My biggest lie.

The biggest lie that I ever told? I have gotten over you. That is totally bullshit for I'm still staring at you. For I'm still falling for you. Yes, it's really difficulty to forget you especially when you appear at the point of time when I was about to forget you. I know fiasco's words are true but really, I have yet to get over you. And if I ever say that I have forgotten you, I will end my fall for you with a long post. I have promised myself that. Now, I just can't seem to get over you. But really, I really want to. So badly. Because I know, I will not end up with you. I said I have got over you yesterday, you made it my biggest lie today.

Happy 9 monthsary. (:

Training today was exceptionally fun. For the past 2 days, all I ever get was not this fun. What am I crapping about? *Shows -.- emoticon*

So we did this MOI footdrill and I decided what to teach at the very last minute. How last minute? Try when I was face to face with Javin and suddenly Loqman came up and asked.

And unluckily for me, I was the first one to do the procedure. Which sort of sucked. I had no bloody idea how to teach but yes, I made it. HEHE! And not to forget how angelic we were. "Which is very good CPL!" (;

Oh and while we were training, Mr Lim walked past the hall and he did the most hilarious and act cute thing that I miss bloody lots! He stared at us and placed the peace sign at his cheek, act cutely. You should have seen how he looked like! And it seriously made me giggle non-stop! HAHA! (:

Ms Siti was sick and thus we did no MOI first aid. Instead, we taught how to bandage. But the we, did not include me because there wasn't enough time. HEH!

After a fun and tiring training, YB headed to CWP Cinileisure for "Game Plan." And guess what? I cried. Yes. I really seriously did. The movie was super touching yet funny. And I give it 4 out of 5 for both touching and great movie. (: Catch it~

So life has been shit. I don't know why. ): And interestingly yet abnormally, I'm starting to like watching news and reading newspapers. I find them interesting and useful nowadays. Especially the one about Pedra Branca. I find it lame for Singapore and Malaysia to fight over it all of a sudden when in the first place, there were no claims. But hey, who am I to say no to the debate. I'm going to do some follow-up! (:

I'm turning weird nowadays. Sheeesh! And much perasan too.

Jian De left Singapore for Australia a few hours back. I'm going to miss that cute guy. YB called him and did some final wishes after our movie. He sounded sad. "God, I pray that I will get to see this beloved friend of mine at least once a year. God, I pray that he will have a safe journey. God, I pray that he will be doing fine there. Or maybe even better than he was at Singapore. God, I pray for his safety. And God, I know you can read my heart."

I really hope JD will have a good time there. Study hard and get good grades. (:

The seniors for UG are going to Malacca tomorrow. Awwh. While the 10 of us are stuck at Singapore for NCO courses. Sheeeesh! I want to go.

Anyway, have a safe journey, to and fro, you guys! Have fun!

And damn I'm going to miss Shidah. ): Aww! Shidah see! I'm sweet! That's why I wrote these! HAHA! Okeh. My Super Duper Cute God-Sister is missed and loved.

I dread tomorrow.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Things changed overnight.

I was high early morning at 1am. Now I'm feeling empty and pissed.

I understand now what all those people have said. People change. They might take days. Weeks. Years. But sometimes, just over the night. ):

My MOI First Aid is blank. Everything is gone. Not even a single thing is done. I don't think I can avoid CPR. This is shit. ):

So anyway, I confessed lots of shits yesterday. Count yourself lucky you caught me dropping deep shit last night. And yes, I admit I was so perasan last night. Sorry but I was stating facts. (: But thanks for the listening ears and at least I now realise that I'm not the only one at that school.

I don't know why but somehow, I have forgotten all about you. Yes. That ought to be a good thing. All that is left is to change those things that I have to remember so that I will remember you. And guess what? There's nothing. (:

And I wrote those words at the top an hour ago but my FA slides are still empty. Wth. Someone kind enough to let me control their computer so that I can use their latest and original *ehem* PowerPoint slide? *Blinks eyes non-stop*

Okeh, I have got to get the hands going. Before it strikes 9 pm.

And when people say, things can change overnight, believe them because I certainly made a mistake not to. And it does not need a bad or happy incident to change your mind, your thinking and most important of all, your heart.

Why do I sound so emo today? ):

I'M SWEET AND LOVABLE. (:

And I realise that sometimes, being all alone in a corner is the best thing to do when you are feeling stress and down. That's why they say, "Relek one corner sua!"

To Punjabi, Minahchi, Ashwaryalat, Shriyanka and Fratap, Happy Deepavali. *Shows -.- emoticon*

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I saw you both! Shidah&AS are such love!

I don't understand why I should break down over a subject that I have to take next year. When I look back at that moment, I told myself, "God, that Nasirah is such a loser. Change her!"

Thankfully, God changed her and here she is all happy about being in e4. Yes, e4. (: Don't look down, it's just a class. I mean, so what if you are in the top class. *Hints to that ass* Like what Mr Lim said, "Option 1 is not the best for all."

My aim right now is to try and score for my Biology and A Maths. So yes, all that matter is that I will get my O-level cert.

Today's First Aid lesson was cold. The Syrup almost freeze. ): And I still don't know what to do. Oh wells, I still have tomorrow to think about it. (;

Footdrill was sort of okeh. But of course, this Friday is going to be &@(#. ):

And I can't believe I actually broke down while talking to Kak Naf on the phone. Good thing is, I found myself a combine Science tutor *hints to Shidah*. And history and social studies and english. *Shows heh! emoticon*

I saw a crashed car today in the morning near 888. Those in front of me was turning to their right so quickly. OMG, super busybody! An auntie even moved her whole body just to see what happened. Why must Singaporeans be typical? Because we're proud to be one. (:

This post is so random. Kak Shidah loves me. HEHE! (; Aku terasa super perasan. I know you love me. I know you do. *Shows hehehek emoticon*

Bomb, I know. You don't have to tell me. And why do you think I wrote that at Friendster.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Didn't I tell you, IMY so effing much.

When I got home today, Mummy said I looked pale. Then I asked Mummy, "If I were to look pale, does that mean Sister looks like a corpse?"

Hello. I'm bored and I have something better to do. But as always, I'm lazy. (:

So I woke up all headache-y and excited for school. Because I have not been to school for the last 2 days. WOW! Okeh, as if weekends are only 1 day. God this is so much crap.

So training was fun. Why? Because I have been bored at home doing nothing. But there are of course the bad side of it all.

So Sunday's open house was so boring. I got nothing to do except for watching the television. And the house is filled with chocolates! From Andes to Kit Kat to Cadbury and most delicious of all, Ferrero Rocher.

Umm, see the twirling effect of the fill? But too bad, I only had one of it since my health does not allow me to take in those sweet sweet food stuff.

And of course, the chocolates are all thank to Sister's and Dad's colleagues. Woweeee. It came at the right time. Hehehek!

And I'm thinking of being online till Sister gets home and shoo me to bed. Till then, I'm off to do that First Aid thingy. I wonder if I can finish it. Whatever it is, I need paracetamol again.

