Oh right, shitos!

I'm sorry for being so emotional today in school. Some may know the reason and some may not. So here it goes, HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO KAK ATIKAH!. May all you wishes come true. Schools are now too stressful. First two periods was Malay. Rushed through my english worksheet and also malay worksheet. Everything was not well done and so, I don't care. English was a total rush. I hate to get into groups. It's where those things begin. I did the writing and thinking with the help of Wesley! And Yu Juan and Ying Ying did the huge drawings. Wrote the report at the last 5 minutes and it proves that I write much slower than that time. HEH! Maths was so stressful. While Mr Lim was going through 7g, I was busy doing corrections on 7f and doing 7h. And not forgetting, I was trying to concentrate on board also. Ouh, multi-tasking is such fun. IPW. The time that I forced myself to stay awake to finish up collating all those shits sheets. Ouh, high I was and the only words I have for them all are vulgarities. Tsk. I'm not your dumping ground where all your bloody works go to. I have had enough but really, I am feeling pityful for you guys that I just had to sacrifice myself for the sake of the group. I'm sorry I sound harsh but really, I don't wish to repeat the things that had happened just now. And really, that was not the real-angered me that you have seen. I can be much worse than that if this carry on. Sweet love Toodles~

I love them all laaaaah! (:

Okeh, so everybody has known the results of the debate and I don't feel bad or regretted anything that I have done or said before. But sad to say, the stress and things we did just for debates are gone. In just 13 minutes and all the hard work we have done, gone. I'm proud to say that no matter what had happen, we have stayed strong because we believed that no matter what, it is, afterall, just a debate and not as important as my studies. Not as important as our studies. And these goes out for all the supporters of 2e1 and the teachers who have been giving us support, they are, none other than Mr Shah, Mdm Rabia and Mr Lim. I thank you all for the supports but I'm sorry to have dissapoint you guys by not going into the finals. I'm sorry if you feel that way but to me, alone, debate is nothing much and it does affect my emotion for the rest of the days and perhaps even weeks. To my dearest supporters, thank you, on behalf of my team, for supporting us and show that we do matter in your eyes and I thank you for all the cheerings that you have done because that was what made us stronger. And no matter what, we all know that we have done our best but it was just not as best as it should have been. And once again, I thank you, all of you, to have scheduled this semi-finals into your busy schedules. To my dear teachers, I'm sorry if I have in some way or another dissapointed all of you. Mr Shah, I thank you for the guidance you have given me for my speech and really, it has help me to better understand debating as a fourth speaker. Thank you for spending most of your time, helping us to do our researches and train us till what we are today, till what I am today. I thank you also for the support and encouragements that you have been giving us from the start till the end of our debates. And no matter what, your guidance are highly appreciated by me. Mdm Rabia, I thank you also for your guidance. Even if you help bits of it, that bit that you help is important to me because that bit that you helped, are the most important bit. I thank you for the guidance of searching for points for our speech and because of that, you did helped much. I thank you for your support and thank you for your guidance. Mr Lim. Mental support is all that I need from you. And because of that, I highly appreciate that you actually tried to be there while we were debating. And I thank you for all the support that you have given me. And to my readers, thank you for reading my daily and boring life and all the complains that I have on debates. To my dear debators; Aziz, Farah, Rachel, Yu Juan, I hope that our journey of togetherness will not end here. And maybe in future, we may just meet up and have a battle against each other. Because maybe, we will be up against each other next year. But I'm hoping I won't because I want to debate by your side. And dear debators, don't feel so bad. *** I have never expected somebody like you who has suffered just to have me stepping on this very ground to insult me. And so the truth is out. You only told me about the paying part and not about the duration. And yes, you must be bloody happy now that I will be without a bloody fucking phone for 4 months. Ouh yes, my torture and sadness is your joy and happiness. Happy now? I bet you are. And let me tell you that no matter what, there will always be one of me. No matter how you fight over me to help you do something, I'll only do one. And worst for the two of you, I'd rather do something for myself than do something for you. Hello. I'm _______, I have a ________ by the name of Nasirah who is schooling in Woodlands Ring Sec. She is in 2-1. I'm sorry but I don't whether it is the express or the normal stream but most likely normal. I know nothing about her that is good. Let me carry on about my other ________ by the name of ______ who is now currently working. She is very hardworking and shows a very good example to all of them. If it weren't for her, Nasirah wouldn't have made it this far. She helps us carry burden, financially and emotionally. She is a very good girl. About my ___ named ______. He is a very good boy though sometimes he is just trying to get our attention. He is clever but he isn't that hardworking. Maybe he should learn from ______. 3 words, 1 sentence. I hate them. And don't worry about me much. Don't worry about the things I blogged about. Sweet Love Toodles~

