissy arse and all. Everybody is still mad at him! Hell yea! Took neoprints which made us stressfully giggling! (: I managed to upload 2 only. The rest next time!

Off for home at 5+ I think and computer~

Sunday

Got up and got ready for another round of exam. Unfortunately, I screwed up Aqidah like hell! Arab was quite easy! (:

Home and computer. At this moment, a group of 3 people who were originally RB got a new name and called themselves MCB. The name was all thanks to my MSN connection who went all fucky. Thanks to Wesley, ShiHui and Haziq, the connection (if you get what I mean) were still fucky but they got me laughing like one mofo. (:

Night time and off for religious class.

TODAY!

And as for today, I'm feeling all sleepy and bored. I feel low too. ):

One good news, maybe mum will ask Sister to return me my SIM card! Depends if Sister is agreeable to it or not and I have maximum of $30 to go SMS and do whatever shites with it. (:

Alright people! I'm soooooo done!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

We are gonna do you proud. (:

We love Chea Hau to bits!

You can always go fug yourself laaaaah! SSG Chea Hau, I thank you for what you said and for what you did. We know that you are fighting for us and that is why we should thank you. Thank you for everything that you have done for us, especially today's incident. Yes, none of us are happy with him and trust me, the words you said certainly did touched YB's heart. In times like this, I feel a sense of regret for hating you once a bananaly day ago. In times like this also, the songs played during those moments are played and memories are being rewind. SSG Chea Hau, for whatever reason you are unhappy about the incident, please do cheer up. Whatever it is, you are certainly millions time much better than sissy guy. Never will you be replaced in our hearts. It'll only add on and never be erased. And we all love you. Do remember that. We are touched by what you did. Thank you for everything. We'll fight for our rights, along with you. (: He is this one shitass guy who don't even know how to do homenursing properly. Puh-lease lah seh! Mr Rafi may be crappy all the time but at least the information he teach is useful and correct. Oh ho no, I'll never forget the day you shaked one of us just to check for hip injury. YOU suck. (: Sweet Love. Everyone is hoping for Chea Hau to be okeh. There's a need to cry in moments like this.

WOOOO!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR LIM! (: You are one year older! Good luck for all your future endeavours! Carpe Diem! Had Malay first. Bored lah. Cikgu Memy kept on talking crap! HAHA! OP! (: Maths period! When Mr Lim came in, YingYing passed the card to him and we sang him a birthday song! He was shocked lah but I think he tried to hid it. Continued with Quadratic Graph. Shit lah sial! It's a one big fug that I swear will never forget how much I suffered during this period. But despite the stress-ness, YB was there to laugh like, err, as always! (: Science was okeh. I almost fall asleep seh. But I promised myself to stay awake for my future's sake. Even if it means using toothpick to stay awake. Geography after that was fun! For the first time I can actually truly understand, for this year I mean. Mr Kheng will be taking us for the nest few weeks before Mrs Chuah comes back! *GASP* English, did writing for personal recount. At first wanted to write how NA is united despite of all the things happened around and between us. Then from Abdullah's incident, I twisted it to a fake story and turned it to be about YB! HAHA! I don't know why, but I did that. Art was okeh. YB went high!!! Oh and please lah Ms Heng. We are not the one with a dirty mind. We laugh at the word 'banana' for a reason that only 2e1 knows. We are not those immatured people and 7 or 12 year olds who laughed at the word because of that lah seh. Look who's immature now. Pffft! After art, YB along with Nabil&Wesley were like singing, all the way from art room till class! HAHA! We sang all those "Aww! Camp memories" song. But it was great! Memorable! Rehearsal was like always. Tomorrow's the day. Note to Ais and Sushee! Remember! 6.15 is the latest yarh! Went to the memories place to actually do a sequence but in the end we just had fun and tried out that thing as always. And I reluctantly walked to my home house. Sweet Love Toodles!

Oh right.

I know it'll happen again but can you please just give me a break from this. If only I could just leave this house and get free. All that you ever did for me is just to give me excuses and never do anything right for me. You can never make me happy, can you? I've been feeling damn low nowadays. SIGH SIGH! On a happier note, I enjoyed school today. (: Day started with Maths where we learnt Quadratic Graph. And the flexible ruler is one big mf lah seh. And so is my graph. ): Had Literature after that. Same old same old Dawan with her dilemma. Right Mr Bruce? Had Malay after recess. 6 of us remains in the same class along with Amirah yang kecoh tuu. (: English was fun! HAHA! We did personal recounts and everyone was like woo-ing loudly and clapping and all that. FUN lah! (: Music, Mr Wong will be taking us for next few music lessons. Have to do presentation on musician and stuff like that. Good right? And I have to partner Rachel and with her, no choice but that JM. Menyampah tau tak! Step macam aku suker Jesse gituk. PATHETIC lah seh! IPW was nothing much. More projects are coming when I'm looking forward to be IPW free! URGH! Public duty, did with ShiHui and Hazirah at the field. Gossiped, not gossipping but telling YB true tales. Now that is what I call good moments. (: Alright, I'm super tired! Off for bed! (: Sweet Love Toodles.

You. <3

I love them all! (:

Sorry if the image here suck because I couldn't fit the hugehuge (good quality) so had to resize. Understand understand lah ye. (:

The day sucked, yet again. But I had a super great laugh during Homec. Right Yana? (:

Who do you think we are to her till we have to tell her lies? There's no need for lies when true friendship is there. She has her rights. If you want to pick her friends, I suggest you get yourself better ones first.

Sweet Love Sexyback Quebec! There must be a soul crying.

There's always this something.

First day of school and I'm already feeling oh-so-low. With a bad start in the morning, everything seems to be going to my opposite direction. Changed sitting arrangements. It may be good with YBs nearby but then again, looking at the people on my right, I don't feel like going to school anymore. Joyless. I'm saving up. As always lah, phone bills have not paid fully. Another $137 to go. How F. And I owe 6 people items that I should have bought weeks ago. Sorry for the late presents okeh? If I ever do get to keep $10 in my pocket per week, I won't be broke again! I have things to be done and I need to cry, I shall end it of here today with a goodbye. Sexyback Quebec! You. Sweet Love Toodles.