Sister, that flu pill didn't work. So much for your, "You will certainly recover from your flu tomorrow!" Excuse me, but I sound much sengau. Hmph.

No, I don't look pale. I'm just bored thus I wrote that above. HAHA! Sorry Sister. :p

Argh! I'm bored. Brother, I want more stuff from you! Since you got yourself a job. Hehehe!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Sick lah seh!

I wish I could snuggle to some one's side and have encouragements whispered. I wish I could snuggle up to some one's side and have a comfortable sleep. I wish that all my wishes will be granted.

I'm so tired. Maximally tired. Maybe because I'm sick. Oh yes, I am sick. ): It's going to be a long day tomorrow and I don't know if I can help them out tonight. I feel like crashing to my comfortable bed and have a good night sleep. Yes, I can't take it anymore. I need paracetamol! And the tap is officially open, again.

And Advance Course has been like shit. Why? Because I'm the only WRS girl. And some people are just so fucking stuck up! Eew. But still, if I can survive today's session, why can't I survive next week's? Right right? But let me tell you why. Today is the first day and thus the officers are being lenient. Wait till next session and we will absolutely be dead. Correction, I will absolutely be dead. I don't want to be sick anymore! ):

And the picnic was fun. My butt and ankle hurts due to the bike riding. Yes, I'm a slow learner. Sorry for that but really, I felt like shit at that point of time. Move on move on.

What's there to move on? Ouh yes, riding a bike with Haziq is totally scary. You should have heard how I screamed so effing loudly. I thought, "Okeh fine, last time I am going to scream." But then came the grasses and the shaking of the bike. I'm going to lose my voice (and I can bet you it'll never happen) and I'm having a headache because of the screaming.

And Kak Shidah has been a sweet belo. Thanks eh belo! Spread fever somemore. (;

Ouh and bicycles are so whatever. *Shows hmph emoticon*

NCO course tmr! ):

We're feeling doooooown.

Oh! My! God!

NCO course tomorrow and fuck I'm not prepared. I can't find my beret. I can't find myself a 1.5 litre bottle. Fuck fuck fuck!

OMG! I am feeling super scared that I can faint at anytime.

Shut The Fuck Up.

I'm not worth a penny. I'm not worth anything. So please, if you ever need to be a complete sore loser, approach me and I guarantee you 100% success. Don't mind me. I'm totally fucked up.

I'll miss JD ):

(;

Weee. My butt hurts. Wow.

Anyway, I woke up at 9.12 when I'm suppose to get myself out of the house at 9.30 to meet up with my bodyguard Shi Hui. And supposedly with Haziq too. I woke up, switch on the computer and I used it till 9.20. And like always, we extend the time to meet up. (:

The bank is awfully confusing. Like hello, I'm a kid. You should at least put an example of what to write on the form. Lucky me, I got counter 3. *Shows heh! emoticon* So yes, I didn't get robbed! (; HAHA! See Haziq see! I didn't get robbed. Oh wait. Damn I forgot that Haziq's computer got crashed. *Evil grin*

Went home and I even have time to go to the market. No mother no, I didn't run. Sheeesh! Got ready and met up with the other YBs and Jian De! (;

Went to have our at KFC while waiting for Farah. And after which, off we went to Jurong East to ice skate. Again!

The auntie at the entrance counter was behaving like I-have-no-idea-how-to-describe. Come on, we are first timers there buying our tickets. We can't hear your voice. We are trying very hard to listen to you and understand you bloody hell said. So we dropped an ez-link card?! Fuck you. Just what the hell is your bloody problem? If you don't know how to treat your customers well, get your ass off that chair and quit. CUSTOMERS ARE ALWAYS RIGHT! No matter how unreasonable they may be, they are always right. Fuck you woman!

I fell thrice. I'm able to balance. I'm able to skate by myself slowly. Why did I fall? Because I felt like falling. And also because someone kicked my skate while he/she tried to stop. And guess who we saw? Serene! HAHA! (:

My left butt cheek hurts! My tailbone hurts! But I fulfilled my last wish on the wish list. Why the last wish? Because it's placed at the very last. Duh!

Why am I going in to details? Because I'm bored. Why am I bored? Because mother said that I don't have to follow if I don't want to. Why did she say like that? Because she knows I went ice skating and that my butt hurts like fuck. And why won't I be online after this? Because Kak Naf and mother banned me from using it so that I can clean my fan for tomorrow's open house for neighbours. (:

I'm so tired. I'm so hungry. I want to sleep. I want to eat.

And I want pictures!

And damn. NCO course starts this Saturday. ):

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I'll miss you Jian De. I'm sorry if today is superbly boring for you. Sorry my dear friend.

Fuck.

Ifyoucan'tunderstandthebill,letmetellyou.Iusedlessthan$40thismonth.It'sthebloodybroughtforwardamountyouass.

It's difficult to say sorry. But you know I really am.

I'm down. Like fucking down. With flu with headache. Must be the constant sight of The Mother. Urgh. Bring me out someone.

And no, it isn't your eyes. The skin is still unchanged. I'm lazy to edit the codes. I'm lazy to search for a new skin. I just can't find a perfect skin. And fuck my bed. The sunlight doesn't allow me to sleep till 11am. Screw you sister for putting my bed under the window. &*%@.

And let me tell you that I certainly am not in my best mood. At least not yet.

Abg Amy's engagement. (:

And mine is camouflaged. Sheeeesh!

So I skipped Madrasah yesterday. 2 days straight. I wonder how much I missed.

Anyway, went out the whole day. To Mak Jah's! Nothing much lah. Didn't follow them to the lady's because I am LAZY! (: So this round is Abg Amy. I wonder who's next? And this shows that I'm in need of lots of formal clothes. *Hint $$ *

So the house was super empty. Okeh find, not that empty but it is to the extend that I got one couch for myself! Wee~ And a self-achievement made! I did 103 sudoku for an hour long. Okeh, so it was the easy level and the medium level but hey! I'm trying to make myself feel proud here. (;

Either I am too young or too old to be one of them. Why can't the subject school not be brought up everywhere I go? Pfft.

I'm so bored. No, the computer is unfixed. Abg Aee has been busy jalan raya with his mates that he has yet to send this computer flying away. Yes! Another day with computer! YAY! (;

I'm like so tired. Came back home last night, long bath, a munch on the cake, a drink and a sleep. And I woke up so brightly early in the morning. Okeh, it wasn't even bright.

This post is so random. The picture above is so random. And I am so random. I feel so random too. Today is so random.

Going to meet Ais later. And the rest of the YB. Going out with mother after that. And then finally, going out with the SJ people. (:

And for the next four days, I'm going to be all about television and homework. Oh yes, homework. Lets start with Maths! *shows heh! emoticon*

Okeh, I'm bored and trying to change blogskin. Yes, finally. Sheeesh!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

The End. ):

Dear 2e1,

I don't know how to manage my studies and how to have fun in class anymore. Now that the name 2e1 is gone, I wish I could turn back the time. I wish we could go back to the very first day we met so that we could have another 2 years together.