I love my debators! (:

Bear with me dear readers because this shall be a long and emotional and boring post. My cup of tea at the current moment. And to these group of people, no names are going to be mentioned, you know that no matter what I do to hurt you, I will be that someone whom you know as your good friend or maybe to some, your bad friend. To this particular someone, if you have problems, do come and approach me because after all, I am your classmate. But of course, I wouldn't have that something that you want all the time, but I'll try. So cheer up. We are on the same boat. We have the same problems faced in our family. If you feel that there is a need to, you may always come approach me though I know that you wouldn't feel comfortable looking at the differences in us. To this other someone, I know I looked like I have changed. My friend, I tried to be as the person I use to be but you and I both know that I can't be likewise with all the burdens I have on my shoulders. I am busy and I'm truly sorry that I just couldn't find the time to go to that place that we always go. But rest assured, I will be running to you and call you for the trip to that place on every Monday. And babe, do cheer up. Please, do cheer up because I want to see the more outgoing you again. After all, I do look up to your courage of being brave. I'm sorry if you think that someway or another, I have changed. To the next someone, you know I will always be there. The tears we shed together will not be gone just like that. Both of us know that no matter what, we will always be together. That every single something that we share together with others are well kept. I really hope that both of you will just get together again. And to that someone involved here, I don't take sides. Even if it means that she is someone I am quite close to. To this next particular someone, you know that all I always do is to make you feel intimidated but I want to share your woes because we are after all friends. I'm working with you as a group and you can always pour out everything because we will for sure help you. At least I certainly would. Next someone, I don't know whether I should be proud or just be angry that you are treating me like this. You don't know how many times I tried but still to no avail. I do care about you but not as much as last time because you have hurt me time and again and I just can't bring myself to care for you anymore. All that you ever do is to make me feel like I am that bitch that hurts you when actually, it's another way around. I know, you know, both of us know that we don't care about each other anymore but I still do and I would. To this someone whom I really am jealous of, treasure what your parents are doing and have done for you. Nothing that you get is up to match with what the other 3 of us are up against. We are that someone whom our family just couldn't stand of but you, you are the diamond and you should be happy about it. But of course, the behaviour and attitude that you always give to me is nothing that I really would like to see anymore. I just can't imagine why you have to trust that someone 100% since you've been friends since primary school. In life, there is nobody that you should trust. Not your closest friend, not your special someone, not your teacher, not your siblings and sadly, not even your parents. That's the real life and that is why you should be happy enough with what you have been given and treasure them. Never should you trust fully anybody, not even your special someone. To this friend whom I've known and crazed around with, you and I are the same. There is nothing that we could do about the matter but accept the fact that we have been given parents who don't even bother to listen to what you are going to say. But my friend, my parents are, trust me, much worse. Not even a single word from me would they listen, what more about my life. And that is why, the only place that I would really share my something is here, my dearest, my most beloved, blog. So my friend, we are somewhat on the same boat. Cheer up. (: To this next friend, I know you have your difficult moments and I do too. Yours may be worse but sweet, appreciate what you have been given and accept them with love, everything that you got are the wishes of my life. And so, treasure those moments and really appreciate for what they have done for you. *** Don't get the wrong idea. I'm not going to die yet but if I really would, with God's wishes, than this shall be my last words. I hope for the best in my life. Back to today! Lessons was nothing that you wish that you really would be in. Everything were just pure boredom. Science Practical, I practically screwed up a question in front of the lab helper and Ms Lim herself. I am, no doubt and hands down, the most embarrassing thing for her. I lost 2 marks and it was all thanks to the chemical change question. This means that I am a screw up. Speech day rehearsal was boring! Sat throughout the last part of the day and sweating myself for the first few hours for nothing was a waste of my energy. I'm not saying bad or anything but really, I would like them t pay attention to our needs. Debates tomorrow. All the best to ALL debaters. For the rest, do come down and support us. (: And bloody hell, where's that emo speech of mine? Sweet Love Toodles~

Debate shits.

Wokeh, so I am forced to update by that particular banana. Sheesh!

Tapi tidak mengapa, untuk banana dan juga mereka yang setia membace blog saya, akan saya update!

I'm sick. Yes, again for the don't know how many times. The pain in my head was like, damn irritating and painful.

But still, yes, I feel much better at home lah because of the almighty word, bed. Gaaaaah!

Lessons was damn long. Boring okeh. Except Maths. I'm beginning to adore Maths. Haha! I don't why lah.