Exam sickness

AHH! My nose a leaking tap and my throat is oh-so-itchy. But, it doesn't stop me from drinking bubble tea! Weee! Finally seh, I got my oreo bubble tea thingy, heh! Brother poked it in the left eye seh. Pity pity! So, the exam just now was horrible. I didn't manage to memories my Sejarah properly lah seh! Ouh ouh! I saw Kak Farhanah! Remember her? I do! (: And surprisingly, I left out a 2 mark question when over the past few years, I've never left out anything for any subject, okeh, except for Arab. My mum will surely nag. ): On the bright side, tajwid was good! (: Teehehe! Though I sounded like one toad that went sengau. School is reopening tomorrow. ): And I certainly am not done with IPW slides! AHHHHH! Okeh, I want to enjoy my bubble tea lah. YUMMIE! (: Sexyback Quebec! Tomorrow lah seh! *Pulls face and bang on drawer* (: Sweet love Toodles. (:

I feel so high.

YEY! Okeh firstly, deepest apology to Ziq, Ais and Sushee for tagging like one retard! HEHE! But I like! It's so fun! It will be if you have too many things to say type. And Sushee, I am quiet and shy like you! (: F&D people are quiet and shy ! HURRAY! Okeh, I think I'm high today. I wouldn't be if I didn't tag a lot! HAHA! I'm done with homework. Like finally! Though I'm stuck with IPW and Science brochure on hold, I'm done lah seh! Maths, I'm jumping up and down! Weeeee! First day of school is planned, off to meet Ais first and we shall walk together hand in hand to school! True, but not the hand in hand part of course. Maklomlah si ice-cube tu, takde syrup tak boleh survive. Yea, so it's going back to the normal boring routine of school kids. From home to school and half a pathetic half an hour break from lessons and back to lessons. But of course, when Mr Lim steps in to the classroom, it's gonna be a bumpy ride! I mean fun! Oh and changing of the sitting arrangement, again. I want to stay where I already am! There's the crazy people around me that help me a lot in concentrating, okeh, more like staying awake lah. So, I'm ready for school, if the date states that it's 25th June. (: Tomorrow, exam seh! I haven't study. I bet not many have studied laaaaah. Everybody busy with holidays you know. So tomorrow is Sejarah and Tajwid. I have problems memorising the dates of death for the 4 leaders of Islam laaaaaah! I remember the names and the story of it, a little, but not the dates. I have no idea why the dates just won't get in to my head! I'm going to be all alone at home tomorrow morning so I have better wake up early. MUGMUG! Mum and Dad bringing Iffah to Mak Long's house for our clothes to be altered and all. Sister off for work. And I suppose brother will be gone for kompang. Weee! Let's just hope that I'll still be alone after I get back. Alright sweethearts, I'm off for bed and for a round to gain back my lost NP. And Haziq, no more battledome next week! :p My pets like 1 mf without energy! Sheeeesh! All thanks to Ais' Chia and Ziq's Orgin. (: Sweet Love Toodles!

Science Project, all done!

WOOOOOO! My day, I woke up as early like normal then watched SCTV and RCTI like normal. Then all the normal teevee shows for holidays lah. Sadly though, Iffah was already awake so it wasn't as quiet as it has always been. Got ready and travelled to Marsiling for Amirah's house! I don't know who's late but she owe us a treat. Right Ha... (: So, Haziqah, Liyana, Farah, Amirah and me were making noises like don't know what. And we punked Sham using Mirah's account. HAHA! Then we started with stares and more stares after that and ended with WOOO! And thank god I caught Double Happiness! HAH! Screw Philip, he should have died and I would be smiling like a retard. Accompanied Farah to the library. First, we headed to The toilet. HAHA! And the tune is catchy so I feel like singing it now. Or maybe not. Heh! So I reached home at 7.20! Wowee! Nag free lah seh! I'm not done with homework. Pfft. 2 bananas completed the assignments. And that Haziq kaaaaaaaan, tak puas hati ni. Never mind! We shall see each other at Battledome laaaaah! And I want to win like, for once! Chit. Now lets see, what should I continue with now? Maths laaaaah, my writing assignment like fug and I want to rewrite! Sexyback Quebec! Screw Maths. *Pulls hair and bangs on the drawer* (: Sweet Love Toodles.

For real.

I have a family of 17, including myself. We are really rich and stays at a bungalow. We are very happily together! My parents are the type of people to die for. My siblings, 5 of them are happily married. I'm the 6th child and I have 9 younger siblings which consist of a pair of twins. My friends, they are the ones I really have now. The YBs and the 5 darlings I've known since last year. Now my friend, that is my fantasy family. Ever heard of people imagining things they really want by their side? No? You've heard one now. *** How irritated will you get when you get stuck on a composition. I know how to start. I know how to continue. I don't know how to end. Sad case. OUH! I'm going out tomorrow! For project and this time, it's not a lie. (: I'm turning to an angel okeh! I miss camp. Everytime the ad GATSBY played, it'll remind me of camp. Of the performance the Instructors did. Everytime I get bored, I'll do the clapping thing, it'll remind me of camp. Of Quebec. Okeh, main point, I miss CAMP! ):

Homework undone

Days. Hours to be exact and I have not finish my writing. I don't know what to write lah seh! One paragraph and it sounds so yucky and I threw it away. Then I write another and the starting doesn't go well with the things that I have planned for my writing. Screwed. Thought so. I'm super bored with homework. Ouh I'm worried. What happens if I can't finish the presentation slides? I'm going to get scolded for sure seh! Don't think about my group. Diorang tak kesah punyer sebab tu semuanyer, aku jugak yang buat. Oh-ho, need help with that? Go find yourself a friend who can read Malay. (: Okeh so, I've finished one Maths practice paper, stuck at writing, stuck at one of the maths paper. Science is the last thing I'll do. The other maths paper, I don't even know how to do the first question. And one more journal entry! YEY! So that makes me one burden lesser. ONLY. Omg, I realise that I'm obsessive of homework nowadays. I want it done by tomorrow. I need to enjoy my weekends lah seh! Partly my fault for not doing them earlier but hey! A month without teachers and studies is a break that every student wish for. Enjoy and suffer. That's for me, for not starting homework as soon as possible. Can't blame me, go count how many people start doing their homework on the first day of holiday. :p I don't know when I can start editing my slides laaaaaaah! Super frust. Sunday exam. And I haven't study. That is what you get for skipping the only lesson time before exam. AHH! Okeh, I'm off to continue my oh-so-boring writing and maths. (: Sweet Love Toodles.

ARGH! Stress!