Don't forget our happy moments together. Don't forget our very first class celebration for winning the best class.

Don't forget those times when we went out together as a class. Be it to the Sungei Buloh. To the stadium for our sports day together as a 2e1. To the ice skating rink with 2e2. And not forgetting the memorable Racial Harmony Day celebration. Where all the fun I had is from you guys and how eager you guys were during the in-class activities. I miss all our fun times together but still, what we had are kept deep down in my heart. Yes, this is our last year together but I know I'll still be seeing all of you in the years to come. I'm not going to tear, at least not yet. I'll remember our 2 years long friendship and I assure you that I treasure all our moments together. To Mr Lim, Thank you for all those happy days that you have given to us. Thank you for your encouraging words that I have never heard from any teacher in my life. At least not as much as what you've said. I have so many thank you to tell you but I can't seem to name it all. Thank you for the memories. From 4th January, all the way till 26th October. Thank you for your knowledge. Thank you for your wise words. Thank you for everything. Congratulations 2e1, we won the "Overall Best Class Competition 2007" yet again. I love you guys. I miss you guys. Don't ever forget. 2-1 we're hot! And we can't be stop! We go front go back and we can't be stop! 2-1 we're hot! And we can't be stop! We go left go right and we can't be stop! You are what you think you are. ** Went out after school yesterday to jalan raya with the 2e1 Malay students. Wesley joined in. And damn he was cute because he wore the samping and the baju melayu. In fact, the guys wore the samping excluding Farhan. Despite the screaming in the lift, it was fun because we had a great balls of fire laughter. And the last two houses was so comfortable that we just can't get our butts of the chair. (: I like Yananana's house! So romantic and comfortable! And I'm going out with Liyana, Amirah and Farah. Yes! And I'm going out tomorrow too. And the day after that to Ms Siti's house. And I'm getting tired that I might be easily sick. For example, today. Down with flu and cough. And who knows? Tomorrow down with fever. Mulot masin btol si Nasirah ni. I guess this will be the latest entry for now. Abg Aee sending the CPU to his friend's house to get it fix. So yes, I'm going to miss Hippo *hint*. I'm going to miss chatting with YB and Liyana. Aww. ): So there, I'm done. If you ever need anything, don't hesitate, just give me a call or a message. I'll pick it up when I'm there. I'll reply when I'm free. (: Sweetest Love Toodles.

Can I forget you? ):

So I'm stuck between picture 116 and 114 and this was what JD picked (: Picture 114.

I'm typing in the dark. Wth? Because 1 bulb committed suicide yesterday and the other is slitting the wrist slowly thus the blood is slowly trickling down the wall. I sound so sadistic. And my eyesight are going to be spoilt. Either a spoilt eyesight or a terrible headache. I choose terrible headache. *Switch on light*

Okeh, I'm so bored thus I am going to make this post long. And the above paragraph is the truth. Nothing but the truth. And so, I'm typing with a slight headache (already) due to the lighting. I look sometimes black and sometimes fair. Damn.

So anyway, talk about headache, I woke up with one. Shitass. Not to mention how oh-so-cold I was. I slept 15 minutes before going out for school and thank god Kak Naf knocked the locked door or else I wouldn't be in school today. *Shakes head*

So first half of school was the WRS forum thing. It's like a forum for suggestions and all. And unfortunately, someone that I didn't want to see was there. ): can I forget you please?

So the whole thing ended for a 10 minutes early recess. Wow. Then had a survey to be done about the school. And after a period of doing the NYAA thing, had form teacher's period. Cleaned the table like those working at coffee shops. HAHA. But I had fun! (:

After which, since we had time left, Mr Lim took our class photo. The very last one (I don't hope so) together. I'm going to miss them. I'm going to miss Mr Lim. I'm going to miss 2e1.

Yes, that is us with the sort of empty classroom. After that, the nice boys went down to the hall, carrying our chairs. (:

Hip Hop was more like HippoH *hint*. So thank god it is our last day. Mr Cash was on MC thus Mr Ivan came in and taught us new school hip hop. And we are having a picnic on third November. (: I want to be there. I want to be there till late night. Feel the breeze. See the beautiful sky. Wowee!

Okeh, so just now, Mr Lim emailed us and he wrote this. Can he be any sweeter? ): Tears filled my eyes once I read the subject of the email. So sweet!

My Best Class 2E1-Class Photo‏

Dear 2E1, I'm indeed honour to be your form teacher though i only see you for about 10 months. Time flies really fast. Whatever is over is over. What matter most is next year. Enjoy your holiday, most of you have worked very hard. Keep it up! Do some reading. Start preparing for next year. One reason why 2E1 always win something is because of early preparation and anticipation. Of course, nothing work without you and ME. Haha Remember, be humble, be good, be wise, be responsible and be more mature Share and teach. Learn to be more gratifying and appreciative. Be more positive and adopt the right learning mindset and habits. Attitude affect altitude. Learn to relate more to people than machine. Learn to express your feelings properly and respectfully. You only live once. Live it right and happy. When you are happy, make sure others too! Think more for other first then yourself. Be considerate. Think and think. Your life will be better. 20% input must churn out 80% output. How? Think. Always check what you are focusing. You get what you think. You are what you think you are. Don't forget my six thinking hats. Hahaha...too much to share, too little time. That's all folks! All the best to you people and wish you get your choice class. Rgds, Just Me. Missing you people!!! Mr Matthew Lim

Tomorrow's Commendation Day will be more like, Tearing and Missing Day. ):

Sweetest Love

Toodles.

AS is missed.

See mummie, we're hardworkers!

Today sucked because of yesterday. Yesterday sucked because of tomorrow. Wow. It doesn't make sense.

So obviously, today does not make any sense but I love English period and end of school. English period was spent on watching this video on food all around the world. You know, the odd food people eat. So disgusting but interesting. Oh, and I hate some parts because Sham kept on trying to keep me quiet. Sheeesh! I talk a lot in class but THAT name made me shut. No fair! He is so going to get it from me. MUAHAHA! *evil grins*

After school, went out with the YB. Went straight to Ang Mo Kio *ehem* Bishan's Junction8. So yes, we were HAHA! here and HEHE! there. And someone even went "OMGOMG! My sister! My sister! *Squint eyes* Cheyy! No lah!"

The rest of the days were spent on reading and the book seems to be unfinishable (please act as though this is a real word).

And there you go, my day. And Qizah, you have got to give me the CD! I want pictures! I need pictures! *Sounding&looking desperate*

9 November is coming soon. 26 October is coming sooner. Why are there always sad endings in life? ):

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I miss AS. ):

I looked up upon you, only to be disappointed again.

So life is great balls of fire. Wowiee.

Received our report book today and I'm happy. Okeh, truthfully, I'm kind of disappointed in myself for not giving my 100% effort. Yes, I made a fool of myself in this exam. Fcuk it.