D&T sucked a lot. Just because the sensor of mine just wouldn't cooperate with me. HUMPH!

MT was, well. As always.

Literature was headache. Simply because I just couldn't stand the pain in my head and my stomache caused by the coughing. And not to mention the nose that opens like a broken pipe.

Maths was described above.

English. Got a chance to just simply rest and forget about lessons. 10 minutes before the bell goes off, Mr Shah came all sweaty. Bleargh!

Debate stuff. Debate is a faggot now. I'm not interested in going into the finals but the rest are, except Farah. Like what the hell. I know we have no chance but I'm not giving up. Do I look as if I'm giving up? NO!

And seriously, I don't like since forever so stop being friendly to me though I do want to befriend you. I tried to.

And yes, in a silence, nobody knows how difficult my life is. I'm breaking down because of her, and someothers. And really, I don't need your words anymore. I'd rather be hated at my own home rather than be hated outside.

To the other assholes of life, you may just fuck off because I don't need any more assholes.

Sweet Love

Toodles~

Morning wif School

Wokeh, so morning with parents was so boring. Bananas were all parentless today except for Nabila. Ouh and my class position, 26 out of 40. Surprisingly. Gaaaah! Mr Lim was damn surprised also. Sheeesh! Are you like, not confident in me or something Mr lim? Woo~ I am aching everywhere due to the match yesterday. Gahahahha! We all are aching everywhere but nevertheless! We still want a rematch! Let us all get started on our strategies bananas! (: I am so stress out on the debate. And also with him. Egos everywhere. They SUCK! I am sorry but this is reality. (: And I would like to repeat that Bananas wants a rematch with those tall senior sergeants! (: Sweet Love toodles~

i love my instructors lah! (: REMATCH!

Dear Instructors, We want a rematch! Since you guys are tall people, we should have more strength than what we had today. So I am all tired and I still have tuition because of that fucking someone! Played handball with, Chea Hau, Wee Yeong, Henry, Kang Yao, Abdullah, Khairul and another guy but I do not know his name. Us, Nabila, Haziq, Jian De, Fauzi, Aishah, Shi Hui, Farah, Jeremy, Alif and of course, me, against them. WTF right? Okeh, so obviously they won. (: Tough fight! The tall seniors, against us short juniors. When we play low, they will obviously get the ball. When they play way high up, we do not even get the chance to catch that bloody ball. Overall, I had huge fun today. Surprise surprise. (: And again, WE WANT A REMATCH! ((: I said tell you debators, is she one of your debators? NO! She is your teacher. And damn it, I have said sorry and you go all complain to her. And please, I did tell you that I am sick of debating. So really, get your bloody team to win but really, I do NOT care anymore. get this in you brain, I DON'T GIVE A FUCKING DAMN ANYMORE! Sweet Love Hatred toodles~

2e1 rocks lah seh!

Okeh, so I'm happy. Maybe not entirely but there is this small part of me that is happy, the other parts, don't even let me get there. Lessons were okeh. Somehow, I got to concentrate more when I'm sitting near the front. You know, I have that fear of getting caught or fear of, something lah. I just can't seem to explain them in words. Malay was as always, noisy! And I hate them, to bits. (: Maths was a headache, as always. Screw me for not turning up for classes on Tuesday lah. Sheeesh! But someway, somehow, I manage to understand the difficult questions, but not the easy one. WHACK! History was interesting~ Yu Juan and me somehow connected the ways those Japanese behaved to our debate motion. Nyehaha! So we laughed and laughed and we got caught. Heh! Geography, rushed stuff as always. English, the normal thing. Only that we didn't start any of the chain thing. And assignment in groups, URGH! I hate it lah! IPW. Our pie chart isn't ready yet. Because of me, yes. It was all because of me. Before our turn started, we had more discussions with Mr Shah and then just rehearse a little. I was like so damn tense up. Debate was hell. I can say that 2-7 is not as stupid as how their class' position is. Really! I'm not being sarcastic. They have good points and yes, I didn't have the opportunity to say this but really, RP in WRS is NOT a counseling processes. (: Congratulations to 2e1, 2e2, 2e3 and 2e4 for making it to the semi-finals. 2e1 vs. 2e2. 2e3 vs. 2e4. Do u really think that you are that superior? To that particular team of that particular class, FUCK YOU! Do NOT be too action. It's not worth it. I know you are good but it's not worth it to become an action team. And seriously, I HATE YOUR WHOLE CLASS! Ouh ouh!!! Congratulations to 2e1 for winning the best class competition for Term 1. Go for better achievement sweethearts. 2e1 rocks! (; Sweet Love toodles~

Goodbye RD and bro!