Ouh yes, it has not been a week and here I am blogging. HOHO! (: But kaaaaaaaaan, I have lots to do still. I have 2 more Maths Practice Paper to complete with a writing, a Science project and IPW slides on hold. Like, erm. F right? *Count fingers* 4 days till school reopens. Okeh, so I'm like this much to serious breakdown laaaaah! Oh, you don't have to know you know. I have no freaking idea what Mr Lim wants for the bloody IPW presentation and what's worse, I have to do it myself. WOO! Like surprise surprise... One cannot do the editing one got an error while I send over the file and the other one, I don't know where the bloody hell she is right now. Well yea, so much for the last two weeks is our online-meeting. And it all goes down to me and the 4 bloody cruel days of holidays. SHEEESH! So anyway, I'm like dying to get free from homeworks. Like, when will it end? It'll end soon but not now. So I have this feeling that I'll screw my homework. English especially. Which brings me to Science. Just what are we suppose to do anyway? And I need Amirah for the project thing. Information somebody! *999* Okeh, isn't this post a little too long for someone who has lots to do? Ouh, I miss camp. I miss Quebec. I miss the seniors. I miss the instructors. I miss the shouting. I miss Changi. OHOHO! That was so wrong. I don't miss Changi, not a single bit. (: Sweet Love Toodles.

Gone?

I'm going to be gone for a week. Homework pile still as tall as ever. If you need me, get me through my house number because my phone is still under 4 months contract, a.k.a confiscated. In the meantime, you guys have fun on the last week of holidays. See you next time people! (: Sweet Love Toodles.

St Johns Annual Camp 2007. I love SJAB!

QUEBEC!!! Quebec power giler! Despite all the shoutings we got from Seniors and the lack of participation of some, we rock!!! Platoon mates: Judah (PC), Syakirah (APC), Shidah, Firdaus, Haziq, Chin Wee, Dianne, Ka Gee, Nabilla, Valerie, Rema, Suhadah, Hazirah, Yu Yuan (I think) and me! AND QUEBEC POWER GILER ! First Day Met up with the YBs before heading to school. And miraculously, Aishah came on time! But she forgot her shoebag so, on time tak pakai! HAHA! Was fun and tiring. NA had footdrill with Kak Kiirah. Then homenursing with Ambulance, Kak Atikah and Kak Kiirah. And we had laughs for some things. (: Had heritage trail. Grouped with Sofian, Hidayah (Sec2) and 2 Sec1 girls who's name is so vaguely remembered, CHEWAH! (: My group came in 3rd with the drinking water all dried up and what left was sweat! Okeh, eww! Then went back school and had dinner and all. Bunked with the Whiskey's nursings. Night time, had platoon interaction and Quebec did a song! We love it! We rock it! We shake it! Then, Chea Hau gave out night duty routine. I got the second shift, yet again. Had fire drill at 1am plus and 3 girls from my bunk woke up and went asleep again. =.= Night duty at girls' bunk with Farah! Talk and talk about this and that, and you know. Kak Khalidah joined us and we talk and talk. (: And went Kak Khalidah went off, Chea Hau came minutes later with Sofian and Judah. He sang Vida for us again lah seh! Awww! ): Second Day Had PT which was fun! YB girls unite! And we laughed our heads off! After breakfast, change for footdrill. Had footdrill. Then homenursing which we did illegal stuff. After that had ACI rehearsal. And my name was first on the achievements that I got. SUEY! But yea, the rehearsal was fun! Laughed at our own mistakes! HAHA! And the moment of sadness was finally here. ACI went well and the video we did was shown. ): The NA was crying already. And the Sec 3s were too. Yea, the seniors are deeply missed! Night time had sing along. Dance! Sing! Shout! Name it, and we did it. (: Enjoyable! The usual stuff actually. The friendship dance, I ended up once with Abdullah and *gasp*. Tall people. *Gasp*. And then we had a talking session with the Instructors. Laugh out loud and long! We crap and made fun of *ehem*. Time was precious! Went back and continued with platoon interaction! Laughed and laughed! Then after supper, had another platoon interaction where we shook and laughed again! Third Day PT was still fun. Especially the captain's ball part. White girls! HAHA! Footdrill, I did first half-only as I wasn't feeling well. First time! Had TOC! In skirt. But the session was interesting because, we were with the Instructors! Lots of information taken in. (?) And we had fun! Lunch was field cooking. Whiskey and Quebec. So we had to cook Maggi! Doesn't taste like how I cooked at home. Shared with Hazirah but we still didn't finish the food. Then, Quebec did the cleaning up because we were on duty. Penat seh! Had telematch! The game that hurts the most was Radzee's station! Hand got pulled here and there! And I think my hand was almost amputated thanks to the people who pulled. Okeh, confession! I saw who pulled me and where my WOOF people go! (: But I didn't make it obvious right, so I played fair. Okeh, a little unfair! So yes, thanks to the seniors, Ramdhan, Radzee and Sofian, my wrist was almost gone! HAHA! Exaggerating. Henry's station was best also! When the camera past by, "EH, EVERYBODY POSE!" HAHA! Not caring for anything at all. Just posed! Then went for Kak Khalidah's station. Woo! I think I'll stick to my own two legs, thank you! Kang Yao's station was transporting people. And we got 7 people the other side with the people Haziq and Chin Wee carrying us! WOO! Kak Saf's station was jump here and there! And we did it! Had a game of err, picker ball? No idea. Quebec won against Echo thanks to penalty! Foxtrot won against Quebec thanks to penalty! HAHA! There's Quebec, there's penalty! (: Then soccer! Quebec won against Foxtrot thanks to penalty! YAY! (: Night time! Moment of screaming and the only chance to lose my voice! Campnite! On Chea Hau's and the instructors' request, Haziq has to shake his butt for them! HAHAHA! So then we did cheers and dance more and Haziq and me syiok sendiri scream! HAHA! Fun! After that had night walk. The table place, let me see. I knocked my head 4 times or more. Pain lah seh! And to the ghost, I said "Eh, how to squeeze when you all down here?" HAHA! But Hazirah, Nabilla and me managed to squeeze through and there weren't many shouting at that place because "Alamak! Must turn back pulak! Depan got 3 girls! You guys squeeze jekk arh!" HAHA! Thanks Azmi for the tip and the help. At the exit, I found the marker! No Henry, you didn't manage to get the 3 of us to turn back! HEH! Then the toilet place. I went solo! SERAM! Kak Saf was the Cik Pon and I had to grab the marker. And while I was doing that, the caps came off and because of that, I was slow and she grabbed my hand. Okeh, so I was quite trembling! Then must go to the other cubicle where it was Abang Faroq! Voice power! I swear my heart skipped a beat when the door opened. And I almost had a heart attack seh! While trying to get out quickly, Asyiq went "BOO!" and I skipped out of the toilet! Last Day Breakfast then area cleaning. Went to the hall and voted! Best Sec 1: Firdaus (Quebec) Best Sec 2: Haziq (Quebec) Best Sec 3: Sofian (Echo) Best PC/APC: Syakirah (Quebec) Best Instrutor: CHEA HAU! Best Campnite performance: Foxtrot Best Platoon: Echo But QUEBEC STILL ROCKS!!! And this goes out to the graduating seniors. You helped us to go through the thick and thin of joining SJ. And you guys helped us with trainings and made sure that we don't do any mistakes. And for the 1+ years that we've known you, it was a blessing in disguise because the tough trainings you conducted was fruitful for us. For the trainings, we know that we gave you a hard time and we know that we were upset with you but because of the tough times, we are what we are today. SSG Chea Hau, SSG Safarina, SGT Khalidah and SGT Radzee, you were the ones who made us realise that even if you guys are strict, it was for the sake of us getting use to the officers and trainings. Especially Chea Hau whom we have made very much agitated lots of time, you were still there to train us for our competition. Radzee, you owe NA a training session! (: Kak Saf and Kak Khalidah, thanks for the words of encouragement and your ears for us to to talk to in times of sadness and confusions. Even if your names weren't mentioned here and at the video, you guys were still there to make things fun and tough. Too many names to be mentioned but just know, that whatever it is, you guys still rock SJ and the camp itself! This may be our last goodbye but you will forever be in our hearts. Seniors, you are greatly missed and greatly loved. Do come back next year when you guys are free because the sight of you will make us smile! And this goes out to the instructors. You guys rocked camp! And because of that, despite the scolding, we had fun and had a great time laughing our ass off! Do come back again next year and we really are looking forward to see you guys hyper and strict again! All the best for the next one year and see you guys soon! Camp was also fun because of the presence of past seniors Asyiq, Som, Amir, Wanie and lots more. *** For video of Quebec's performance, go to Kak Kiirah's blog! (: And guess what, my mission to lose my voice is accomplished! And I'm down with fever also. SHEEESH! Sweet Love Toodles.