But yes, like I've said once, it really reflected on how hard I studied.

And I don't know if I can make it to e2. Many people are opting for it and they have a better result than mine. And I'm in need of 5 more marks in order to meet the criteria of being in e2 for Science. And we go, fcuk it.

I feel like a fiasco today. *Hint*

Oh yes, the result. Bloody shit.

Mother didn't even bother to praise for my Maths. Instead she went "Did you pass your English?" and "It doesn't matter what grade you get, it matters if you pass it or not."

I can pass English. I just can't score them. So really, stop telling me that grade for English doesn't matter much. And we go, fcuk it.

I'm thankful to God that I got an A2 for Malay. I thought I was going to get B. A fcuking B. But I got that grade due to my results before Mid-Year. Wow.

The day was somewhat great. Spent my afternoon with YB and their non-stop curse. *Shows heh! emoticon* Went around cwp without splurging! HAHA! And we took neoprints! So you should just wait and wait till Rawr scan it. (:

17 days to go before this someone bid us his goodbyes. ):

I'm going to miss 2e1. With all those once-upon-a-time fight. With all those shouts. With all those teasing. I love them. We have been together for 2 years and it feels suddenly so difficult to let go of the name, 2e1 2007.

And to people who look down on us, fuck you people fuckingly upside down. Especially that class. Whatever. I am proud to have them as my classmates. I am proud to be one of them. Look down on him and you look down on us.

And I miss Nabila. That someone has got to know that no matter where you are, you won't care if something important is coming up if you miss your homeland. Pfft.

She's sometimes sweet and sometimes a total shit.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I love Yana & Rawr! (;

Okeh, I'm high. Thanks to that Sushee! Lets do that again Sushee! I GOT TAUFIK'S CD I GOT TAUFIK'S CD! (: AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH~! *Shows flirty blinking* Anyway, today is fun! I learn lots thanks to Liyana and Farah. Like, how you actually choose a CD before buying it. How you actually must buy a particular stuff before moving on to the next item, even if it makes you go up and down CWP tons of times! LOL! *Sings to THAT tune* Okeh so the shopping trip made my pocket burnt! Splurge *Farah's tune*! I am a splurger! (; I spent around $40. WOW! In a less than 5 hours shopping trip. And we go WOW(!) again! And really, that is how easily money flies! And like, how am I suppose to pay my phone bill and get Abg Aee's presents? Okeh, I think both will be postponed! So we 3 have the same mirror only that it is different colours! GAHAHAA! And we took neoprints! WEE~ Either you wait for Farah to upload it or you wait till I re-install my printer. HAHA! Yes, it's not installed yet. Shut up! OMG! I love them! Today is loved! (; And sister has uploaded all the photos kept in her phone. So you will be able to see new pictures everyday~! Those nice ones, DUH! And we're getting our result tomorrow! OMDG! I'm scared! Like what happens if I'm the one who failed English?! Like what happens if I'll be going to NA or even worse, retained. Okeh, I have got to start thinking positively! I feel so dark looking at this pictures! *Shows hmph emoticon* 7th day (I think) of Raya.

This, you should know who we are~! Such fame! *Shows heh! emoticon*

This is the brother. They act cool and I'm so forever cute! Right Sushee? (; *Shows heh! emoticon*

This is the super white sister of mine. Compare the skin colour, she's almost transparent! *Shows hmph emoticon*

Sweet Love

This is a picture of me taking picture while studying hard *ehem* for the Geography paper! (: Toodles!

PHONIE!!

MUAHAHAHAHA! Number 97.....7 is back in service! (: EHEM! See fiasco, I don't tell everyone! HEH! Okeh so anyway, I'm sometimes down and sometimes up. And I'm really confuse on what I really need. Or maybe all I need is you. Went out with family today. Came back home early thus dad brought me to the nearby M1 shop which is obviously at Causeway. And I got a 3G SIM card. Thank god or else my pocket will burn even before my shopping trip with Yana and Rawr. *Kwang kwang kwang!* It's cheaper than replacing with the old one. *Go DUH!* And I know my blog is super red but I am just too lazy to change it just yet. Just hold on. I'll get my strength and courage to get myself busy with editing those codes. And of all days you didn't come. ): I thought everything would be back to normal today. But I thought wrong, again. God, I need the strength that you have once given to me. Sweet Love Toodles.

I'm filled with tears.

I can't put my feelings to words.

For everything I try to tell, it hurts so badly that all I ever wanted to do is cry.

I know YB will be by my side.

But as they say, only family knows you best.

Despite the many years of living with them, they never knew who my good friends are.

They were never concern.

Whatever I asked is another burden.

Whatever I did is another bad action.

I am the black sheep.

I can never be one of them.

No matter where and when, I'm always left out.

I don't understand why.

This feeling hurts so badly that I'd rather die than continue this misery.

I feel like letting go of every single thing.

Even my precious YB.

I feel like letting go of every single belonging.

And run away like a free soul.

I don't know why I'm still here.

I don't know why I'm still living.

For all that I ever did was to hurt others' feelings.

I'm in need of something.

But I just can't put my fingers to it.

I'm in need of something.

That only I can control it.

If everything that I did hurts you,

than I'm nothing but a fool.

I'm not worried about my studies anymore.

I'm worried about myself.

I'm worried about my friendship.

I'm not worried about my relationship with my family.

For everything that I worry about, they are my precious jade.

I never said a proper goodbye.

Seeing that empty sit made my heart feel down.

All the best in life and sorry for all those attitude that made you feel so hurt.

If I were to die tomorrow, promise me that you'll be this happy no matter what.

YB, I have never had someone as cheerful and friendly as you.

You made me forget my miseries.

You cheered this fool to be a better person.

You have always been my pillar of strength, and I'm scared of losing you.

If you ever get lost, I'll look for you even if it takes my life.

If I ever get worried, I know that one of you are feeling down.

No matter what I do, I have always been a fool for you.

For all that I shared, you weren't even proud of me.

For all that I did, you treat me like a fool.

There's nothing I can do to convince you because you have never had faith in me.

Even if I promise you something, you know that I won't fulfill it. You have never fulfill yours. You taught me wrong. Don't put the blame on me.

I have no faith in myself.

And I'm sorry for that.

I wish I could leave everything and start a fresh piece of life.

I love today!

*Ka-tiiiiiiiiiing!*

Oh goooooood! I'm super tired.

So anyway, school was boring. Didn't had anything to do just now. And this one teacher was being such an ass. Urgh!

And my level position and class position is so bad. I almost made it last. *GASP* I'm so sad. I have a feeling that my dream *point point* will be shattered. ):

Damn it!!! My wrist hurts lah seh! And the injury turned blue black. Oh. Goodness. How unglam my wrist looks like. And I can't seem to type or write properly. And luckily, I have nothing much to write about. And I'm just not in the mood. ):

I know I'm feeling sad but I know that no matter what, I'm still sweet. *EHEM*

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I love lah love!