Okeh, huge hello! Haaaaaaah! See the time that I am blogging at. Suppose to be on the way to school already but, mum said I should stay at home and, get well rest. Speaking of well resting, you know what I should actually be doing right now? Get jealous, okeh, maybe some of you won't but yes, I'm suppose to be asleep right now after swallowing bullets. Ahaha! Maybe not bullet, capsule and tablet is more likely. (: Hmm. What else to update? Okeh, I must admit, I miss school but thank God I'm not going today because I have not finish my homework. Wowee~ So, homework for yesterday and the will-be homework for today are going to be piled up and I just have to complete ALL by today. Which of course suck. I have not done anything for my debate. Hakhakhak! I don't know! All of a sudden, I don't know how to do debates. HEHEHE! As if lah, I look up on debators okeh? Except maybe for those debators that I think don't deserve a so-called supporter. So, debating is one of those stuff that I prefer to do instead of getting all sporty, which is equal to all yucky. No offence. (: Ouh and my Readers' Digest has flown to Taiwan. Ahakhak! My brother brought along my RD and guess what? I have not finish my RD worksheet. Goodbye RD for one month. Aww. Of course I'm so going to miss brother. Going to miss fighting with him. One month without him. Woo~ Can't imagine how quiet this house will be. Somebody lend me your RD copy or even better, lend me your RD worksheet. I hate reading RD lah. It makes me snooze. I have a question, why do the education ministry give us students holidays when we end up going back to school or/and getting huge workload? Like, better still if we just go back to school without any school holidays. (: Okeh, so I'm dead bored right now and my eyes are droopy. I'll see you guys tomorrow, hopefully. Don't miss me because I'll do the missing and you do the loving. Okeh sweethearts? I'm sooooooo going to hit my bed right now. Sweet Love toodles~

SICK!

Hello there. Very nice to see many unknowns here. (: So anyway, skipped school today. Imagine yourself, having phlegm in your throat and having a flu. Going back to school is the last thing a normal sick human being will do. No to mention, there is PE today. Eurgh! Went to the clinic straight after bathing and no comments. Okeh, maybe I do have. Choice clinic. Cheap I must say, compared to Medipoint. But really, I prefer Medipoint to Choice because Medipoint belongs to a female doctor. Much comfortable I must say. I want to complain on Choice's medical cert! Yes yes, good enough that I have one for today but seriously, that doctor needs to pay attention to the MC. No class MC. It is written! Like I love Medipoint's the best. Ouh yes! You must satisfy your patients' needs. Haaaaah! So so, you will see me back tomorrow. Aww! I know, all of you miss me. But really, I still don't feel so good. It's either the school doesn't want me back in class or just that my immune system is sick of classes. Impossible to be the first one. Obviously school wants us students to be back suffering, or maybe not that much of a suffering, in class. Time check, 1427. Eish! I take such a long time just to write that short stuff. 2 hours to go. My homework is undone! Somebody help me pleeeease? I'm down with fever, I think. Man! And I thought I was without you. Hmph! I have 2 hours to do my homeworks. Then sleeeeeep. Wake up around 2 hours later to do more homework then bed time! I don't think I want to be back in school just yet. Staying at home seems to be much better nowadays. I feel good. I feel high. I feel sick. I feel erm. I feel feel. (: I'm trying to be hyper here. True what people say, you can never be hyperly hyper whne you are sick. Sheeesh! No fair. Okeh, so maybe I should start doing my homeworks like, right now? Ouh joy, indeed it is. Sweet Love Toodles.

Wokeh. Let us start with something horrible. Got my M1 bill yesterday and my bill shot up like hell. Over $100. All thanks to the messages sent. Pfft. No way out. That sister of mine, whom always take charge of nothing that I can be bothered about, is going to confiscate my phone. I know I can actually just cut this short and just tell all of you that my handphone will not be use until I am able to pay $150 of the bill, but I just figured out that I just have to write all the unnecessary stuff just to kill my time. And somehow killing your time because you are the one reading this junk of mine. I loike. (: So yes, I have to pay up $150 while someone else will be paying $19. Pfft! As if I worked. As if I print out money. So the plan for me to get those money is... Tell you the truth, I have no plan at all. Just try to save up. Sheeesh! Let us all pray to God that I will have that amount of money in lets say, 2 weeks? Impossible but possible. In the meantime, those who are having this hard head, I mean those who do not want to listen, may just continue calling. Only be replying important messages if I get any phone to insert my SIM. That is, if my SIM will not be confiscated also. Sad case. On an even worse note, I have not even touch my homework. How sickening can homework be. One minute they are fun to do, the next minute, it just helps to detroy your happiness and joy during holidays. First stop, Maths. Damn all those equations. I am dead bored. If she has not stop me from going out today, I will, obviously, be the happiest girl in this boring house. So anyway, in need of a quick getaway. Tomorrow, not a good day. I have planned something and poof! Somebody just had to destroy my plans for their own sake. Pfft! I am left with Sunday to enjoy. In case you do not understand a single piece of crap up there, my phone will not be in use till I am able to pay up $150. So call me up at my house. Ask around if you do not have my house number. And the last thing, I need somebody to go out with me on Sunday!!! Most preferred are my YB or my usual cliques. With God's will, I can come out on that day. Sweet Banana toodles~