SJ camp. ):

So let's see, what time is it again? And what was I suppose to be doing right now again? Since I can't sleep due to some thoughts that made me toss and turn till my bed might just break, I'll update in a proper manner instead of being in a rush. (: Alright, so 9th June is finally here. Shout HURRAY! everybody. =.= So here we go. I can't sleep because my left eye has been blinking, yes, I'm bloody superstitious when it comes to me having a bad luck, only. But truly, every bad luck signs of mine is actually my good luck. Alright, it's okeh if you don't understand. I can't sleep because my throat is itchy and I can't stop coughing! AHH! I can't sleep because I kept on thinking what will happen if I were to be the you-know-what. ANd what happens if I screw up like F! Double AHH! ): But yes, I'll get my eyes to shut when I've calmed down. NEXT! My take care wishes to everyone out there. Okeh, as if I know everyone! Liyana, you take care too! Xin Er, you take care too! YingYing, get the slide presentation done! Wesley&YuJuan, do help here and there whenever possible! Friends out there take care. Family, I'm not missing you people, no worries. Better off without me at home, right Mum? Those coming tomorrow, okeh fine, later! I'll see you dearest people in school with my sympathetic and sadistic face plastered on! (: Goodbye bed, bear, pillows, computer set, closet, dearest room, dearest washroom and last but not least. my television set. I'm going to miss you guys! ): HAHAHA! Okeh, as if I'm gone for forever. Alright sweet people, this is the part where you guys go " Awww! I'm gonna miss you! " Before you guys say that, my reply to you guys in advance, I'll miss you people too! 4 days of sweet and memorable tortures! Smile lovelies! (:

Sweet Love Toodles!

YB day! Love them lots! 060606. A year.

And that my friend, is all I have to say today. (: SWEET LOVE PEOPLE! Toodles!

Spiderman3 with FLN

I know, I hate Spiderman like *ehem* but I must say that Spiderman 3 should be applaud! (: *Crickets sound* HOHO! So here is how my Tuesday went! Woke up and bath and ironed my clothes. Okeh, not important. Met Yana and Farah later than I was supposed to be there. The bus' clock lied to me, what do you expect? Farah was rushing us to the ticket counter and the queue was bloody-ly long! After 10 minutes of giggles and laughters, we finally reached the counter and bought the tickets! Was late for 10 minutes for the movie but was okeh. The movie, oh-so touching. Many were sobbing at the ending of the story and that included *ehem*. So yea, Spiderman 3 was not that bad after all. After which, we headed to chameleon! I bought a yellow ring and a bangle/bracelet; whichever. But I need more! I'm spoilt for choices!!! (: Then an old lady approached me and asked about how she looks with this light blue earring. I was shocked okeh, what do you expect! Give me the creep seh! Headed to Wish You Were Here. I love that shop! Reasonable prices and reasonable items. And not forgetting, nice items! After that, we went off for Sister's VCDs. Bought Flushed Away, Happy Feet and Narnia; which was the old version so I need to find the edited version. Went home! I passed my curfew by half an hour. (: No biggie yea, half an hour only. Alrighty, I'm off! Sweet Love Toodles!

*sigh*

I really wish she would understand. I told Sister and Brother last night about 0606. No worries on the entrance fee if Sister would get me the free pass. Worries, points to Mum. I missed the ETP and now I'm missing Zoo too. For goodness sake, I need a life. If you'd rather have me bleed my eyes by tears, then your wish is granted. If you'd rather have me shouting and be stuck at the computer and be useless, I already am. You don't have to wish for it dearest. I thought you knew.

You suck!

Limit time on computer: 4hours. And how long have I been on the computer? Since 0730. Hell yea! Time check: 1810! Should have done homework but nope, not a single one done yet. So now I'm not all alone at home because Sister is back from work. And I'm bored. Very bored. Chatted with Farah and her outcome for 0606 is the same as mine. Well yea, it's a sad thing that I don't have a sporting mum that would allow me to go out very easily and to everywhere! And yea, I'm stuck in Woodlands residential area till God knows when. I don't mind not going out with my friends if my family would get out and go somewhere and not checkpoint. Go out, go waaaaaaay further than checkpoint. Go somewhere like Vivo. Or Bugis. But everytime dad says "Come, lets go out." Just where the hell did we head to? Grand's house. Checkpoint. Hell yea, I'm tired of those places! And the reason I don't go out with them anymore, I'll always be the reason why they get angry and for that, my shopping trip is one biiiiiiiig fug! No thanks. No more shopping trip at checkpoint. I want to go on 0606, I really do. But the answer was a no. Displeasure Toodles.