We are not acting. We are cool! (;

Ice skating was fun!!! I want to again! I want to go again!

And currently, I'm waiting for the ice-skating pictures from Haziq. HEHE! Sorry but my MSN got corrupted thus I can't receive too huuuuuuge files or folders. Like whatever MSN. *Shows hmph emoticon*

So anyway, I fell twice. HAHA! Yes, it was funny! No pushing lah. I fell by myself because my body was behind while my feet was in front. Okeh, imagine it. (: Know what is embarrassing? I fell in front of fiasco and that FF. God! And what was worst, I don't know how to get up. HAHA! Shut up! But yes, I got the hang of it with the help of Shi Hui! And I screamed very loudly because I didn't dare to get away from the railing. I love them you see! But Shi Hui forced me to get away from it. Oh. My. God. Okeh, I want to skate again! *Shows heh! emoticon*

Then after the session, we took class photo. Gosh, this people is such love!

And that yellow girl at the corner there is leaving us sooner than we are leaving 2e1. All the best in China Rachel. Please remember the SWEET Syrup in Singapore. (;

Then we had another last round and we went off. And the professional kiddies came in to the rink and skate like &(#@! well. If only I had ice-skating lesson when I was young. HAHA! Okeh shhh!

If only I have

1) ice-skating lesson since young.

2) riding bicycle lesson.

3) piano lesson.

4) violin lesson.

(;

Had brunch at KFC with Yana, Haziqah and Rawr. Ate cheese fries! Along with coke~ Then we walked around.

Went to Shi Hui's crib after that. That rice ball! HEHE! (:

Watched The Haunted Apartment. Not all parts were scary but of course, when you are with us, you can never stop screaming. Haziq and me were like laughing non-stop. HAHA! Damn the grass jelly.

Then after the movie, we went craaaaaaaaaaaaaazy! Camwhored like weeeeeeeee~

And again, I'm waiting for these pictures from Haziq. That picture is what you call, sad meal-yang-tak-menjadi. Heeeeh~

Okeh, I saw Taufik's CD at Sunplaza's CD-Rama but it's like $16+ and I didn't have enough money with me at that point of time. ^&@#!!! Okeh, I'm calling Yananana for a shopping trip and I shall buyyyy! :p Teman Istimewa, I'm comiiiiiing~

I don't understand why my computer's chair has a place to rest my back. I mean, I don't even use it. Neither does Abg Aee. I want a new chair for my computer. (; I want a digital camera for myself~ AHHH! Raya moneeeey!

I don't want to go to school tomorrow. So lazy okeh? ):

Okeh, I'm so tired and so sleepy. I'm going off to bloghop. I'm sleeping in erm, 2-3 hours time? Yea. (:

I'm a sad Syrup for now, my wrist still hurts like fcuk! ):

Lets ice-skate again! *Okeh Nasirah, enough* November November! Okeh yb? (:

Sweet Love

Toodles.

Such lies.

In a few minutes, I'm heading off to The bed. (:

A very long day it has been. Last night, was super hectic. Okeh fiiiiine. For me only.

Went out with family yesterday. 5 houses and it went till late night. Or maybe I should say morning. Then, before I even went out, something tragic happened to me! The bloody black heels just had to get the heel's part spoilt. Oh you know, the one at the bottom of the heels there. It came off like super suddenly and I swear-ed like nobody's business under my breath. It's not the fasting month already you know so, yea, curses~

Anyway, Cik Enah's house first and weeeeeeeee~ There, staring at me were the dates biscuit~ And I went, *SQUEALS*. Okeh, that is so fake. Then Cik Aim and his next door neighbour. 050293 and 020593. HEHEHEK! Then Cik Ipin and Mak Nah's house. And once I reached home, I headed to the washroom to wash up for half an hour. *shows heh! emoticon*

Today, went to school super early thinking that it was Monday. Sheeeesh! Waited there, stared into space for half an hour and came my long-waited friend!

So anyway, ICT was fun. Instructor was the usual gayness type. Grouped up with Wan Yi, Shi Hui and Haziqah to do our task and we went in search of food! That time, the four of us were super hungry that we drooled over all the pictures we found. From laksa to satay to noodles to nasi briyani to whatever else. And the break just had to be at 11.25am. And we had a countdown starting from an hour before break.

And the bloody instructor treated us like nursery kids. Like as if we don't know how to use a computer! I feel so insulted sitting there treated like an idiot. But, with 2e1's sarcastic remarks, I controlled the anger~ (:

After break, the girls were outside the lab having chocolate madness! Waaaaaah! Delicious you know. And the chocolates are the ones that we won. (:

In the lab, we continued all the way till 2.45pm. And I got home all wet. With this construction worker staring and one broken side umbrella, I rushed home. I feel so unlucky today. After a few paces away from WRP, I saw Abdullah. Sheeesh! That explains why. ):

And Ais, I am soooooooooo NOT going to walk home anymore. And if I were to walk home, you are going to accompany me.

-Nasirah says: ais, kau tau tak...? -Nasirah says: aku dah tak nak jalan balik rumaaaaaaaaaah!!! ais. says: whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy' -Nasirah says: sebab -Nasirah says: that guy that wove back at us was like staring at my direction with his friend when you left me!!! ais. says: lolll!!!!! ais. says: no wonder i saw u walking dMN FAST SIAAA~ -Nasirah says: HAHAHA! ye laaaaaaaah! -Nasirah says: abeh skali dier lari cross the road camne? -Nasirah says: mampos akuu

Notice the exclamation marks. (;

Ice skating tomorrow and I pray that Haziq don't know how to skate! OMG~ And I have to get out of the house freaking early. Banana btol. (; Okeh, I don't know if I'm excited or nervous or scared. -.-

Ouh and in case you are wondering if the phone is back. Well, the answer is an effing no. God, why on earth did I believe him. Lets all wait for weekends lah.

Sweet Love

This blog is super red. Yikes! -.-

Toodles.

Selamat Hari Raya! (:

And the fickle-minded girlnenek decided to go Greeeen!

Hello and good day! (:

First day was, for once, a short day. Went to nenek's first like every other year. And I was super sick. Down with slight fever and flu. Like wth. Then off to Mak Long till night time. Gaaaaaaaah! So fun you know *Sounding very Mak Cik* Okeh shhh.

Called up M1 to know what I should do in order to get my SIM card working. Damn I should have called them much earlier. And I'm so going to fork out $20 to pay for a new SIM card. Sheeeesh! *@&#

Went home, had a super loooooong bath, watched tv while counting the *ehem*money*ehem*. HAHA! Okeh, I'm rich for this month. (: Then sleep till daylight.