Civil Defence Course

A long and boring day. Where all of us got bored and fucked up. That school, whatever you want to think about us, you are all welcomed. But really! Think about it, at the every least, Woodlands Ring Sec SJ cadets are not a bitch like those from Henderson Sec. Have you ever heard of Henderson Sec before? If you have not, go search for it yourself because I have NEVER heard of them before. If you think that you people are the best of the best, BULLSHIT! Come on, as if you people are bloody pretty. My gramdmother is much prettier than you, trust me. You guys look like the streets bitches, and you are proud of that? W-o-w. I should call you people bicthes more often. Insult us for all we care but really, it is so totally not worth insulting and criticising us, you bitch. Pfft! And the instructors, apart from the paramedic instructor, the rest were the kind of assholes who go around scolding for us being too noisy. And you think I am scared of you? Laugh out very very very loud. If you think we are not worth it for your valuable knowledge, you do not have to teach us at all. If we are the worst batch, than really, we have the booklets and we can always go back home and read it up. Seriously, you do not have to waste your breathe and saliva on us, scolding and teaching, when in the end, the test we did was useless because, we will get a certificate and our badge, at the end of the day. Like seriously, you people get on my nerves. I know we get on your nerves but you do not have to face and feel that because you can just carry on with your normal working routines. Pffft! If you are wondering what the hell I am blabbering about, the Sec 2s of SJ WRS went for our civil defence course today. Along with 1 bastard school and 3 other schools. Went to the Bukit Batok fire sttion and all the people there act as if they are the coolest person on earth, BULLSHIT! Banana Love Toodles~ I will upload the pictures when I am free. (:

FAC 2007; hearts them all, esp u

Hello. Okeh, so maybe it is really not over. There will still be the bananas next year and we are going to be and do better! (: So, with a huge WHATEVER to that school, we are going to strike it hard next year. Holidays are here but really, I do not seem to find it a school holiday at all. Will still be stepping into school zone for next few days and homeworks are piled up, awaiting for me. Amazing homework. Blogger is down again. Bloody hell right? Opened my blog and blogger down in just a few hours time. Sheesh! Ouh, I forgot to put the result of FAC for Woodlands Ring Sec as my memory. FAC 2007; Woodlands Ring Sec Ambulance Adult team; Abu Sofian, Javin, Denis, Judah, Loqman and their steward, Redzuan. A congratulation to them for being able to get a second position among the 3 teams.And of course, you guys are always great. (: Nursing Adult team; Atikah, Khalidah, Safarina, Kiirah, Shirley and their steward, Nadia. A congratulation to them for improving a lot! And of course, for getting fourth position among the 5 teams. (: Ambulance Cadet team; Haziq, Jeremy, Alif, Farhan, Wee Boon and their steward, Jien De. A congratulation on getting fifth out of the 6 teams. Yes, you guys have done well! Even though you were quite slacking, you guys were great! Nursing Cadet team; Aishah, Hidayah, Me, Shi Hui, Nabila and our steward, Farah. Getting sixth out of 10 teams is not that bad. I know how all of you felt, standing in the middle of the top 3 NC team. I know, though, that we can do better. We can prove to that girl and her team and her unit, that we are good. *** The name of our school is nothing compared to the spirits we have in us. So mind you, we are better inside than the outside. You sound like a total bitch. Maybe you are a bitch. You must be a bitch. Get this right. No matter how hard you criticise us, we will be stronger. And you will be weaker. Fucker~ Did surveying at block 650 just now. With the obvious human beings; Wesley, Ying Ying and Yu Juan. Was really fun. Especially with Wesley. I practically did nothing. Just accompanied Wesley to each door. All the doors I knocked, nobody answered. Suey face I suppose. Hah! And we started at 11+ and ended at around 12.30. And we are left with 30 surveys, undone. Sheeeesh! And we found where Mr See live. (: And of course, what are we without fans right? So, we have few kiddies, saying and shouting goodbye at us when we were leaving. Cute kiddies! We have some adults, saying we are doing a great job. Like THANK YOU! So yes, today sure did perk me up a little. End of here. Sweet Banana Love toodles~

Tears of hardship.