Homework anyone?

Guess how many homeworks down? NONE! Only did weekly journal entries and stopped at first question on Maths! (: HEH! I was looking through my Friendster's friends list and most of them, I don't know when I added them. Interesting. Maybe I didn't even accept it. Maybe someone else did the accepting. Hmm. Anyway, Friendster is beginning to suck. Changes, gives me a whole load of crap. Whatever they want in my account and profile, just wouldn't budge. How irritating. So anyway, I have plans. -I need to shop like one idiot who has not gone shopping before or shop like someone rich. Heh! -I want to watch At World's End! Watched the trailer at the official website, damn! Seriously, I need to start saving but by the time I have enough for the movie tickets, the VCD is out. =.= -I need to go out! -I need to be out of the house! -I want to be outside instead of being inside! -I need YB! -I need to shop for camp shits. Okeh, top 2, help me figure how to get the money! I need MONEY! Lots and lots of ka-chings! (: I've been telling Sister this and God knows when I'll be off for some shopping. "I need to shop! *Gives a sadsad face* " -ME! "Give me money and I'll help you buy. *Grins like always* " -Sister! Not helping. Seriously not helping. Lets aim for another target! HEE! Okeh done. I need the beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed! Sweet Love Toodles!

0606? I need it.

Sometimes I wonder if everything you did for me was for real. Was for love. I miss school. I'm bored at home and all I do is to watch teevee, use the computer and read. How boring. Ais called me last night. I really wish I could but you know. And I don't even know if I can even go out on 0606. ): Maybe if a movie marathon, yea but outing, I doubt so. Been songhopping for the past few days at youtube! Lots of fun singing by myself! From English to traditional to Malay to hiphop to emo to whichever. (: Mum has been unplugging the bloody internet wire. Connection gone, freedom gone. Bloody fuck it is. Erm so yea, 3 more months till the fasting month is here again. Shit, I haven't pay back all. And basically, I'm SUPERDUPER bored! ): Entertain me somebody. Sweet Love Toodles.

Patheticly pathetic.

*SIGH* It really bothers me. The way you had your eyes fixed and calling out to me. It sucks! And you know that I'm broke yet you asked. Since you insist, I'll start collecting. Just for you. AHH! Damn. I'm super broke! Thanks to holidays, I don't even have money for my self pleasure. And I still owe Sister $137.70 on my phone bill. For 2 months and that is the only amount I've paid. Sheesh! Pathetic btol! Yea, 2 months 8 days and I survived. Surprise surprise. I'm dying to take picture. Used sister's phone just now, damn I miss my phone and the sound of it when a sms comes in, when i press the button to take pictures and when a call comes in. I miss everything about it. I feel pathetic today. Don't ask. I'm super broke and super bored. I may be broke but I want to watch At World's End and Shrek! Okeh, maybe I should just stop blabbering shits. It's just a dream that won't come true unless... *Winks to someone rich* If everything I did was for nothing, I had better just keep my bloody mouth shut and not help you at all. Stop stopping from going out with my friends. I'm not her. She is not me. I need my own space. If everything I want to do and you reject, I'll rebel. And no, there'll be no regrets. Reject and rebel. It mix rather well. I miss YB lots. ): Sweet Love Toodles.

I'm missing the Instructors already! ):

I don't know why but I feel so low. Super duper low. Lower than the ground, as said by Farah. Went back to school today for some SJ personal stuff. (: Everybody tried to turn emo for the sake of it. And yea, hope they really do cry and appreciate it. HEH! I'm so bored. I can't bring myself to look into my school bag and peep for my assignments. LAZY. That's for sure. I'm stuck to neopets again. Just another few hundred thousands more and I'm abondaning it. Just for the pleasure of being a millionaire. And like I've said, if only reality was all about games. If only reality was all about playing, then earn. If only jekk! And guess what, I want to be glued at the television today! RCTI and SCTV! YAY! Oh and they played Heart yesterday at 9pm; Singapore. BLOODY HELL! Missed it, like for obvious reasons. "Typical Malay/Indonesian story. Give me a story that doesn't have a typical starting and plot and ending, like for example Cicakman." -Kak Naf. F btol! And I want to watch Mean Girls and Agent Cody Banks and manymany more! Saturday is going to rock man! And I want to watch Home Alone 4 and Baby's Day Out at RCTI! WOO! My teevee schedule is planned! THE END! Sweet Love Toodles!

Screw rankings!

And I wondered why the top things were different. I was at a different tab! TSK! Had a tiff last night with parents, over me not going for my usual Sunday night class. I was pissed off. I have had enough of my parents melting for whatever sister does and going all red for whatever I do. I'm tired, and you force me to go. She's tired, you don't really mind at all! Sobbed all night. Dad gave me this fkingly angry voice. Mum didn't talk to me. I don't give a single f on this anymore. From now on, I would really love to make my own decision because I have had enough from being bossed around. My decision and my punishment. That would certainly be ace! I was well prepared to be ignored all day but they talked to me like as if the fight didn't even happen. *Sigh* Typical typical. Went back to school just now in the afternoon, to collect my report book. The results were bloody sucky. Class position 27 and level ranking 62. I suck okeh! And -2 marks and I would have failed English. On a brighter note though, I got 45 level ranking for Maths! I was high just now in school. I guess I miss them so much already! I got a B4 for D&T. How cool! I didn't even study and my coursework? I don't know what happened to it. Overall, I have 2 A1s, 2 B4s, 4 C5s and a C6. Well yea, Mr Lim really does most of the encouragements. I do owe him one. I owe Ms Widad too! I passed Geography lah seh! A B4 was so totally unexpected! (: I don't want Mrs Chuah for a Geography teacher! I don't want Cikgu Shikin for a Malay teacher! I'm going to miss Miss Widad and Cikgu Maisarah! All the best to both of you! (; And let's see, I got 2 books on loan that needs urgent attention before 5th June! And I got God-knows-how-many holiday assignments on me. And usually, it gives me a thrill to see teachers' non-stop worksheets coming home with me. But not now, I'm in a dreadful mood to even lift a pen. And I currently feel useless. Sweet Love Toodles.

Sec 2 SE/NE camp 2007. Thanks for the memories Changi.