Woke up at around 8 to get the house ready for Mak Long and the rest. Then had a looooong bath. I'm so dead when the water bills come. *Shows heh! emoticon*

After getting ready and snapping of pictures, Mak Long&family, Cik Aim&family, Abg Is&family, Kak Lin&family, Mak Busu and my family, went out together. It was super fun. At the back of the car, Kak Naf and me entertained Isabella and Iffah who were oh-so-kecoh. And I think I felt young! Weee! HAHA! Okeh shut. (:

Ouh and I went turquoise~ Next time, I'm going piiiiink! (;

Visited quite a number of houses and we went home late. Like at around 12 to 1 in the morning. Since family borrowed mum's mum's sister-in-law's son's car, in order to get enough sits, we had to go home earlier. Never mind, Cik Enah's house, I'll come soooon! HAHA! I can't wait for the "Bantal Busuk". The yearly favourite, if there's one this year. (:

I think I'll get my new SIM card today. If dad ends work at 5 on the dot, then I'll have time to go cwp with him. Weeee! Okeh so people, I lost your number. Including the ones that I saved in my computer. Gahahahaha! Screw that crashing of hard disk. *Okeh Nasirah, stop iiiiit* Start giving me your number! I have bad memory so I don't usually memories numbers.

You know what? I have a feeling that currently, my language are all upside down topsy turvy. ): So sad... =/ At least I don't spell you as euu *hint hint*

Okeh, The Nasirah is excited upon getting her beloved, yet patetek, 6080 back. And the first two people will get sms from me as soon as I get back their number. God I should have saved them in both phone and SIM. Smart arse I am. *hints to Ziq*

And I don't know how many times I have been posing lately. And! Once the phone is alright, my pictures will be back in the computer everyday~ Shout woo! Shout woo! HAHA! Perasan.

You are going to see a picture of me, double of this.

HAHA! (:

Ouh and I have enough money to buy Taufik's CD. (; WEEEEE! And pay the SIM card thing. -.-' Anyone needs a shopping trip? *Raise hands*

Sweet Love

Toodles!

SHR people SHR!

Besok Hari Raya! *Runs around like a monkey* *ehem to the Qizah* *Runs around acting cute* *ehem to the Rawr*

Firstly, Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims. Lets celebrate this day for our achievement in completing our one month of fasting.

Second, to those who have read this blog, sorry if any words has ever hurt you guys. But of course, if I happen to say bad things about you guys out of this blog, I'm sorry still. Humans make mistakes, and I am one of them.

Dearest friends, teachers and relatives, for all my wrongdoings, forgive me.

I love you all! And dearest Kak Shidah, cheer up. (; I love you! And I still miss you like fuuuck!

Hugs and kisses; Syrup Sharab Al-Siara Ulhaq

(;

Toodles Sweet People. <33

P.S I'm going to get my SIM-card-rejected-phone tomorrow~ (; P.P.S Better than nothing you know. HAHAHAHAH!

Because you are loved.

Spread them.

I don't know how I'm currently feeling. I'm happy with my results because it certainly did reflect well. I just don't know if I'm this happy&crazy girl I was yesterday.

I'm going to miss 2e1. We're left with less than a month together. I'm trying to make my stay and pride of being in 2e1 07, worthwhile. And it includes going ice skating (wohooo-ly) next week~

So far, I passed everything. Only not as well as I expected them to be, except for Maths. Congrats to Haziq for passing his Maths! (: Wait, here comes the long(?) list.

Thank you Mr Lim for the many worksheets. It's true what they say. Suffer now and enjoy later. Thank you for all your teachings and I really appreciate it. If it weren't for you, half of it though, I wouldn't be at the position I am today and I might still be failing Maths. Congrats Wee Boon for getting the honourable mention award thing. HEEH! Congrats! And also congrats for Berton, Yean Choon and Aaron for getting the credit award! (: And including those unmentioned 2e1s. And Haziq, I congratulated you above. *Shows hmph emoticon*

I. Am. Obsessed. With.

Taufik Batisah. Teman Istimewa~ *Melts further* I'm sooooo saving my Raya money so that I *stand tall (ehem) and grins* can get my hands on the CD~ TEEHEHEHE! Never mind, CD released on 15 Oct in SG. WEEEE~

Okeh, CD-Rama is getting rich. Taufik too. And I'm still petetekly at $6. HAHA! Shuttup youuuuu.

Ouh ouh, I clinched my A1 for Maths again~ Thanks to Kak Diana, Mr Lim and YBs for the encouraging words, worksheets and assessment.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

We can't be.

This reminds me of someone. This reminds me of Qizah! HAHA! I'm sorry but I don't know why. (;

Dear friend, I don't know how to say this but we just got to know each other. It is greatly impossible. You are in Tampines and I' m in Woodlands. See our distance? I know it's not that far but, it's impossible to me. Not only that but I just don't feel right. I can't even feel the sparks. Love blooms, I know. But I doubt ours will. I'm sorry if the email I sent sounds super bitchy. I run my life and I have a say. Delete me, block me. For all I care.

I feel super tired. Why not? I have been cleaning since as early as 7 am. And I'm not even near to having it done. And some things just can't see me having a great time cleaning. Damn you computer.

P.S please don't take it to your hard disk till u get break down again computer.

So, my room is clean. It's left with my bed sheet which I begged mum to sew for me. It is so going to be like my curtains. *Melts further* And I'm left with mother's room to clean. Like wtf. Her room is bobbaly huge and I'm going to have it clean all by myself.

Damn, it's raining. And I just bloody hell cleaned the windows like one retarded mofo. If you happen to look up at my block and see one red thing hugging windows, that ought to be me. My back hurts. My head is throbbing.

Dear Sis, BLOODY HELL GET HOME QUICKLY! TAKE HALF DAY TODAY! SHEEEEEESH! bobba!

School tomorrow and I feel so glaaad! Like finally, I can see my friends. Like finally, I don't have to entertain my mum's nagging and shits. Like finally, I don't have to shout at Iffah for taking my personal belongings (hair clips, comb etc). Like finally!

Just a few more hours to go before HR. And if you see a turquoise clothes kid walking at CCK or Yishun, looking super dead, that would be me. Thank you for recognising. Oh dear God, look at the time. I have got to start ironing the curtain for mum's room.

And I feel like a pampered bitch today. I asked Abg Aee to clean my handbags that has loss it's shiny-ness. I asked Abg Aee to burn the Quran's papers I got from Madrasah. I asked Abg Aee to help me to do this and that. Hey, it's not every day he is at home. It's not every day I get to see him. For tomorrow, Kak Naf is going to take half day off. And she asked me to skip school. Bloody hell. As if she's going to be home that early. -.- And tomorrow is a time to get bossy!

Oh and my computer is totally black! No more grayish here and there! (: You know what I mean? It's super cleeeean!

Dear Speaker, I'm sorry you are broken. You fell by yourself. No pushing you know! But I don't mind, it's not as if you can speak or sing anymore. And I have 2 other speakers anyway. Drop more for all I care. Pfft.

I am taking such a loooong break. Mum is so killing me.

Dear Ais, I'm sorry I can't follow you to Geylang. You know how petetek my life is. So I got to do the cleanings. Maybe next time my friend. Maybe soon. (; Back at night time. (; I miss you like bloody hell. Damn you giler. Cheer up! (; IMY tauuu!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

The day I went head over heel.