It's good to be back. A good and big hello to all. (: If you want to know anything that happened during the past few days that my blogger was down, refer to here. FAC 2007. More than 7 months of hardship and laughter gone in just a few hours of a day. The result of what we did was very much a tearful thing. Us being in a middle of the three winning school was, no doubt, an embarrassing moment. If only I didn't screw up, our result will be much better. If only we didn't screw up, our result will be much better. But of course, this may sound crazy to you but I'm proud to say that, we screwed up, as a TEAM. Funny how the chills we had is now just another moment, waiting to be fading. Funny how the tears we shed is the talk of that bastard. Be us, and you know how hurt we felt. You don't know that we are the talk of that fucking school. You don't know that we are looked down upon by the other school. And now, you are saying like that now that we are sheding tears. I know your question was just a random. You don't sound as if you really wanted to cheer us up. But of course, it was thanks to them that we felt a little better, though the cheers that you did for NC made us cried even harder. A thanks of million kisses to the 3 teams and the personal "You guys did your best. *With a huge worried smile*" by Kak Wanie and the NA and from the AA too. Without their guidance, we wouldn't know a single bit. A big thanks to the NA and AA for the teachings and AC for the fun times you willingly want to have with us. Without her guidance, all 4 teams will be nothing, especially us, a very huge thanks to Ms Siti. A team already. Happily training. No joy without each of us. Sometime on bad terms. Never will we be seperated. Forever, we will be. NC, it's over now. We may be the worst in the sights of others but you and I know that we have done the best, in our heart. (: The KFC moment was very joyous. All thanks to the bananas. (: Sweet Banana-ly Love toodles~

Dearest tagger.

Specially for that tagger. So now there is two.I pity both because I know that you are so bored but please, stop your fucking nonsense. Just type your real name big fat coward! Owner of IP add 222.164.54.67, please be creative siket! Kau ader aper hal yang tak happy ngan aku? Braper banyak ribu kali aku nak cakap? Mak aku tak tahu camne nak gunekan computer. Kau apasal? Nak sangat saket kan hati aku, tag pakai namer kau sendiri! Takot? Abes yang brani sangat tag pakai namer Ziq ngan yana ngan 'mak' aku apasal? Tu dah case brani sangat! Eh kimak! Maner kau tahu arh mak aku tak ajr camne nak maki. Mak aku cakap, kalo org kurang ajar ngan aku, aku tak payah nak baik-baik ngan dier. So, dalam aku nyer dictionary untuk orang macam kau ader sentence yang cakap aku kene maki. Eh chibai, gi jalan lah! Owner of IP add 222.164.54.150, I don't think I have a friend or anybody that I know that is called Zhen Jie. And for your information, Yana and SP is like the person that I love the most. Including the rest of my sweets. Please, before you hate tag, read and know me well. Oh and again, you make me laugh. Both of you hate tagger make me laugh. Since when my mother knows anything about computer? Oh and for your information, my mothr will most likely have the same IP address as mine cause obviously she will use the same computer as mine. These two bodohs, get your facts right okeh? And my mother don't have the time to bother about all these computer stuff. THE TWO CHIBAI, IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ME, RIGHT DOWN YOUR REAL NAME. SINCE YOU HAVE STARTED TO HATE TAG, TAG MORE. I'M MORE THAN HAPPY TO ENTERTAIN YOU NONSENSE WHICH MAKES MY DAY. CAUSE YOUR NONSENSE ARE DAMN FUNNY AND NON-FICTIONAL TO MY LIFE. AHAHAHA! EVERYBODY, LAUGH OUT VERY LOUD CAUSE THESE TWO IDIOTS DOESN'T SEEM TO KNOW ME WELL. AHAHA! (: Oh and a HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY TO WAN YI! (:

I do not know

Haish. I don't know why but you are saying that we disrespect all of our seniors. Sejak biler ni? Okeh, maybe ader lah, satu kali yang pasal bende tuu tapi lepas tuu takde kaan? I'm like totally irritated. I don't know whether I should cry or get hyperly angry. I know that I am just very confused. With all do pleasure, you may meet and talk to us and settle this situation. You might want to get all the proof that you want. SGT, you've change. A lot. And I want that previous SGT that I and my other team mates knew, once-upon-a-time. You have become something like him. Ever since that day. SGT. I don't know what is your problem, but why did you say we are disrespecting all of you? SGT, you used to be somewhat a person that I look up upon, but now... SGT. Explain to me how we disrespected you by laughing? SGT, I know you know that you commands are not easily understood but really, in what way have we disrespect you? SGT. We are much more close to the sec4s than any other seniors. SGT. I don't understand why all of you just wantrespect from us. SGT. I don't care if you want to bring this to the teacher. SGT. I don't care at all as long as you don't tell ms siti because we seriously care about hr condition now. SGT. Stop trying to be the diamond among all of us. SGT. If you think I'm talking about you, say whatever you want. SGT. We did no wrong. SGT. Do not invade our privacy like how teachers are. SGT. How can you say that we have disrespected all of our seniors. SGT. What proof do you have? SGT. I'm sorry to tell you this but SGT, I'm beginning to hate you. Why do people want to be respected, so very badly? I just don't understand. Have the past seniors done what you are doing to us, to you? I can't believe that you texted her that! Your wish is granted. Name the place. Get every one of the seniors. Get all the Sec 3s. Get all the Sec 4s. Get everyone. I know what I am going to say and do. SGT, I'm prepared to rebut. So speak your minds out on Wednesday.

Eek!

You know how saddening it is to hear people getting much better results than you? Hello. Let's talk about last night first. Showed Kak Naf my Maths paper and she said I could've gotten A1 if it weren't for my careless stupid&fucking mistakes. See? I told you my mind have gone bonkers on Maths. Wait, I have not tell any of you yet. Haha! Okeh, so Abg Aee came back from the jungle yesterday evening. Showed him my birthday presents (of course must show~). Last night was great laugh. Parents out with Iffah so we had good talk and laugh together. How I miss those moments. The times when we laugh together and make fun of each other and all. Now, I have nobody to laugh with at home. Sis busy with work. Bro busy with work also. The disadvantages of having siblings who work. *sigh* Anyway, today. Went Jurong quite early. 12 pm and we've reached. Kak Khalidah joined us after that. Homenursing was okay. Bukit Batok's footdrill, I will drop dead if they were to be in zone 6! They were very good. Everything was, nice!!! You should have seen how good they were! OMGOMG! Since we were jealous of them, we went to admiralty to train. First, went to McD to eat. Ordered McSpicy. Absolutely spicy! Talked and all. (: HEHE! Then we went to the park to do our footdrills. Lots of fun stuff. From talking about footdrill to... You wouldn't want to know. Ahaha! Then we went off home~ *** My dear cousin, it's alright. I'm sure you can do better. I have faith in you! Don't bother about what others say. They are not you. You cannot change them neither can they change you. Take criticisms as a support for you to push yourself harder. Make someone having a much worse condition than you to be your role model. If you want to fight back for your own pride, I'll be by your side! (: And yes, my studies are getting from bad to worse. I don't know why. I want to appeal to have my subject teachers change to a much better ones. Like for example, change Ms Choo to Mr Faraz. I don't know why but everytime I see my history book, the words that she said to us just came back by itself. The words that made us much noisier now than before. Can't you see the changes in us? Obviously you can't because you were too busy finding our faults. I want my interaction with Mr Lim soon. I know I'll be scared to tell him every grudges I have with the teachers, but I don't think I can hold on to it any longer. I have been reading my previous posts and I have changed, alot. I am much more stressful than before. I don't know why but the pressure is on, challenging myself to be a better person. Challenging myself to be better in my studies. Challenging myself to behave and control my anger. Challenging myself to stop fighting for my own sake. Challenging myself in everything. I'm in need of a break. I'm in need of all-day/week/month-long fun time. I'm in need of long holidays. I'm in need for Sec 2 life to be over and I'm in need of school life to be over. I'm longing for things which can only happens in a very long timeline. My goodness. Oh people. Count down to that day where I will be too nervous that I will break down and lose my focus. OMFG! 28 days FAC, I want you to come to me and not me coming to you. Sweet Love

No attitude.