I am so tired! 3 days 2 nights, finally over with a huge scream and screeches! (: HOHO! I was thoroughly pissed off with some of the girls cause they kept on complaining on how lame the games were. They should organised this camp next year and see how proud you'll be and how tiring it is to even conduct a simple programme with such negative people like you. I'm summarising up, not because I'm tired but because I'm lazy! CHANGI! Got to know each other during the first day. Consist of 17 Sec 2s, 1 group leader and 1 fasci. I can't remember all but let's see, we have Amin, Isaac, Kelvin, Azri, Cynthia, Wesley, Wei Xiang, Tofu (nick only), Shabnam, Nadia, Dian, Dennis and I can't remember the other 4. (: Our leader, Kak Suraya (Kak Susu)! Our fasci, Kak Rafiqah (Kak Fi)! Did some cheering and get to know each other! Was quite dry for the first few hours but we did okeh. Next day, woke up at around 5 to shower. Had breakfast and off for amazing race and treasure hunt. So we came in last for treasure hunt if I'm not wrong but we got 1st for amazing race for batch 2. (: Kak Fi paid for our ice-creams! And guess what, the journey for the treasure hunt is exactly the same for our heritage badge's trip last year. Campfire was fun. My aim was to scream and screech till I can't do it anymore. Despite the many AHHH! and WOOOO! and AHAHAHAHAHA! and AHHHHH!!, my voice is still a normal syrup's. (: I can scream well seh! My group sang the One People, One Nation, One Singapore song. With some banana dance and our own cheer. It was great. Sang at the top of our lungs! AHH! Haha! Last day, woke up at around 4 and showered! Packed all belongings then went for breakfast. Cheered and all. Everybody was so tired except for this one very enthu group, I wonder whose group that is. (: While other groups were cleaning due to some problems at their bunk, the rest left were bombing each other and sang~ Results was in school where eveybody was trying their very best to stay awake. So the best group for batch 1 was Alkaff. For batch 2 was CHANGI! For batch 3 was Victoria. So we were re-screaming. HAHA! Off for home soon after. Hazirah and me got a taxi and off for home!!! First taxi was taken by that Nabila and Farah who initially wanted to cross to the opposite side when a taxi I flight stopped. HAHA! (: Alright! SJ camp left. I'm dead sleepy! Cheers for the student leaders! Cheers for Sec 2s! Cheers for CHANGI! Cheers for Kak Fi! Cheers for Kak Susu! WOO~ Sweet Love Toodles.

Gone for Sec 2 SE/NE camp 2007.

Awww... Camp is tomorrow. ): I'm going to miss the computer and the bed and the pillows and the bear and the radio. ): HEH! Okeh, this is the part that I say to almost everyone today. HAHA! MISS ME EVERYBODY! (: 3D 2N without entries. Sweet Love Toodles my LOVE ones! (:

Sungei Buloh! 2e1 <3

I need to go shopping. I must go shopping. By tomorrow. Not even a single itemss bought! OMG! And it is only hours away to camp. HOO! To hell with it for the moment. (: Sungai Buloh trip. Not that boring. Was snapping pictures all the way. Service at the cafeteria, real bad! Especially the guy. TSK. Okeh, so we were very noisy at that time. Ms Lim was sort of pissed with us but yea, she was still smiling and all. (: Not much to update actually. Okeh, leave it all to pictures. (: Gotten them from Ziq. HAHA! Okeh, I was looking at Farah's camera. (: I looked terribly tired. =.= Sweet Love Toodles!

Holidays! *jumps up&down*

*Closing one finger.* A step closer to holidays! WOW! (: Monday morning and I woke up at 0530. I so don't know why. After much tossing, I turned and went back to sleep! WOHOOO! Okeh, that was not an important details that anybody should know. HAHA! Okeh fine, it's not funny. (: Sec 1s' 2.4km was cancelled as Mr C Lim called for wet weather. So, no public duty~ The whole day, we slack! No geography, no history, no PE, no MT, no SEL! How awesome! SO we talk and talk and laugh and laugh and talk and laugh and talk and laugh the whole day. Teachers got irritated cause we were so noisy. And PE period was taken over by Mr Lim. Just chit chat and he asked us the usual how-are-you-today chat. Was nice spending time like that! And the period I hated most was Malay. Don't ask why cause you don't have to know. For me to know for you to find out. *Evil grins* And I'm stuck with reading. I chose great books these days. Right... But heck, the stories have been rather interesting and sweet. No vulgarities but just sweet words. HEHE! Alright, that is all folks. (: Sweet Love Toodles.

Craaaazy! (:

HAPPY BELATED 3rd BIRTHDAY! Been a really tiring day yesterday and today. Let's begin with yesterday's fun day! (: Had camp breifing and post-exam's briefing, one after another. And Haziq, Rach and me was laughing alot! HAHA! Yes, I still remember this part. Got back Malay paper. I scored a freaking A2. Sister will so going to be mocking me. Now that I failed English, it's going to be a double mocking. English was boring. Went through Distinction In English and stuff. Maths was for once this year, boring. Had to do all the corrections and did some sums which I haven't even start on. Had lots of laugh, as always. IPW was fun. I'm going to pluck a lot of wires from today on. "If the dog barks at you, you bark at them back lah! WOOFWOOOOFWOOFWOOF!" That was what Mr Lim said. We broke into a long laughs and hell yeah, it stayed on till today. (: Public duty. DAMN I'M DARKER!!! Was posted at one of the shelters and thank god I was still fair. And then, we, as in Shi Hui and me, had to be posted to the lots of sits area which was freaking hot. Sat there like around 15 minutes and there was a huge colour difference! *Points to where the watch is worn at.* The Sec 5 casualties were funny! And the guys bet on each runner. LOL! And Ais' 321 was running well! And my 336 became one of the casualty. SUEY! HAHA! And I forgot Shi Hui and Nabila's number. HAHA! I can't believe I had some energy left to walk home. Okeh, maybe more like trudging or crawling. Today's community day. HELL! My leg was hurting because of yesterday's activity, nothing to do with PD.And it was bloody painful. Terribly painful. Residents of Blk 650, damn kind and friendly! We got lots of newspapers and other items starting from the 10th floor! Collected everything and we transfered and tied them all. Waited for the lorry for like a hour or so. Wols. In the meantime, snapped here and there and talk like nobody's business. That is us for you. (: And I don't know why but the source of candid pictures is me. HAHA! Okeh, received this from Ziq and Ying Ying. Some snaps we did. (: The E here is pointing the wrong side by accident. (: Shi Hui and me! (: Yu Juan at work! Wesley at work! Candid okeh! AHAHAHA! Okeh, this was an absolute candid! Where is that Ying?! (: The crazy ones! (: This is the teacher who makes us smile during outdoor activity! Mr Ramthan! (: FUN DAY indeed! (: Quality time with classmates! *** And I know that you can never be proud of my achievements. You mock at me for any achievements I got. No, I don't want you there anymore because you don't know how to make me happy. You people ain't needed anymore. Sweet Love Toodles.