HAHA! Okeh shut. (:

I am currently bored. I know I'm suppose to be cleaning up but hello! It's still bloody early. I know I have been saying that we must clean the house blablabla because HR coming up blabla. Shuttup! I have not been cleaning lah! HEHE!

So anyway, I am currently, also, entertaining my habbo mates at MSN. Ais, time to screw yourself. HAHA! I'm coming to help, well, soon.

And I have been reading this paper for the past few days and oh my god. Less than a month and all my Saturdays will be taken away for NCO course. AHHH! Okeh, I'm like, bobbaly scared. Sheeesh! Which reminds me, I have not pay. ZOMG.

Oh yes, Sunday night went off for Geylang. Didn't make it on Saturday because Dad came home late. -.- So I felt like super pampered seh. Kak Naf bought for me 2 clothes and 3 rings. GAHAHAHA! And dendeng on Saturday. KHEHKE! Okeh shut, I know I've complaining a lot arh. SHH! And for YB's information, Hotel 81 rocks. HAHA! (;

Okeh see, I have nothing to blog about but I'm just so super bored. And no school tomorrow. Wtf. I'm going to be stuck heeeeere. *Shows hmph emoticon* Somebody entertain me. I'm trying to stay away from flirting getting to know people at habbo.

SSSS = Superbly Super Sweet Syrup. SSNN = Superbly Super Nice Nasirah. NSNS = Nice Syrup Nasirah Sweet. YBLN = Yellow Bananas Love Nasirah. NLY = Nasirah Likes You. (Shuttup you people! hehe!) FTAH = Flirt Time At Habbo. (-.-) BLNT = Bored Like No Tomorrow. TNLE = Trust Nobody, Like Everybody. TNNR = The Nenek Nasirah Rocks. SAN = Syrups Are Nice. NAS = IRAH. SSNN = Syiok Sendiri Nice Nasirah.

HAHAHAH! Self-obsessed. I know what that Qizah will say. And Sushee too. "Menyampah."

And I prefer the oldusual, sweet and short one.

Sweet Love

Toodles~

OVERRR~

Oh look, exams are over. Lets dance Irish! (:

I find Irish guys and dance cute. Hehe! Dah kes buang tebiat ni. Eish!

So anyway, lets not talk about today's papers lah. I rushed through my art till it went superbly fugly like fugling fugly. Then Maths was shit. I didn't bring The pencil and I have no idea if my graph is correct. Oh and the clever Nasirah used her brain and took a lead to do her enlargement and graphs and whatever else. HAHA! I'm proud of myself for being able to think of that, okeh?

Ouh and thanks to Amirah for the blueee pencil that she forgot to take. For the past few days, I'm like so obsessed with blue. Not that blue but those sky blue. So blue, very blue, nice blue.

Then for the past few hours, while busy doing art preliminary work *ehem*, logged in to habbo, macam orang bodoh. Search for me in the stadium or rooftop. Always there. Now I have like 3 hot habbo guys. HAHA! And that Qizah insisted not to flirt at habbo because the girls there are nonsense. As if lah Qizah. And he disturbed Sushee and me while both of us were flirting getting to know a 'guy' each. HAHA! Hornie1! Hint hint!

I have nothing else to say but please don't wave at cars when you are at the bus stop opposite La Casa. HAHA! That AIDS! *Shows heh! emoticon*

Lets do a new signing off!

Superbly Super Sweet Syrup

Toodles sweet people. (:

Break out fast.

I'm currently obsessed with this number.

I don't know how to start today's post but hey! What do you know, I have written something to start it. *Shows lame emoticon*

*GASP wide* I have not gotten my lame emoticon. AHH~

Anyway and anyhow, yesterday was fun. Ate out with AisLalatSushee to break our fast. I was like super late because Ais said "Meet me at 5.35 under my berlock" at 5.15. And I couldn't decide what to wear all the way till 5.30. Bahahaha! And by the time I got out of the house, it was 5.35. Sharp.

So we went around in search of a place and ended up at Civic Centre's level 2 with 6 plastics bags with 4 sets of food specially bought from McD. Then we talk like we've never been meeting for more than a year. Paderhal baru lepas chat kat MSN. Then off to the washroom and I did the most dangerous thing a human would have done. Oh no, more like, the most dangerous thing a nenek would have done to the cucu.

Then we went home, without getting scolded because I broke my curfew, again for the umpteenth time. (:

And here we go: - Sorry Ais for throwing away that plastic bag which contained your belongings. Sorry that you had to waste another dollar to buy yourself a new marker. - Sorry Ziq for asking Sushee to send thaaat wink. Should have known better. - Sorry Rawr for not returning your book. Sorry for the inconvenience.

And sorry you people for sending god-knows what virus at MSN. Don't thank me. Thank that bastard who did not put his warning personal message. And it was a biiiiig mistake to unblock him. It's obvious now that he is my bad luck charm. *Running away from hint hint*

One more thing, a very sad story to share. You won't be seeing my face at this blog for the next few daaaays or even month because the picture from Kak Naf's phone at my thumbie duplicated by itself. Yes, without my permission! Sheeesh! And now, I can't even delete away that whole folder. Bobaa btol.

Talk about bobaa, I sound so young. HAHA! Hint lah people! HINT! No lah, Ais introduced habbo yesterday and currently, I'm urging Kak Naf to install the shock wave. ABCDEF.

Eh, 6 days to Hari Raya! OMG! HAHA! Okeh, I sound super excited. -.- Oh wait, I am excited. Going to Geylang tonight.

I want: - 3 (at least) bajuuuuu! - dendeng for myself and only for me! - and anything niceeeee!

Gahahahaha! The Nenek sounds so jakon! I am. (:

For the Qizah's eyes: next week after Hari Raya, Kak Naf said she'll buy me Oreo Coffee/Chocolate. HAHA! See Qizah! SEEEEE~ :p

Alright, I'm going off to do god-knows what. And oh the dearest God! I have not done my preliminary art work. HEHE! Superbly lazy lah. And the leaves are so hard to be drawn. Hey, I don't draw you know. KAHKAHKAH!

And for the whole morning yesterday, without school, we (ZiqSusheeMe) were all bored and we did this:

Hello, my name is Nasirah. From class 2e1, beautiful index 11. From Woodlands Ring Secondary School, SJAB. My birthday is on fifth february nineteen-ninety three. Please do leave me a present. HAHA! (: Will appreciate it. SOMETHING SOMETHING SOMETHING SOMETHING! Overall, I'm doing this because I'm bored. Thank you for reading. I love you people! (:

Hello, Nasirah! I'm Shihui! Ybs call me Sushee! Aha! Sounds so cute right? Well, because its MY name! Shihui means CUTE INTELLIGENT! It describes me. My birthday is on thirteenth february. I dont mind receiving gifts from you! I love YB and SOMETHING. Once you've finished reading this, You have already wasted a few seconds of your life.(depends on hw fast you read lah) BYE! I LOVE YOU!