As what have beed said, mess with NC and we will mess up your life. (: So, try. Hello! Woo~ All my, already tanned and hangus, Sec 3s are back! Miss you all! <3 Anyway, started off with English. Got back English composition, you know... The one that I wrote based on THAT experience. Got only a 17/30. Bad. Must do even better Nasirah! Mathematics. I'm thoroughly stressed out with my Maths work. Confusing everything that I have learnt. I'm so sucking at Maths. Argh! I hate that!!! Science was quite managable. Still confused on how to balance those freaking chemical equations! Eee! Music, got into groups for our STOMP thing. Grouped up with Rachel, Liyana, Hannah and Haziq. Don't worry! You are not under my future counscillor list. Who wants a violent one like you? Tell me 10 valid reasons and I will tell Mr Lim I support you. HAH! Went home, polished boots and everything elses. Reached school and saw that all the Sec 3s were back. Every one looked dark and tanned and burnt except for that Elson. Still as white as ever. Ishk! And the graduated ones came back for their results today. All the different expressions. I just can't wait for mine to be over in 2 years 7 months 19 days time. Woo~ Long way to go. Training was okay. The problem with you is that you are too sensitive. How can a guy like you who acts tough be that sensitive. Why must you ask him to talk to us? Embarresed that we will laugh at your words instead of being scared. OH! You know what, I have never been scared of you but I have been too annoyed by your too high an expectation of us. Are you trying to say that we have disrespected you? May I ask, in what way have we disrespected you? You asked him to say that we are not serious in our drills? Oh really? You joined laughing with us. We are laughing with you and not at you. Get it? The problem lies with you and your sensitivity and your too high expectation and your attitude. You want respect from us? Search for it at that drain. See, some people are getting big headed towards us just because of... Nvrm. On a brighter side, tomorrow homenursing! Yellow bananas only. I need Aishah!!! You call me tonight okeh? Sayer ader hal mau bicara sama kamu. Sweet toodles~

I lose nothing.

Has it ever come to your attention that I just don't want to be disturb at all while I'm studying? Has it ever come to your attention that I will not listen to what you said just because you are my mother? Has it ever come to your attention that I hate it when you said that I didn't help out in the household chores when I did them all by myself? Has it ever come to your attention that what I need is somebody that understands me? Has it ever occured to you that you don't know what is going on my life? Has it ever occured to you that nobody is at the stage where I am at in the family? Has it ever occured to you that I don't care about what you are going to do to me anymore? The problem lies with you and me. You don't want to talk to me, I lose nothing and I gain nothing. Why must ALL of you compare me with my siblings who are obviously much cleverer than me? You don't have to spite me off with that. I know it myself and you don't have to rub everything in just to make my life much worse and much stressful and much dull. You know you don't have too.

Have you ever...?

Heeloo. Nothing is much better than another day in school with assholes at your ends. Anyway, rushed through last part of Farah's hujah-hujah. I'm entirely stressed out and my brain is crashing down. Soon. Malay was such a disgrace to our community. Just who does he think he is to say that she is not holding on to agama Islam. So much for saying that it is generally. Do you even know what generally means? You said her name specifically and you said it is generally. Otak yang tidak boleh digunakan. Have you ever heard, kerana mulut badan binasa? Well, it's going to happen to you assholes. (: We were late for Maths class. Got back our test paper and I'm not going to talk about it again. History. I give up on you. You nagged at us like nobody's business and you want to rush thrugh the chapter and you said it was our fault due to our noise level and crap. Let me tell you, without them, I would have fallen asleep in your boring History lesson a long time ago. Geography. Got back test paper. I've just dissapointed myself, again. Gotten 18/25 . How low is that?! English, Mdm Rabia was on MC so we had other stuff to do. Mr Lim came in and we did groupwork on a Maths worksheet. IPW. I want to make her be angry at me and have her to talk to me in that circle again. I want to show her that, if that babi can give us the attitude, I can give the 2 of them attitude also. Had to stay and do some class cheer. I love this part of the day. Mr Lim was showing us to do one cheer with the actions and all. Dead funny! (: *** Have you ever pondered on things that you should not ponder about? Have you ever pondered on things that you want to ponder upon but you should not have? Have you ever tried pondering on things that you want to ponder upon but can't just bring yourself to it? I have and it's tiring me out to stop myself from doing so. Sweet Love toodles~

Big heads are entirely not needed.

Heeloo! Training days are approximately left with 8. As the competition draws nearer, my heart beat is faster. My belo dan biol are high. Oh urgh! We praised you and you melt so badly that you are giving us that attitude. YOU, you are in the FAC team and that is the kind of attitude you have towards your commander and team? Clever eh? You will replace him and that is your attitude. Please, don't melt too much or you will be stepped on. You want to give us that, you show us how to do it and so we will know because for what I know, we don't know how to treat it. Debate tomorrow morning. Cikgu is being biased. Why can't Haziqah's and Hazmie's group go first. They should be going first since they should, supposedly, have finished their debate. How biased is that? Anyway, all 4 of them better come because I don't want to debate in front of those fucking assholes. Oh, in case you are wondering about that sentence since you don't understand, I'm the reserved. Ishk! Ishk! Oh disaster Toodles~