Happy but not thaaaat happy.

HOHO! No, I'm not totally happy yet. Unless of course somebody tells me that I passed English. Okeh, so more papers strolling in. I passed Maths! WOHOO! Okeh, but it is still useless if I fail English right...? TSK. But nevertheless, I passed. I got an A1. WOOTS! I hit Mr Lim's target! WOHOO! Okeh, but let's not rejoice. HEH! And I scored 57 for Art. HAHA! Its okeh and its alright. It's only art. So yes, basically that is all. Results are bad, I know I know. Next week, a trip to Sungei Buloh and camp at Labrador. It's gonna be a long and tiring week next week. And hell yeah, I'll faint in my bed the moment I get home. (: Ouh yes, did I tell you that I got Linkin Park's minutes to midnight? Hell yeah I do! Song is addictive! I don't know just how many times I replayed every single one of the songs. And you are currently listening to one of the songs. And yea, the italic words on yesterday's post was not my own words. Is one of the lyrics so, no worries okeh. (: I'm rushing off for lunch and NEOPETS! Yes, neopets is highly addictive! I know and you don't have to tell me. (: Sweet Love Toodles! My world is closing in I'm so alone The door is locked and nobody's home Desire is the key that I must own Emotions got me losing control I'm losing control.

Sad case gone bad!

It's such a dissapointment. I have never failed my English paper before. Not even the paper 2, not even the paper 1. Now, what did I get? I failed paper 2, nicely done. Yes, everybody just shout HURRAH for me. Holding back those tears, damn it was difficult. So I cried my hearts out before Geography and I don't care anymore about the marks I'm getting on my other papers. Not even Maths. My focus is now on English. While those who failed was as cheerful as always, the usual back arses was wondering I was goddamn quiet. This proves that I'm noisy in class. But what the hell, I don't care. Now, don't compare your marks with mine. However high it is, I'll still somehow fail. Yes yes, paper 1 result compile with this and that, I may not fail but forget it, my paper 1 is sure to be a one big fuck! I almost failed Geography. I almost got my wish come true for Science. I forgot about History, but I don't care. Smart arses, just shut the fuck up if you are reading this. Sweet Love Toodles. I've given up I'm sick of living Is there nothing you can say take this all away I'm suffocating tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.

Awww!

I am so not in the mood. So don't go around asking me why I look like this and that. I'm going to give you a tight slap, that I assure you. Sister didn't give me my school money. TSK. Typical. So I survived on the 60-cents I had leftover from yesterday's. (: Lessons was lesson. I almost broke down to tears to see and hear that I improved drastically in Maths. Yes, that is how I reacted. So just sat there like a dumb person and listen. Man. The sadness in Mr Lim's voice but at the same time he was happy. Yea. Mr Lim was sad for the whole lesson. Due to some stuff and of course, our Paper 2 result. *Sigh* No, I'm still not happy with the results that I got. Yes, I'm very dissapointed in myself. English, well hell! I think I'm going to fail. ): Okeh, enough emotional words. Like I've said, lessons was lesson. D&T was like fuck. I'm tired of it like for real. And yea! Next week is the last lesson? RIGHT? I'm going to jump up and down till I die. HAH! Ouh and my result was like fug too. MT. Neopets terror. Talk whatever we got on our mind about Neopets. Get this right, we got a lot to say. Literature. I failed. Wohoooo... Maths as described above. Despite the sadness I saw in his eyes, well, he showed us the way humans walk. HAHA! Okeh, nobody knows about this. HAHA! English. URGH! Combine class tomorrow. With 2e5 and 2e2, to go through the English Paper. MF. Just how are suppose to fit in 120 students into that bloody small AVA room? Visit to library was as always. FUN! HAHA! Rawr and me took books that looked interesting for us then we sat and chose. Inspired by Ziie. (: Alright, I'm hungry. And I feel sick. And Neopets is waiting for me. (: Yes yes, I owe Rawr and Lili 1k each. =.= Sweet Love Toodles.

Stress!!!

AHH! I am so tired. Of everything. School, studies, homeworks, lack of talking in family and all those shits. I just don't seem to know if I will be able to make it a good future. *Sigh* Yes everybody, I am too tired to even type. All I want to do is get my eyes to shut or even play games. Ouh yes!! Play games. YB are stuck to neopets. I am aiming to be a millionaire. If only life was like Neopets. ALl you have to do to earn real money is to play games and all that. But hey! This is real life. Got to work hard to achieve. Speaking of which, I owe Mr Lim the graph exercises and both exercise books correction. I'm DOOM! I really need holidays. How many weeks away, 2 weeks? Yes. Just a mere 2 weeks and we are so over Semester 1. OMB! Semester 2. Gets much tougher I guess, but I don't hope so. Just in a mere 2 weeks also, Sec 2 camp coming up. And OH-MY-GOD. I will so miss my bed and my pillow and most importantly, my Taufik CD which I listen to everyday. Yes, everyday without fail. HAHA! Seems pretty stupid right? I know. *** You asked me. You didn't tell me. Since you asked me, my answer is a NO! Can't you see how tired I am? All that you care is about him and yourself and how much both of you are so tired. It's time for you two to think about me. To think about how my life in school is. You go around saying that my friends are bad influence. You go around telling me that I should be an individual instead of being a group of friends who cannot behaves. I should be an individual rather than having friends who will betray me. Mother, Father, that is all in the past. You don't even know a single of my friends' name and you are already telling me that they are a bad influence and all? You don't even know their faces and you already judge by the first met? Puh-lease! Nobody told Sister who she should befriends with. Nobody told Brother who he should befriends with. So STOP it. I have had enough. Give me a break okeh. Linkin Park's CD has been released today. Sister has already planned much earlier to go to CD-rama to buy it! And of course, I CAN'T WAIT ALSO! LINKING PAAAAAARK! Okeh, Neopets time! HAHA! 1k np for Lili and Rawr, each. EISH! Sweet Love Toodles!

I still love YB and Ais laaaaaah hey!