Hello Shi hui and Nasirah. Im Haziq with the glamorous H and ZIQ~ My index number is fashionable and cool 32 and i'm from SOMETHING SOMETHING 2/1 (: My birthday is on 30/04 and during that day, miracles happen *heh!* Im very white unlike some ppl and my father says im getting whiter each day *heh!* Im from alot of organisation such as YB and SO~ I think im the coolest and cutest in Yb because im H-A-Z-I-Q~ Bye heh!

See the boredom~ And not only that, we searched for thoooose types of emoticon. HAHA! Nonsensical bananas we are.

Sweet Love

Toodles.

syrupAS password. GAHGAH!

I'M SO BORED, CAUSING ME TO SHAPE MY HAIR TILL LIKEWISE.

*points above* *shows innocent face* *listening to songs on computer* *ehem*

*SHOWS BORED FACE*

Stress lah ASs. );

See why I blogged? {go Yahoo! images and typed in 'stressed' for larger view}

HAHA! Shut up. I know I know. Thanks to that Qizah for not entertaining me at MSN and I ended up like that *look up*. I mean I looked like the cat, with the super cool hair fur-do.

Okeh so I gave up revising Maths on my own. Having tuition to night anyway. So yes, I have placed my assessment book aside. The sums are like freakishly difficult. Why are Maths like what they are right now? Why can't they just teach us how to count money and those under that category? *Ka-CHING!*

Geography just now was crap. There was one question on !Kung Bushmen which causes like 10 marks. Like OMDG! Losing that marks will mean lesser chance to pass. *Pulls hair & scream* Okeh so, I suck at my humanities subject lah. And I have to choose between either of them for next year. Like wth. Don't even think of having me in Art or Literature class. My drawing sucks and same goes for my English *hint hint* .

I feel super tired today. One thing, I don't know why. It doesn't matter how hard you tried. Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme. To explain in due time.

HAHA! Okeh stop it. You think you heard somewhere before? Of course you have not. God I miss music. Yes, for your little information, thank you for still caring, my speaker is still mute cause I have yet to find for that mainboard thing. *Pulls hair & squeals* And the radio at home is crap. Reception gone wrong at the wrong time. Pfft.

Gee, this post is a little to long for someone who promised herself not to blog but I don't care. Eh! I'm left with 2 Maths paper and Art paper and I'm free! Like woooooooooow! Finally. Okeh find, for this year only. No school on Friday. Going to spend the whole day on Art. Along with Saturday and Sunday and of course, revise the Formularity Mathematics. Oh and Kak Naf going to buy me some clothes since my design for the other dresses was super oh-so-wrong. And I understand why. And I'm in need of dendeng. HAHA! Since last year seh. Pity thing right...?

And bloody you Qizah, I want your bubble teeeea! HAHA! I don't know why but I have a thing for bubble tea. Especially thaaaaaat *point point* flavour. Maths paper tomorrow and I hope to get back my A1.

And now I'm bored again because Qizah left me for the beauty sleep. Sheeesh!

Sweet Love

Toodles.

And I love that cat laaaaah! And this post has too many Stars. (;

Science. When Things Fall badly.

Ancient syiokness. :p

Okeh, so I lied about not updating today. HAHA! The promise sounded real but no, it isn't.

So anyway, Science paper was okeh I suppose. Section C only used up like one piece of foolscap which made me panicked. I thought I was the only one with that short of answers but, *narrows eyes to the right* same goes for Aaron! Teehehe! The rest is manageable I guess. And thank God calculator's back was not checked or else I'll be super doomed because I have lots of doodling on it. Lesson point, never doodle on calculator. Or better still, don't even think about doodling. HAH! (;

Currently, I'm mugging like bloody hell for Geography but nothing seems to be able to get into the head. I've been studying since like, as soon as I got home and see . . . I think I'm currently having a very bad brain to fill in things for exams.

Ouh and Yana's computer is crashed~ Lucky her, she has her lappie. Haziq's keyboard got spoilt and he can't even log in to his computer. Muahahahahaha! I think my bad luck is spreading around like good lucks. With spoilt computer, lesser chance to go online. Thus, more time to studyyy. Blessing in disguise they say.

You know, maybe I should start blogging in Malay. Turn every single words in this blog into Malay. Like someone said, my poor English causes our misunderstandings. (: But I can assure you that I can only do Malay in school and friends and families but not computer. That's me.

Alright, I guess with a nice photo *ehem* and nice entry, maybe I really won't update tomorrow. I am so off for my Oreo Chocolate. Read that Qizah. Oh no wait, I forgot. (: HAHA! Okeh sorry. Evil evil. I am off for further mugging for Geography and I have yet to do my EOY practice for Maths. *GASP loudly*

I miss Mr Quek. =.='

Sweet Love

Toodles.

I suck. I know.

Specs rocks. o.0

Okeh, I tried very hard to stop myself from logging in to blogger but what do you know, I'm here again, like bloody hell. Alright, so here I am. All pissed off from various reasons. I know I'm stupid but you don't have to step all over me. And honestly, I don't understand why people have driving license when they don't even know basic stuff. Okeh, so what if I'm a kid? At least I know that you have to turn on the left or right light before turning. At least I know that drivers should be aware of people crossing at the traffic lights. Lucky you, I was at least a few paces away from being knocked down by the bloody motor bike. And so what if you are in a hurry. When you are on the road, especially on a bike, better be safe than sorry. Oh I'm sorry but I hope you are late for whatever appointment lah. I'm not trying to be a devil here but you have got to learn a lesson. Don't want to be late, go out earlier. Ass. History paper sucked. SEQ worth 8 marks and I wrote like, 2 lines of the foolscap paper. Gone lah gone! Burnt. There goes my high hopes on passing History for the first time this year. Tsk. If you think that you are not hurting my feelings, think again. Bloody hell stop comparing me with Sister. I know I'm fat. Like so what? My body my problem lah siol! And you think I'm laughing like HAHA(!) hard when I'm actually hurting inside. You criticised me like nobody's business. If it's only in front of the relatives, I wouldn't mind that much but you even do that to the neighbours. You know what Dad, I hate you. You can't just, for once, stop criticising me. You can't just, for once, be proud of me. You can't even be proud of everything that I have. If you think my life is easy, then you are very welcome to take over my place. I know, being in you position is bloody hard. I have done the best, I produced the best result but you just can't be proud of me. Remember SJ camp? I got the best cadet award yet all you ever do was laugh your ass off that I achieved it. Am I not good enough? Not only that, you didn't even want to come. Every thing I do can never be of your standard. You've been continuing to hurt me without realising it, so stop it. *Sigh* A load off the shoulders. Alright, for tomorrow, I won't post. I think. Somebody come early and accompany me tomorrow to study Science. Ouh no wait, I know nobody stupid enough to do that on a Tuesday except for me.

And to that someone, you just got yourself another block at MSN. (; Smile lah seh!