When you bloghopped to Aishah's and read my whole blog from links and everything, what do you see? No loving YB. Fights. Swear words. Scolding this and that. No, "I am a YB." No, "I love YB." And what can I say, it was saddening! Maybe I did regret them. Ouh yes, the "Thank you, I'm just out of that stupid thang since you want me to. I'm not your motherfucking princess whereby you can order me around. To think you can put me into this situation huh, slut? I've got smth better to talk abt rather than talking abt your beloved parents. And quitting isn't of any problem, there you got it, DOWNRIGHT BITCH!" and also the "And that someone really thinks that I care about what she thinks? KIMAK nyer pompuan! Ingat diri tu bagos sangat? I don't care about what you think. I have my own pride! I'm not a bitch like u. I'm not regretting this. NOT even a single sense of regrets. Pfft. YOU MAY STEP OUT OF MY LIFE CAUSE I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE." was pure lie! So there you go. I fought with my dearest Ais. NO WAY! And so, while you people got sad and anxious on why we were fighting, we were chatting at MSN and laughing our heads and arses off! Ouh yes we were! We laughed at how you people reacted. We played Neopets together. Last night, was awesome! No, YB will not be seperated. Every words we say are for the better of the other. Ziq, we are so totally sorry for the troubles caused. And also those people who cared about us, we thank you all so much. Yes, everything will be put up as how it really suppose to be. And yes, Ais is a YB still. No matter what, YB will be there when we live and die. YB is forever in our hearts. And to those inncent ones, there were just some vulgarities exchanged and nothing more than a stupid "fight". How did you guys enjoy our show? We drama queens can sure win Oscar lah seh! HAHA! Now everybody, THE SHOW HAS REACHED THE ENDING, with Ais and Syrup laughing together and loving YB and each other. YB #03, still! (: ZALSSR <3 Sweet Love Toodles.

FUG! ):

And that someone really thinks that I care about what she thinks? KIMAK nyer pompuan! Ingat diri tu bagos sangat? I don't care about what you think. I have my own pride! I'm not a bitch like u. I'm not regretting this. NOT even a single sense of regrets. Pfft. YOU MAY STEP OUT OF MY LIFE CAUSE I DON'T NEED YOU ANYMORE.

Jangan Pandang Belakang; darlings day out! <3

Hello! I'm spooked out... NOT! Outing was as always. Early in the morning, I went for marketing first and then, went to meet up with Aishah and Nabila at the usual place. And as always, Ais kiter cair di rumah dan nampaknyer ader traffic jam di langit kerana Lalat tidak datang on time. (: So, settled down on a three by three sits. I sat next to Mr Wall! Aishah in the middle and Nabila sat next to Mr Air. Liyana in front of me, then Farah then Hazirah. Since we went in early, we talked and get ourselves comfy. When I said comfy, I really mean comfy. Legs up! Snuggled under sweater! HAHA! So the movie is not much of a thriller. While they were busy screaming their lungs out, I laughed my lungs out! Seriously, this movie is for the faint-hearted also. No parts got me screaming and only a few parts got me to shut my eyes. In the midst of the screaming, Aishah still had the time to complain about not being able to eat in peace. HAHA! While the movie was still showing, we whispered lame stuff. The only scary part that got me freaked out was when the funny senile grandmother's duplicate was on Darma's arms. You know, you get that tingling feeling if you were to carry somebody at a moment like that. FUUH! Scary. But anyways, the ghost looked real fake. And ugly. The flying part. Everything about the ghost looked fake. And give me a break! Why are many ghosts have the same acting style as Ju-on and Grudge and Ring2. AHH! It really makes me think that people just doesn't seem to have a good imagination of their own. TSK. But I guess it was overall quite well acted. Especially the senile grandmother, whom I forgot her actual name. (: Claps for the hilarious, thriller movie! (: I recommend to everybody to go watch it. "Mengape kawan kamu tu burok sangat? Rambot kusot. Mari le masok! Mari." -Senile grandmother. "Aku bapak kamu!" -Ghost. LOL. ** So we walked here and there around the causeway. They went to the library while I headed home since mum only gave me 4 hours out of the house. Sheeesh. I have a question! If we can't look back, can we turn back? Sweet Love Toodles~

MID YEAR IS SO YESTERDAY! Wohoooooooo! So art was fine. DUH! Though sitting beside her is a huge heartache, I strived on. Why you ask me? She finished around an hour before the paper ends. How heartache was that?! Others was still struggling to colour and all, she just slept! My artwork was atrocious. As always. No biggie! (: My side of the room is sparkling and dirtless. Throughout the whole time without any electricity, I cleaned my room and made it much cleaner than sister's! No wonder many villages are way cleaner than our skyscrapers and bungalows and terraces. HAHA! So the electricity was switched on an hour earlier than expected and I watched the television. And an advertisement got my mum to ask me something, translated. "You should reconsider your thoughts on taking up nursing course. You know how scary it is? You even have to walk all by yourself at the hospital during night time. You even have to go look at the dead people for some stuff. Be sure to consider. I really hope you would get a job like your sister's. Office work. Air-conditioned. You only have 2 years more to decide you know." One word: Damn! If many were to be like her, no such job as doctors, nurses or paramedics or any job of that sort. TSK. Alright, outing tomorrow with my dearest darlings! Wee! We are going to hit the theater! (: Sweet Love Toodles!

MYE (almost) over!

It's good to be back! Days of mugging and being sick, fruitful? I don't know. Somehow I think I'm going to fail all the papers but, lets remain positive here. First few papers were okeh, I think. Oh well, one more paper and Mid Year Exam 2007 will be so yesterday. Am I really happy about that? Not really. Back to normal school time and damn I hate that! I miss Maths periods. HAHA! Okeh, no offence actually but still, it's a compliment that I love Maths periods. (: Don't mind the song. I've been playing it again and again for god knows how many times. It's really soothing and calm. At times like this, songs like this would certainly be the best! Don't mine the blogskin too. I'll search for another one soon, when I'm so done being busy. Which reminds me of IPW. AHH! I've yet to do the action plan and no thanks, I don't want to come back on the Friday or Saturday just to give it to him. Isn't it weird, if we hand it in tomorrow, when will we be able to print out those flyers? And the publicity is this Monday. Double AHH! Okeh, now I'm stress. Maybe I should go now. I got Art work to do and action plan to work on. It's really going to be one short day. And somebody please save me from tomorrow! No fan, no computer, no television for 2 whole hours, they must have something wrong in their brain! And just this Art paper and we are sooooooo going to bid farewell to MYE 07. How happy. NOT! The result, how I dread... Sweet Love Toodles!